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Attention Klaine Writers & Fic Prompters:

PROMPT DEADLINE APPROACHING!!!!!!!

The next Roulette Event is starting SOON! We need SEVERAL amazing prompts for the next event. Yes, I said several because this event will be THREE stories instead of just one. We could use prompts. The prompts will be chosen by all of you. Look for the voting form June 12. The last day to submit prompts is Saturday, June 11. You may submit up to three prompts. Voting will take place from June 12- June June 18. Prompts will be announced June 19. Assignments for prompts will be announced on June 19th as well. (Writers, artists, and betas will get to sign up for their preferred fic. I will not just randomly assign prompts.)

Would you like to sign up for the event? We will need Writers, Betas, and artists for all three stories. If you think you might be interested in participating, please complete the form below. I will use this form to contact participants once the prompts are chosen. I need feedback on possible dates and I need an idea of how many writers are interested. This will help me determine the length of the fics and other important details for this event.

@hkvoyage @grlnxtdr30 @little-escapist @catcat-85, @imthederpyfox, @calliopemelpomene, @lilyvandersteen, @midnightblaine, @esperantoauthor, @lady-divine-writes, @redheadgleek @coffeegleek @thnxforknowingme, @themanysidesofblaineanderson, @spaceorphan18, @datshitrandom, @fake-charliebrown, @caramelcoffeeaddictamelcoffee, @roamingreenwoods, @forabeatofadrum, @sunshineoptimismandangels, @bowtiesandboatshoes, @justgleekout @hippohead @honeysucklepink @notyourdayrdream @starpunchsoup @quizasvivamos @teddyshoney @gleefulpoppet @xbeautifulunseenx @coffeegleek @caramelcoffeeaddict @calliopemelpomene @klaineccfanficlibrary @the-lima-bean @nineofhearts4, @razzberryhairgel, @notyourdayrdream, @hazelandglasz, @jayhawk-writes, @roxymusicandlayers, @snarkyhag, @very-kurtious, @kuiinncedesnn, @itstruthtime, @darriness, @twinkkurt, @andersonswalsh,

If I left anyone off, I'm so sorry. Reblog so that as many active Klaine Writers and Artists see this! This is going to be AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[notyourdayrdream]

Episode Reactions Masterpost

EPISODE REACTIONS

Would You Mind Reading For Tony (3x02) by justgleekout.

A Wedding: Production Draft (6x08) by redheadgleek.

Cold Feet (5x01) and Divided By A Common Language (4x21) by nadiacreek.

This is kind of about you (5x04), Boys that grew up better men than me and you (5x15), Keep going (6x08), Almost There (6x07), and Back to Where You Once Belonged (6x01) by pene.

Don’t Say You Miss Me (6x01) by backslashdelta.

Blind Man’s Bluff (3x11) and Second Hand News (2x19) by skintightsocks.

Cooper Anderson, Best Man (6x08) by chasingkerouac.

Season 6 Reaction Fics by emquin.

In the Interest of Time (5x01) and Delivery Route (4x08) by airy_nothing.

Play-By-Play (6x07) and Champions (6x03) by marauder_in_warblerland.

Kintsugi (5x16) and The Gentle Sin Is This (4x10) by syntheticpoetry.

You’re No Lima Loser (3x22), Make You Feel My Love (Adele) (5x03), P.S. I Love You (The Beatles) (6x01), and I Just Called to say I Love You (Stevie Wonder) (5x14), 5 Times Kurt and Blaine Were Separated at their Wedding +1 Time They Weren’t (6x08) by blaindersonkummel.

Everybody Clap Your Hands and Shout (6x08) by KillerQueen80.

While You’re Busy Making Other Plans (3x04), The Many Valentines of Blaine Anderson (3x13), Five Times Kurt Tried to Reach Out to Blaine… and One Time Blaine Reached Back (3x17), Schadenfreude (3x22), Sunrise/Reaching/The First Moments of Waking/As Inexorable as the Tide (4x04), Instincts (4x05), Listening(4x08), If the Fates Allow/The Perspective of Age/Soliloquy (4x10), The Day After Sadie Hawkins (4x11), Opening Doors: Five ‘Missing’ Scenes from Glee 4x14/Voice of Experience (4x14), Finding Normal (5x03), A Cold Slap of Reality (5x04), Thirteen Perspectives on One Graduation Party (5x13), Wounds (5x15), Heartache to Heartache (5x16), Waiting in the Wings (5x18), Gifts (5x20), Perspective (6x01), Finding The Word For Goodbye(6x03), Six People Who Push Blaine To Get Back Together With Kurt, Plus One Who Doesn’t (6x04), No Exit(6x05), Thirteen Moments We Didn’t See/When They Wake (6x08), Honeymoon (6x09), and Haven (6x10) by flaming_muse.

Falling Is Like This (2x14), Everything Changes (3x22), Fragile Gifts (4x11), The Sparrow (4x15), The Contract(5x01), Season 6 Episode Reactions by wowbright.

A Supermarket in Ohio (6x03) and All Out of Love (6x05) by Corinna.

Progress: After the Slushee (3x11) by InsightfulInsomniac.

Pining (2x10) by kurtiepie.

Heaving Through Corrupted Lungs (4x01) by mockanddee.

Hero (5x15), Glee Season 2 Reaction Fics, Season 6 Reaction Fics by flowerfan.

Bash (5x15) by moongay.

Whistle, I’ll Be There (5x15), Boop (5x16), and My End and My Beginning (5x20) by lovetheblazer.

Getting the (Good) News (4x11), Competition Nerves (2x16), and A Dalton Boy (6x05) by notenoughtogivebread.

the baffled king, composing (6x10) by multicorn.

Simple Pleasures, Complicated Pains (6x05) by notyourdaydream.

So The Story Goes (6x11) by alilactree.

Somewhere Only We Know (2x18) by little_escapist.

someone who loves you with the lights on (6x08) by breakbonefever. 

[notyourdayrdream]

I’ll Be Yours for Christmas

A/N: hope you guys enjoyed chapter one! so excited for chapter three, it was such a blast to write.

summary:

Imagine you’re in New York and it’s Christmas. You’re surrounded by people, by possibility…and the hope that somewhere in the city, is that one person that’s meant for you. You just have to find them. How do you do that? It all depends on the kind of person you are.

