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Joaquin Torres x f!reader

The aftermath of sleeping with your best friend is never good—feelings grow where they weren't supposed to, and it drives a wedge in your relationship. Then things change...

warnings: 18+ mdni, fluff, to me joaquin is a very touchy person, little angst(?), overuse of the L word, cocky!Joaquin, mentions of sex, smut, no physical description of reader except being slightly shorter than Joaquin, petnames, mentions of eating and food, mentions of alcohol and drinking, mentions/description of reader having a panic attack, platonic sam wilson

wc: 8.3K

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“We should really stop doing this,” you pull your shirt over your head and look at Joaquin. He’s still wrapped up in the sheets, his hair a mess of curls and an amused expression gracing his face. He leans on one elbow, body turned in your direction as he watches you dress yourself. 

“Why?” He almost laughs as he says it, and you feel your chest tighten at the sound. 

“Because-“ you actually can’t think of a reasonable way out of this, other than outwardly telling him you can’t keep doing this. “Because you shouldn’t be so distracted.” The lie slips out so easily, but you can't find it in you to look him in the eye when you say it.

“I felt pretty focused last night.” He smugly spoke, a goofy grin appearing. He really wasn’t making this easy. 

“You have better things to focus on, y'know, like saving the world.” You quip back, turning away from Joaquin, unable to glance in those chestnut eyes any longer. You distract yourself by pulling on your pants, acting as if that’s the reason you turned away and not because he has never looked more attractive than in this moment. 

“I can focus on two things at once, you know? I’m very talented.” You can’t help the chuckle that leaves you; his overconfidence always seems to bring a smile to your face. You remember that shy little kid that you’d always share your lunch with, the one whose confidence grew after puberty when the girls suddenly started flocking to him. You can still see a glimpse of his former self every so often, but you love it when the confident man he’s turned into oozes out. 

There’s a deafening silence after he speaks, and you don’t know how to leave now. You’d convinced yourself it would be easy to break off the whole sleeping with your best friend thing. You thought he’d be fine with going back to being just friends. 

“Hey,” Joaquin’s voice is softer than before, coaxing you into looking around at him. There’s concern etched into his features as he sits upright, “If you don’t want to do this anymore, that’s okay.” You bite down on the inside of your lip and swallow down the lump forming in your throat. 

“I just think you have a lot going on right now, Mr Falcon.” You’re deflecting, trying to play off the hurt in your voice and forcing a smile that doesn’t quite reach your eyes. Joaquin smiles at you using his new title, but it fades just as quickly as it appeared. “I should probably go.”

“You don’t have to leave.” His reply comes before you’ve even finished. 

“I have that thing and I have to do some stuff, so I should,” you know that he can see right through you. You’ve been friends long enough to be able to read each other like a book. This isn’t how you usually act around each other; it’s odd and uncomfortable, but since you realised you had growing feelings for him, you haven’t been the same. 

It started simple, you worried about him every time he was on a mission, wondering if he’d come home in one piece or not. Then you felt tingly every time he sent a text to say he missed you. After a drunken night, you two had slipped into bed together, and suddenly you weren’t just friends. That began the craving for his touch. Not even in a sexual way, you just wanted to feel his hand on your back, his presence beside you, his head in your lap. You thought about him all the time, too. What was he doing, where was he, did he think about you? But it wasn’t until one of your friends mentioned the way you always lit up when you spoke about him that it all clicked. Instantly, you knew, after over a decade of friendship—and months of occasionally sleeping together—that you were completely head over heels for Joaquin. 

“I’ll- I- see you later,” you scoop up your remaining belongings that are strewn on the floor, haphazardly moving toward the door. Joaquin is moving behind you, softly calling your name as you beeline for the exit. You don’t even stop to put your shoes on, just grabbing them and swinging the door open. Joaquin’s right behind you, just out of arm's reach, and you know he knows something is wrong. You can’t bring yourself to look at him any longer, knowing every second you look, you fall a little bit deeper. The door shuts before Joaquin can reach you, the solid wood separating you both. You stood with your back against the door, taking deep breaths before snapping yourself back into reality. 

You are so fucked.

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A week goes by, and you’ve barely spoken to Joaquin, let alone seen him. You use the excuse that Sam whisked him away for a few days to go on some scouting mission, but now you have no choice but to face the music. The day after they arrived back, Sam had invited a group of people, you included, to his place for a late afternoon barbecue, and you knew Joaquin would be there. 

As you're out on the deck chatting to this woman you’ve never met before, you see him, he saunters in full of confidence with a smile on his face. You can’t help but think about how much you’ve missed him, and it’s only been a week. Your eyes keep moving between him and the woman you’re desperately trying to focus on as she tells you something about her kids… or her cats? Joaquin is welcomed by a few people as he enters the garden, and he briefly stops to exchange pleasantries before moving on. He grows closer, and now you can’t quite drag your eyes away from him. You fight the urge to excuse yourself and immediately go to him like you usually would, but there’s a hidden tension between you both, and it keeps your feet planted where they are. Your attention snaps back to the woman in front of you when you register the tail end of her question. 

“You know what I mean?” You’re so glad she was too absorbed in her story to realise you weren’t paying attention. 

“Uh Huh, yeah!” You nod enthusiastically. 

“Speaking of my husband, I'd better go check that he’s not drinking all of Sam’s beer. It was nice meeting you!” The woman walks off in the direction of the kitchen, and you find yourself looking out to where you last saw Joaquin, but he’s nowhere to be seen. You sigh and lean against the railing, looking down at the gathering of people below. Knowingly searching for that familiar face. 

“You look exactly like a girl I know!” Suddenly, Joaquin is by your side, startling you as he casually leans his back against the railing. “Unfortunately, she went awol about a week ago, but you… You’re the spitting image.” You feel a heat grow from your chest and move upward to your face. He finally looks at you, a bright smile on his face, and sheepishly, you spin the ring on your finger. You can’t bring yourself to respond or even look at him, feeling terrible for your lack of communication. “Hey,” Joaquin nudges you with his elbow, and your head turns slightly in his direction, “I missed you.” That brings a smile to your face as well as an eruption of butterflies in your stomach. 

“I missed you, too.” Joaquin’s smile grows, and he lifts an arm out, signalling for you to fall into his arms like you always do. “I’m sorry for going awol,” you easily slip your arms around his waist as he tightens his around your shoulders. It’s like you can feel the tension disappear the longer you hold each other. 

“It’s okay, just don’t disappear like that again.” Your whole body shudders when you feel his lips on your temple, it’s almost like he knows what he’s doing to you. You’re convinced he can feel the way your heart is racing, so you pull back, keeping a smile plastered to your face. 

“I’m glad you managed to survive a week without me.” Joaquin laughs at your words, and it seems to relax you. He keeps his arm securely around you and pulls you in the direction of the kitchen. 

“Another few days and I would’ve been a goner.” It’s your turn to laugh, and the sound makes him grin, his hand squeezing your shoulder, “Come on, I need a drink.”

Just like that, you both fall back into stride with one another, laughing and eating, then drinking until the sun goes down. 

“I think he’s had enough,” Sam laughs as you all watch Joaquin stumble into the doorway on his way into the kitchen. 

“You’re the one who bet him $20 that he couldn’t shotgun a beer three times!” You point at Sam, laughing too. 

“It was twice! The kid’s just a lightweight.” Joaquin appears by your side, a goofy grin plastered to his face when he locks eyes with you. You can see just by the look in his eyes that he’s tired. 

“I am not a lightweight!” Joaquin’s mind slowly catches up, and he waves a finger at Sam, causing the few people in the room to chuckle. 

“Okay, well, prove it.” Sam slides another beer across the kitchen island, and your much less impaired reflexes stop it from slipping off the counter entirely. 

“Weren’t you just the one who said he’d had enough?” You quip, raising an eyebrow at Sam. 

“I don’t feel good.” Your head immediately whips around to Joaquin, concerned by his claim. His face scrunches up, and a hand comes up to his head. 

“Why don’t you go lie down?” Your hand reaches out to rub his arm, and he just groans in response. “Come on, I’ll take you.” You help him turn back the way he just came, his body swaying so much that you wrap your arm around him. “If he’s sick, you’re cleaning it up, Wilson!” You call out over your shoulder as you assist Joaquin to Sam’s spare room, a room you’ve crashed in a handful of times before. Sam hollers back a few expletives as you exit, but you choose to ignore him. Instead, your focus is now fully on Joaquin. He’s like a dead weight as he sinks more into you the further you walk. He’s all encompassing; the heaviness of his arm around your shoulders, the heat of his body, the strong scent of his aftershave, it’s almost overwhelming.

“Why did you drink so much?” He’s practically whining when you sit him down on the bed, his body swaying slightly. Cautiously, you remove your hands from him. 

“I had to.” You kneel in front of him and start undoing the laces of his shoes, but he is completely unwilling to assist you. He keeps his feet planted on the floor, making it difficult to get the shoes off. 

“You didn’t have to do anything.” You giggle when you look up to see his brow furrowed and his bottom lip jutted out. 

“I did,” he whines again, “had to forget.” 

“You’re not making sense,” he sounds like a small child who isn’t willing to share all the details of why they’re upset. You do your best to manoeuvre his legs up onto the bed now that you've got his shoes off. 

“I love you,” Joaquin whimpers as he finally helps to move his body to lie down. Meanwhile, now you’re frozen, just blinking at him, unsure what to do. “I love you so much, but I don’t think you love me.” 

You’re about a second away from calling Sam in here to clean up your puke. Joaquin’s words render you speechless while he remains unbothered, just snuggling into the pillow, ready to rest. Your mouth opens as if to talk, but only a shaky breath comes out. You stutter out his name but get no response; the man just voiced a deep, dark secret and then fell dead asleep. A sigh leaves you as you look at him, so peacefully unaware that he’s changed your entire life with one simple sentence. You pull a blanket from the bottom of the bed to cover his body and take another look at his face. For a moment, you allow yourself to indulge, your fingers reaching to brush against his cheek. He rubs his face against the pillow like a cat before letting out a deep sigh and relaxing again. 

“The bird brain must come with the suit.”

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You’re startled awake by a hand on your shoulder, your eyes blinking a few times before Joaquin’s smiling face isn’t blurry. It takes your mind a minute to fully wake up, Joaquin’s words filtering through slowly. 

“Good morning, sleeping beauty.” He crouches down to be eye level with you. A sleepy smile crosses your face. “What are you doing sleeping on a very uncomfortable-looking chair?” You take a second to remember what led up to this moment, memories flooding back. 

“I was keeping an eye on you. I must have fallen asleep.” You straighten your back, feeling new aches as you stretch. “You were pretty drunk last night.” There’s a grin on his face that you mirror. 

“Yeah, I have a headache to prove it,” he chuckles. 

“Did you-“ he cuts you off before you can even finish. 

“Yes, I took the Advil and chugged the water.” You settle back in the chair, although you don’t relax as you feel Joaquin’s hand on your thigh, his thumb rubbing back and forth. It makes your heart rate spike. “Thank you for taking care of me, you didn’t have to do that.”

“I know that’s what makes me so nice,” you say in a cheery tune, and without thinking, your hand reaches up to smooth back some of the hair that had fallen in his eyes. Joaquin lets out a satisfied sigh when your fingertips press against his scalp. 

“Oh, keep doing that,” he manoeuvres his body to sit at your feet, easily making space for himself between your legs and placing his head in your lap. “‘feels good.” You obey his request, combing your fingers through his hair and enjoying the way his eyes shut softly at your touch. You stay locked together like this for a moment before your brain ultimately begins overthinking. Like he can sense it, Joaquin speaks up, “Why didn’t you just sleep in the bed? It’s not like we haven’t done that before.” He keeps his head planted in your lap, his eyes still shut, he looks so relaxed, but your head swims with anxiety. 

“I told you I didn’t mean to fall asleep.” You try to keep your voice steady, convincing yourself that you wouldn’t have rather slept right next to him last night instead of this crappy little chair. 

“So you would’ve slept with me given the choice?” You choke on nothing but air, and Joaquin peeks an eye open before a short chuckle escapes him.

You clear your throat and put on a snarky tone, “I like you better when you’re sleeping.”

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“Please come to dinner,” Joaquin whines, clapping his hands together like he’s praying. “You know that my mom loves you, and you can be my buffer.”

“Buffer for what?” You laugh at Joaquin’s dramatic flair, “Actually, no! Your mom has come here to visit you, not me.” 

“Please, you know she’s going to grill me about my personal life and all this new Avengers stuff.” He now waves his hands in the air, making sure to punctuate every word, “plus she’s been asking about you, so it’s a win-win situation.” You look at Joaquin, pretending to think it over, but your facade fades when he gives you a comically wide smile. You can never find it in you to say no to him, especially when he looks at you like that.

“Fine,” you playfully roll your eyes when Joaquin overexcitedly begins celebrating, “but you’re making tamales!”

You’re stunned when Joaquin’s lips come in contact with your cheek, but you play it off with a small chuckle. 

“You got it!” Joaquin starts walking backwards, the biggest grin on his face as he points at you, “I’ll see you tomorrow at 6!”

