Ellie Williams Simp I Joel Miller Apologist Pro-shipper I AO3 I 18+
Don't wanna be here? Send us removal request.
Note
you are literally so cool, i want to be like you when i grow up (btw i’m 24)
If you only knew how terminally uncool I am irl :,)
And have no fear! 24 is still soo young and leaves plenty of time to harness your coolness. I didn't feel like I started getting my sea legs as a human person until I was at least 28 lol (I'm thirty now for reference!)
1 note
·
View note
Note
New Joellie shipper here who recently finished the games and is deeply sad and in need of content after witnessing Joel go golfing. Twice. Both in game and in show.
I read Don’t Be a Stranger, and I could kiss the ground you walk on or sit at your feet and pray. I am reborn. It’s like you reached into canon, carefully poked and prodded until you pulled out the essence of Joel and Ellie and then single handedly crafted and weaved it with even more depth, even more raw humanity and devotion. Which is saying something.
It’s a 20 out of 10. I am not being dramatic, I fear. I will read the rest of your work now. Please write until the end of time.
Ohhh anon. You're too sweet 🥹😘
First off, my condolences for having to experience both of Joel's deaths so close together. Playing it in 2020 DEVESTATED me, no joke. Losing imposing pillar with a soft gooey center game! Joel alongside big brown-eyed teddy bear show! Joel? 😫 You poor thing.
Secondly, I can't belive "Don't Be a Stranger" started as a fun little distraction and blossomed into what it is now. Writing it has brought me so much solace in a post-apocalyptic universe where comforting moments are few and far between and I'm so grateful is was able to do the same for you 🖤
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
@starker1975 created this absolutely breathtaking playlist to accompany "Don't Be a Stanger". I binged the whole thing in one sitting and highly recommend giving it a listen! This is hands down the most exciting thing that's ever happened to me as a fic writer and I am incredibly grateful ❤️❤️❤️
(Gonna go learn how to pin this so I can keep it at the top of my profile forever! 😊)

🖤I made a playlist for @olldtimerbuckley inspired by her exquisite joellie fic Don’t Be a Stranger. I highly recommend all of her writing, though. If you like the ship or are even intrigued by it, definitely check it out.🖤
(🖤🖤🖤 Thank you so much for writing and sharing your stories. I can’t stress enough how talented you are!!!)
21 notes
·
View notes
Text

Joel Miller for @joels6string 🕶
960 notes
·
View notes
Note
Is making AUs for them your long term plan👀? 'cause if it is and if you need ideas I had some ideas before like cop!joel x trouble!girl!ellie, Joel x Sarah'sBestFriend!Ellie, bodyguard!Joel x Ellie, and many more...
Writing "Would That I" has really opened up my mind to the wide world of AU Joellie fics 😌 I have several ideas rattling around in my brain that have yet to be hammered out, and one very messy outline for a boarding school AU.
However, I plan to return to angsty canon for a bit first because, aside from having 2 WIPs, I am dying to get back to my OG game babies. They deserve a little brightness in their dark dark world, and I've made it my mission to give it to them 💖 (with a little pain, suffering, and spice along the way ofc 😉)
One last thing — if you're really excited about one specific idea and you can't get it out of your head, write it!!! Seriously, those brainrotty, unshakable stories have the ability to write themselves once you start.
0 notes
Note
Good evening. Make Joel a swimming coach. It should work.
Oof now I don't know if I want to make him a swimming coach, but I DEFINITELY want to have a plotline where Ellie is embarrassed about not knowing how to swim and refuses to take lessons with babies, so Joel offers her private lessons 😏
(Adding this to a very extensive list!)
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
what if u combined them. like… he’s a volunteer soccer coach at the school and instead of a priest poser maybe a bible study leader. and she’s herself, obviously. mmmmmhmhm
OH GOD this is so fucking tempting 😫 My coach/player & priest/student ideas have such different vibes and dynamics, though; it wouldn't really work. But now I kinda love him being volunteer coach at a Catholic school... I need to ruminate on this more and actually finish an outline. For which one? Who knows. I already have too many WIPs going and this just added another iron to the scorching hot fire of chaos in my unorganized googledocs.
Bless you and curse you anon, I love this suggestion 😅💖
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
Oh, please tell me that fake priest Joel will worship at the altar of Ellie’s nipples 🫣
In all your fics you mention how pretty he finds them and I now really need you to keep your promises 🥹🥹🥹
Joel worshipping the temple of Ellie's body (perfect pink nips included) is a Joellie staple for me, and this ask reminded me that it has been waaayyyy too long since I've written a juicy nipple stimulation orgasm scene. It's being added to the top of my lengthy to-do list as I type 👌
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
Adding myself to the cheerleding group awaiting that amazing catholic idea!! Also, I'm so enjoying Would that I, they're so precious (and naive) ❤️ thank u for every update.
I do have to ask, and u don't have to answer if u dont want to, but what will happen with "I will follow you into the Dark"
I wouldn't have written "Would That I" without your inspiration, so thank YOU! 😘 It's definitely my fluffiest/goofiest versions of them yet and has really opened up my mind to au possibilities.