And a red notebook.

Read chapter two here!

[notyourdayrdream]

I’ll Be Yours for Christmas

A/N: midterms are finally over, which means Christmas is officially in full swing! last year, my sister and i watched Dash and Lily, a Netflix original about two teens falling in love via notebook in NYC. as i rewatched it this july, i thought, “this would be even cuter if it was klaine.” and so i wrote exactly that!

summary:

Imagine you’re in New York and it’s Christmas. You’re surrounded by people, by possibility…and the hope that somewhere in the city, is that one person that’s meant for you. You just have to find them. How do you do that? It all depends on the kind of person you are.

And a red notebook.

Read Chapter One of I’ll Be Yours for Christmas here!

[notyourdayrdream]

I’ll Be Yours for Christmas

A/N: midterms are finally over, which means Christmas is officially in full swing! last year, my sister and i watched Dash and Lily, a Netflix original about two teens falling in love via notebook in NYC. as i rewatched it this july, i thought, “this would be even cuter if it was klaine.” and so i wrote exactly that!

summary:

Imagine you’re in New York and it’s Christmas. You’re surrounded by people, by possibility…and the hope that somewhere in the city, is that one person that’s meant for you. You just have to find them. How do you do that? It all depends on the kind of person you are.

And a red notebook.

Read Chapter One of I’ll Be Yours for Christmas here!

[notyourdayrdream]

@annatimberlakesworld submitted to the-lima-bean:

Hello guys! I am new to tumblr and it took a while to reach to this place. I am a young sappling writer and I am doing my first fanfic on klaine.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/35328853

Blaine anderson ,an exceptional student at the Dalton academy , finds himself dreaming about a mysterious porcelain figure and a mysterious song running behind the dream sequence. Blaine strives to find the mystery out while hiding something that is a part of him from his peers and others. The dream comes back every now then till he finds his mystery and at the same time ,he finds someone close to his heart who is his guiding light often and a shoulder to cry on,when he gets scared of others changing their opinion on him. Is the mystery solved and did blaine find who it was? Will he be the beacon of blaine's life?

I will be updating mostly every day and as of now there are 19.

I was told that new writers can be introduced here ,so yeah. Feel free to share your opinions .

[notyourdayrdream]

so excited that my story was chosen!! i’m already so grateful and drunk on everyone’s kind words♥️

Book Club

November 28th-29th: Nominate a fic that uses the following trope/genre:

Friends to Lovers

November 30th: Announcement of randomly chosen fic from those nominated

✨📚For as Long as You’re With Me (Or Until My Mama Picks Me Up) by @notyourdayrdream📚✨

November 30th-December 3rd: Read, comment (positive/non-critical), give kudos on fic, and reblog/share the author’s fic post on tumblr (if applicable)

December 3rd-4th: Live discussion on Discord via text chat!

***Discussion/Nomination of fic on Discord! OR complete this Google Form with your nomination! Fic authors are highly encouraged to nominate their own fic!***

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F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it. (please and thank you!)

this one’s hard because i feel like dialogue is something i struggle with sometimes, but this exchange from For as Long as You’re With Me i really like:

“I don’t know.” Kurt replied. He liked Blaine and his dad. He liked ballet and that Audrey Hempburn movie that played on Saturdays. He liked that blue shirt he wore on picture day, and the hippo broach his Grandma bought him before she died. But he knew that wasn’t what Blaine was asking. He looked down, embarrassed.

“Well, I’ve never kissed anyone either,” Blaine said in the silence. Kurt knew he was saying to make him feel better, which he appreciated. “We could kiss now, if you want.” He was so close that Kurt could feel his warm breath tickling his nose. It was calming.

Still, Kurt’s stomach squirmed, and his face felt hot. Blaine looked at him with those pretty brown eyes he had always liked. He knew the phrase was about butterflies but at the moment it felt like there were elephants stampeding in his stomach. He looked down at their hands on the picnic blanket, they were almost touching. “No we can’t, that’d be weird.” He laughed nervously. “We’re best friends.”

“Oh. I didn’t think about that.” Blaine looked a little sad at that. He flopped back down on the blanket, even though the ground was hard. Kurt stared up at the sky, trying to tell his heart to chill out. It was beating too fast. He was reeling. How could Blaine ask that question like it was nothing?

i love this part of this conversation so much because it shows both kurt and blaine’s feelings towards their sexualities (even if they don’t really know it yet). i feel like i nailed the voice of an eleven year old, and overall i thought the conversation was important for kurt’s growth.

thank you for asking!

[notyourdayrdream]

FanFic Ask Game

A: How did you come up with the title to [insert fic]?

B: Any of your stories inspired by personal experience?

C: What member do you identify with most?

D: Is there a song or a playlist to associate with [insert fic]?

E: If you wrote a sequel to [insert fic], what would it be about?

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

G: Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order?

H: How would you describe your style?

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

J: Write or describe an alternative ending to [insert fic].

K: What’s the angstiest idea you’ve ever come up with?

L: How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

O: How do you begin a story–with the plot, or the characters?

P: Are you what George R. R. Martin would call an “architect” or a “gardener”? (How much do you plan in advance, versus letting the story unfold as you go?)

Q: How do you feel about collaborations?

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist?

T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?

U: Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

V: If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

X: A character you enjoy making suffer.

Y: A character you want to protect.

Z: Major character death–do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can’t tolerate?

[notyourdayrdream]

The "Prom-Us" Klaine Roulette Challenge

Hey, sorry for the radio silence. I've been on vacation. I brought my laptop but neglected to bring my charger. I was able to get the writing schedule ironed out. Most people said they needed a week, so I gave everyone up to a week. However, you can post your completed chapter before that deadline if you'd like to do so.

I'll be posting a new questionnaire soon. Please let me know then if your assigned week will work for your schedule. I plan to have the first chapter done soon, and I'll email it to you all so please stay tuned.

