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08/04/2021

Dear Tumblr,

I am trying my best to accomplish as much as I can with the limited time I have for the bar exams. I just do not have the necessary focus, goodness I hate how I feel every time I realize how much time I have been wasting.

I hate that I prefer instant gratification than actually putting my focus on a long term goal. I hate to disappoint everyone right now, I simply cannot forgive myself if I failed the bar exams this November.

There is a part of me that wishes the Bar Examination to be moved, I just do not have enough time to study all 8 subjects of the Bar. I do not know if my medications are working either. The anti-depressant surely helps with my temper but as to my focus? There's no change at all.

Why do I have to be born with ADHD? Why do I have to be so ambitious and lack the effort to pursue that ambition?

I hate myself sometimes.

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05/19/2021

Dear Tumblr,

Few days from now, review proper will be starting. I am not done yet with my Criminal Law Review and I have little to no motivation to do anything at all. I have been feeling under the weather lately and I hate it. I ask myself whether I am ready for this or not, the again, who is ready for anything?

My medications for my depression is helping me however, I am getting tired of taking them every night. The price we pay to feel better yeah?

I am trying my best to make myself healthy by keeping track of my daily calorie intake. I have been exercising religiously every afternoon and since yesterday, I started my ab workout. Getting your frustrations out through physical activities helps.

I saw someone liked one of my post. Someone is reading my random thoughts after all. To you stranger, thank you. It is nice to know someone is listening.

Yours truly,

Karlo

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04/30/2021

Dear World of Tumblr,

I still do not know if someone is actually reading the things I am writing here. Perhaps I am starting to be comfortable with the idea spreading my thoughts and my personal life to the world. Who knows?

I was actually thinking of spicing up my profile. Instead of putting my blogs on Blogspot, perhaps I can post my thoughts here where people may actually or accidentally stumble upon my works. Perhaps give me an idea or two about certain topics. In fact, I have an idea for my next blog entry. Perhaps I could possibly write about the general flaws of out penal system. I mean, I re-watched Shawshank Redemption last night with my partner and nothing really changed since that movie came out. Especially here in the Philippines. Who knows?

I have so many ideas as to what I want to do. I just cannot find the time to do it. I want to make videos and post them on Youtube but I do not have any place where I can actually film and I do not know what to say in front of the camera. I get conscious with the idea that I would be posting my face on the internet.

I want make blogs regarding the study of law and my thoughts about the topic but I am in no place to speak since I am not a lawyer yet. Goodness! I have so many excuses. I guess most people feel the same way too. People think I have my life in order but wait and see when they read the things I write here, I am just as human as they are. Prone to excuses, self-doubt, and do not have any clue with what they want to do with their lives.

Let's see. I have to muster up some courage first before I can actually do something good. It would take some discipline and some creativity, but who knows? Who knows. Life, after all, is just filled with so many uncertainties.

Till next time.

Karlo

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04/26/2021

Dear World of Tumblr,

I was half way done with the entry I was making then I tried this new shiny crap of Tumblr and everything I have just written was deleted. So I let's start from the top?

This has been quite a day for me. I started late since my fiancé was using my laptop for her work this morning. Sometimes I wish she would use her own laptop for these things. She has her own laptop, she is also using my old laptop, and now she is using my new laptop once in a while. I do not understand why she has to use so many device. I didn't even bother asking as she will take that as offensive (as always). A fight or an argument is the last thing I need right now.

I just finished organizing my Bar Review Schedule for both Jurists Bar Review and University of Cebu Bar Review. Unfortunately and as expected, most of the schedules are overlapping. Thank goodness my fiancé is here to attend those subjects I cannot attend. I really need someone to help me out with the notes I will be needing for review. The price we pay for ambition huh?

I do not know if someone actually read the crap I am posting here. I just need to vomit the thoughts in my head somewhere without any care as to the construction and grammar. Sometimes, trying to conform with the rules set by our society can be exhausting but I guess it is what makes the world go round.

My brother is cooking fried chicken fillet and spaghetti tonight. The smell makes me excited for dinner, I am famished. He got the skill I tell you that. I hope to establish a restaurant with him one day.

Anyway, I cannot eat dinner just yet as I have to finish some stuff before I have my dinner. I am planning to finish the topic for "probation" tonight so I can cover a lot of topics tomorrow. I have to really finish something before review starts.

Well, I guess that's all the thoughts I have right now. Till the next entry I guess?

Sincerely,

Karlo

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04/22/2021

Hello World of Tumblr, whoever you are.  I really do not know how this works or who’s even reading the things I am posting this.  I just had the urge to post something since I am just sick and tired of reviewing for the Bar.  

The preparation is mentally and physically draining.  I guess, by the end of the day, we can only hope that this would be worth the effort.

Anyway, whoever is reading this, let me know you are there.  At least I know I am not talking into the abyss. 

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