As for "I will follow you into the Dark", I'm honestly so thrilled you asked about it!!! I know it seems like I've forgotten it, but I have not! I pinky promise. When I started posting it at the end of 2023, I had 8 chapters drafted and every intention of replaying part 2 and seeing it through until the end...but I forgot how soul-crushingly depressing part 2 is 😭... and then I got seriously sidetracked with DBaS. Which I have no regrets about; it definitely helped me build my confidence in writing a longfic with plot, something I never thought I'd be capable of when I started writing.
I explain it a little more in-depth in my last ask/answer, but I do plan on returning to it in the near future and even opened the doc for chapter 13 last week! I'm in the beginning of a part 2 replay and I'm really dedicated this time, especially with this season's adaptation being so (in my humble opinion) lackluster in comparison.
Having not one, but TWO asks inquiring about it is really inspiring me to pick it back up!!! Thank you 😌💕
0 notes
Note
Hey new fan here! Just finished all 12 chapters of “I Will Follow You into the Dark” and was curious if you ever plan on getting back to it? If not totally cool! I’ve loved everything else you’ve written but I’m just curious! It’s one of my favorite pieces of fanfic I’ve ever read!
First off, thank you so very much for reading and letting me know you enjoy my fics! I know it's not the most mainstream ship, so it feels extra special to me every time someone connects with any of my works! 😊
Okay, now onto the meat and potatoes: My "Sweeter Than Heaven, Hotter Than Hell" series is far and beyond the work I'm most emotionally invested in, not only because it had rotted in my brain for almost three years before I actually started writing it, but because (underneath the copious amounts of filthy fucking smut) it's what makes The Last of Us so special to me -- Joel and Ellie taking on the world together. These two are the heart and soul of the franchise and this is the hill I will be buried on.
Currently there are 3 major reasons why it is STILL on hiatus:
1. I need to replay Part 2.
"I Will Follow You into the Dark" is more or less a part 2 canon divergent rewrite, and while it's far and away from a scene-by-scene retelling, there are some setting details I want to get right in my descriptions. Oh, and nailing the overall tone of the game as far as dread and rage going forward in the story is extremely important to me.
I started and abandoned the second game a few times last year 🙃 BUT I'm happy to say this time around I'm playing it with an emotional support friend who I can trade the controller off to when things start getting too intense (sidenote: the jump from part 1 infected to part 2 infected is HORRIFYING, why do they sound like that??? 😩) We actually just left off in the game where a lot of chapter 13 will take place: the TV station in Seattle. Soooo progress? I'm getting there!
2. Re-reading/editing all 100,816k words I've posted so far.
As much as I adore this series, most of it was not beta read, and coming across mistakes I've made on work I've already posted is literally mortifying. Now that season 2 has started, I'm sooo tempted to just pick it up again without revisiting it, but there are chunks of it missing my from memory so I'm a bit wary. Last month I had a commenter say something like "I loved when *this* happened in chapter 9!" but l literally didn't remember it at all 😅😭 I'm torn on this one, honestly.
3. I want it to be ✨️perfect✨️.
Which is not possible. Logically, know this. Nothing is perfect. But GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I want it to be perfect so bad it's lowkey paralyzing. I think letting go of this a little bit and reminding myself that the point of writing (for me) is to get the fucking story out of my head and clear up space for other things. But also I am so unhealthily attached to this fic that it's gonna feel like a real loss when it's over...so maybe I am procrastinating a little. (A lot.)
Anyway, these are the main excuses reasons why it hasn't been updated in over a year. A lesser reason (that I'm almost tempted to omit because it's just so insanely small and petty) is that I had a massive reader drop-off after my first work that made me question my writing abilities. Obviously I write for myself first and foremost, but it was a disheartening shift when I felt like I was pouring so much of myself into it. I've since hidden my stats and just vibe off the sense of accomplishment and sweet as fuck comments/messages I receive 😘
Reading that "IWFYitD" is one of your favorite pieces ever??? So fucking motivating. Really kicked me in the ass. In the wise words of @typewriter83 -- "I write for myself and maybe 6 people". And I'm pretty damn lucky to count you among one of those hypothetical 6 😉
I'm sure you weren't expecting this word vomit of an essay, but I've honestly been wanting to post about this for a while now, and this question gave me the perfect opportunity to get it all out! As far as physical progress, I have chapters 13&14 roughly written, and I remember exactly where I left things off in chapter 15. I don't plan on ever abandoning it completely.
Lastly, can I just say the way you went about asking was so respectful and kind, it warms my heart? 🥹 Seriously, you're so sweet; reading this felt like eating cotton candy 💖 Have the wonderful morning, day, and night you deserve!!!
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
If you got the chance, what would be the most freakiest things you would do with the game version of Joel Miller, lol.
I am going to be so fucking for real right now and admit that I only possess an ounce of the freakiness I channel in my writing. Especially when it comes to men. I'm sprawling out on my back, stomach, side and making him WORK for it. And after he'll say thank you, carry me to & from the bathroom, and bring me a sweet treat in bed 😌🥰 Yes, I'd even expect this princess treatment from our Lord & Savior Joel Motherfucking Miller.