I want to thank you all. I know we'll have fun with this. Writing is scheduled to take place from January 2, 2022 to April 23, 2022. Posting will happen to start May 1st, with a chapter posted four times a week (On Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. I will post a schedule when we get closer to the post date.

chapter # Date Author Name

1 TBA (hopefully soon) GleefulDarrenCrissFan

2 01/02-08/2022 Kellyb321

3 01/09-15/ 2022 Notyourdaydream

4 01/16-22/2022 Fempem

5 01/23-29/2022 GrInxtdr30

6 01/30- 2/05/2022 HKVoyage

7 02/06-12/2022 Hippohead

8 02/13-19/2022 Honeysucklepink

9 02/20-26/2022 Starpunchsoup

10 02/27- 03/5/2022 Esperanto

11 03/06-12/2022 CatCat85

12 03/13-19/2022 CoffeeOrder

13 03/20-26/2022 BluglesmurfKlaine

14 03/27- 04/2/2022 Just Gleek Out

15 04/03- 16/2022 Useless Fanfictions

16 04/17-23/2022 Gleeful Poppet

If you need to reschedule your week, please contact me immediately. Look at this incredible lineup of writers. There's no way this won't be amazing!

If you haven't followed the event page, please do that ASAP.

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i encourage you to go to your favourite writer’s ao3 page and comment on an older fic, because i can assure you that it will make their day. It can mean so much to see your work doesn’t disappear into the void to be never seen again after a day of people interacting with it. Just, if you have the time, go comment on an older work

(pls reblog this to try and get as much writers a bit of appreciation)

[notyourdayrdream]

The "Prom"us- Glee Fic Roulette

Rules & Sign ups -Information Below

Guidelines & Rules:

1. Signups-All writers who want to participate must fill out the form attached and agree to the rules. You must provide an email that I can use to contact you. Fill out the form here.

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSd2Vf6DaZMOBSdoA-LtKeVC_no20Btu0P9XVhZhW0zbd21y0Q/viewform?usp=sf_link

2. Timelines and Due Dates I understand that people get busy. Therefore, I want to allow plenty of time for you to compose your chapter. One of the questions asks how much time you need to write and edit your chapter before you submit it. After I collect that data and find out how many writers will be participating, I will create a timeline. I will not start posting until the story is complete. Writing will take place in January and February with a tentative posting date in April or May (depending on how many writers we have).

3. Positivity & Respect- It is important that you respect the previous writers' work. Please adhere to the canon that the previous writers' have established. If you don't like a particular plot point, please don't undo or change previous details. Plot twists are fine, but let's not do- the last chapter was all a dream, lol. That could leave the previous author feeling hurt, and this is all in good fun. I will have the option for others signed up to comment (not edit) on previous chapters, and I encourage you to do so because writers thrive off of feedback. Just keep all comments positive.

4. Ratings and Warnings- In the signup form, it will ask for squicks and tropes that you do NOT want to write, and we will respect that. The Rating of this fic will be Mature (and so smut is permitted but not required) but I also want it to be accessible and reader-friendly. Therefore, graphic violence (scenes of mild violence or bullyingare permissible), Rape, and Major character death (minor character death is fine) are off the table.

4. Fic Length- All chapters should be at least 1,000 words, but try not to exceed 10,000 words.

5. Editing- Please edit your fic before you submit it. I'm going to use a google doc, and you can copy and paste your chapter into the fic when you are finished. Minor errors happen, and I do not mind looking over your chapter if needed, but it's important to only post the completed chapter because the other writers will read what you've submitted and plan their chapter based on what you've written. If it's incomplete or changed without the next writer's knowledge, it could create confusion.

6. Plot Points & Story- It's perfectly fine to introduce a problem to create suspense and intrigue for the story. However, before you can introduce a new problem, you must resolve a previous one in some shape or form. (For example, if you decided to write that Sebastian finds out the relationship is fake and decides to blackmail Kurt, maybe you solve an issue such as the tux Kurt wants to buy is on backorder, so he decides to make his own.

7. Klaine is Endgame- No disrespect to anyone that writes other ships, but this is a Klaine event, so our boys should end up together. Therefore, let's not make our boys do something to the other that would be irreparable or unforgivable.

8. Participation- Life happens. If for any reason, you decide you are unable to complete your chapter, please contact me Asap. Maybe I can arrange something with another writer or help you if you are stuck (I have had a personal emergency while participating in a Klaine event- my appendix burst. I was able to post late after I recovered.) I'll work with you. Just let me know. I want this to be fun for everyone involved.

I hope to finish the first chapter soon. Once you have signed up, look for a confirmation email. I will also create a Tumblr page for this event (Hopefully Tonight or Tomorrow) so if you are signing up, please follow the page. It will be listed under Klaine Fic Roulette- The "Prom-us".

If you know any authors you think may like to participate, please tag them. Reblog this so we can get the word out. Ultimately, I want to spread joy through fic and our two favorite boys. I included the prompt and tropes down below for anyone who might be interested or has not heard about this yet. Thanks, everyone.

@grlnxtdr30, @gleefulpoppet, @catcat-85, @fangirl-2009, @notyourdayrdream, @esperantoauthor, @lilyvandersteen, @hippohead, @justgleekout, @gleekto, @redheadgleek, @hkvoyage, @xbeautifulunseenx, @hazelandglasz, @caramelcoffeeaddict, @coffeegleek, @lady-divine-writes, @little-escapist, @coffeeorderwrites, @klainydaze, @iliketowriteaboutklaine, @wowbright, @tiggerblu

Prompt: Kurt and Blaine met just as they did in canon, and even though Blaine realizes when Kurt sings Blackbird that he's in love with Kurt, he never says anything, and Kurt goes back to McKinley. Blaine transfers to McKinley for senior year, and they are best friends, bonding on being the only two out guys at McKinley until Karaofsky comes back. And he's out and proud, and he wants Kurt. And so he asks Kurt to be his prom date, repeatedly until Kurt, in frustration, finally blurts out that someone already asked him. He said the first name that came to mind, Blaine's. On top of that, he tells Dave that they are now dating. Now, Kurt needs to convince his best friend to take him to the biggest event of their high school year, senior prom.

