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Crimson Rivers typeset: books and their covers

fic by @mayzarbewithyou on ao3

art by @/likeafunerall on ig

typeset by me 😁

volume one is finished i'm still working on the other two since i want to make sure it's perfect i added everything in THIS drive doc 🫶🏼🫶🏼

This typeset is just for the first 25 chapters since i'm splitting up the fic in 3 books so 25 chapters for each volume !

feel free to use these at your own leisure , please send me a picture! i would love to see how they turn out 💘

some pictures to show how some of my favourite pages look like✨

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Lesbians, which one of you drinks vanilla extract and which one of you has ADHD

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I don’t know when it became mainstream to shit on girls for riding horses. It’s not cool. Even in the queer community I’ve heard countless horse girl jokes. In the new Hulu movie main character “Paige” swiftly decides to not approach a girl because she is a “ horse gay”. From my perspective I felt like I’d never find love growing up because I was gay. Now I’m out and happy and feel like I’m being prejudiced against for my profession. I think its a genuine problem for “ horse girls” to get stereotyped this way in media.

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I think I just realized why I get along so well with people that are extroverted, antagonistic, openly loud or egotistical even though I’m the complete opposite. It because at least they show you how they feel, they’re easy to read. Much easier than kind, healthy, wholesome people are to see through. Somewhere along the line I started to believe that happiness was a facade. Just a curtain to hide how you really feel. Easily faked. I guess it means I’d rather be stabbed in the front than in the back.

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The American conservative “advocates for parental rights in schools” known as Moms for Liberty have been busy working on making sure your children are protected from things like critical race theory (CRT), and any talk about gender identities (and LGBTQ+ stuff). Florida’s transphobic and homophobic and childhood-phobic conservatives scored a big legislative victory in March when state legislators were able to pass the “Don’t Say Gay” bill through into law. Its official name is the “Parental Rights in Education” bill and while it technically never mentions the word “gay,” the bill is a pretty obvious overreach into the rights of entire swathes of the American public. As such, lawsuits are already being filed against the Sunshine state.

Moms for Liberty’s Twitter account posted what they are calling a letter template for rebellious teachers to send home in regard to the new legal guidelines they are now forced to deal with as a result of the general pig-headed phobias of people like Moms for Liberty. Writing “A teacher in Palm Beach County, FL shared this template with us. It is being shared among teachers to use for grades K-3. How do you feel about this? What will you do when this arrives home in your child’s backpack? Time to take a Stand,” the letter is a little slice of genius, and the responses to this conservative freakout have been [takes a meditative breath] beautiful.

The letter serves to point out how, in its vague language, the bill’s authors have attempted to veil their bigotries and fears under the guise of parental rights. It does this by using the law’s truly banal purposes against the very parents who are pretending that this law isn’t very specifically about being homophobic and transphobic and queerphobic.

First the letter:

Dear Florida parent/caretaker:

The Florida house of Representatives has recently ruled that “Classroom instruction by school personnel or third parties on sexual orientation or gender identity may not occur in kindergarten through grade 3 or in a manner that is not age appropriate or developmentally appropriate for students.”

To be in accordance with this policy, I will no longer be referring to your student with gendered pronouns. All students will be referred to as “The” or “them.” I will no longer use a gendered title such as “Mr.” or “Mrs.” or make any references to my husband/wife in the classroom. From now on I will be using the non-gendered title “Mx.”

Furthermore, I will be removing all books or instruction which refer to a person being a “mother,” “Father,” “husband” or “wife” as these are gender identities that also may allude to sexual orientation. Needless to say, all books which refer to a character as “he” or “She” will also be removed from the classroom. If you have any concerns about this policy, please feel free to contact your local congressperson.

Thank you, Mx. XXXXXXXXXX

Whether this is a real “template” being handed out to teachers who see the don’t say gay bill for what it really is or if this is just one of those great memes that has truly pressed these “Moms for Liberty’s” buttons does not matter. Bridget Ziegler, co-founder of Moms for Liberty, Fox News talking face, and precinct committeewoman for the Republican Party of Sarasota County retweeted the letter, writing, “Once again, it’s unfortunate our students and their education are being hijacked by the Left’s culture wars.  Thank goodness more educators, many whom are parents of young children, are speaking up and pushing back!”

The responses have been wonderful.

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I’ve got to be honest

I think coming out to your family feels like pulling a dry tampon out.

Like pulling the dry tampon out of your soul for everyone to see.

It’s not a good feeling while it’s happening but once its out, you feel better.

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“My mother’s voice..”

I remember being 17 and hiding my smile talking to Julia in the corner store.

God forbid it shine to bright and show what lays beneath.

I think maybe people thought I was shy or aloof but really I’d say or do just about anything to keep them at arms distance.

Just far enough away that they couldn’t see the truth in my eyes.

I was yellow flowers and surface level friendliness and selective truth telling.

It was that summer that I realized I didn’t want to be that person anymore.

I wanted to be honest.. the type of honest I was as a child.

Open and unflinching maybe almost naively so

It was that summer that i realized i didn’t have to listen to the little voice in the back of my head telling me the way I felt was gross. It was my mother’s voice. Not mine.

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“I’m an accumulation of little traits from all the people I’ve ever loved”

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People with a family history of addiction and mental illness trying to self medicate

Me @ them & me :

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You don’t hate yourself.

You hate the mask you made to protect the real version of you from everyone else.

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“Pride has no place when it comes to the quality of one’s life.”

~ quotes from a book I’ll never write

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“Two birds of a feather

Say that they're always gonna stay together

But one's never going to let go of that wire

He says that he will

But he's just a liar

Two birds on a wire

One tries to fly away and the other

Watches him close from that wire

He says he wants to as well, but he is a liar”

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Topics that I want to reflect on this year.

Topic 1 : Privacy vs secrecy.

I’ve recently been listening to a lot of podcasts, most recently podcasts that Andrew Scott is featured in. He talks a lot about how he felt as a young gay person and brought up the distinction between privacy and secrecy.

I think that’s an important discussion to have. I think even if your ok and accepting of who you are, there are still times where you feel ashamed. Maybe not of being “queer” but of feeling like your keeping something to yourself that you don’t bring up in random conversation. It’s a strange gray area to live in. I want to be more mindful of that.

Another thing that he spoke about was the usage of the word “ openly” in media. How if you put the word “openly” in front of any other word ( for example openly Irish) it brings a sort of bad connotation to that word. As if to suggest that its something that’s usually done behind close doors or not normal. When it is normal really. Just another random fact about you. Possibly less important than the fact that you like to put ketchup on your eggs. Which in my opinion is a deal breaker…

I don’t really know where I’m going with this little tangent but I needed to document it because it felt important and I’ll come back to it.

Part 1….

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we have to put you in the hourglass again im sorry we all had a meeting about it and we decided we hate you and you are going to be put in an hourglass