That said, a guillotine couldn't save that man from the head I would give him. 💀LOL
5 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hey queen, I need new chapters of the road to hell RIGHT NOW please and thank you <3
Also the Ellie/school girl/joel/catholic school prompt PLEASEEEEE
Love what you do, thanks for doin it <3
New chapters will be coming along again in May! I should be posting the rest of "Would That I" in the next week or so. It was meant to be short and sweet, but it's looking to be >20k when it's complete oops. After that I can focus "road to hell" and (hopefully) get a Catholic boarding school au underway! That's the plan anyway. 😅
Thank you kindly for your support and patience!!! 😊✨️
1 note
·
View note
Note
Just wanted to pop in and say that I am also here to give you all the virtual support for a religious board school AU! That sounds amazing
😊 Thank you for the support!!! I'm torn between writing this and a college soccer coach/player fic for my next modern au. (Yes, I am currently watching Yellowjackets). But since I'm much more familiar with Catholic school and religious trauma, I'm heavily leaning towards religious boarding school. Plus, it's been brain-rotting in the recesses of my mind for about a year now. I have sooo many ideas and plans for fun scenes 😏 I just need to conjure up more of a solid plot to really tie together the porn lol
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
I finally posted the updated version of this on AO3! I made very minimal changes, so you don't have to reread it if you already have. However, if you'd like to receive updates as I post the next four chapters, I recommend clicking the link and hitting subscribe. Leaving a kudos wouldn't hurt either. 😉
Now I'm going to crawl back into my cozy little writer's cave and try to find solace in my favorite fictional pairing.
*crossing my fingers that the link actually works this time*
https://archiveofourown.org/works/64546165/chapters/165768130?&view_adult=true
Hi Buckley! Hope you’re having a good day!
I don’t know how this works but here I go.
4
A
꒰ 𓅫 ꒱ “we’re gonna need to talk about some things after this, aren’t we?”
I was thinking of (young adult) Ellie working at Joel’s furniture company, she’s his apprentice, and oddly they’re good friends, but lately they are secretly pining for the each other hard. One day Joel has to pick up some light work stuff from a far storage, and takes Ellie with him for help. But oh no! they ended up trapped inside because the lock malfunctioned, and in the meantime they wait for Tommy to release them, they also release some spicy tension…
Ps. I picked thigh because Joel is enamored with Ellie’s.
Yeah I think that’s all :D thank you!
I know this has been in my inbox forever and took so many liberties with this prompt, but it's already shaping up to be the lightest, tropiest, most unserious thing I've ever written. I'll post it to AO3 after I polish it up (I wrote half of it in a fever-induced haze) and have a little more written. Early estimate is 3 chapters.
@jammingjoellie I hope you like it so far!!!
Head Over Hardwood Part 1

Minors & Antis DNI
Joel x Ellie
Warnings: Age gap, inappropriate workplace romance, no smut (yet) just a lot of UST
Length: 4.9k
“God fucking shitdick. Where the hell is it?”
Joel smiles as he watches Ellie from his workbench, something he's been doing a lot lately. Smiling, of course. Not watching her. Because shamelessly leering at his nineteen-year-old shop apprentice would be extremely inappropriate, and while he might, occasionally, skirt the bounds of their workplace relationship, he's not fool enough to believe she's seriously interested in him.
What they do isn't even flirting, it's just… teasing. Harmless teasing.
So, there Joel sits with his chin resting on his fist, watching (not leering) as Ellie aggressively pats herself down like an overzealous TSA agent, a constant current of profanities pouring out of her carmine mouth. When she bends at the waist and shoves her hands into the lower pockets of her work pants, he snaps his gaze away from her so fast his neck cracks.
The last thing he needs right now is to get caught staring at the cute little curve of her ass. Still, the image of her bent over burns behind his retinas.
Holy Hell.
As if seeing her sucking on that creamsicle earlier wasn't enough to whittle down his self-control. The length of it disappearing past her lips before her cheeks hollowed, her tongue working around the stick and lapping at her sticky fingers, the sloppy, suckling noises she made…
His cock starts thickening in his jeans.
That's just fuckin’ great. Fifty-six years old and he's poppin’ a woody at work.
Joel shifts in his seat, his tired eyes darting over to the bathroom door. As unprofessional as it is, it certainly wouldn't be the first time he's taken care of himself at work since this spitfire of a girl slammed into his life like a wrecking ball whose sole purpose was to test his patience and raise his blood pressure.
A soft snarl draws his attention back to Ellie. Or rather, down to Ellie; crawling around on her hands and knees, her face is almost pressed to the floor.
I guess it's time to act like an adult. One of us has to.
Joel sneakily adjusts himself before standing and leaning back against the table, both hands gripping the edge. “Are you lookin’ for somethin’?” he asks, trying to keep the amusement he feels bubbling in his chest from reaching his voice.
Huffing and puffing, Ellie shoots a glare up at him, her eyebrows pinched tight in aggravation. “My favorite drafting pencil. I swear I just fucking had it,” she mutters, slumping back onto her knees.