Tropes: Fake Dating, Friends to Lovers, High school Klaine, Canon Divergent

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sixteen glee fics i love!!

today’s my birthday, and i really wanted to have something to post. but i’ve been so busy and kind lost the passion to write over the past few weeks :( so instead i wanted to highlight a few of the authors and their stories that are little presents to read each time

not in order <3

1. Milk and Caffeine by @theyaskedmeto

written like how a fresh batch of cookies tastes. or how espresso feels as it washes over your tongue. one of the earliest klaine fics i read and i still come back to it.

2. The Hating Game by @coffeeorderwrites

so perfect, capital P Perfect. laugh out loud funny too. i want this entire story tattooed on me. it made me really want to read the book it’s based on, but i’m afraid it won’t be as good!

3. andante, andante by himbosamevans

very slice of life-y and very cute. the ending has so much emotion and i walked away with a deeper appreciation of burt hummel.

4. out tonight by snakebitewrites

i usually don’t like chat fics but for some reason this pulled me in! (it’s kurtcedes, kurtcedes pulled me in). feels like something straight out of season five (in a good way!) chaotic and definitely something that happened canonically because i said so.

5. No, the one beside the sex shop by slowcookedvig

read this one while the days in quarantine began to bleed together, and omg it’s so much fun?!??! feels so recent with a very unique premise. i mean, they bake bread! in quarantine! i did that too! the Valentines update is very cool too

6. If Music Be by @blurglesmurfklaine

i vividly remember being super excited to see an email notification that this fic had been updated. i’d rush to my room after school and read it in ten minutes, then again to savor every single word. made me miss concert band.

7. Friends in Low Places by @esperantoauthor

a staple. a classic. will be read in middle schools and considered a must read. i love a snarky blaine, and OHMYGOSH klaine is so adorable in this!

8. Chasing Pavements by @spaceorphan18

i actually need to catch up on this! but ugh, fake dating, i live off this trope. you know when something is written so well you just want to throw your book/phone and bury your head in your pillow and scream? that’s me ever over chapter of this fic.

9. A Simpler Time by legallyblained

i feel like not enough people have seen Pleasantville! i remember watching it when i was really young with my parents. loved santana and blaine’s relationship in this and the 50s aesthetic! will definitely get you a bit emotional

10. Syrup and Honey by @heartsmadeofbooks

read it on ff.net and loved it! started my complete love for bakery AUs and lawyer!blaine. really great descriptions, the world felt so full and complete! can’t wait to reread!

11. Lights Will Guide You Home by lavender_love00

i mean, it’s perfect. waiting to reread this, but the world of this story is so lived in and cozy that when everything falls apart you crumble with it. bittersweet but mostly sweet ending, when i ended the story i just felt so satisfied

12. Anderson Barbershop by PaellaisComplicated

really cute! jeff and nick were a cute side couple to have along with the setting (never read a klaine fic set in jersey lol) the second part of the series is awesome too!

13. In Orbit by hundredindecisions

having so much fun reading this so far! i love stories where people float in and out of each other’s lives, it feels so real. can’t wait to read more!

14. Wise to be Cruel by hedgehogtongues

AHH I WANT SEASON TWO NOW! really made me see characters in a new light, santana and kurt especially. loved sancedes, and the building of kurt and blaine’s eventual relationship. santana’s snark is just perfect for her situation as kurt.

15. I Have Guidelines by @hippohead

friends to lovers, fake dating, my kryptonite. from the very beginning, i could tell kurt and blaine were hopelessly in love with each other. and then sebastian, oh sebastian.

16. Pressed Against The Glass (series) by @gleefulpoppet

combined some of the tropes i enjoyed the least (soulmates, age gaps) and wove them into a beautiful story. kurt and blaine are so patient, that the smaller moments have more pay off than the big ones. a masterpiece.

thank you guys for making this year so special :)

[notyourdayrdream]

The Prom-ise

New Glee Writing Event-Klaine Fic Roulette- Coming Soon

So I got this idea to host an event. Writers can sign up to write a chapter of the prompted fic. The catch, another author will write the next chapter, and so on, until the fic is completed. Right now, I'm just trying to figure out how many Klaine writers would be interested in doing an event like this. I'll host it on this page, and authors will be assigned a chapter. There will be a 48 hour time allotted to write your chapter. The number of chapters will depend on how many authors sign up. First come, first serve. I'll write the first chapter. Then, the next author will write the next and post within two days, and so on until the fic is completed. I'll post rules and guidelines in more detail before the event.

For right now, I'd love to just get this out there to as many Klaine writers as we can. You can sign up but sending me a message or submitting an ask. I'd also love to hear when you all would like to do this. I know there are already events in October and December.

I'm going to provide you with the prompt and tropes included so you all can have a sneak peek of what we'll be writing.

Tropes: Fake Dating, Friends to Lovers, High school Klaine, Canon Divergent

Prompt: Kurt and Blaine met just as they did in canon, and even though Blaine realizes when Kurt sings Blackbird that he's in love with Kurt, he never says anything, and Kurt goes back to McKinnley. Blaine transfers to McKinnley for senior year, and they are best friends, bonding on being the only two out guys at McKinley until Karaofsky comes back. And he's out and proud, and he wants Kurt. And so he asks Kurt to be his prom date, repeatedly until Kurt, in frustration, finally blurts out that someone already asked him. He said the first name that came to mind, Blaine's. On top of that, he tells Dave that they are now dating. Now, Kurt needs to convince his best friend to take him to the biggest event of their high school year, senior prom.

@hkvoyage, @justgleekout, @blurglesmurfklaine, @steph-luvs-klaine, @bowties-and-klisses, @ficrecsforklaine, @gleekto, @hazelandglasz, @iliketowriteaboutklaine, @keepcalmandwritefiction, @klaineccfanficlibrary, @lady-divine-writes, @redheadgleek, @stopandimaginelove, @steph-luvs-klaine, @xbeautifulunseenx, @lilyvandersteen, @little-escapist, @klainydaze, @gleefulpoppet, @caramelcoffeeaddict, @coffeeorderwrites, @coffeegleek, @wowbright, @esperantoauthor, @tiggerblu

I'm sure I forgot some of you, and I'm sorry. Please reblog this so that this gets out there. If anyone wants to volunteer to help me organize this thing, I could certainly use the help. I just thought this sounded like fun. I used to do activities like this with my students, and the stories we got were so fun. It's worth a shot, right?