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“Hey!” Joaquin immediately pulls you over the threshold into a tight hug. You barely manage to breathe out a small hi before he’s dragging you into his apartment and presenting you in front of his mother. You pretty much get the same treatment from her; she squeals your name before rushing out of the kitchen. Her arms are around you in a second, and you giggle at her welcome. Immediately, she begins asking you questions, not even allowing you a second to answer before she’s onto the next. She directs you to sit on the couch next to her, and she keeps your hands cupped in hers. 

Joaquin’s mother has always treated you as if you were one of her own. When you were younger and you’d come over to hang out with Joaquin, she’d ensure you were always fed before leaving. She always included you in family outings or Sunday dinners. She was like a second mother to you, and you were always grateful that she loved you so sincerely. 

“Ma, come on, if you’re gonna ask a question, you’ve got to leave room for an answer.” Joaquin interrupts only for his mother to tut and wave him off. You grin when you see Joaquin roll his eyes and shake his head as he moves back to the kitchen. 

“You look good, cariño.” One of her hands strokes your face before cupping your cheek, “Oh, te he extrañado.” You smile so much that your cheeks hurt. You’ve been around Joaquin and his family long enough to have picked up more than a few words in Spanish, and you’ve become somewhat okay at following a conversation in the language. Joaquin interrupts again, calling for his mom to help in the kitchen. She sighs and mumbles to herself, asking how he manages to survive without her, before she moves off to help. 

Only seconds later, Joaquin comes through the kitchen door, his hands raised in surrender, and you can hear his mom telling him off for something. 

“I am not allowed in the kitchen anymore.” He plops down beside you on the couch, resting an arm behind you. 

“What did you do?” You stifle a giggle because you can still hear his mom muttering loudly. 

“I may have burnt her rice a little.” He winces when he says it, and you laugh, remembering the day his mom made him make multiple pots of rice until he got it right. Joaquin complained for a week straight about his arms aching from all the work. 

“You’re never going to be allowed in the kitchen again,” you both laugh, and your head absentmindedly rests back against his arm as the noise dies out. Your heart thumps in your chest at the way he looks down at you. For a second, it feels like you’re being drawn together, an invisible force pulling you both in. You can’t help it when your eyes flicker to his lips; it’s been too long since you’ve kissed him, and your mind berates you for giving that up. You swear he can read your mind because now he’s looking at your lips, and you're convinced he’s getting closer. 

“Come sit!” You both jump apart like two teenagers caught with the bedroom door shut as his mother's voice sounds through the apartment, “The food’s ready.”

You feel happy, and your appetite is sated. You’ve always enjoyed being around Joaquin and his family. It’s a side of your friend that not many get to see. He’s shyer in his mother’s company, not so cocky and over the top but still very much himself. He tells wild stories, going into great detail, and he manages to command the room whether there are 2 or 200 people. But he’s still just that shy kid at his core, the one who clams up when his mom brings up how unorganised his apartment is or how he needs to visit home more often. 

“Mi corazón, when are you going to find a nice girl and give me grand babies?” Joaquin’s mom suddenly blurts out as he refills your glass. He almost spills the drink all over the table at the shock of his mother's words. 

“Ay mami, not this again!” Joaquin groans, a hand coming up to scrub over his face. 

“What?” She looks at you confused before opening her mouth again, “It doesn’t have to be a girl. You want to meet a nice boy?” 

“Ma!” The pair delve into their native language, arguing about the topic while you sit with a hand covering your mouth. Joaquin takes one look at you and you almost lose it, stifling your giggles behind your hand. 

His mother says your name and instantly stops your amusement. “You would both make beautiful grandchildren.” Your eyes go wide, looking at Joaquin and seeing a look of embarrassment wash over him. It’s not the first time someone has said something like that about you both, insisting that you’d both be a good couple, that you should be together. They even did it one time when Joaquin had just introduced his family to his girlfriend of 6 months years ago. 

Joaquin’s chair scrapes against the floor, and in an instant, he’s on his feet. 

“Okay, I think you’ve had enough!” His hand grabs the almost empty wine glass that sits on the table in front of his mother. He picks up more dishes as she begins to protest, and they argue more. You decide to help with clearing the table, really just trying to avoid being brought into the conversation again. The pair don’t seem to notice you slip away from the table and go towards the kitchen. You can still hear them arguing in the other room as you begin to place the dirty dishes into the dishwasher. 

“She’s going to kill me if she sees you doing dishes.” Joaquin stands in the doorway, holding more dishes in his hands. “It’s the least I can do,” you say while continuing to fill the dishwasher. Joaquin begins assisting you until all of the dishes are put away. 

“Thank you,” Joaquin holds out an arm, hooking it around your shoulders and pulling you into him. You sink into his hold, your arms coming around his waist. It’s almost like you feel his body relax the second you’re pressed together. “You don’t have to thank me for doing the dishes, I told you it’s the least I could do.”

“I’m not talking about that.” His other arm circles around your shoulders, and now he hugs you tightly. His chin comes to rest on the top of your head, “I mean, just thank you. For being here, for everything.” You pull back to look at him, and suddenly you’re hit by an overwhelming feeling. It leaves you frozen, looking up at Joaquin’s bright eyes that stare back at you. There’s a second where his gaze falls downward; had you blinked, you would’ve missed it, but you didn’t, you saw the way he looked at your lips. Now you’re copying him, glancing at his lips, and your breath hitches when you feel his hand come in contact with your cheek. Fingers slowly and deliberately brushing against your skin, your lips part, and a shaky breath escapes you. Joaquin’s eyes keep darting across your face, and your mind races at the close proximity. Your hands slide around to rest on his sides, fingers gripping the fabric of his shirt as if to anchor you to him. You both seem to move in slowly, foreheads gently pressing together, and Joaquin nudges his chin towards yours. His lips barely brush yours, breaths mixing for a few seconds. It’s like he’s waiting for you to decide, like he wants to know if you want this too. It would be so easy to kiss him right now, but what would that mean? Guilt begins to wrack through your body. He doesn’t know that you know, you don’t even know if he meant what he said at Sam’s house. 

“I-I,” You stutter out, preparing yourself to ask him if he meant it, but your lack of conviction throws Joaquin. He pulls away from you almost instantly, and you feel a shiver run through your body.

“I’m sorry.” He doesn’t even look at you when he says it, and you feel your heart splinter. “No, no, I just need to-” You’re cut off when Joaquin’s mom enters the kitchen, and you both instantly act like what just happened didn’t happen. 

“I cannot believe you would leave your precious mami alone at the dinner table.” She remarks, tapping her hand against Joaquin’s cheek. “I left you your wine glass, didn’t I?” Joaquin quips, directing his attention to his mother now. He slips an arm around his mother’s shoulders and turns her back out of the kitchen. They fall into a conversation and leave you standing, lost in your thoughts, alone in the kitchen.

You’ve messed up, and you don’t know how to fix it.

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You waited until his mom returned to Miami to attempt to bring up the topic of that night, but every time you tried, Joaquin seemed to change the subject. He then seemed to be avoiding you; his messages grew further apart, and his reasoning for not hanging out became less believable as the days went on. It soon turned into weeks of not seeing one another, and your heart ached. You wanted things to go back to normal.

“You ready?” Sam’s voice filters through your thoughts, and you look up at him, a half-hearted smile on your face when you see his hand outstretched toward you. Your head nods as you take his hand and stand from your chair.

Sam had been invited to a big fancy charity gala, and he had asked you to be his plus one, something that you cautiously accepted. It was a big deal to be seen alongside the Captain America, and you knew that Sam had asked you because it would be good for his public image. That and people knew you were both close friends, and nothing more, minus a few stray publications that liked to stir up drama at any given moment.

“You look good.” Sam compliments you once you’re both in the car, and the driver takes off for your destination, you turn to smile at your friend. “Thanks, you don’t look half bad yourself.” Sam swipes his hands against his lapels, clearly feeling himself in that moment. 

The rest of the car journey is quiet, just the sounds of the street outside and the radio that quietly lulls through the speakers. It’s completely the opposite when you step out of the car; there’s a carpet to walk on, and photographers line both sides. Nerves creep in when you take in the sea of people and all the flashing lights, but Sam’s there to help you along. You’re glad when his assistant only makes you stand in a handful of photos; you can already see the headlines that those specific tabloids will make up by morning. You mostly get to stand on the sidelines, watching Sam pose for pictures, and you actually begin to enjoy yourself. You get a laugh out of Sam’s natural charisma when he answers questions in interviews or when he tells the cameras to get his good side. You’re almost done with the carpet when you hear commotion behind you, your gaze falls to the source, and you’re surprised by what you see. Joaquin stands tall in a stunning forest green suit, and you’re genuinely left speechless. Cameras snap pictures of him, then there’s a commotion again when he lifts a hand out to the side, and your smile falls when you see a beautiful woman emerge from the crowd of people on the carpet. She stops at Joaquin’s side, tucking herself under his arm, and they look into each other’s eyes a little too longingly. They pose for pictures together, her hand comes to rest on his chest before she tucks away a stray curl from the side of his face. They appear to exchange words before she giggles at whatever was said, and suddenly, you feel sick. You can’t seem to drag your eyes away from the pair as they move up the carpet together. You feel a tightness spread through your chest, and your clothes suddenly feel like they're restricting your ability to breathe. You can feel all the joy drain from your body, and suddenly the ground feels as if it’s crumbling under you. 

“You alright?” Sam’s hand cups your elbow, pulling your attention to him, and you try to open your mouth to say something, but you only manage to take in a stuttered breath. Your hands feel shaky, and your eyes sting. Sam doesn’t wait for an answer when he sees your distressed state. He’s subtle in the way he manoeuvres you inside, out of the paparazzi's beady eyes. You’re not even sure where you’re going, eyes glued to the ground as your head swims with thoughts. 

“Take a deep breath.” You can hear Sam’s voice, but it feels far away. “Hey, eyes on me.” You look up, overwhelmed to see you’re somewhere else, somewhere unknown. Then your eyes find Sam’s, and he instructs you again to take a deep breath. This time, you try. Sam follows suit; you mirror each other, taking deep breaths until Sam sees you coming back to yourself. “What’s going on with you two?” You’re taken aback by the question, your gaze falling downwards. He doesn’t even have to say his name for you to know who he’s talking about.

“It’s nothing.” You mutter quietly, wringing your hands together as if the nervous tick wouldn’t give you away.

“You just had a panic attack at the sight of him. It’s not nothing.” Sam speaks sternly, and when you look up at him again, his eyebrow is raised; there’s no chance you’re leaving here without telling him the truth.

You can’t look at him when you speak, tears welling in your eyes again. “I’m in love with him.” Sam’s the first person you’ve admitted that to, and if you weren’t in your current predicament, you’d maybe feel slightly relieved by the admission. Sam goes to respond, but you cut him off, feeling the need to give him all the information. “And we’ve been sleeping together.” Sam can’t hide his surprise at that confession, and you find yourself tripping over your words, unable to stop the word vomit. “I mean, we were until I told him we should stop. And then you remember your barbecue a few weeks back?” Sam nods, listening to every word. “Well, when I put him to bed, he told me he loved me, but he was drunk, so he didn’t mean it right?” Sam tries to interrupt, but you just keep going. “Then I think we almost kissed the other week, but I stopped him because I felt guilty for not talking to him about what he said at your house. We’ve barely spoken in the last week, now he’s here with-with.” You can’t bring yourself to admit it, to say he’s moved on to someone else, that he looks happy without you. “ I messed up, I messed up so bad, Sam.” Your head falls into your hands, and embarrassment seeps into your mind. This was not the time or place to have such a breakdown.

“Are you done?” Sam waits a beat to ask his question since you interrupted his prior efforts to speak. You can’t even will yourself to speak again, fearing you’ll make this all worse. So, you lift your head, sheepishly looking at Sam before nodding. “You two are the most oblivious people I’ve ever met, and I’ve met a lot of idiots.” His hand rests on your shoulder, and he cranes his neck down to force eye contact. Your brows join together at his words, but he pauses your stream of thoughts. “Stay here, I’ll be right back.” Sam pats your shoulder before turning away from you and leaving abruptly. 

Now that you’re left alone, your eyes scan the foreign room. It’s just a small side room, close enough to the foyer that you can still hear the roar of people on the carpet and in the building. It’s dimly lit, but you can make out the few pieces of art hanging on the walls and some scattered pieces of furniture. You find a chair tucked into an alcove near the door, and sit, your foot nervously tapping against the marble floor. The wait feels never-ending. You’re not even sure where Sam was going, what he was doing or why he had you wait here. Did he just want you to get yourself together so you could go out there and do what you were here to do?

The clicking of your heel stops the second you hear the door open. “Careful, man, do you know how expensive this suit was?” You swear your heart stops when you hear Joaquin’s voice. You will the ground to open up and eat you whole, the last thing you want is for Joaquin to see you like this. The pair fully enter the room, and Sam closes the door behind him. “What was so important that I couldn’t finish my conversation?” Joaquin’s voice dies out when his eyes lock on yours, and that sick feeling washes over you again. 

“You,” Sam points in your direction, “up.” You listen to his instruction, standing from the chair as they approach you. Sam has a hand wrapped around Joaquin’s bicep, directing him toward you. Joaquin says a few words, but Sam stops him, holding a hand in the air to silence him. He drops both his hands at his sides before he speaks again. “You two need to talk. Figure out whatever is going on here.” Joaquin keeps his eyes on Sam, looking at him with confusion, which makes Sam roll his eyes. “You are in love with him.” Sam gestures at you, then Joaquin. “And you are in love with her.” He does the opposite now. “Now figure your shit out.” Sam immediately turns and begins to step towards the door. “Where the hell are you going?” Joaquin raises his voice. “Well, I’ve got a better chance with your date than with mine. So, I’ll be out there mingling.” He says matter-of-factly before turning away again and leaving the room permanently.