As he takes a few strides closer, she lifts her chin to keep holding his gaze, her lips parting and neck arching until he's standing directly in front of her. God, her open mouth is almost level with his crotch. If he was in this position with any other beautiful woman, in any other context, the things he would do…
Joel swallows down his filthy thoughts and clears his suddenly dry throat. Focus. “What's it look like?”
Flailing her hands around, Ellie launches into an animated description, “It's light blue stainless steel with a white foam grippy thing that's perfectly molded to my fingers. The label is too worn down to make out, but it looks–”
“Kind of like this?” he interrupts her tirade, plucking a pencil that bears a striking resemblance to the one she’s yapping about out from behind her ear and holding it in front of her face.
She blinks. Her eyes widen. Then the pink coloring her cheeks darkens, steadily creeping over her nose and up to her hairline. “No?” she squeaks, wincing at the sound of her own voice.
Joel clicks his tongue against the roof of his mouth. “Riiight.”
Letting out a drawn-out sigh, Ellie rises to her feet, brushing off the sawdust shavings peppering her thighs on the way up. When she grabs the pencil, her warm fingertips brush over his knuckles. The contact is featherlight, but it lingers on his skin, tingling up his arm like a pulse of electricity.
“Thanks, man,” she says softly, moving a piece of hair behind her ear. Her mossy green eyes are downcast at her hands as she fiddles with the pencil, rolling it back and forth between her fidgety fingers. “It's, uh, been a long day.”
“You're damn right about that.” Joel crosses his arms. “The sales floor closed an hour ago. What the hell are you still doin’ here?”
“I thought I'd take those measurements Tommy brought in and start drawing up the blueprints for that job on Sugar Hill Drive,” Ellie explains briskly. Turning away from him on her Converse heel, she prances over to her desk and begins leafing through various work orders and number sheets.
May is the tail end of Spring – and tax season – meaning Against The Grain’s normally steady trickle of business is booming with bored housewives redesigning their kitchens and equally bored husbands commissioning custom billiard tables for their man caves. Joel would rather work on his own projects and sell them in the showroom, but scheduled jobs keep the lights on. Plus, this year he has a lovely mentee to offload some of his more boring work onto.
Although, she appears to be just as enthused as he is at the prospect.
Even from clear across the room, he can see Ellie's supple lips curl into a frown. “Jesus, is there anything on the docket besides French country cabinets?” she grouses, separating the sheet she needs from the rest.
“Let's see…” He snags the discarded papers from her desk – making sure to avoid knocking over her growing collection of succulents – and wets his thumb before flicking through them. “That hipster bar in Austin put in a custom order for a live edge bar top. Maria says we should upcharge ‘em since they're commercial and don't know their asses from a hole in the ground.”
That wrings a smile out of her. “I knew I liked that woman,” she sighs wistfully. Folding one leg underneath her, Ellie plops into her chair, her favorite pencil gripped safely in hand.
“Let me grab you a calculator–”
“Pfft,” she scoffs. “I don't need a calculator.”
Joel lets out a low whistle. “Well, aren't you a regular Albert Einstein.”
Her neck rolls along with her eyes as she skewers him with a sardonic sideways glance. “Why yes, I have tits and I can do math,” she states snappishly. “Stop the presses!”
“Woah, now. You know that's not what I meant.” He casually hitches his thumbs into the band of his jeans and cocks his knee to the side, shifting his weight onto one leg. “I'm perfectly aware that pretty girls like you can do math.”
Ellie tuts at him chidingly, but she's still wearing that crooked grin of hers. “Careful there, buddy. I could report you to our nonexistent HR department for that kind of talk.”
“Report me? You're the one who was just talking about your…” Warmth crawls up from his collar, heating his face. He makes an awkward gesture to his torso. Please don't make me say it.
She grins like a cat that's got a mouse by its tail. “My what?” she asks coyly.
Looking past her, he stares out of the window he keeps cracked to balance out the varnish fumes and heavy scent of sawdust floating around their workspace. Outside rolling gray clouds are piling one over the other, prematurely canceling out the sun.
“Well?” she presses impatiently.
“... tits,” Joel finally hisses the obscenity through gritted teeth.
Slapping a hand flat on the desk, Ellie throws her head back and barks out a laugh that's closer to a cackle. “Dude! I can't believe you just said that!” Her voice is distorted by several more maniacal giggles. Any embarrassment he feels is quickly overwhelmed by the look of sheer glee she's aiming at him.
The traitorous smile that tugs at his lips pulls at dormant muscles. “You said it first!” he retorts defensively. Good God, could he sound any more childish?
This girl.
This fucking girl.
“Yeah but you're you,” she counters glibly, like the meaning behind her cryptic words is somehow obvious. Then she smirks, twirling her pencil around idly. “Besides, I'm just stating a fact. I objectively have tits.”
“And you're objectively pretty too,” Joel volleys back in a low drawl without missing a beat.
The twirling stops. “That's not… I-I don't–” Ellie sputters for a witty comeback before landing on a flustered, “Shut up.” Bowing her head to excuse herself from their conversation, the tips of her hair dust over her bare shoulder where one sleeve of the open flannel shirt she's wearing has slipped down her arm.
