owleyesisaslay

[owleyesisaslay]

“Battered and wrecked, I come to you, you first—”

— Homer, The Odyssey (tr. by Emily Wilson)

[owleyesisaslay]

it's me and my caffeinated drink against the world

[owleyesisaslay]

Do you remember the first time

I heard him cry

On that cold winter night?

I must've been around 11.

We were in the car,

I was at the back, looking at the stars

(It had a sunroof that never closed)

While my sisters both dozed.

You were on the phone to him while driving,

Arguing again-

Unfazed, my mind went miles away

From the car,

From the argument,

From the fact we had driven past our street.

We go to his gate.

This is nothing out of the ordinary,

For you two loved eachother so

That spending the whole night without seeing eachother was hard.

Usually a tender moment,

Corrupted with distrust and anger.

I drown out the voices with my imagination--

Until movement rips me back into the moment.

His clothes thrown out of the window.

Into the road.

You drive off without a speaking,

So I don't either.

I mimic my sisters next to me

And pretend to sleep,

So I don't have to pretend to understand

How in the span of a couple minutes,

Our once certain future, is uncertain.

You don't notice, or maybe you don't care,

That through the piercing silence,

I hear his muffled cries

Echoing from the car's speakers.

[owleyesisaslay]

On taking nudes:

Concealed within a digital folder,

That I really hope is secure,

Is a body that the dirty lens barely does

Any justice,

The face cropped out because it doesn't

Fit with my definition of beauty.

I put my phone down. Slowly.

Sit. Feel the tides shift.

Will I ever look at myself with kinder eyes?

Will this strange sense of guilt

Ever fade when I- just for a moment- think

That I am beautiful?

(inspired by this post)

[owleyesisaslay]

The clouds are all still in the sky

Clouds still in the sky

Catching fire in my palm

Go little firefly

Take yourself away from harm

Clouds still in the sky

A moment of mercy shown

Go little spider

Just watch where you roam

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Rebirth

Entangled limbs

Locked together and kissing hard.

Our mingled oxygen

And muted moans mixed.

So intoxicating,

Gets angels drunk.

High with pleasure,

I caught Satan's eye

And repented.

For I was never truely breathing until now.

[owleyesisaslay]

Carving his name in the sand

A small sea shell. 

Like a pen, it glides through the sand.

Crafting your name like

Deep scars in the ground 

I lay my thoughts bare.

Some proof that I was there.

Proud, I step back to

Admire you, until 

Every single trace

Is wiped away forever

Now an empty space is left

Where you once lay.

Not even the scars remain. 

You're lost like a fleeting thought.

Forgotten in everything but 

My damp ankles,

Weary footprints,

And the small sea shell  

Left half buried in the sand.

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The Station

Sun's gone and the clouds are settling in

The wind's brushing kisses on my neck

Long gone purfume hangs in the air

What was once full, is now empty

[owleyesisaslay]

An Anthem For The Fallen

Lifeless and empty,

They mold the path where others walk,

Alone, desperate to find fate.

They wander aimlessly,

Alone, in their little world.

Where can they find themselves?

Solemn and afraid,

They kiss their fallen comrade,

Goodnight, begging for kindness,

They are doused in pain,

Those sharp shocks that strike,

Daggers, through their decaying hearts.

Where can they find peace?

Cold and empty,

They are pressed fast into the cold ground,

Tethered to the dark.

They lay and gaze into the tired sky,

Wishing for the thousandth time,

They could fly.

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Mesmerised 

Your crisp halo 

Mesmerising like flames

Captivating, mesmerising. 

I am a simple moth to your flame.

Darling, please don't move

Just an inch

Left or right

And I'll burn- helpless, mesmerized.

Desperate for a simple look,

A passing touch,

Maybe a kiss.

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Cobwebs 

Laced with dew

Blow in the wind

Like a white flag 

Crying for help

[owleyesisaslay]

When you are young

You don’t notice summer fading

the temperature getting colder 

The change in the air

Until you look up one day

And all the leaves are gone

[owleyesisaslay]

An echo of warmth 

Scalds my soul

Wraps it’s fingers around my limbs

Caresses my jaw 

And tells me it will all be okay 

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In this barren morning,

The air is your presence 

You’re cloaking me 

Like a warm comfort

So close yet so far

You fill my lungs 

Evaporate my tears

Turn them into dew 

Let them fall to form oceans

Or watch them float up

In the Misty glow of the empty sun

The clouds are heavy with this

Gaping hole that leaves a scar

You’re so close yet so far

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You make me wish for rain

On a cold autumn day

The rain calling unheard 

As it hits the hard ground

We dance in the downpour 

Your hand at my hip and

Mine at your neck 

Eyes locked and ears gone deaf

All the colours melt gently 

As the rain blurs my sight

But, you are there strong

In the orange glow 

Darling, you’ve saved me

And let me be free. 

[owleyesisaslay]

What’s happening to you? 

You used to be cold as ice,

They stole me away from your arms, and now you burn my hand. 

You’re melting under my fingertips,

Cooking against my body,

Blazing at the sight of my eyes.

What’s happening to you? 

Your silver plated armour is falling away. 

To reveal your skin, soft to touch

With satin lips,

Silky breath,

Felt hands,

All reaching towards you. 

[owleyesisaslay]

One day I’ll pay you back.

You’ve pulled me from the ashes.

Saved me.

But it feels like I’m robbing an angel,

You whisper to me in dark candlelit rooms.

Little do you know, you’re the one who’s robbed.

I’ve examined every part of you

Inside and out

And I’ve fallen for each part.

And I’ll never let you go.

This is why you’re robbed, 

I’ll never let you go.

Not without a fight. 

You’re like home and I’m like moss on a tree. 

You’re my tree and you give me life.

I would plant you a rainbow of flowers in our garden, 

just to see your smile in spring.

And this is why I’ll pay you back.

My angel of roses and tears.