You could cut the tension in the room with a knife. It’s so uncomfortable to be like this with your best friend. The silence is eating you alive. Joaquin hasn’t even looked at you since Sam’s proclamation. 

“You two looked good together.” You cringe the second the words leave your mouth, and you look anywhere but at him, even when you know his eyes are finally on you again. “She’s not- She’s just someone from work. I got paired with her for the gala. It’s just a publicity stunt.” Joaquin replies quickly, and you catch him fidgeting with the cuffs of his jacket. “She’s nice but she’s not…” his sentence trails off, and your eyes finally fall on him. He looks even better this close up; it makes your thoughts falter. “Not what?” You cautiously ask, slightly scared of the answer. There’s a moment's silence before he finishes his thought. “Well, she’s not you.” He breathes out, and with your eyes on him, you see the nervousness written all over his face. 

“Did you mean it?” The words come out before you can fully register them, and your heart races the closer you are to the answer. “Mean what?” Confusion crosses his features at your question, and you have to swallow down your fear. You’re in this now; it’s now or never. “You told me you loved me, and you didn’t think I felt the same.” Joaquin’s eyes widen, but you continue. “You were drunk, and if you didn’t mean it, that’s okay.” 

“I meant it.” He interrupts, not allowing you to finish whatever you were going to say. Silence envelops you both again. Your mind races, never once had you entertained the idea that he would be in love with you. Not even after he had admitted it to your face. Now you’re unsure where to go from here. 

“I have loved you for a long time.” You look at him with wide eyes, Joaquin’s now the one trying to look anywhere but at you. “When you didn’t mention it that morning, I convinced myself it was a dream.” His eyes are glassy, and you can feel your stomach sinking. “I thought when you cut things off, that you didn’t feel the same. I thought-“

“Stop thinking.” You’re rushing toward him before you can convince yourself otherwise. Your hands go to his face, and finally, after so long, your lips are pressed together again. You’re rushing through it, whereas Joaquin’s slow. His hands hesitantly rest on your hips, and you can feel how tense he is just by being near him. 

“Wait.” You pull your face away the second you hear him speak, but your hands stay put on either side of his face. You’re still close enough to feel his breath on your face. “What does this mean?” Joaquin sounds so meek, and if this were any other situation, you might have laughed. Instead, you look at him and try to convey the emotions that you feel for him. When that doesn’t seem enough, you open your mouth to speak. “It means I love you, too.” Joaquin’s the one who surges forward this time, he kisses you with fervour now. It knocks all the air out of your lungs, and you cling to him like never before. His arms slip around your back, pulling you flush against him now. The kiss quickly becomes passionate, your tongues mingling as your chests heave. Your hand slips into his hair, messing up the styled locks immediately. 

“Hold on.” Joaquin retreats again; he sounds out of breath when he speaks, and your hazy brain becomes confused. Was this not what you both wanted? “No, no. Just give me a second.” He kisses you again as if he can see the panic in your eyes, but you’re still confused when Joaquin moves away from you. A chill hits you now that his warmth isn’t encompassing you. You watch as Joaquin goes to the door, opening it just enough for his head to fit, and he looks out as if he’s surveying the area. Then he’s shutting the door again, and there’s an echoed click before he turns back to you. 

“What are you doing?” You ask curiously as he approaches you. “Something I should’ve done a long time ago.” The moment he’s close enough, he reaches for you, arms securing around your waist. His hands rest on your back as he dives in for another kiss, this time with the confidence you’re used to. Your hands come up to rest on his chest, under the lapels of his jacket, and you're pushing the clothing off his shoulders somewhat absentmindedly. Joaquin dominates the kiss easily, slipping his tongue into your mouth as he walks you backwards. You bump into the arm of the chair you had perched on earlier, and you break apart momentarily to giggle as Joaquin apologises. His hand comes up to hold the back of your head just before your back comes in contact with a wall. Your lips part once again, both panting as you observe one another. 

“Is this okay?” Joaquin’s confidence falters momentarily, but you don’t allow his doubt to creep in. Immediately, you nod your head before speaking. “This…This is all I’ve thought about for months.” A grin spreads over his face, and his head falls to your shoulder as if he’s suddenly gotten all shy. “Months, really?” His breath hits your neck and causes a shiver to run through your body. Then, as you open your mouth to speak, he presses his lips to your neck, and your breath hitches this time. You make room for him, your head lolling to the side as he continues to kiss along the column of your neck. “Probably since that first night you kissed me.” Your words come out ragged as his hands move along your body with newfound confidence. “Really?” His head raises, and he looks down at you. There’s a dark glint in his eyes, a look you’re somewhat familiar with but haven’t seen in quite some time. You nod your head hastily before you’re dragging him back in. One hand pulls him by the back of the neck while the other tugs on his dress shirt. Your lips are on his once again, you part only for a moment to speak. “I think it’s obvious that I want you. Now, are you going to do anything about it?” It’s Joaquin’s turn to pull you in; he kisses you with passion as his wandering hands attempt to manoeuvre your clothing. Gasps fall past your lips when only moments later, his fingers expertly slip into your underwear. Joaquin pulls his head back, a smirk plastered to his face as he takes in your reaction to his touch. He breathes heavily as he watches the way you keen for him the second he slips a finger into you. Your whole body rises, hands clinging to Joaquin as he finds the perfect rhythm. It’s a blessing and a curse that he already knows all the ways to please you, and he seems to take great joy in that fact. His name slips out of your mouth, mixed with a choked moan. 

“I’m here. I’ve got you.” He kisses your cheek, then along your jaw until he makes his way back to your neck. He slows his hand and eases another digit into you. Your breathing stutters, and instinctively, your leg raises, knee resting against his hip. Joaquin’s free hand moves along your thigh, holding the flesh firmly in place. The new angle has Joaquin’s palm grinding against your clit and the feeling becomes overwhelming when he picks up the pace. His fingers rock into you quicker now, and you pull him closer, your arm now wrapped around the back of his neck. You had tried to muffle your moans, biting down hard on your lip, but eventually they began to slip through the cracks. You had to clasp your hand over your mouth to suppress a particularly loud moan. “Is that it, baby? That feel good?” His voice is muffled, vibrating against your neck. He pulls back after he says it, a dark look in his eyes. An embarrassingly piercing noise escapes you when your eyes fall on his face. A few stray curls fall into his eyes, and impulsively, your hand moves up to push them back. Your fingers barely press against his scalp, but it’s enough for his eyes to flutter shut for just a second, his pace faltering too. 

“I love you.” The words slip out when your eyes lock with his, and you watch a smile grow on his face. Joaquin shifts forward, a chaste kiss pressed to your lips. “I love you.” He reassures before kissing you again, and that’s enough to bring you to the precipice. Your hand grips his shoulder agonisingly tight while the other slips into his hair. The groan he lets out when your fingers accidentally tug on his curls sends you straight over the edge. You tug him forward, pressing your head into his neck as your body is wracked with pleasure. This time feels different to all the times before, something about the confessions of love that made this orgasm feel more intense than the others. Your mind feels dizzy, your fingers ache from how hard you’re gripping onto him, and the blood pumping in your ears is deafening. 

“I got you. I got you, angel.” Your mind had gone blank, but Joaquin’s gentle voice slowly pulled you back. He quietly shushes you when you whine as he gradually slips his fingers from you. “It’s okay, baby. Just hold on for me.” Lazily, you lift your head until it rolls back, thudding against the wall. Immediately, Joaquin’s brows pull together, and the hand that was resting on your leg comes up to the back of your neck. “Hey, careful!” A dopey grin appears on your face as you look up at him. He catches you staring, and the concern that was just etched into his features disappears instantly. 

“You love me.” You’re beaming when you speak, your brain still in a hazy post orgasmic state. His lips curved upwards, and his light chuckle echoed in the room. “Yeah. I really do. And you love me.” His thumb brushes against your cheek, and there are a few seconds where you both just stare into one another’s eyes. “Always.” You both lean in, lips brushing together until a loud banging pulls you apart. You both look at the source before Joaquin turns back to you. “Stay there.” He presses another kiss to your lips before he moves away. The lack of his presence sobers you up instantly, your logical brain kicking in. Your hands move quickly to fix your ruffled clothing as Joaquin unlocks the door and opens it to reveal Sam. Joaquin had tried to only open the door a fraction, but Sam’s able to push it open further without much effort. 

“When I told you to figure your shit out I didn’t mean trigger the security to a possible safety risk.” The colour drains from your face at Sam’s words. “So, you just didn’t want me ruining your fancy suit, is that what it was?” Sam laughs, smoothing out the shoulder of Joaquin’s suit jacket that now has considerable creases in the fabric. Heat creeps up your neck the more Sam teases. “Clean yourselves up and keep it in your pants until you get home.” Sam looks between you both, pointing a finger at Joaquin for the latter part of his statement. “Unless you want SWAT breaking down the door next.” 

Finally, the ridiculousness of the whole situation catches up to you, and you have to cover your mouth as you giggle. Joaquin and Sam look at you for a second before letting out chuckles themselves. Sam slaps a hand down on Joaquin’s shoulder, “I’ll see you out there.” Then he’s gone, and Joaquin clicks the door shut again. 

“Stop laughing, " Joaquin says, chuckling as he approaches you. Joaquin’s words only make you laugh more. It’s only when he stops in front of you once again that they die out. His hands slip onto your waist, and his head falls onto your shoulder. Instinctively, your fingers find their way into his hair again, and he just allows you to hold him tenderly for a moment. 

“I missed you.” His voice is barely a whisper, but you hear it. Your heart aches for just a moment, you had both wasted so much time. You repeat his words back to him before placing a kiss to the side of his head. Joaquin straightens his back, looking down at you again. There’s a look of joy spread across his face, it’s infectious and soon enough, you’re grinning as you look in his eyes. Joaquin leans in to place a single kiss on your lips before he pulls away. You watch with amusement as he adjusts his trousers before he offers his arm to you. Happily, you link your arm through his, and you take a second to look at him again. “Eres tan hermosa,” he smiles softly as his free hand comes up to hold your cheek, and suddenly you feel shy. Your gaze falls away as you lean further into his hand, and Joaquin moves to kiss your slightly pouted lips. He takes his time with the first kiss, then changes to give you a few quick pecks.

“You know my mom’s going to lose her mind when she hears about this.” Joaquin chuckles as he pulls away, his hand falling from your face. You giggle in response before a wave of panic hits you. “Please do not tell her about how this happened!” Your eyes go wide, and it takes a second for Joaquin to register what you mean. Then he’s laughing, “No! No way! Definitely not.” Now you’re laughing, finding his amusement infectious. “Okay, good.” Joaquin takes a step, and you immediately follow, but you halt right as Joaquin’s hand rests on the door handle. You mumble about needing to fix his tie before freeing your arm from his. Your hands delicately flatten the shirt beneath his jacket before adjusting his tie. He keeps his eyes on your relaxed face the whole time, his hands coming to rest on your waist as you fix his collar. 

“I love you.” The words come out of his mouth with ease, a tender smile on his face. Your eyes move up to his, and this time, you feel butterflies in your stomach when you look at him. You push up on your tiptoes so your lips touch his again. “I don’t think I’m ever going to get used to you saying that.” Your feet rest back on the ground,d and you go back to Joaquin’s side, looping your arm back through his. You reach for the door handle now, slowly swinging the door open before you both step out. 

Suddenly, you feel lighter, like a weight has been lifted. Joaquin’s presence beside you feels so natural, like he was always meant to be there. He looks at you with nothing but love in his eyes. There’s something so precious about the way your heart feels when he looks at you now. You don’t have to second-guess your feelings or the way you act around him. He makes it so easy to feel like this is the way things have always been; his hand in yours, a secret kiss when he thinks no one is watching, or a few whispered compliments, it all feels like it’s meant to be. 