His flannel shirt.
The one he gave her on one of Texas’s rare cold nights last winter, wordlessly tucking it around her little body after catching her shivering. He hasn't asked for it back, and she hasn't offered. Not that he minds; it looks better hanging off of her small frame anyway.
Quietly, Joel studies the seashell curve of her spine that is almost guaranteed to put a crick in her neck. The chaotic contortion of her body, twisted like a pretzel with one slim leg dangling like a fishing line, contrasts with the still lake of her face; smooth as a windowpane, only her fox-like eyes move, following the rapid strokes of her pencil across the page. Watching her work is mesmerizing. He could stare at her, uninterrupted, for hours.
As if on cue, a harsh cough from behind his back reminds Joel that they're, unfortunately, not alone. In the doorway, Tommy stands with his hands on his hips, and judging by his raised eyebrows and knowing smile, he's been there for a good while.
Joel can feel his own smile wilt as he lumbers over to his smug-as-shit-looking little brother. By the time he's within spitting distance, his face is creased with its usual scowl. He drops his voice to a low growl, “How much did you hear?”
“Enough to feel like I need a post-sex cigarette.” Tommy elbows Joel in the arm affably and adds, “I mean, Good Lord.”
“Don't start,” Joel warns. “We're just… friends.” He can taste the dishonesty of the word as it leaves his mouth.
But what’s the alternative? There’s not a singular term in the English language to accurately define the odd, flirtatious, and sometimes combative relationship between him and the decades-younger woman whom he spends at least five days a week with. And even when not basking in the vibrant warmth of her presence, most of his waking (and sleeping) hours are consumed by thoughts of how soft her skin would feel under his fingers. What her lips would taste like. The kinds of noises she’d make if he—
“Friends?” Tommy snorts. “Man, you bring her to every family dinner.”
“I couldn't let her keep livin’ on takeout and pizza,” Joel protests feebly. He still remembers the moan she made around her first bite of meatloaf, like it was the first decent meal she'd had in her entire life. “And your wife is the one who started invitin’ her in the first place.”
Tommy's expression is incredulous. “Last week you drove twenty minutes to her apartment in the middle of the night to fix her water heater.”
“Her super is a real dirtbag,” Joel says matter-of-factly. “Who knows how long it would have taken him to get to it.”
“Brother,” Tommy grabs his shoulder, looking him directly in the eyes with his are-you-actually-this-fucking-dense stare. It's a look Joel is well-acquainted with because he's usually the one giving it. “You cosigned a loan on her car. Are you really tellin’ me that's just some good ‘ole southern hospitality?”
He's got a point… not that Joel's ready to surrender it. “As her employer, I think it's important that she has reliable transportation.”
Tommy shakes his head slowly. “You know, as much as you bust my balls for bein’ pussy-whipped, at least I'm gettin’ some.”
Smacking his hand off his shoulder, Joel makes a throaty noise of disgust. “Gross.”
While it's true that he's not getting that, he is getting something; her smile, her gratitude, her time. Plus, he genuinely likes doing things for Ellie. Likes making her life easier, even in small, arbitrary ways. It's been so long since he's felt useful to anyone outside of his job.
“Seriously, why the hell haven't you asked her out yet?” Tommy asks, bringing the count of how many times they’ve had this exact conversation up from a million to a million and one. “You've been pining over her for months now. It's not cute anymore. If anything, it's getting sad.”
Joel takes a deep breath and tries to pretend that the pity in Tommy’s eyes doesn’t sting. “Besides the thirty-seven years worth of reasons between us that say it's a bad idea, there's also the legal and ethical concerns on account of me bein’ her boss and teacher. She'd feel like she has to say yes just to keep her job.” He looks over at her and feels a staggering, confusing mix of want and loss lodge itself in his throat. “I can't …” His voice is thick. “I won't put her in that position. It ain't fair.”
It also ain't true.
Joel's seen her working alongside Tommy's crew on construction sites enough times to know that she doesn't take shit from anybody – and he means anybody. He's watched all fiery five and a half feet of her come toe to toe with a man twice her age and size before stepping in to prevent the situation from turning ugly. Then subsequently having to deal with her snarking at him all the way home about how “she can handle herself and doesn't need some prehistoric cowboy coming to her rescue like a white fucking knight…”
It was frighteningly adorable and he'd spent the better part of her tongue-lashing trying to stave off a smile. Not that he'd ever admit that to her, of course. He does (at least slightly) value his life.
All of this is to say that Ellie is perfectly capable of standing her ground and saying no. A no he could handle. A no would almost be a relief. If he's honest, what he's really afraid of — terrified of — is that she'd say yes. That she'd pry open the door to his empty, misanthropic existence and make herself at home in his heart, giving him something new to lose. He can't take another loss. Not after—
Even the hint of her name in his mind tightens the knot of grief in his throat, choking off his air supply.
Just as Tommy opens his mouth to call out Joel on his bullshit, Maria pops up behind him, wrapping an arm around his waist. “Hello, you,” she says softly, pressing up on her toes to graze his cheek with a kiss before turning her icy blue gaze on Joel. “Joel,” she adds as an afterthought.