[notyourdayrdream]

hey , when you are free ( only when you're feeling good , i don't want to burden you since you're already in the middle of writing another fic ) can you do a short fic on your interpretation of how both kurt and blaine decided they needed help and went to therapy and how it all played out leading upto s6 where we see them.

you sent me this so long ago and i'm so sorry it took forever. i decided to kind of write two fics? writing kurt and blaine's individual processes felt more natural as separate fics, because they are both in very different places. they got kind of long (i am so sorry - i cannot shut up to save my life lmfao) so i didn't go into the actual therapy sessions, but i can definitely write follow ups that do, if you want!

pretty heavy trigger warnings for depression in both of these. keep that in mind before reading.

i hope you enjoy :)

Blaine is numb.

He doesn’t feel anything. He doesn’t want to feel anything. Everything’s hurt for far longer than he’s been able to bear. It’s finally starting to fade into a slow, steady ache, dull at the edges and no longer as painful, and for that, he is relieved. It’s the kind of hurt that he can tolerate, the kind that just blends into the background, a low buzz that just remains constant.

He just wants to lay here forever. Maybe until the world ends, or his body decomposes, whichever comes first.

It all happened so quickly. Sometimes it feels like someone took a sledgehammer to his life and left it in thousands of tiny pieces. He’s sitting amongst the wreckage, unsure of where to even begin rebuilding. Part of him isn’t sure it’s entirely possible to put back together the smithereens of everything he thought he knew.

The rest of him just doesn’t understand how things got to this point. He doesn’t understand how it happened, how he went from daydreams and decisions about wedding menus, to trying to soften the lump in his throat long enough to deal the last blow. I will never forgive you. I won’t.

I will never forgive you for this.

In the moment, it was all he could do. All of the strength he could summon had been poured into those seven words. He wanted them to hurt, to sting Kurt the way Kurt had stung him, icy hot and merciless. He wanted Kurt to know that it would take more. He wasn’t that easily breakable – at least, not on the outside. He would have the last word, and he would tell it like it was.

He doesn’t know how he could ever forgive Kurt for this.

More important than Kurt, Blaine doesn’t know how he’ll ever forgive himself for the series of bad decisions the past couple of months have dissolved into. Day after day spent in bed, tear tracks drying on his face as he stared at nothing on his walls and tried to keep conscious for a respectable amount of time. He knew it wasn’t a good thing to be sleeping for more hours out of the day than he was awake, but he couldn’t find the energy to do anything else.

Kurt had left.

He was gone.

And Blaine, as much as he tried to fight it, was broken by him. He was broken by the realization that he had put so much of his happiness, so much of himself into his relationship with Kurt and his future wedding, that, now that it had been yanked away, he didn’t know what to do with himself. He didn’t know anything, anymore. His life no longer looked anything like he had envisioned it turning out, and he was forced to live with that. There wasn’t anything he could do.

Kurt doesn’t want him anymore.

There isn’tanything he can do about that.

A part of him isn’t too surprised, if he’s really honest with himself. Things have been different for a while. He’s been scared for a while.

His gut could tell something bad was coming. It was obvious, in the way Kurt moved around the apartment, in the lines of his body in bed at night, the way he was perpetually tensed, stiff with everything he was holding in. Maybe he’d wanted to break up sooner, but held back to preserve Blaine’s feelings.

Blaine isn’t stupid. He knows that that night at the restaurant wasn’t planned. He pushed just the right amount for Kurt to finally blurt out the thing that had had a hold on him. For how long, Blaine isn’t sure, but he knows it had to have been longer than the length of time he kept Kurt waiting at that table.

At least, that’s what he keeps trying to tell himself.

Because the alternative, the biting realization that Kurt hadn’t intended to break up with him, that it just slipped out, something so impulsive yet so final, is too much for Blaine. He doesn’t want it to be true. That isn’t the Kurt he knows. None of this makes sense, but that…that Kurt made the decision to end their relationship, their engagement, so quickly and easily, is too much for him to take.

It was his biggest fear. The thing he kept convincing himself would never happen. Kurt loves you. He always will. He told you he will. He’s not going to leave you. He loves you.

Kurt said he loved him. He said it back, in a moment that Blaine was sure he wouldn’t. But did he? Did he really? The way Blaine sees it, loving someone means fighting for them. Choosing them. Working through the hard things with them.

And Blaine doesn’t know why. He can’t ask. He can only guess. Spend some of these painful hours of consciousness contemplating exactly why he wasn’t good enough for Kurt to stay with. Because the Kurt Hummel he knows is the strongest, toughest fighter he’s ever met. Things had to be dire for him to not even make the effort.

Kurt had finally figured it out. What made him so intolerable, so exhausting to be around. He had realized what he was getting himself into and made a break for it before things could go any deeper. Blaine supposes that is for the best. Get out now, before the papers are signed and things are officially official, before it is much harder to make the break for it.

This is what he’s been scared of, been terrified of, since he and Kurt got back together. And he tried to push it to the back of his mind, because Kurt said yes and invited him to New York and promised to make it safe when he fell. Kurt promised to be there for everything, promised that they belongedto each other, promised that he would never stop loving him.

Blaine wonders when he did.

He wonders when all of this fell apart, how blissfully ignorant and idiotic he must have been not to see it.

How long was Kurt planning to do this? How long was he thinking about it? How long did he keep this to himself, wake up next to Blaine and kiss him goodbye every morning, knowing he was holding onto to the mother of secrets that had the power to destroy everything? Why did he get to be the one making that unilateral decision about their relationship?

Kurt controlled whether they got engaged or not, and Kurt controlled how it ended.

It was all up to him.

Blaine just had to hope they were on the same page about everything, and now it’s clear that they weren’t.

He’s so tired of other people getting to make decisions about his life, and leaving him to deal with the wreckage of their choices. He’s tired of not having any control. He doesn’t know how he ended up here. His life doesn’t feel like his anymore.