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the people have spoken, i shall try post it tonight<3

wrote an 8k+ Joaquin Torres best friends/fwb/lovers fic if anyone is interested 👉🏼👈🏼

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wrote an 8k+ Joaquin Torres best friends/fwb/lovers fic if anyone is interested 👉🏼👈🏼

[phantomspiderr]

secrets w/evan 'buck' buckley x gn!reader

little moments of your hidden relationship with buck while at work—w/c 750+

There is absolutely no way he had to look as good as he did in that apron that is two sizes too small on him; it looks like a child's apron on his bulkier stature. He has his sleeve rolled up to his elbows, the cuffs poking out and it takes all of your willpower not to go over there and tuck them in. It’s the casual intimacy that you miss most when you’re working, but you both are enjoying the hidden aspect of your relationship. So far, only Bobby knows that you’re together, and Buck only told him out of respect for his position as your boss, but he allowed you both to go at your own pace when it came to telling the rest of the team. But the secret didn’t stop you from staring at Buck when you thought no one was watching. “Okay, food’s up!” Buck raises his voice so even the people on the lower floor can hear him. The team are immediately flooding to the dinner table, hungry from the grueling shift you’re all experiencing. You hold back a little quietly, waiting to see where Buck might sit; everyone is already digging into the food and doesn’t see the way Buck catches your eye. He gives you a toothy smile that draws you to him instantly. You’re happy to see him standing between two empty chairs. He casually pulls out one of the chairs, but chooses to sit in the other. You know the small gesture is deliberate, and you feel it pull at your heartstrings. You gladly take the seat next to him and slip into conversation with someone across the table. Buck distracts you from the conversation when he takes the plate from in front of you and starts filling it. It could just be seen as another polite gesture, kind-hearted Buck just serving up the meal he’s proudly worked on for the last half hour, but you know he’s doing it out of love, out of excitement, because he loves to feed you, he loves when you try his food. It’s like a love language for him, and you’re more than appreciative to be loved and cared for in this way. “Alright, everyone, thank Buck for this generous meal.” It’s like Bobby can hear your thoughts, or he understands that Buck loves to hear the praise and appreciation. Everyone around the table unanimously thanks Buck in their way, even Chim with a mouthful of food. “Thanks, Buck.” You don’t even realise you’ve reached your hand over to rest on his thigh, giving it a small squeeze, until Buck’s eyes widen. He almost drops the plate in his hand, and luckily, no one notices. It’s only a few seconds of contact, but it has Buck shifting slightly in his seat. You can feel your face heat up just a little as you pull your hand back, a smile spreading on your face at the way such a simple thing still manages to fluster you both. Bobby speaks again, bringing everyone into a shared conversation about the day, and you seamlessly slip into the chat. Every so often, you manage to catch each other's eye, shyly smiling before looking away again, and eventually, you feel Buck’s knee nudge yours. You do the same back to him, and you see a smile grow on his face even though he’s engaged in conversation across the table. Now he just rests his knee against yours, and you welcome the small intrusion into your personal space. You’ll take any amount of physical contact you can get from Buck whenever he’s willing to give it, especially at work. You’re watching him as he talks, making it look as casual as possible, but out of the corner of your eye, you can see his hand move below the table. He acts like he’s scratching his knee, but his hand just slips onto yours, gently moving up your thigh, and that heat raises up your chest. The siren blares throughout the firehouse, and you almost jump out of your chair. Everyone’s immediately out of their chairs, shovelling one last mouthful of food before rushing off down the stairs. You and Buck are behind the group, and he seems to think now is the best time just to quickly wrap an arm around you and squeeze your hip. It’s over within a second, but you swear you almost trip down the stairs at the action. Oh, you were gonna get him back for that later.

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are u interested in making a part two of ur ghostface roleplay fic?

I definitely wouldn’t say no to it👀

I do think about ghostface!rio all the time, I’m just not sure what kinda plot to do

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“I’m bi, too. But the people who matter most to me are all sitting at this table, and they just happen to be men.”

yeah we’re not gonna talk about how this made me burst into tears—like there was no need for this to be so affirming to me

Birds of a Feather

Summary : You and Bucky were already in a committed relationship when you both fall in love with Sam. What happens when Joaquin comes into the picture and starts questioning his sexuality?

Pairing : Bucky Barnes x fem!reader x Sam Wilson x Joaquin Torres

Warnings/tags : She/her pronouns are used for the reader, everyone is bisexual (yay!), Steamy fluff, sex is a big theme, alcohol consumption, questioning sexuality, hidden romance, everyone is very much in love with everyone, mild CABNW spoilers.

Word Count : 14.5k

Notes : I found this so precious to write! I've tagged my general Bucky masterlist here, and I know it's different from my usual bucky x reader pairing, so apologies if this isn't what you signed up for! I don't plan on making too many more of this because I end up going overboard and making it longer than intended oops. Enjoy!

Special mention : @tea-writes19 has an incredible social media au on this pairing and I can't stop thinking about it so I had to write this lol.

You and Bucky were married.

It wasn’t something either of you had planned for, not in the grand sense. There was no elaborate proposal, no guest list, no flowers or rehearsed first dance. There was just the two of you, standing side by side in a quiet town hall. No one else was there. No flowers, no vows prepared in advance. 

It was simple, just like you always wanted.

You had met in Wakanda, both of you seeking refuge in your own way. Bucky was healing from Hydra, trying to piece together a life without orders or missions. You were a former S.H.I.E.L.D. agent caught in the crossfire of a world that had turned itself upside down after the fall of the agency. You had been on the run after helping Steve during the Sokovia accords, too many enemies on your trail, too many burned bridges. When King T’challa had offered you sanctuary in exchange for training the Dora Milaje on international relations, you accepted immediately.

And in Wakanda, you found Bucky. Or maybe he found you.

He was different then— quieter, less sarcastic but no less charming, still learning how to breathe in a world where he wasn’t being controlled. You were wary of each other at first, like two wounded animals circling each other. But then he smiled at you for the first time, and you realised time had a way of making you both kind. Soon, you were spending every morning together sorting hay under Wakandan sunrise. Soon, you were spending afternoons sitting by the river, your fingers tracing over Bucky’s palm as he told you stories of Brooklyn, of who he used to be before the war, before everything. 

Then, during a training session, you found yourself being much closer to him, breath hitching, something more than just adrenaline coursing through your veins. He had you pinned beneath him, metal fingers wrapped around your wrists. When you noticed his chest rising and falling against yours, suddenly there was no air left in the room.

You should have moved. He should have let go.

Instead, you pulled his shirt down and kissed him, and he kissed you back like a man starved.

Soon, you’d spend most evenings whispering his name like a prayer as he peppered love into your body, and every night falling asleep to the sound of his breathing. 

Then, Thanos came and went, and you were both dusted. 

When you came back to a world trying to move on from the five years you did not get to experience, he asked if you wanted to get married. 

You said yes.

You didn’t need a grand declaration. You just needed each other.

So you walked into a town hall, signed the papers, and exchanged simple silver bands. You didn’t have guests, you didn’t have a reception. All you needed was Bucky’s hand in yours, thumb brushing over your knuckles as you whispered “I do” to each other. 

The clerk barely looked up as he stamped the papers, but none of it mattered when Bucky kissed you like it was the only thing keeping him tethered to this earth. When he pulled away, there were tears on both your cheeks. “You’re my home,” he whispered.

You kissed him again, pulling his suit by the collar. His arms tightened around your waist, hand cool through the thin fabric of your dress.

That night, while lying together in bed under the sheets, Bucky pulled you close, kissed your wedding band, and murmured against your lips, “Mrs. Barnes.”

You had never loved anyone more.

And that didn’t change until years later.

—

After everything that happened with Karli and the Flag Smashers and the struggle over the shield, you and Bucky found yourselves spending more and more time with Sam.

At first, it felt like friendship, bonding over beers on Sam’s dock, lazy afternoons spent fixing up the boat, and training sessions that turned into wrestling matches in the dirt. 

You and Bucky liked him. You and Bucky trusted him. You and Bucky both admired the way he had learned to carry the shield with both pride and caution. You loved the way he made the day brighter, the way he challenged Bucky, softened his rough edges. He was the first person besides you to ever coax a laugh out of Bucky that sounded young— you imagined it was reminiscent of the boy who existed before the war. And Sam was the only person who looked at you like he actually saw you, not just as Bucky’s wife, not just as another former agent he could use.

It was supposed to be just friendship.

But then you started noticing the way Bucky’s eyes lingered on Sam when he wasn’t looking. You noticed that you liked the way Sam’s hands rested on your waist when the three of you were spending a day at the pool together. One night, you caught yourself wondering what it would be like if you let yourselves cross that line.

But you were in a monogamous relationship. And you and Bucky love each other more than anything in the world, right?

You knew Bucky was bi— he’d told you years ago in hushed voices during a particularly memorable Wakandan night, fingers trailing along your spine, wondering if the confession would scare you off.

"It wasn’t like now," he’d whisper against your shoulder. "There weren’t words for it back then. But Steve... Steve and the other howling commandos knew. They… they helped— we helped each other work our feelings out.”

You’d kissed him slowly that night, licking the salt off old wounds.

"I love all the pieces of you, darling. Even the ones you’re still figuring out."

So you knew it was a possibility. 

One evening, after a little too much liquor as you straddled your husband’s lap, you spoke the thought aloud. 

"We should have a threesome," you said casually, like you weren’t setting a match to gasoline.

Bucky choked on his own tongue. He coughed, eyes as wide as dinner plates as his brow furrowed like he wasn’t sure he’d heard you right. "What?"

You shrugged, pretending your heart wasn’t racing. "With Sam," you clarified. "We trust him. It could be… fun."

Bucky laid his hands on your waist, gripping it carefully. "You’re serious?”

"Yeah,” you nodded, “Just sex. No strings."

Bucky took a deep breath, his fingers twitching as he considered it. You could see the way his mind worked through it— how his initial shock gave way to intrigue, how he let himself imagine it. 

And then, slowly, a smile formed at the corner of his lips. “You think he’d go for it?"

You giggled, touching the tip of your nose to his. "Only one way to find out."

—

Sam said yes without hesitation.

"Thought you’d never ask," he teased, almost as if he’d been hoping for this.

He had his signature smirk in place, but there had been a deeper warmth in his dark brown eyes.

That night, you were supposed to just fuck.

But it was so much more than that.

The first time Sam touched you, his mouth hot against your neck, it didn’t feel like just sex. It felt like worship.

And when you looked over and saw your husband watching with parted lips, something ignited in you.

How could it be just sex, when Sam's hands traced over your skin like he was memorizing every curve? How could it be just sex, when Bucky kissed your neck, metal arm holding you in place as Sam’s mouth peppered bites on your thighs until it was dangerously close to where you really wanted him to be?

How could it be just sex when you heard the small, surprised sound that left Bucky’s throat when Sam kissed Bucky for the first time? When your husband melted into his touch, when before he let himself take, he let Sam have?

How could it be just sex when Bucky pressed his forehead to Sam’s shoulder when he came undone, when Sam gasped your name like it was the only word that mattered?

How could it be just sex when desire warped into utter intoxication?

Because when it was over, when the sweat cooled and the breathing evened, when you lay tangled together in your bed— you felt it.

Something had changed.

Sam’s arm was slung lazily over your waist, his fingers brushing against Bucky’s human fingers.

Bucky’s eyes stayed on him, softly taking the sight of his best friend in. 

Because it wasn’t just sex, was it?

—

It wasn’t until weeks later—when the longing felt suffocating—that you and Bucky finally talked about it. 

It was late. The world outside your window was still, and you could hear the faint sounds of the city thrumming in the distance. You laid together in bed, Bucky’s fingers trailing over your bare hip, his brow furrowed in thought.

"I think I’m in love with Sam."

Bucky said it like a confession, like it was a sin. His metal fingers gripped yours beneath the covers, bracing for impact, bracing for you to shout at him, for accusations of betrayal.

"Me too,” you said, heart hammering in your chest.

Bucky’s eyes snapped toward you, startled like he hadn’t even considered that you might feel the same.

"But I still love you," you rushed to say, almost panicked. "I don't—“

He cut you off with a chaste kiss on your lips. "I know." He whispered gently, “I still love you too."

You stared at the ceiling together, holding hands, trying to untangle the knot of love and fear twisting inside you. 

“I— it’s always been just us. I’ve never— I’ve never considered this before,” you admitted. "I don't know how… I… I don’t know what to do.”

"I know,” He sighed, thumbs brushing over your knuckles, “I don’t want to lose you, doll.”

“But I don't want to lose him,” you said.

"Me neither."

You turned your head to meet his eyes, pulse thundering in your ears.

"Maybe…” Bucky started after a beat of silence, biting his lip, “Maybe we don't have to choose."

Your mouth gave way to the smallest, most vulnerable smile. “Maybe we don't."

—

Telling Sam was terrifying.

You sat him down one evening, the three of you alone on the porch of his family’s house in Delacroix, cicadas humming in the distance. 

Bucky's metal fingers tapped restlessly against his thigh, your knees twitching as you tried to calm yourself down. 

"You guys are acting weird," Sam said, narrowing his eyes. "What’s going on?"

You opened your mouth—then promptly forgot how to speak.

You, who very rarely ran out of words, were struggling to get your thoughts out? Sam thought that was weird.

"Y’all about to tell me you’re pregnant or something?" he joked, hoping to ease the tension.

You let out a shy laugh, nerves bubbling over. "Oh god, no."

Bucky cleared his throat. "It’s about us. And you."

Sam’s brows furrowed slightly. "What about us?"

Your eyes fluttered closed as you said it, as if you couldn’t handle the rejection. "We’re in love with you."

Sam blinked once. Then twice. 

His mouth opened. Then shut.

"You—" He glanced between the two of you like he'd misheard. "Both of you?"

"Yeah," Bucky said quietly.

Sam’s chest rose and fell quicker than before. “I—" He stumbled over his words. "I’ve been in love with you two for months."

Oh?

"But you're married." He continued, voice cracking on the word, looking toward your ring. He was scared he’d ruin you both. "I didn't— I didn't know if it would work."

Bucky didn’t answer him. Instead, he leaned forward and kissed him.

It was slow but sure, one hand cradling the back of Sam’s head, pinky resting on the nape of his neck. 

Sam let out a broken sigh from the back of his throat and kissed him back, his hands curling on Bucky's shirt.

You reached out, taking both of their hands in yours. “See?" you murmured.