“Maria,” he greets her warmly, uncharacteristically grateful for his sister-in-law's timely interruption.
Maria wedges herself between the two men and into the crowded doorway. “Hey, Els!” she shouts.
Without pausing from her draft, Ellie bites back a belligerent, “What!?”
Over the sounds of Tommy and Joel’s muffled snickers, Maria heaves out a loud, exhausted exhale. “I see you've picked up Joel’s good manners,” she says curtly, but her smile remains bright and intact.
Finally breaking from her work, Ellie spins in her chair with a flourish and nods at Joel, her eyes light with amusement. “Don’t give this guy all the credit. I like to believe I came out of the womb with this sunshiney attitude,” she declares, matching Maria’s wry sarcasm.
“Cute,” Maria deadpans. “Well, now that I have your attention: will you be attending Teddy's birthday party tomorrow?”
“Depends…” Ellie crosses her legs and shoots Maria a look full of suspicion above her steepled fingers. “Will there be cake?” she asks the question in a slow and serious tone, arching her scarred eyebrow.
Maria hums an affirmative. “Chocolate cupcakes with ganache frosting.”
“I don't know what the hell ganache is, but it sounds delicious.” Ellie claps her hands together. “I'll be there.”
“Fantastic. We'll see you then.” Maria tucks her hand through the crook of Tommy’s arm.
“Make sure you guys head out soon! There's a storm rollin’ in and this guy needs his beauty sleep,” Tommy adds, pinching Joel's cheek and ignoring his attempts to swat away his hand.
Ellie treats them to a winning smile. “I'll make sure to tuck him in nice and gentle tonight,” she purrs, giving Joel a cheeky wink before whipping back around and leaving his heart beating a quick staccato rhythm against his ribs.
Teasing, he reminds himself. It’s just teasing.
Linked arm in arm, the couple begins to leave, giving Tommy one last chance to mouth “Make a move already” to Joel behind Ellie’s turned back. In retaliation, Joel snaps a lacquer-stained rag at Tommy's departing backside. As their indistinct chatter about birthday plans for their son fades into the distance, Joel picks up on the gentle pitter-patter of rainfall.
On his way to shut the window, he clicks on Ellie's desk lamp to give her eyes a break from the encroaching darkness. Once closed, it's just him, Ellie, and the warm glow of light flooding her corner of the room. The soft sounds of her tuneless humming blends with the howling of the wind. It feels like they're the only two people left in the whole world. It’s a thought that should be alarming, but all he feels is peace.
After making sure all the windows are secure, Joel returns from the kitchenette with two steaming mugs. “Don't worry, it's decaf,” he says as he places the cup of tea that's mostly a cream and sugar concoction on her desk.
Truth to be told, this has become his favorite part of the day: when they linger just a little too long, hovering just a little too close.
Tilting back in her chair, Ellie props her feet up on the desk and grabs her mug, clutching it with both hands. She sends him a bemused little smile. “So, what are your big Friday night plans? Is it JAG reruns? Or M*A*S*H reruns?” she asks, her voice teasing and sweet. Her raised legs are almost close enough to brush his waist, and Joel thinks about how easy it would be to close his hand around her ankle and pull her closer. To pluck that cup out of her hands, lean down, and kiss her.
Instead, he grips his mug tighter. “I actually might switch it up and watch a movie tonight.” He takes a sip of his coffee and savors the bitterness on his tongue before swallowing. “What about you?”
“Ohhhh. I have some big, big plans.” She ticks off each one with a slender finger, “First, I'm going to microwave Ramen, then I'm going to crawl into bed and scroll on my phone until I pass out, and then I'm going to wake up with the imprint of it on my face.”
Joel frowns. “I thought Fridays were designated game nights with you and your friends.”
Ellie's lips part in surprise, like she didn't expect him to have her schedule memorized. Like where she is and who she's with isn't constantly on his mind when they're apart. After a quick recovery, she clears her throat. “Jesse's band has an out of town gig tomorrow. They're staying at a motel this weekend — leaving me all on my lonesome,” she emphasizes the last part with a sigh, dramatically tossing her hand over her forehead.
His frown deepens at the thought of her going home to an empty apartment. “You didn't go with them? I thought you went to every show.”
“And miss out on your nephew's birthday party? I could never.” She nudges him in the side with her shoe and smiles. “I'm the only one who can keep up with the little guy.”
“Shit, that reminds me; I need to take his present out of the storage unit and put it in my trunk.” A one-of-a-kind piece of craftsmanship, Joel had carefully carved the children's rocking horse from wood ash to resemble a dragon. Then, unsatisfied with his vision to simply stain it, Ellie had painted finer details along the face, tail, and saddle. “I'll only be gone a minute.”
Ellie jumps to her feet. “I'll go with you!”
“Are you sure? It's lookin’ a little…” Joel trails off, grimacing at the window. Rain is pelting like bullets against the glass, but she's already brushing past him and skipping towards the backdoor, unbothered.
“Dude, don't be such a pussy. It's just a little drizzle,” she says dismissively. As she goes to leave, a gust of wind catches on the storm door, slamming it wide open and drenching them both in cool air and unrelenting rain.
