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Im so disgusting to look at

[o0kalz]

I'm kind of tired of always telling you how much I love you just for you to never say it back. Of you relentlessly throwing up words of whatever you've got into your mind now for hours expecting me to catch it all while at the same inmediatelly shutting me up whenever I say a single word that's not on your interests. Of you never apologizing. Of the screams and the hits and the cheating and then telling me you love me. That you are bad and don't deserve me and crying on my shoulder for me to stay or you'll end it. You'd die without me and plead me to be yours forever. Then fucking your best friend but never wanting to touch me but then you touch me when I don't want it because it makes you angry when I don't want it so you do it out of spite but again you are unstable so I should understand, right? I should understand it all.

And I'll do. I'll always do. Because I love you.

Even if you just want me.

[o0kalz]

I did NOT consent to being alive

[o0kalz]

I hate being in between. Not actively suicidal, but hell how I want to die… I just want to vanish, disappear into thin air, I’m not strong enough to attempt… I wish I had though…

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I'm never ever going to be normal, am I? I'm just fucked up and ruined forever

[o0kalz]

hpd + bpd culture is sometimes wishing that you didn't care so much and could just cheat and have several partners and get so much attention even if it's abusive and makes you lose the partner you care about the most...

Hell, he's not even my partner rn, but I still think about this and feel so guilty for even wanting the attention multiple partners would give me...

Alongside him and I haven't talked about our relationship yet and decided to not get any more partners(either one of us) until we've talked about it and I'm just craving attention I want to flirt with everyone but I don't want to lose him he's the best to get attention from and I love him too much to lose him again.

Not tagging because I'm scared he'll know it's me.

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[o0kalz]

feeling unwanted ruins my whole fucking day

[o0kalz]

[o0kalz]

hpd + bpd culture is sometimes wishing that you didn't care so much and could just cheat and have several partners and get so much attention even if it's abusive and makes you lose the partner you care about the most...

Hell, he's not even my partner rn, but I still think about this and feel so guilty for even wanting the attention multiple partners would give me...

Alongside him and I haven't talked about our relationship yet and decided to not get any more partners(either one of us) until we've talked about it and I'm just craving attention I want to flirt with everyone but I don't want to lose him he's the best to get attention from and I love him too much to lose him again.

Not tagging because I'm scared he'll know it's me.

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[o0kalz]

Me when I noticed that other people are eating less than me

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୨ ✩ I SWEAR I F****** MISS YOU !!! %@^-@

[o0kalz]

trying to settle a debate with my boyfriend, reblog and put in the tags your race and if you put your hand or foot on the wall when you’re sleeping to cool yourself off/not overheat

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[o0kalz]

i just don’t understand how i will cry because im fat and then go binge. how disgusting could a person possibly be?

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Just binged on like 1000cals in SCHOOL

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We bul1mics who pvrge standing up should count how many cals we burn from doing basically fucking squats for HOURS multiple times a day like ??? our legs are fr CARRYING