They both broke away and turned to you, breathless and eyes half-lidded.

"It works," you whispered.

Bucky squeezed your fingers. Sam's thumb brushed over your knuckles.

"We'll make it work,” you insisted.

And when Sam leaned in to kiss you next, his lips tasted like hope. 

—

A couple months later, when Sam properly introduced Joaquin to you and Bucky, he tried not to overthink it. Sure, he’d met you both during the whole ordeal with the Flag Smashers, but back then, Sam hadn’t been this close to either of you. Over the past year, though, Joaquin had noticed that Sam had grown fonder of you and Bucky, and, by extension, so had he.

Now, you and Bucky were always around— either at Sam’s side or waiting at the finish line. Joaquin figured you were a package deal, two of Sam’s closest friends, part of his inner circle. What he hadn’t realised at the time was just how much that circle would come to include him, too.

The first time all of you hung out together, he’d been a little intimidated (not that he’d admit it out loud). You were quick-witted and formidable. You carried yourself with the kind of confidence that made people either want to follow you or prove themselves to you, and Joaquin wasn’t quite sure which category he fell into. 

Then there was Bucky. And, well, Joaquin wasn’t stupid. Bucky was James Buchanan Barnes, the infamous former Winter Soldier. That alone was enough to make anyone nervous.

But, when Joaquin looked at Bucky, he never really saw that. Maybe at first, when Bucky was still a little closed off, but that changed. He warmed up to Joaquin the same way you had— because you and Bucky took your cues from Sam, and Sam trusted Joaquin.

The three of you didn’t become friends all at once, but looking back, Joaquin couldn’t pinpoint when it exactly happened.

It started with training. Joaquin would show up at Sam’s place or meet Bucky at the gym, where he’d get his ass handed to him repeatedly. Training with Sam was a bit more predictable, it was always about technique and strategy, but training with Bucky was something else entirely. 

Bucky fought like someone who had spent years learning how to survive, and Joaquin learned quickly that if Bucky put you on the ground, you stayed there.

Then it was casual conversations after training, then late-night talks on Sam’s dock, with you sitting between him and Bucky, lazily swinging your feet over the edge.

One night, after taking a particularly brutal hit to the ribs (metal arm and super soldier serum— not fair), Joaquin had limped back to your and Bucky’s place.

When you saw him hurt, you sighed, grabbed him by the wrist, and pulled him into the kitchen. “Come on, you idiot."

Joaquin had blinked as you lifted his shirt and shoved a cold pack into his hands and made him sit at the table.

"You didn’t have to—"

"Shut up and hold that against your ribs before you end up with a bruise the size of Texas," you interrupted, already rummaging through the cabinets for bruising ailments.

Then Bucky walked in, towel around his neck with a raised eyebrow. “You alright?"

You shot your husband an exasperated look, scolding him. "Just patching him up because you don’t know your own strength."

Bucky frowned, his eyes now drawn to Joaquin’s ribs. "Shit, you didn’t tell me."

Joaquin had waved it off since he definitely pretended it didn’t hurt at the time. Bucky just sighed, wiping off the beads of condensation on his skin with his towel.

"I’m sorry," Bucky muttered.

And that’s when Joaquin realised, you and Bucky weren’t just helping him because he was a teammate or because Sam had vouched for him. You two were… taking care of him. 

The proof was in the cold pack in his hands, the way Bucky had frowned at his bruises and muttered an endless string of apology. It was instinctive, like he was yours to look after.

After that, he had ended up spending just as much time with you and Bucky as he did with Sam, and it wasn’t weird.

He was your friend.

He just wished—maybe, sometimes—that was all he wanted.

—

Then, one night, you, Bucky, and Sam sat him down and told him the truth.

Joaquin already knew you and Bucky were married, so that wasn’t a surprise. What was a surprise was that you were also dating Sam. And that Sam was also dating Bucky.

Oh.

Oh.

So that’s why you were all so close.

Joaquin had just assumed Sam was a really good friend to you both. But no, this was something else entirely.

"We trust you with this," you told him. You had been tired of having to pull your affections from Sam when he was around, and Bucky was sick of not being able to touch his boyfriend the way he wanted to among friends. You needed him to know.

“But please don’t tell the world about us,” Sam said.  

Joaquin nodded. He understood.

Bucky was running for Congress. You were his very public wife. Sam was Captain America, and he didn’t need the media attention on his personal life. Sam was your and Bucky’s little secret.

Now, Joaquin knew.

Which was a problem because—oh, God—he had only realised last week that he had a massive crush on you.

It was bad enough when you were just married to the former Winter Soldier. But now he was learning that you were also dating Captain America? And Captain America was also dating the former Winter Soldier?

Joaquin was so screwed.

—

After weeks of harbouring his secret crush on you, Joaquin tried to convince himself he wasn’t jealous.

Jealousy was bitter and ugly, and that wasn’t what he felt when he looked at you, at Bucky, at Sam. He didn't feel resentment or envy— what he felt was awfully close to longing.

He knew what the three of you were, what you had. You were a closed polycule, a unit that didn’t have space for anyone else. And Joaquin was just a friend on the outside looking in.

On Bucky’s campaign trail, the world only saw part of the picture. They saw Bucky and you in love, holding hands in public, attending events together, stealing kisses when you thought the cameras weren't looking. You and Bucky were the perfect couple. You were polished and composed, just the way the press liked it.

What they didn’t see was the way Sam slotted between you just as easily. They didn’t see how Bucky and Sam bickered playfully, fought like soldiers, and kissed like they were making up for lost time. They didn’t see the way you leaned instinctively into Sam’s touch, how he steadied you with a hand on your lower back while he whispered something that made you smile like it was just the two of you in the room.

But Joaquin saw it.

He saw it now, sitting on Sam’s dining table, a mug in his grip as he watched the three of you in the kitchen.

Ever since you had trusted him with your secret, you’d all been a little different around him. You all had been more relaxed, more authentic. You were no longer careful distancing from Sam, no more subtly maneuvering to hide what should have been obvious. And yet, Joaquin had remained just a friend.

Still, none of you ever made him feel like an outsider. The three of you had this way of pulling him in platonically, making sure he never felt left behind. He knew there was a line and where the line was, but you made damn sure he never felt like he was standing on the other side of it alone.

Tonight, you were cooking for him— or, at least, trying to. The three of you had invited Joaquin over more after his crash on Celestial Island, and even though he was mostly fine now, Sam insisted that he should take the time off and be among friends.

Now, Sam had his arms wrapped around your waist, smiling against the side of your head as you tried to swat him away with a wooden spoon. Bucky was at the stove with his sleeves rolled up, stirring something in a pan. That told Joaquin that he was the real cook in the relationship.

Joaquin didn’t even realise he was staring until Sam caught him. "You good over there, Torres?"

Joaquin blinked, shaking himself out of it. "Huh? Yeah. Yeah, I’m good."

Sam shrugged and turned back to the counter.

Joaquin wasn't lying. Even with the longing in his chest, even though he wanted  things he wasn’t allowed to want— he was happy.

Happy to have more people in his life who gave a damn.

But you—God, you were just you.

You laughed too loud and loved too hard. You could outshoot and outfight more than half the guys he knew, and still, you looked at Bucky and Sam like they hung the damn moon for you. You loved them without hesitation, like holding back wasn’t an option, like your love wasn’t a zero sum game. You knew them— their edges, their scars, their flaws— and you chose them every single day.

So why, of all people, did he have to fall for you?

Not that it mattered, anyway. It wasn’t like he could do anything about it.

You were with Bucky. And with Sam. And Bucky was with Sam, too. The three of you fit together so effortlessly, like very specific puzzle pieces clicking into place. And Joaquin would never be a piece of that puzzle. 

He was happy for you, for all of you. He wouldn’t screw that up for anything.

So he shoved his feelings down. He ignored it. He buried it beneath his stupid jokes. For now, the comfort of knowing he belonged in your life was enough, even if it wasn’t in the way he secretly wanted.

"Joaquin."

He heard you say, your voice pulling him back to reality.

He blinked up at you, suddenly aware that you were standing next to him, holding out a plate. You smiled, nudging it toward him.

"Here," you said. "Before Sam eats your portion."

"Hey," Sam said, eating pasta straight out of Bucky's pan, mouth half-full.

Joaquin huffed a laugh, taking the plate. "Thank you."

And then you sat down beside him, closer than you probably realised, close enough to be tempting, torturous. He forced himself not to look, not to breathe your scent in, not to want.

Then Bucky sat onto your other side, pressing an easy kiss to your temple like it was second nature. Sam, not to be outdone, leaned over and kissed the crown of your head before settling into the seat across from you, giving Bucky a cheeky smirk like yeah, I’m kissing her too, what of it?

Joaquin’s heart ached.

Fuck, they were so affectionate with you and each other, so unfiltered. You gave each other love so freely, that it didn't feel limited, it felt shared. It was as natural as breathing.

He was fine.

This was fine.

And maybe one day, it wouldn’t hurt so much.

—

After Joaquin left that night, Sam and Bucky found themselves outside, on the steps of Sam’s back patio. They were sitting close to each other, just as they liked it. The night air was warm and humid and salty, the distant sound of waves crashing against the shore. Everything around them felt peaceful, like the world was holding its breath while waiting for a conversation that neither of them had yet figured out how to start.

Bucky shifted, leaning more comfortably against Sam’s side. Even after a year, Sam’s heart still fluttered at how natural it felt to have Bucky right there with him. He let out a quiet hum, running his fingers through Bucky’s soft hair. It was something they did often, a small but affectionate act that always made Bucky relax after a long day. Bucky sighed at the touch, tilting his head just slightly into Sam’s hand, seeking more of the comfort Sam always seemed to offer so effortlessly.

"Joaquin's got a crush on her," Bucky mentioned carefully.

Sam smiled, pressing a kiss to the top of Bucky’s head. "Obviously." His lips lingered against Bucky’s hair before he glanced through the open door toward the kitchen, where you stood by the sink, pouring yourself a glass of water. The kitchen light bathed you in a golden light catching in the strands of your hair. It made you look almost holy. "Look at her,” Sam continued, “How could he not?"

Bucky let out a hum in agreement. Then, his voice grew quieter, almost wistful. "He’s not too bad himself."

Sam raised an eyebrow, glancing at Bucky, a knowing smile forming on his lips. "Oh?"

Bucky shrugged casually. Too casually. "The other night, at Isaiah’s? He looked… good."

Sam couldn’t help but agree. Joaquin had been… magnetic that night. He had been every night since. He remembered his pressed shirt with sleeves rolled up to his forearm, he remembered that easy smile that had caught Sam’s attention in ways he hadn’t fully understood then, but now… talking about him with his boyfriend… he saw the picture much clearer.

Joaquin had fit into their world so seamlessly, his presence felt so natural that Sam found himself drawn to him in ways he wasn’t entirely prepared for.

"I know what you mean," Sam admitted, more to himself than to Bucky.

Bucky didn’t miss the slight squeak in Sam’s usually deep voice. He had noticed it too, how they were starting to feel something more for him, how they were both beginning to see Joaquin in a new light. But Bucky wasn’t sure how much Sam was ready to admit it—so he went straight to the point, "You think he’s bi, honey?"

Sam hesitated, then shrugged as he answered, "Hell if I know,” he considered for a moment. “Maybe?"

Even as he said it, Sam’s mind raced with possibilities. They’d never had a conversation like this before— was this what you and Bucky felt when they were thinking about him? And even though he wasn't sure where it would lead, it was hard to ignore the way Joaquin’s presence had started to affect them both.

Bucky hummed. "We could ask,” he added, a little more playfully.

Sam let out a quiet laugh, but the thought didn’t feel as funny as it should have. It wasn’t just playful curiosity—it was an invitation. It felt inevitable now, and Sam wasn’t sure if that scared him or excited him. He looked at Bucky, noticing how he seemed to be leaning toward him even more now, as if to reassure him, just because we are having this conversation, doesn't mean I love you any less. 

Sam’s fingers tightened slightly around Bucky’s locks.

A sigh escaped Sam’s lips as he leaned his head against Bucky’s. "It’s not just a crush, is it?" he murmured, half to himself, half to Bucky.

"No,” Bucky said, “I don’t think so."

That was as far as the conversation got before you joined them outside, glass of water in hand.

You paused when you saw them, smiling before leaning down to press a soft kiss to Sam’s forehead first, then Bucky’s. Sam’s fingers curled gently around your wrist as you pulled away.

"What are we talking about?" you asked, sitting yourself onto the step below them.

Sam stiffened, like he was measuring his words, trying to decide how to say what was on his mind. Then, finally, he sighed.

"Be honest," he said, "You know Joaquin’s getting close… to us."

Your brows furrowed slightly. "Yeah. He’s our friend."

Sam gave a tentative smile. "That’s not what I meant."

And suddenly, you knew exactly where this conversation was going.

You should’ve known it was coming. Maybe a part of you had been waiting for it, maybe avoiding it, pretending it wasn’t something you’d have to deal with eventually. But now,you had nowhere to run from it.

Bucky was watching you closely, waiting to see how you’d react. Sam, always the level-headed one, studied your face, looking for some kind of tell, some kind of hesitation, or maybe an unspoken thought you hadn’t even admitted to yourself yet.

You set your glass down and breathed out.

"Do you have feelings for him, too?" Sam asked gently.

