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ed

now that i’m on a better healthier diet I look back and see how ed didn’t really make sense and how I let it get to me !

i’m still eating a low calorie but this time my main focus is not focused on counting calories, i read the nutrition label, it does not make sense at all when your goal is being pretty skinny but your chugging down 23g of sugar, when i was close to my weight goal (I think i did reach it) I looked all boney and ugly ! That’s not my goal, even though I was skinner I was depressed and mad ugly, completely fooled thinking I’ll look prettier after all that hard work and time.

now i’m on a low calorie diet 700-2000k on weekends r cheat day/rest day/binge-ish (only Friday is my goal) and on week days I stay on the low. make sure I get all the right nutritions from breakfast to dinner, it only makes sense if I wanna reach my goal and look pretty, slim, strong and have permanent changes ! it’s so twisted ur goal is not to be reached like that even after you reach it your just sitting there mentally exhausted, this probably isn’t the condition of the ppl on ur inspo !

like i’m just eating 700-2000k, still drinking acv, taking cold showers, drinking cold water, fasting twice a week sometimes thrice, exercising without a strong fatigue feeling, drinking 1L of water. you can do all those weight loss hacks but instead of focusing on cals u focus nd count ur nutrition. I still get itchy skin this was due to my immune system which I believe is weak and never checked up on it, it often triggers when my food habit isn’t the best.

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not actual

But I’m introverted and I have to do something for someone, I don’t feel like it and I wanna k1ll myself because I have to do something

#introvert #homebody #cryfirst #sad #ihatecommunication #3am