Madame Tibideaux had decided that he wasn’t worthy of another year at NYADA, that his emotions weren’t a good enough excuse for the quality - or lack thereof - of his work. It didn’t matter what he was feeling, or how bad it hurt. It didn’t matter that he wasn’t like every other person who could channel their pain into their art. It didn’t matter that he’d been doing it for as long as he could remember, feeling through every lyric he sang, every performance he gave. The cup had to dry up eventually. Something had to happen that was too bad, too painful, for him to sing his way out of. It wasn’t his fault. He’d tried so hard, given everything he could.

It didn’t matter that he desperately, desperately needed someone to see him. Not the things he produced, not the contributions he would make to a performance, him. His real self. The part that no one seemed to want.

It didn’t matter that Blaine Warbler felt like a lie he’d forgotten how to live years ago. He remembers grappling for it, trying to tug on the same mask he’d donned after the Sadie Hawkins dance, turn off his emotions and shift into autopilot, sing and dance and perform like he didn’t wish he could stop existing in that moment.

None of it mattered.

Blaine was just not good enough for NYADA, like he was not good enough for Kurt. He should’ve realized it sooner. It’s his own fault he didn’t.

“Honey?”

Blaine startles at the voice, jolting upward in bed and blinking rapidly against the sunlight pouring into his room. “Huh?”

“I brought you a little something to eat.” His mom sets a plate of buttered toast and a glass of water on his nightstand, and then leans down to drop a kiss against his head. “How are you feeling?”

“I don’t know,” he mumbles honestly. He doesn’t want to lie to her. “Tired, I guess.”

“Sam called the house again,” she says. She takes a seat on the edge of his bed and reaches out to brush a hand through his hair. “He left a message, said you haven’t been picking up your cell. He’s worried, Blaine. I’m sure Tina is too.”

Blaine winces, dropping his gaze down to his blankets. Just one more thing you’re sucking at lately.

He hasn’t called Sam or Tina since he got back to Lima. At first, he was too ashamed to tell them the truth, although he knows that Sam is probably aware of what happened. Kurt and Mercedes talk, and even though Sam isn’t with her anymore, he knows that he and Mercedes are still very close. Sam’s been blowing up his phone for weeks. He sent a perfunctory, “back home for a while, but going to be really busy for a while” text, so Sam wouldn’t assume he was ignoring him, but he’s sure Sam has long figured out it was a lie.

“You don’t have to call him back until you’re ready,” his mom tells him. “But I do think he’d love to hear from you, baby. He could come over and keep you company, play some video games, you could-”

“No,” he mutters, shaking his head. “I don’t want him to come over.”

“Why not?”

I just don’t,” he manages. I don’t want him to see me like this.

I don’t want him to be mad at Kurt.

I don’t even know if I want to be mad at Kurt anymore. All of this is just so exhausting.

“Have you given any more thought to what we talked about a while ago?”

Blaine snaps his head up to meet her eyes. “You- no, mom. I’m fine, I promise. I just need a couple more days to…” He trails off with a sigh. To what? Wallow in his sadness? Sleep away and accomplish nothing? He hasn’t been the slightest bit productive since he left New York. It feels like he used up all his energy packing up and moving home.

That was over a month ago, and he still hasn’t recovered from it.

“It’s not really a matter of being fine, sweetheart. You know that. I just think talking about it might-”

“I don’t want to talk about it!” He snaps. And then he watches her face shift and crumples, lump in his throat throbbing as he squeezes his eyes shut. “I’m- I’m sorry. I didn’t mean…”

A pair of hands reaches for him, and he lets himself go, lets her pull him into a hug and buries his face in the crook of her neck. He takes a deep breath, and then another, hot tears burning at his eyes.

He doesn’t want to cry anymore. He feels like he’s done nothing but cry about this. He doesn’t know how he still has tears left.

“I know,” she murmurs, rubbing his back. “And I know you don’t think it’ll help. But you might be surprised, Blaine. I just think you should give it a chance. Get yourself back on your feet and feeling a little better, hm?”

She presses another kiss to the top of his head and props him back against his pillows. “You don’t have to make a decision right now. Just think about it, okay?”

“Okay,” he chokes out.

“I’m just going to be downstairs doing some work. Let me know if you want another piece of toast, all right?”

At his nod, she makes her way out of his room, and Blaine slumps back against his headboard, still fighting tears.

She’s probably right. It would help, far more than it would hurt. His mom has been a proponent of him seeing someone ever since Sadie Hawkins. He insisted he’d be okay then, and, seeing his distress, she didn’t push too hard for it. He knows she regrets that now, knows she blames herself for things getting as bad as they have. If he had gone, back then, maybe they would’ve been able to address some of this before it turned so bad.

But talking means talking about everything. About the dance, and meeting Kurt, and it going from so good to so bad, in such a short amount of time. It means talking about the things he hoped would stay buried, the ways in which he and Kurt were not perfect, his tendency to latch onto things and cling to them, tighter than he probably should have.

He isn’t sure he’s ready to think about more than how angry he is, or how much this hurts. He isn’t sure he’s ready to move out of this stage of staying in bed and not facing the world, holing up in his childhood bedroom and not confronting the life that he feels like he put on pause a month ago. He knows things are different now. He just isn’t sure he’s ready to see how much everything’s changed.

He doesn’t feel like he’s ready to move past all of this, but he knows he needs to.

He knows he needs to leave all of this behind, to start talking about it and thinking about it and rebuilding the pieces of his mess of a life. Otherwise, he’s destined to feel like this forever.

And that scares him even more.

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Kurt is exhausted.

And if he’s really honest with himself, he’s felt this tiredness for a while now, become so accustomed to it that it feels like he’s leeched it into part of his personality, taken on the ache in his chest and the heaviness of his bones like a jacket with rocks in the pockets, weighing him down with every step he tries to take.

It’s the kind of tired that feels consuming, quicksand that swallows him the more he tries to get out of it. The kind that makes him feel like he’s running on empty, with no sign of a gas station for miles, the kind of tired that makes every day, every action, every conversation, feel like too much.

Part of him thought that this would stop once he ended things with Blaine. He didn’t want to go there. He never wanted to believe that Blaine could be the reason for all of this. How could the person that made him feel so, so loved and safe on his worst days also be the person that made him feel like this? It just didn’t make sense.

It never felt true, but the thought continued to linger, and with every passing day, ate more and more away at him. He tried not to spend too much time in that place. It hurt too much to think about until he was blurting out the words he didn’t even plan on saying.