A bolt of lightning fractures the apocalyptic-looking sky.
“Just a little drizzle my ass,” he mumbles under his breath. “Get to the unit. I'll deal with this. The garage code is–”
“Your birthday!” Ellie cuts him off as she jogs ahead, having to yell above the thundering rain. “Yeah, I got it.”
The door is rolled halfway up by the time Joel makes it to the small steel building. A small hand shoots out and grabs the sleeve of his shirt. “Get the hell in here!” Ellie whisper-yells urgently. His head narrowly misses smacking against the corrugated metal as she pulls him inside. Without wasting another second, she flicks the lightswitch and hits the garage door button in two hasty motions.
“God, I'm fucking soaked,” Ellie groans. It shouldn't, but the strained, breathy sound of her voice goes straight to his cock. He turns to look at her, only making the growing situation in his jeans worse; her high neck, rain-soaked tank top is suctioned to her skin, revealing every slick curve.
Suddenly enthralled by the dimly lit maze of junk and back stock, Joel starts making his way to the back where he stashed Teddy's gift. He can feel her following him, her squeaky feet shuffling close behind. “How did you know the passcode was my birthday?” he asks curiously.
“Uh, because it's your password to literally everything,” she answers flatly. “You're not nearly as mysterious as you think you are.”
Joel ignores her comment as he comes to a standstill in front of a lumpy package. “Ah, here it is."
Saddling up next to him, Ellie crosses her arms and stares down blankly at the nondescript brown wrapping paper and messily tied twine string. Then she glances up at him. Then back down. This occurs four more times. Finally she fixes him with a hard look and asks him outright, “Are you kidding me?”
He lifts his hands defensively. “Hey, it's what's on the inside that counts.”
“Joel,” she breathes his name, and even with her voice’s patronizing inflection of annoyance, the way she says his name makes his knees a little weak. He wouldn’t mind her moaning it. “This is for a five-year-old’s birthday party. I expected better from a man who's so detail-oriented.”
Joel can't keep the stupid grin off his face. “Was that a compliment from the Ellie Williams?” He smacks his lips. “I never thought I'd see the day.”
“Well you are a master of your craft, Mr. Miller,” Ellie simpers, batting her eyelashes up at him coquettishly.
He nods. “Keep talkin’. I'd like to hear more of this.”
“And ceaselessly humble, too.” Her buttery smile softens the sarcastic dig, and Joel notices the faded freckles on her lips for the first time.
Only then does he realize just how close their faces are.
Have they ever been this close before? They must have been. He's guided her hands, adjusted her grip, and positioned her shoulders during the early days of her training. But he's always gone out of his way not to actually look at her this closely – only from a safe distance – because he's worried that once he starts, he won't be able to look away. That the plumpness of her lips and vivid green of her eyes will pull him in like a slow tide until he's stranded in the middle of an ocean, drowning in the beauty of her face.
Now that he's here, it's nothing like drowning. There's no struggle. No panic. He's simply falling, falling, falling.
Seconds pass. Her lips part, but she doesn't say anything. Wait, is she leaning in? Is she–
BOOM. An unearthly loud crack of thunder sends them leaping away from each other.
“I'm going to take a look through the Christmas stuff Maria stores in the back!” Ellie blurts loudly, speed-walking away from him, her spine stiff as a board. “There has to be a big red bow or something sparkly to spice up your shitty wrapping job.”
Worried he's made her uncomfortable, Joel hangs back at the end of an aisle of storage racks and runs a hand through his hair, mentally chastising himself for letting his self-control slip so easily. All she did was smile at him for Christsakes. Maybe Tommy’s right. Maybe he should just ask her out. No matter what the answer is, at least it would put an end to this unbearable tension.
The very familiar sound of Ellie cursing disrupts his thoughts. When he follows it, he finds her reaching for a bin on a top shelf labeled “Christmas” in sharpie on an old piece of tape, her body fully extended as she bounces unsteadily on her toes.
A pair of Dickie's has no business sclupting a pair of thighs like that, he thinks as he approaches her from behind.
“Here, I can—”
“I almost have it,” she mutters, her fingers scrabbling to pull the box closer to the edge.
Joel snorts. “Clearly.” Instead of waiting for her to bring the box down on her head, he tries to bypass her and take it down himself.
The cheeky little brat shoulder-checks him out of the way. “I said, I almost have it!” Ellie insists stubbornly.
“This is ridiculous.”
“You're ridiculous.”
“You're gonna knock over the whole damn shelf!”
“No, I'm not–hey!” Ellie exclaims as he circles her hips with his hands, thumbs resting above the swell of her ass. If he looks, it's only for safety reasons before bending his knees and boosting her up to compensate for her lack of height. “Did you… did you just lift me up off the floor?” Thankfully she sounds more awed than indignant.
“Yeah,” Joel grunts, his forearms straining, “and you're getting heavier by the second, so if you could hurry–”
Just then the light cuts out and Ellie jerks in his arms, throwing him off balance. After a few failed attempts to regain his footing, Joel loses his grip on her and they both go down onto the cold concrete floor. It's too dark to see, but he can feel her elbow dig into his ribcage, her skull knock against his superplexus, and her ass land snugly against his groin.