Your stomach twisted.

You hadn’t let yourself think about that. Not really.

Joaquin was Joaquin. He was bright-eyed and kind-hearted, always quick with his jokes, always looking at you like— like you weren’t just the sum of your past actions.

And lately, you’d caught yourself looking back.

You bit the inside of your cheek. "I…" You hesitated, feeling their attention on you. "I think… maybe."

Bucky tilted his head, considering. "Yes maybe, or no maybe?"

You huffed, leaning back on Bucky’s thigh. "Yes maybe."

Bucky chuckled, like that answer didn’t surprise him. Like he’d known before you did.

"He’s… I mean, yeah, he’s great," you continued, "He’s sweet, and kind, and—" You sighed, shaking your head. "But we're closed. I know that. He knows that."

Bucky’s expression didn’t change. "We didn’t think about this before either," he pointed out.

You shook your head. "That was different."

"Was it?" Sam asked

You opened your mouth— then closed it.

It wasn’t different. Sam was the happiest accident you’ve ever stumbled upon in your and Bucky’s life. Maybe… Maybe Joaquin was one, too.

Bucky leaned forward, bracing his elbows on his knees. "It’s just something to think about."

Sam’s fingers began idly toying with the back of your shirt. "We don’t have to make any decisions."

Bucky nodded. "And we don’t even know if he wants this."

That was true. Even if you wanted it—even if the thought of Joaquin felt right—it didn’t mean he did.

And if he didn’t… Well, then this conversation would be nothing more than a hopeful what-if between the three of you.

—

Soon enough, Bucky won his seat in congress.

It didn’t come as a surprise— at least, not to anyone who knew him. The man was stubborn as hell, and once he set his sights on something, there was no stopping him.

Naturally, a celebration was in order.

“Hey, Torres,” Sam called out, gently putting a hand on Joaquin’s shoulder as they stepped off the training mat. Joaquin was still catching his breath, sweat sticking to the back of his neck, but Sam, of course, looked infuriatingly calm, as if he hadn’t just wiped the floor with him for the past hour.

“You coming to Bucky’s party tomorrow?”

Joaquin blinked. “Uh—yeah, I guess. If I’m invited.”

“Of course,” Sam gave him a flat stare. “Bucky actually likes you.”

Joaquin let out a breathless laugh. “And here I thought you were the one who liked me.”

Sam smiled with a teasing glint in his eye. “I tolerate you.” He was joking, of course. “Bucky’s the one who—well.” he stopped himself, then winked at him. “Just dress nice.”

Joaquin’s heart did this weird little flutter in his chest.

Oh?

That was new.

It was probably just exhaustion, right? Just adrenaline winding down. That was all.

Because he was straight.

And he had a crush on you.

You, who were both Sam’s girlfriend and Bucky’s wife. Joaquin had spent an embarrassing amount of time trying to rationalise his feelings, trying to convince himself it wasn’t that bad, even though it was already so wrong on so many levels.

And now, his heart had the audacity to flutter over Sam’s stupid wink?

Nope. Nope. Not happening.

He was not unpacking that.

So Joaquin did what Joaquin did best. He laughed it off, rolled his eyes, and told himself to let it go.

—

By the time Joaquin arrived, the party was in full swing.

Your and Bucky’s house was alive with conversation and laughter, music blending in with the sound with the clinking of glasses. The air smelled of expensive whiskey and catered hors d'oeuvres, but it wasn't suffocating. 

Clint Barton was there, chatting with Isaiah Bradley. Jen Walters was mid-laugh at something Bruce Banner had said. A few high-profile donors were scattered about, but Joaquin did not care.

Because his eyes were on you.

You were effortlessly moving through your living room, restocking drinks, checking on the catering, making sure every guest was comfortable— all while looking stunning in that dress that hugged your waist just right.

You were being the congressman elect’s perfect wife, the perfect hostess. 

Joaquin wanted to talk to you so badly. He needed something to feed his stupid crush, maybe just a moment of your attention, but every time he got close, someone else needed you.

So he resigned himself to mingling.

And then there was Bucky.

He was relaxed, lounging near his home bar with a glass of whiskey in hand, looking completely at ease in his perfectly tailored suit. The sleeves were rolled up just enough to reveal the gleaming metal of his left arm. He looked good, the kind of good that turned heads.

Last night, Sam and you had told him to enjoy tonight, to relax. You won, the hard work is over. We got this party under control, darling. Bucky had kissed you both in bed just the night before, murmuring something about feeling undeserving, and you and Sam had made it your mission to remind him otherwise.

Joaquin was nursing his own drink when Bucky appeared by his side.

"You clean up nice, Torres," Bucky said smoothly.

Joaquin laughed quietly, tugging at his collar. "Sam told me to dress nice."

Bucky’s smile widened. "Glad he did."

Joaquin blinked. There was something about the way Bucky said it that made his skin prickle.

He cleared his throat, shuffling his feet awkwardly. "This whole congressman thing suits you,” he tried joking to ease the tension, “Think you’ll get drunk with power?"

Bucky tilted his head. "Depends. You gonna let me boss you around?"

Joaquin snorted, rolling his eyes. "Not a chance."

"Shame," Bucky sipped his whiskey. "You’d look good following orders."

Joaquin nearly choked on his drink. Bucky grinned like he’d been waiting for that reaction.

Joaquin scrambled for something to say, something normal, but his brain had gone blank. This was Bucky. War hero. Former assassin. Sam’s boyfriend. Your husband. His friend.

And was he… flirting? With him?

Joaquin swallowed, trying to ignore the heat creeping up his neck. "You—uh—you been practicing your politician charm on people, or is this just for me?"

Bucky scanned him from head to toe, before he leaned in just slightly. "Maybe I just like seeing you flustered."

Oh.

Joaquin forced a laugh, but it came out weaker than he intended. He was straight, right? He had a crush on you. You were why his heart was tripping over itself. Not Bucky. 

As the night went on, Joaquin felt like he was running a degree too hot. 

It wasn’t like Joaquin was drunk. Tipsy, maybe. Just enough for his limbs to feel loose, for the usual filter in his brain to thin out. He had switched to tequila early on. Bucky, meanwhile, nursed his whiskey like it was some sacred ritual, even though he couldn't get drunk, even if he tried.

Still, somehow, they kept gravitating toward each other.

It wasn’t obvious—not too obvious. Bucky was smooth like that. Every glance, every brush of fingers when he handed Joaquin a drink, every low chuckle into the rim of his whiskey glass all felt like something.

"Why, you shy tonight?" Bucky asked, voice pitched just low enough for him, “You’re usually the one talking your ass off.”

"I just—" He glanced around. A few people were near, engaged in their own conversations. For Bucky’s sake, he couldn’t risk being overheard. He cleared his throat, then continued. "You’re the congressman now, Bucky. You’re the one who’s supposed to be talking."

Bucky smirked, swirling the whiskey in his glass. "Don’t need to talk when I got your attention."

Joaquin blinked. His chest felt too tight, his heartbeat too off-rhythm. It’s just the tequila. He told himself. Just the atmosphere. He was being fun, that was all. Just going with the flow. "Mine?"

Bucky took a slow sip before responding, eyes lingering on Joaquin’s mouth just a second too long. "Mm-hmm. You keep looking at me like that, Torres, people are gonna start talking."

Joaquin’s stomach did a weird little flip.

"I—" He started, then stopped. Swallowed. Joaquin straightened his posture, trying to play it cool. "I wasn't looking at you,” he said, but he knew that was a lie.

"Sure you weren’t," Bucky chuckled.

Joaquin breathed out, and from some deeply misguided instinct, downed the rest of his tequila like it might reset his brain. It didn’t. It burned all the way down, but it didn’t do a damn thing to cool the heat creeping up his neck.

Bucky just watched him as his adam’s apple bobbed, and that alone made it worse.

"You always drink tequila this fast, or am I making you nervous?"

Joaquin coughed. "I—no. I mean—maybe." His face was burning. He fumbled for the nearest distraction, then blurted out his first defense, even though he knew it wouldn't make any sense. "I mean—I’m straight. I think."

Bucky tilted his head, studying him. He casually leaned in just enough that Joaquin could smell the whiskey on his breath. "You think?"

Joaquin stared at him, heart pounding.

Bucky chuckled, the sound full of mischief. "That’s cute."

Joaquin nearly short-circuited on the spot. 

When Bucky realised there might be a chance he was making him uncomfortable, he casually rested his human hand on his shoulder, squeezing briefly before stepping back. "Relax, Torres. Just messin’ with you."

Joaquin exhaled, relieved and… disappointed?

Oh.

That was new.

—

From across the room, you and Sam were both in host mode, running through the mental checklist that kept the party flowing smoothly.

“Dessert’s ready?” Sam asked.

“Should be coming out in the next ten minutes,” you confirmed, brushing a hand over his arm as you glanced toward the kitchen.

“Drinks stocked?”

“I just checked. We’re good.”

Sam nodded in approval, then leaned in slightly. “Think Bucky’s doing okay?”

You had to momentarily pause your train of thought when you saw exactly where Bucky was and what he was doing.

Or rather, who he was doing it to.

Joaquin Torres.

The poor guy looked about two seconds away from spontaneous combustion, gripping his empty glass like it might somehow stop him from turning red. Bucky, on the other hand, was the picture of confidence, clearly enjoying himself far more than a simple conversation warranted.

You and Sam exchanged a look.

Across the room, Bucky was leaning in close to Joaquin, voice low, fingers brushing ever so casually along his forearm. Joaquin was flushed, shifting slightly where he sat, biting his lip like he wasn’t sure whether he wanted to lean in or bolt.

"He’s having fun without us," you huffed, being fake-annoyed.

Sam let out a low chuckle and leaned down discreetly. "We can have fun too, sweetheart," he murmured, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. "Did you say we have ten minutes till dessert?"

Your eyes darted back to Bucky, catching the exact moment he noticed the two of you.

He took a slow sip of his drink, never breaking eye contact. When he pulled the glass away, he licked a stray drop from his bottom lip, and you knew him enough to know what he was thinking without him ever having to say anything. Go on. Bucky seemed to say with his eyes. I’ll find you two later. Let me have my fun with Joaquin first.

Sam saw it too. He let out a quiet, satisfied hum.

And then he was quietly tugging you toward the stairs. 

By the time he pulled you into the dimly lit guest bathroom and locked the door behind you, his lips were on yours. You needed to be quick, after all.

—

As soon as Bucky walked him home that night, Joaquin shut the door. He couldn’t stand seeing his pretty fucking face anymore.

He downed a glass of water, then another, trying to sober up— only to realize he hadn’t even been that drunk to begin with.

Shit.

With a sigh, he ran a bath.

Sinking into the warm water, he watched steam curl around him. The party had been a mistake. He’d gone there thinking about you— hoping for just one moment alone, a shared laugh, something to feed this thing he wasn’t supposed to have.

But you’d been busy being Bucky’s perfect wife in the eyes of the public, spending most of the night with Sam, making sure everything ran smoothly for Bucky, because you both just loved him so much.

And then… Bucky.

Joaquin groaned, dragging a wet hand down his face.

"You’d look good following orders," Bucky had said.

Now, lying in the tub, water lapping at his chest, he hated how that moment kept replaying in his head. Hated how, somewhere between thinking about you and trying to enjoy the bath, his thoughts kept drifting back to him. 

His fingers flexed against the rim of the tub.

He was straight. Right? He had a crush on you.

So why the hell cant he get Bucky fucking Barnes out of his mind?

—

The next time Joaquin saw any of you again, it was Sam. He had agreed to meet him for training.

He was barely ten minutes in, and he was already sweating.

He wasn’t sure if it was the brutal summer heat, the way he hadn’t been sleeping nearly enough lately, or the way Sam looked in a sleeveless shirt as he wrapped his hands in tape, veins standing out along his forearms, shoulders glistening with sweat (it was probably all three).

Wait. What?

No. Nope. 

Focus, Torres.

"You tired?” Sam teased, tossing him a pair of gloves.

Joaquin barely caught them, tightening the straps a little too hard. "I’m fine."

Sam hummed, but he was unconvinced. 

Then he stepped into the sparring ring, rolling his shoulders, stretching his neck, looking too damn confident, like he knew Joaquin was hiding something.

Joaquin stepped in after him and adjusted his stance.

He needed this. He needed something to knock his brain back into place, to sweat out whatever the hell had been going on with him lately.

He needed to fight.

They circled each other. By now, Joaquin knew better than to rush in too soon— Sam was fast, and he was an incredibly intelligent fighter, always studying for an opening. 

Joaquin struck in the form of a quick jab, but it came weaker than usual. It shouldn't come as a surprise, his mind was… elsewhere. Sam dodged easily. 

"That all you got?" Sam grinned.

Joaquin scowled playfully. He went for a real hit when he feinted left to swing right.

Sam dodged again. 

Then Sam came at him fast. Joaquin barely had time to block the first hit before another came, clean against his side. He gasped, stumbling back, but Sam didn’t let up. 

He took another step forward, pressing him back.

Joaquin stretched his jaw and bit down his frustration.

He had to focus.

He forced himself to move, ducking under a swing, trying to regain control, but Sam was already there, waiting for him.

They grappled, breath coming harder, closer, closer—

When Joaquin tried to gain the upper hand, Sam flipped Joaquin over his shoulder.