And then, everything changed.

The breath it allowed him to take, the exhale, didn’t last long. Instead, he’s left with the image of Blaine’s crumpled, heartbroken expression every time he closes his eyes, the I will never forgive you for this playing on loop in his head every time he tries to think about what it could mean going forward.

That was it.

He ruined it.

He drove Blaine away for good.

Kurt remembers the day it happened so clearly. Getting home after a long day of classes, worn out and ravenous, only to be greeted by Blaine’s key to the loft sitting on the kitchen table. He’d sent Kurt a text that had far too many periods and was capitalized in all the right places – which, Blaine usually tended to do, but never in his life had Kurt read a message from him that felt so stiff and robotic and formal – about the rest of his portion of rent and bills for the month.

Blaine was gone.

Really, really gone.

And Kurt was alone, feeling further and further away from the people that loved him with each passing day.

In the beginning, he thought that was what he needed. Time away. A chance to be by himself and reevaluate the decisions he’d made over the past year. Crunch the numbers and figure out if Blaine remained in the equation by the end. He just wanted to be certain, be sure, that he wasn’t opening himself up to be hurt again. He wasn’t sure he could take it one more time, give his heart back to Blaine only to have it dropped, shattered like a stone.

He just wanted to feel safe.

He wanted to be sure of it, sure that he could let his heart go, run wild and free like it did in the common room, racing toward the boy with the beautiful voice who had held his hand and made him feel seen for the first time in his life. He wanted it to feel like that again. Untethered, too strong to control, defying each doubt with that wave of invincibility. So pure and open, expansive with all of the potential, broken parts shaved off to make room for the newness.

Maybe he just wasn’t meant to have that with Blaine, he’d thought. Maybe Blaine was supposed to be a bridge that helped him on the road to finding that. Maybe he’d meet someone else that would make him feel like Blaine first had, someone else that would make him feel weightless.

He tries to just go for it, to let it happen, but it never does. It never feels right, never the kind of right that it felt with Blaine. He lets Elliott set him up with friends that the other deems perfect, just your type, and feels nothing.

He tries speed dating, and starts getting more serious about Tindr. He matches with a few guys, goes on a couple of dates, flirts and reciprocates and tries, to let himself fall headfirst. It’s fun. Every date is a good time. They’re warm and light and exploding with newness. But the sparks die out after the first twenty minutes and then Kurt finds himself back in his head, thinking about hair gel and bowties and nonfat mochas, intertwined hands and the insides of coffee shops, the way it all felt like the safest home he’s ever known.

And he hates it, he hates that he feels nothing. He hates that his heart belongs to the hair gel and the bowties, because he fucked that up. He ruined that.

Kurt goes to class, goes to work, and comes home. Sometimes he sees Elliott, and sometimes he stays past his shift to chat with Artie at the diner, but otherwise, he spends every day the same. Sitting and staring through shows on TV, shoving spoonful after spoonful of ice cream in his mouth, and trying desperately to turn his brain off. Trying desperately not to wade into the murky waters of every moment that led up to that night.

I will never forgive you for this.

The realization slaps him in the face.

He’s trying to move on, and then he’s crying in public, humiliating himself in front of a perfectly good Tindr match, overcome with the sheer magnitude of the words that came out of his mouth so many months ago. It hadn’t hit him until then, how insistent, how cruel he had been in the moment. How he had the power to turn Blaine from light and warm and excited, to completely and utterly broken, in the span of a single conversation.

He did that.

And sure, it wasn’t just about toothpaste and towels and Blaine’s newfound habit of tardiness, sure, there was so much painful and deep and wrong underneath the surface. Sure, Kurt had had doubts ever since the car ride and the non-surprise of a proposal, sure, it would have come to the light sooner or later, sure, he was just speeding up the process.

But never in his life has he been so disgusted in himself. Never in his life has he gone back over a moment so many times in his head, wished he could turn back time and that 20/20 happened before hindsight and that he could see the future of misery he’d end up in and not decide to ruin the best thing that had ever happened to him.

They could’ve talked about it. Blaine is one of the most understanding people Kurt has ever met. He would’ve absolutely been open to something like that. One of Kurt’s favorite things about him is that kindness, that space for grace he is able to hold for others.

Talk to me. Tell me you’re unhappy.

We’ve been putting this off for far too long.

Don’t you think we should have the talk?

Wait, Kurt, let’s talk about this.

Blaine always wanted to talk. It was how he felt safe, Kurt is realizing. Blaine wanted the words, the vocalization that everything was okay in that real and concrete way. It was how he grounded himself.

Kurt’s never been one for talking. He keeps his feelings close to his chest, locked up tight. He knows they’re not what people want to hear. They’re messy, and don’t always make sense. Sometimes they feel like the worst parts of him all bundled up into one, complete with pieces of him that haven’t fully left the horrors of high school behind.

Talking about them is effort he doesn’t have to exert. He’ll be opening Pandora’s box with no way to contain the contents. He doesn’t necessarily want to know how the people in his life feel about him. He doesn’t want to hear what they have to say. It scares him too much. There’s just no reason to ruin a perfectly good foundation by having conversations that uncover all of the cracks.

No, it’s better to drop a bomb on the entire thing and destroy it in one fell swoop.

He sometimes feels like he’d fallen asleep after Finn died and is only now being wrenched out of his nightmare, waking into a world that is far different than when he left it. Everything’s been on pause for so long. Hitting play feels like coming back to a reality he barely recognizes. A person he barely recognizes.

He hadn’t realized how much he didn’t like himself until there was nothing to distract from it. And maybe it isn’t his entire self, per say, but who he’s turned into. The person that’s been morphed together after the tiring, tumultuous year they’d all had. The stress, the anxiety, the exhaustion, personified. Even the littlest things – the tiny, stupid, don’t matter in the grand scheme of it, things – make him angry.

He’s been living on fumes for too long and everything feels like it’s at a breaking point. He’s trying to hold on to the reins, but they’re slipping out of his hands too quickly and he’s too tired to keep running to catch up. His life feels like it’s unraveling and it scares him, because he has never been this person. He has never been unable to keep going, unable to push through, to carry on, put all his stock into the rainbow on the other side and his nose down until he reaches it.