For several disorienting moments they lay there in an awkward tangle of splayed limbs heavy breathing.
“I think the power went out,” Ellie states.
A chuckle rumbles through his chest. “Your skills of observation never fail to impress me, kid.”
Joel can practically hear her eye roll in the pitch black silence.
“Are you okay?” he asks, the playfulness in his voice replaced with genuine concern. His body may have cushioned her fall, but it was still a hard landing.
She wiggles against him, and he inhales sharply through his nose. Christ, she smells like strawberries and cream, and he wants to bury his nose in her hair and taste her throat. “Yeah,” she answers. “You?”
“Yeah. But could you…” Get off of me before you can feel my hard-on stabbing you in the back. Being pinned beneath her on the ground is a dangerous, exciting position to be in, and if she doesn't move away soon, she's definitely going to notice.
“Oh, right.” Her hand presses into his kidney as they begin the uncomfortable process of disentangling their bodies. “I think Mission Make Joel's Wrapping Job Look Less Pathetic might be a failure.”
“Ya think?” he quips.
She sighs. “I'll borrow some crafting ribbon from Dina tomorrow. Just please tell me you have your phone so we can get the fuck out of here without killing ourselves in this death trap. I left mine charging inside.”
Joel extracts his phone from his back pocket. Luckily unharmed by the fall, the battery sits at a concerningly low 17%, filling him with a new sense of urgency. After swiping down and turning on the flashlight (a handy trick Ellie taught him), he holds it up to see her already turning the corner, feeling her way with her hand.
The bright light shines over her shadowy figure as she nails the garage button with her tiny fist. It clicks. Then… nothing. She hits it again. Still nothing. After grabbing onto the door itself and giving it a couple of rough tugs, she finally huffs defeatedly and turns to him. “Damn thing won't open. You have the keys though, right?”
The screen in his hand flashes with a warning: “battery power 15%”.
“Right!?” Ellie repeats, louder. Panicked.
Joel's stomach sinks. This. This is the throat closing, lungs filling, drowning sensation he was expecting earlier. He shoves his hands into his pockets to confirm what he already knows: they're empty.
Shit.
23 notes
·
View notes
Note
Can you draw?
Honestly? Not even a little bit. But I do work in an art adjacent field and have a tremendous amount of respect for artists. Rest assured, if I could, I would use my talents for evil and probably illustrate every NC-17 scene I've ever written. If only.
1 note
·
View note
Note
you should be ashamed of urself
No thanks 😊
#anon ask#anonymous#ask me anything#I should have deleted this but it made me giggle#does this count as my first anon hate? i think it's too vague
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
hii so im a newer joellie ish shipper. (imma be fr im a joel self shipper that man is MINE) (kidding) (or am i)
anyway, i really have enjoyed the first two chapters of good intentions and literally everything else you’ve posted! you’ve got a real knack for writing. im glad i got past my previous anxieties about proshipping being an indicator of my own morality because otherwise i never would’ve found your writing, which is just delectable.
(this is getting long im sorry 💀)
i saw your post about the religious boarding school au and mmm m m m mmmmmm. okay so i went to one of those actually. (not a religious one, but a boarding school, and i grew up going to catholic school so consider the two meshed) and man the idea is already making me excited to see what you may whip up…
depending on the sort of religious trauma ellie would be imbued with/your vision, consider: joel, doing inspections of the dorms only to find ellies vibrator out (which she left out intentionally!!!). him being the kind little poser priest he is and letting her keep it on the condition she get off in front of him. . . Just thinking. you know. as one does.
First off, welcome aboard!!! 🫡 How silly is it that I have the opposite shipping problem? Every time I've attempted to read Joel/Reader or Joel/OC, I just can't. That is 100% Ellie's man to me, she owns his fine ass and she will fight you for him. (And win, sorry not sorry)
Secondly, I wish I could give you a hug because, believe it or not, I too struggled with tying pro-shipping to my own morality. I'd never had an issue with reading darker themes/DDDE or other people writing it, but at first the idea of writing it myself made me oddly anxious(more so than usual, which trust me is A LOT). In fact, I only started writing Joellie to "get the bad thoughts out". Lol I am sooo glad I got the fuck over it and now relish in rolling around in the sin bin and writing character-driven underage filth to my heart's content. 😌❤️
Thirdly, HOW DARE YOU PUT SUCH AN AMAZING SCENE IN MY HEAD!!! Kidding, kidding. My brain has been spinning out with ideas for the Catholic school au, and I already have a title in mind and the first chapter mapped out in my head, and this suggestion is just adding fuel to the out of control fire. If only I had the time right now to ACTUALLY write it 😪 Don't worry, I'll get there eventually...I just need to ruminate on a story for an unreasonable amount of time before writing it and even MORE time building myself up to posting it. But rest assured that when I do and this scene makes it in, I'll be dedicating the idea to you, brilliant anon 🖤🖤🖤
(also thank you for all the kind words about my writing, you're too sweet and I'm trying to get better at accepting compliments)
4 notes
·
View notes