Joaquin hit the mat hard, air punched from his lungs. But before he could even think about reacting, before he could get his bearings, before he could breathe— Sam was on him.

Joaquin froze.

Sam had him pinned, one knee wedged between his thighs, one forearm braced across his chest. Their faces were only inches apart.

And suddenly, Joaquin had a very different problem.

Sam’s chest rose and fell with steady breath, muscles flexing as he kept Joaquin trapped beneath him. Joaquin’s heart raced— too fast, too erratic, and he hated how he couldn’t tell if it was from exertion or it was because of Sam.

His stomach flipped.

His mouth went dry.

His body reacted in ways he prayed to god Sam didn’t notice. And oh shit, his knee was so close to his thighs that there was no way he didn’t notice.

What the fuck?

Panic started clawing up his throat. He needed to say something, anything—needed to break whatever the hell this was. And before he could stop himself, before he could even think, the words tumbled out in a frantic rush:

"Don’ttellanyoneandIdon’twanttocauseanytrouble,but—your boyfriend flirted with me last week."

He could feel Sam’s breath hitch.

Joaquin’s stomach plummeted. Oh, shit. Oh shit. He’d just made the worst mistake of his life, hadn’t he? Sam was going to be mad—at him, at Bucky, at something—

And then Sam grinned.

A smug, knowing, shit-eating grin that Joaquin hated that he adored so much.

"Yeah?" Sam’s voice dipped lower.

Joaquin barely had time to regret opening his mouth before Sam shifted, pressing down just slightly. The added pressure sent sparks dancing up Joaquin’s spine, especially when his knee dug harder into Joaquin’s thigh, his arm pressing firmer against his chest, keeping him right there.

"And?" Sam asked.

His brain short-circuited. "And—what do you mean and?! That’s—"

"You didn’t notice?" Sam asked, tilting his head just slightly.

Joaquin’s stomach tightened. "Notice what?"

And then Sam abruptly rolled off him with a chuckle, climbing to his feet like nothing had just happened.

Joaquin laid there, staring at the ceiling, struggling to piece himself back together.

What the hell—

"I’ve been flirting with you, too," Sam teased, shaking his head as he grabbed his water bottle. He took a slow sip, watching with a way too amused smile for someone who’d just flipped his entire world upside down. “You like my boyfriend better than me or something?” He teased. 

Joaquin scrambled to his feet, chest still heaving, and started pacing— because what the hell was he supposed to do with this?

"I—"

Sam leaned in just slightly. "Let me spell it out for you," his voice lowered. "We all have a thing for you."

Joaquin stopped breathing.

"You’re—You’re telling me… a-all three of you—?"

Sam nodded, nonchalant. "We’ve been talking about it for a while now. Realised we all wanted to do something about it."

Joaquin stared blankly. You, who he had always had a crush on, and Sam and Bucky…. "What the fuck?"

Sam laughed, as if he was expecting this. "That’s one reaction."

Joaquin dragged a hand through his hair. This was—this was too much. He had barely wrapped his head around last week, and now— Sam was still watching him. Still gauging him.

Joaquin swallowed hard.

"Did you like it?" Sam asked, more empathetic now, more curious than flirty. "When Bucky flirted with you?"

Joaquin’s stomach dropped. His mouth opened. Then closed. Then— "Maybe."

The word slipped out before he could stop it.

Sam hummed almost in approval. He wiped his face with a towel like this was just another normal conversation. Like they weren’t standing here, balancing on the edge of something Joaquin did not know how to handle.

"You don’t have to figure it out alone," Sam offered. "We can help. Talk it out."

Joaquin shook his head, frantic. "No. No, I’m—" He clenched his jaw. "I’m straight." He insisted.

Sam just shrugged. "Okay." He didn’t believe that for a second.

Then, just like that, he turned and walked away, like they’d been talking about the weather.

Joaquin made the mistake of watching him go.

The way his back muscles flexed beneath his shirt. The way his arms shifted as he tossed the towel over his shoulder. The way he moved, so effortless, powerful, commanding.

And it hit him.

Sam was hot.

Sam was really fucking hot.

Wait.

Joaquin panicked.

"Help me." The words came out before he could stop them, barely more than a breathless plea.

Sam paused. He turned back with the gentle smile he’d seen him use in counseling. "You sure?"

Joaquin swallowed. He wasn’t sure of anything right now. But his pulse was racing, his skin felt too hot, and the look in Sam’s eyes— 

Yeah. He was looking at Sam in a very different way than he had ever before.

"Yeah," he admitted, voice barely above a whisper. "I think I need it."

"Alright," Sam nodded. "Come to dinner."

—

That night, Sam brought Joaquin over.

It wasn’t anything fancy, just the four of you at home, sharing a meal at the table. But from the moment Joaquin stepped inside, he felt it in the air: anticipation. It made his skin prickle, his heart pound a little too hard against his ribs. This wasn’t just dinner.

And he wasn’t wrong.

As soon as you set the plates down and took your seat between Bucky and Sam, your eyes flickered to Joaquin— curious, knowing, but kind. “So,” you said, a teasing lilt in your voice, “Sam says you had a bit of a crisis today.”

Joaquin stiffened. His stomach plummeted. “He told you already?”

Bucky shrugged, reaching for the bread. “Of course.”

Across the table, Sam grinned like he was enjoying every second of Joaquin’s slow-motion humiliation. “What, you thought I wouldn’t tell my partners that our favorite bird boy is questioning his entire life?”

Joaquin groaned, burying his face in his hands. “Kill me.”

Bucky’s hand landed on his shoulder, firm and steady. A grounding weight. “Relax.”

You leaned in slightly, resting your elbow on the table. “Wanna talk about it?”

Joaquin swallowed, forcing himself to sit up straighter. He should’ve felt more nervous, more exposed, but there was something about the way the three of you watched him—open, expectant, but without pressure—that made his shoulders ease.

So, he exhaled and forced the words out.

“I, uh—I don’t know what the hell’s happening to me.” He ran a hand through his hair, fingers tugging anxiously at the strands. “I thought I was straight. Always have been. But then last week, Bucky was… I don’t know, Bucky-ing me, and I liked it? And then today, Sam said things and—” He gestured wildly at Sam, like that explained everything. “—look at him! He’s stupidly hot! And now I don’t know what to do with myself.”

Sam wiggled his eyebrows. “So you do think I’m hot.”

Joaquin gulped.

Bucky chuckled, finally withdrawing his hand from Joaquin’s shoulder. “You’re gonna be fine.”

You nodded. “Questioning your sexuality can be confusing, but it doesn’t have to be scary.” A glance at Sam, then at Bucky. “We’ve all been there.”

Joaquin’s brows furrowed. He looked between the three of you. “Yeah?”

Sam leaned back in his chair, smirking. “I thought I was straight for way too long, too. Then I met Bucky, and it was like—” He snapped his fingers. “That.”

Bucky snorted. “You took your time getting there.”

Sam shot him a look. “Excuse me for needing a minute to process wanting to jump my best friend.”

Joaquin blinked. “Oh my god.”

You laughed, shaking your head before your expression softened. “I’m bi, too. But the people who matter most to me are all sitting at this table, and they just happen to be men.” You gestured between Sam and Bucky. “Labels help some people, but you don’t have to have everything figured out tonight. You just have to let yourself feel what you feel, and see where it leads.”

Joaquin sat with that.

For a moment, no one spoke. The air weighted, but not in a suffocating way. More like a weighted blanket, warm and comforting. He wasn’t sure he had an answer yet—wasn’t sure he was ready for an answer—but sitting here, surrounded by the three of you, he was in the right place.

He swallowed hard, glancing between you, Sam, and Bucky. 

Joaquin exhaled sharply. “So… what now?”

Sam shrugged. “Now? We eat. We talk. You figure things out at your own pace.”

Bucky leaned back in his chair, arms crossed over his chest, expression calm and certain. “No pressure at all. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to.”

You nodded, voice gentle. “Sam didn’t bring you here to sleep with us.” There was something steady in the way you spoke, something that made Joaquin’s pulse slow, just a little. “We just wanted to give you space to talk through it. No expectations. No rush.”

Joaquin felt the tension in his chest loosen.

This wasn’t what he expected. He’d spent all day wrapped up in his own head, spiraling through worst-case scenarios, second-guessing every reaction, every what-if and holy shit and am I losing my mind—

But here, with the three of you, it didn’t feel scary.

It just felt… possible.

Joaquin let out a breath and shook his head, a small, wry smile tugging at his lips.

You laughed, the sound bright and warm, and something in his chest unclenched.

Maybe he wasn’t ready to name this yet. Maybe he didn’t have to.

Maybe—for the first time—he was okay letting himself try to feel it.

—

The next month or so was when the process of dissecting Joaquin’s emotions began.

Sam, Bucky, and you had always been affectionate with each other. He always noticed the lingering touches, the casual cuddles, kisses pressed to temples and knuckles. Joaquin had been on the outskirts of that at first, watching, absorbing, trying to understand where he fit in, if he could fit in.

But when you all agreed for him to trial this relationship, everyone made space for him.

You invited him more often than you already did— movie nights on the couch where he ended up wedged between you and Sam, long walks where Bucky would sling an arm around his shoulders when no one was looking, brunches where Sam would pass him coffee with a wink. None of it felt forced. None of it felt like he was being pushed into something before he was ready.

It was just… there.

He didn’t realise how much he wanted it until it was.

None of it ever crossed a line. None of it ever felt like too much.

And yet, every time, it made his heart trip over itself.

He was still figuring out this thing he felt, this fondness when he looked at the three of you. The first few weeks were spent carefully cataloging every reaction, every flutter in his chest, every flip in his stomach, trying to determine what was what.

Slowly, he found himself initiating the affection— leaning into Sam on the couch, knocking Bucky’s knees under the dinner table, brushing his fingers against your wrist in passing.

You three were pleasantly surprised, but still patient. You let him sit with his feelings, let him test the waters at his own pace.

And then one night, he decided he was ready to wade in just a little deeper.

You were all at home, relaxing on the carpeted floor around table after a competitive game of Monopoly. The lights were dim, the air smelling of whatever candle you had burning. Joaquin was tucked between Bucky and Sam, you curled against Bucky’s other side, and it should have felt overwhelming. It should have.

He swallowed hard, and before he could think better of it, he blurted out, “Can I—”

Three heads turned toward him.

He cleared his throat, his hands curling into fists against his thighs. “Can I—uh.” He exhaled hard through his nose. “Can I kiss you? I just want to see how it feels.”

Then Sam sat up fully. “Yeah,” he said simply. “C’mere.”

Joaquin hesitated, pulse hammering, but then Sam leaned in first, closing the space patiently. The kiss was brief. Just a press of lips.

But something flipped in Joaquin’s stomach anyway.

When he pulled back, his breath was uneven. Sam watched him carefully, waiting. Giving him space to pull away completely if he needed to.

But Joaquin didn’t.

Instead, he turned to Bucky next.

Bucky chuckled, shaking his head fondly before tilting his chin up, meeting Joaquin halfway. His lips were warm, just the barest brush, but it made something in Joaquin’s chest go tight.

Then, finally, he turned to you. 

“You don’t have to,” you assured him.

“I want to,” Joaquin said, and he meant it.

So he kissed you, just as softly as the others. When he pulled back, he let out a shaky breath.

He glanced between the three of you. His heart was racing, and everything felt so unfamiliar, yet so good.

“It’s nice,” he admitted.

For the first time, he didn’t feel the need to overanalyse it. Didn’t feel the urge to pick it apart, to categorize, to define.

It was just…nice. 

—

A week later, he found himself at your place again.

This time, it was for a movie night—nothing fancy, just the four of you curled up on the couch, like it had always been this way. 

Over the week, he had shared more chaste kisses with you, Bucky, and Sam, but it was never more than that. It was just a peck— the lips, on the nose, on the cheeks, on their brows. It was… innocent.

But in the last couple of days, he found himself drowning in more sinful thoughts, because fuck, once he started coming to terms with his emotions, he realised he was so down bad for all three of you.

It was pathetic, really. He blushed when he caught himself staring at Bucky’s hands when he passed him the popcorn, when Sam leaned in close to whisper a joke in his ear, when you stretched out beside him, your crop top riding up high. 

Joaquin felt like he was vibrating out of his skin. He didn’t even know what the movie  was about— he was too busy being hyper-aware of everything else.

Then, you stretched again with a sigh, turning to him with an amused smile. “You better head out, Joaquin,” you said. “We’ve got plans.”

Plans.

It didn’t take a genius to figure out what you meant.

And yet, none of you had ever extended that invitation to him—not because you didn’t want to, but because you refused to push him before he was ready. Because none of you wanted him to feel like he had to take that step. Because you trusted him to tell you when he was ready.

Maybe…

Joaquin swallowed, his heartbeat a little too loud in his ears. 

He should go. 

That was the whole point of tonight—just another trial run. He should say goodnight and walk out that door.

But instead he said, “What if I want to stay?” 

Bucky’s head tilted slightly as a smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. “And watch?”

Joaquin’s throat went dry. He could feel all three pairs of eyes on him, the tension building up in his spine.

He forced himself to meet his eyes. “And try,” he corrected. 

There was just a skip of silence. 

Then Sam grinned. “Yeah?”

Joaquin nodded, head spinning. “Yeah.”