But everything that’s happened in the past few years, high school, and Karofsky, and all the little things he let go, all the things he said were okay and tried to move past and eventually decided didn’t mean anything anymore, never truly went away. They laid dormant for a while, so much so that he’d just about forgotten about them, until they decided to come back with a vengeance. Like he’s being reminded of how messed up his life is, because for once, hewas the one to cause it.

He’s spent so long being too gay, or too fragile, or too feminine, to get the things that he really wants. There’s always been something he couldn’t control, something inherently wrong with him, which keeps him from getting anything on the first try. It always takes extra work, extra effort, the need to prove that he does deserve it and has earned the role, or the solo, or the opportunity that is almost inevitably given up to someone else.

Maybe a small part of him thought that Blaine would be like that too.

The proposal wouldn’t be enough to propel them into a lifetime of happiness.

It couldn’t be that easy.

He wouldn’t get to be that happy.

There is so much wrong with him. Kurt knows that. He knows he can be bitchy, sometimes cold, often not someone that’s easy to get close to. He knows he has a tendency to hold everything in until he reaches a breaking point and lashes out.

He knows he’s angry. He knows he’s in pain.

And he knows Blaine didn’t need to see any of it, didn’t deserve any of it. Blaine was too good, too warm, too unimaginably kind, to deserve these parts of him. He didn’t want their relationship to turn into it, go sour and stunted until Blaine began to resent him.

Blaine loved him anyway. In spite of everything. Blaine’s capacity for love was so massive and unlimited, and Kurt couldn’t understand it. Blaine wanted to work on things, always, and Kurt didn’t understand that, either. He’s spent his entire life trying desperately to be okay, to be enough, for people, to not be a problem they will one day resent solving and decide to abandon by the side of the road. People don’t want a mess. They don’t want someone who’s broken. They don’t want to be there when the going gets bad.

But everything is just so much, and Kurt has never been more tired of fighting.

He can’t hide it anymore. Can’t compress it down and pretend it isn’t happening. A recent study session with Elliott turned into a minor – he would deem minor, although Elliott would definitely evaluate it way worse – breakdown over one of his theory papers. What should’ve been some simple frustration over his inability to phrase his argument was instead far more loaded, the depths of his anger and stress seeping through, unable to be contained.

Maybe talking is – finally – what he needs. He’s tried everything else.

He reaches over and into the pocket of the jacket he wore a couple days ago, and pulls out the card Elliott pushed into his hand as they left the coffee shop. For the therapist I used to see when I first got to the city, Elliott had told him. She really helped me sort through some stuff, and I know she can help you too.

Call, he had urged quietly. Please, Kurt. It doesn’t have to be like this.

It isn’t the first time Elliott’s brought up seeing a therapist. That was his first suggestion when Kurt broke the news of his and Blaine’s breakup. Kurt had ignored him then, insisted that the breakup was all he needed. He’d be fine.

But the lump in his throat has been there for weeks, and he is so tired of being on the verge of tears all the time.

That’s what he tells himself, as he grabs his phone. His fingers shake as he puts in the number and presses ‘call’.

He’s so tired of being tired.

[notyourdayrdream]

My Top Klaine Fanfic Authors Part 3!!

Part 1

Part 2

This time, it will also include a fic rec for each author <3. Again, this not in order.

1. @darriness || AO3

Like You Wanna Be Loved (series)

This series is stunning. I fell in love with these versions of Kurt and Blaine so easily and there’s so much that you want yo unpack and explore.

2. @xbeautifulunseenx || AO3

Hummels Home for non-conforming adolescents (multi-chap)

I flailed in the comments of the fic so much when I read this fic, and for good reason. This dystopian setting is so grim, but this author bought life and reality to it so beautifully that I feel in love easily and often think about the fic.

3. @backslashdelta || AO3

Keep It Simple (one shot)

This is just a super cute AU of the klaine proposal!!

4. @slayediest / @notarelationship || AO3

You Trip Me Up (one shot)

I appreciate a great skank Kurt fic, and this one was definitely that!! It’s full of banter, introspection and amazing awkwardness that made me feel everything.

5. @Slowcookedvig || AO3

2020 is too weird to be a rom-com (series)

2020 is immortalised perfectly in this cracky silly fic about quarantine and sex toy shops.

6. maanorchidee (@forabeatofadrum) || AO3

Myosotis Series

This is a classic amnesia fic with a twist. And it’s sooo good. Like in my top 10 fic list!!

7. @nineofhearts4 || AO3

Please Wear Clothes (one shot)

Joyous, title explains everything.

8. @quizasvivamos || AO3

Washington is Burning (multi-chap)

I love a good high wealth historical fic and this one is just that. With some side Brittana and the absolute convolution that comes from an arranged marriage that both characters don’t want, it’s creates a fun, but albeit messy time.

9. Allythepotato (@20xbetterthanu) || AO3

See Me (multi-chap, poetry)

This is just show-stopping poetry that makes you feel a range of emotions from joy to desperate sadness. The klaine relationship is super cute, which cuts through the sad very nicely.

10. @notyourdayrdream || AO3

For as long as your with me (or until my mamma picks me up) (series)

An amazing kid fic and definitely puts you through the paces while giving a nice happy ending!

11. holdingdaylight || AO3

14 Days of Quaranklaine (including Always Right Together) (series of one shots and one multi-chap)

These are stunningly written seperate one shots (and one multi-chap).

12. keyiqiang - (@kuiinncedes) || AO3

you keep his shirt, he keeps his word (one shot)

Super cute drabble!!

13. @wowbright || AO3

To Be Myself (multi-chap/ series)

A 1980s klaine fic full of pain, joy, fun flirtation, discoveries and some gymnastics!!

14. @gleekto || AO3

Unsolicited Advice (multi-chap)

I followed this along during the Klaine Advent and looked forward to the updates!! It’s a meet-cute-ish in the Condom Aisle and things unfold from there.

15. @catcat-85 || AO3

Only One (multi-chap)

Reconciliation fic, famous Blaine. All the good stuff that comes from this combination. I actually remember this being one of the first AU fics I read, and I still highly recommend it!!

[notyourdayrdream]

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