Bucky’s smile deepened. You bit your lip, excitement sparking in your eyes.

You smiled at him, shifting closer until your knees were on either side of his thighs. Joaquin swallowed hard, his hands hovering above your waist. His breath hitched when you leaned in, lips just barely brushing against his.

"You want me first, baby?" you asked. "Ease you into it?"

Joaquin let out a tiny moan at the sight of you on top of him, nodding. Yes.

Because as much as he wanted all of you equally, you were the one he'd been fighting feelings for the longest. 

So when you kissed him– differently this time, not chaste, not short, but with fire in your lungs— it was like something inside him finally clicked into place.

Your lips were soft, comforting and he groaned against your mouth as his hands finally gripped your hips. You kissed him deeply, guiding him through it, giving him time to adjust, to feel. And god, did he feel. 

The texture of your skin, the taste of your lips, the way you sighed into him— he was already dizzy, already overwhelmed in the best way possible.

Then, out of the corner of his eye, he caught movement.

Joaquin broke the kiss, breathless, just in time to see them.

Bucky and Sam, lips pressing together like they’d done this a million times before. And maybe they had, but he hadn’t seen it— not like this, not up close, knowing where it would eventually lead.

Joaquin’s heart was begging to be let out of his ribcage.

He barely had time to process before Bucky pulled away from Sam, glancing at him. "Enjoying the view?"

Joaquin huffed out a breathless laugh. "Mmmhmm,” he said.

You grinned, brushing your lips over his again. "Good," you murmured. "You're gonna love it even more when you're in it."

Joaquin wasn’t sure if he had it in him to survive this. But damn, was he gonna try.

Joaquin barely had a second to catch his breath before you nudged him gently, guiding him toward Sam. His heart was pounding so hard he was sure they could all hear it, but he didn't even resist.

And then—oh.

Sam's lips were on his, confident and insistent, tasting like whatever wine he'd sipped on earlier. Joaquin gasped against his mouth, how naturally different it was with lust than it was when he was just trying it out. 

Then, just as he was starting to melt into it, he felt you shift towards Bucky. 

Bucky’s hands were suddenly on your waist, dragging you closer, his mouth finding the weak spot on the curve of your neck. Joaquin heard you sigh as Bucky’s lips moved on you, teeth grazing skin.

And then Bucky's hand was slipping under your shirt, fingers tracing the warm skin of your stomach.

Joaquin groaned into Sam’s mouth, overwhelmed, overstimulated, unsure of what to focus on— Sam’s kiss, your soft sounds, the way Bucky’s hands mapped out your body like he already knew every inch of you by heart.

He just wanted more.

Joaquin barely had time to process the words—"My turn," it came from Bucky’s mouth—before he was being pulled in.

Bucky's hand was at the back of his neck, fingers curling just enough to send a shiver down his spine. Joaquin barely had a second to think before Bucky kissed him.

And—fuck.

It was different from Sam, different from you. Where you had been gentle and Sam had been playfully confident, Bucky was sure, he was deep. His lips moved against Joaquin’s like he already knew exactly how he liked to be kissed, how to make him part his lips just enough for Bucky to lick into his mouth.

Joaquin groaned, gripping Bucky’s shoulders to keep himself steady.

Your body was still there, pressing on his side. He didn’t even realise Sam had taken off your shirt. But then he felt you move, your lips ghosting along his jaw as if to encourage him: this is good, let go. Feel it. Feel us.

And he did.

Then Sam’s hands were on him too, sliding up his chest, fingers teasing along the hem of his shirt. Joaquin barely had time to react before Sam’s lips added yours, brushing along the other side of his jaw, down the column of his throat.

It was too much and not enough all at once.

Joaquin gasped into Bucky’s mouth, overwhelmed, hands grasping at something—Bucky’s shirt, Sam’s wrist, the curve of your waist—desperate to ground himself.

Bucky pulled back just enough to smirk against his lips. 

“Good?” He heard Sam ask, thumb brushing the nape of his neck. 

Joaquin breathed out shakily, “Yeah.”

You giggled and tugged Bucky’s shirt off as he lifted you effortlessly, just enough to shift your position before laying you back down between Joaquin’s thighs. 

The new position sent a shiver down your spine, anticipation growing low in your torso.

Joaquin's hands hesitated for a brief moment while he was taking the sight of you in, before settling around your waist, fingers splayed. Bucky leaned in, his breath warm against your ear as he murmured, “Comfortable, doll?”

A contented sigh escaped you as you tilted your head, nuzzling against his beard. “Always, darling.”

Sam, watching from beside Joaquin, made quick work of his own shirt, muscles flexing as he helped Joaquin tug his off as well. Joaquin was still getting used to all of this, still figuring things out the logistics of it, but judging by the hungry look in his eyes and the way his breath hitched when Sam gripped your thigh and pulled you flush against him, told you he was very much here for it.

“Honey,” you pouted at Sam, expecting something from him. He only chuckled and kissed you as his hand slid higher up your leg. Joaquin could only watch, mesmerised as his own hands tightened around you like he was torn between staying still and pulling you impossibly closer.

Bucky, now kneeling at the edge of the couch, traced his hands up yours and Joaquin’s calves, pressing soft kisses to the inside of his clothed knee before dragging his lips higher. His voice was low, filled with want. “Still good, babe?” The question was meant for Joaquin.

“Mmhm,” Joaquin hummed, his voice raspier than before, a little more breathless. 

You leaned back into Joaquin, sighing as Sam’s lips trailed down your chin. You felt worshipped, the three of them surrounding you, touch seeping into your skin like they wanted to consume you.

And then Bucky and Sam were stripping the rest of your clothes away, their hands reverent, their mouths pressing open-mouthed kisses along newly bared skin. Before he knew it, they were also eagerly discarded whatever was left on them. Joaquin followed their lead— he was eager now, fumbling with the button of his trousers, desperate to shed the last layers keeping him from all of you.

The night had barely begun, and already, it felt magical. 

And it was only going to get more interesting.

—

Joaquin woke up before anyone else.

Or maybe he hadn't really slept at all—just drifted in and out of consciousness.

He was too comfortable, too wrapped up in everything that had happened the night before. Every time he stirred, someone was there— your arm draped over his stomach, Bucky’s chest at his back, Sam’s leg thrown carelessly over all three of you like he owned the bed.

It was… nice. Scary, but nice.

So, naturally, when the first light of dusk came, he ran.

Not literally, but his nerves had him slipping out of bed, tugging on the first pair of sweats he could find (Sam’s) and making his way to the kitchen. He needed something to do, something to keep his hands busy, something to keep him from getting overwhelmed.

Which was how he ended up standing at the counter, aggressively mixing muffin batter like his life depended on it.

Because— what the hell now?

Last night had been—fuck, there wasn’t even a word that could possibly describe what he experienced last night. It had been overwhelming in the best way and hot and kind and so good, so much. Joaquin had felt wanted, pulled apart in the best of ways, held and cherished and utterly wrecked. He had been greedy—so fucking greedy— needy, desperate, and the three of you had given it to him. 

Fuck, he had asked and asked and asked, and you, Sam, and Bucky had answered with hands, with mouths, with bodies. And in return, he had given everything he had. He was so eager to please, eager to prove he belonged there. 

And he felt like he did. 

But now, in the light of day, reality settled in. 

Was he part of this now? Was this a thing? Or had it just been sex?

He wouldn’t be mad if that’s all it was—but the thought of going back to just being a friend made his chest ache, his heart break, just a little.

Joaquin had been testing boundaries for a while now, pushing to see how far he could go without falling. But this was a line he couldn’t uncross.

He was so lost in his own thoughts that he didn’t hear anyone come out of the bedroom until a deep voice rumbled behind him.

“You stress-baking, babe?”

He turned to find Bucky leaning against the doorway. His hair was a mess, all soft waves from sleep, and he hadn’t bothered with a shirt, which was unfair.

Joaquin scrambled to collect himself. “Wha—no,” he said quickly. Then, “…Maybe.”

Bucky padded over, peering into the bowl. “What are we working with?”

“Muffins.”

“Muffins.”

Joaquin nodded. “To say thanks.”

Bucky arched an eyebrow. “For what?”

Joaquin blinked. “Uh. Y’know. Last night.”

Bucky hummed, leaning an elbow on the counter. “You think you need to thank us?”

Joaquin hesitated. “I mean… don’t I?”

Before Bucky could answer, another voice chimed in.

“If anything, we should be thanking you.”

Joaquin turned to find Sam walking in. He was smiling that gorgeous smile of his. 

Bucky chuckled, nudging him lightly. “You think too much.”

Joaquin found himself overwhelmed. Again. “Yeah, I know—but I just—” He gestured vaguely between the three of them. “What is this? Was last night just—was it casual? Or am I, like…” He swallowed hard. “Am I in this now?”

Silence stretched for a beat. Joaquin’s heart pounded.

“You wanna be?” Sam asked.

Joaquin exhaled shakily. “I— …yes,” he admitted, voice barely above a whisper.

You finally stumbled out of the bedroom, still half-asleep, wearing Joaquin’s shirt and Bucky’s boxers, and one of Sam’s ridiculously oversized pairs of slippers—because apparently, you’d given up on matching anything. You blinked blearily at the scene in front of you: Joaquin standing at the kitchen counter, looking somewhere between nervous and overwhelmed, Bucky beside him, and Sam trying to sneakily steal muffin batter.

“What’s going on?” you mumbled, cursing to yourself. Why did you have to fall in love with not one, not two, but three early risers?

“Morning, doll,” Bucky greeted, “We’re just talking. Joaquin wants in.”

You squinted. “Hmm??”

Joaquin turned bright red.

Sam, ever the enabler, wrapped an arm around Joaquin’s waist. “Figured we should talk about it.”

You yawned, padding over and stealing a piece of muffin batter for yourself. “Yeah, okay. Let’s talk about it. After coffee.”

—

You made all three of your boys coffee while the muffins baked. You’d been doing this for Bucky for years and Sam for more than a year—but now there was Joaquin, and that was new. He had never stayed the night before, so you didn’t know his habits in the morning, yet. 

Bucky’s was black, no sugar. Sam pretended he liked it that way too, but you knew he secretly enjoyed a little cream when no one was looking. Joaquin was an unknown variable, but you had a hunch he was a sugar-and-cream kind of guy.

So when you set their mugs down—one black, one pretending to be, and one lightly sweetened—you watched Joaquin.

He blinked down at the cup, took a tentative sip, and then made a pleased noise before looking up at you, eyes round with wonder.

“You—how’d you know?”

You grinned. “Lucky guess.”

Sam pulled you in and kissed your knuckles, “She’s just great at this.”

You hopped onto the counter. “Alright. Let’s talk about it.”

Joaquin’s grip tightened around the mug. “I—um.” He licked his lips, eyes flicking between the three of you. “I don’t—I mean, I do know what I’m trying to say, I just—”

Bucky leaned forward, resting his arms on the counter. “It’s okay. Take your time.”

Joaquin swallowed hard. Then, almost too quietly, he whispered, “I think I’m in love with you. All of you.”

Your heart flipped, warmth blooming in your chest.

“Joaquin,” you called, and when he finally looked at you, you gave him the softest of smiles. “I think I’m in love with you too.”

Bucky hummed with a satisfied grin. “Hm.”

Joaquin turned his startled eyes toward him. “H-Hm?”

Sam exhaled through his nose, shaking his head fondly. “Yeah. Hm.”

Joaquin blinked rapidly, like his brain was still trying to process what that meant.

Bucky chuckled, kissing his temple. “Means I love you too.”

Joaquin made the smallest, most overwhelmed little noise, like the words had stunned him.

“We do. We’ve been talking about it for a while now,” Sam said, “and… I do. I love you.” Then, unable to help himself, reached out and ran a finger through his hair to ruffle. “God, you’re cute.”

Bucky nodded, resting his elbows on the counter. “But let’s be clear about what ‘this’ is.”

Joaquin glanced down at his coffee. “I—I know this isn’t an open thing.”

“Right,” Bucky said. “This is a closed polycule. We’re not dating outside of this unless everyone agrees.” His kind eyes were on him again. “Are you sure you’re committing to that?”

Joaquin’s eyes only widened like Bucky had just offered him the world.

“I—yeah,” he said, almost breathless. “I want to.”

Bucky hummed approvingly. “Good answer.”

—

The muffins were finally done, and by then, the tension had melted into the thrilling feeling of a new relationship. 

Music played softly from the record player —something old and slow—and before you even realized what was happening, Bucky was pulling you away from the counter, swaying you gently in the kitchen.

You laughed, looping your arms around his neck. “What’re you doing?”

Bucky smirked. “Dancing with my wife.”

Sam huffed jokingly from where he was still lounging with Joaquin. “Excuse me, why am I not being danced with?”

Bucky grinned and reached out a hand. “Then get over here, Captain.”

Sam stepped up beside Bucky, his hands easily finding his hip. You, completely unbothered, just adjusted to make room for him, and suddenly you were swaying together, the three of you moving in the kitchen like you’d been doing this forever.

Joaquin watched, eyes wide with something like wonder.

You caught him staring and smiled. “C’mon, babe. You’re part of this now.”

Joaquin hesitated—just for a second—before stepping forward and joining you. 

You giggled, reaching up to caress his cheeks. “You’re gonna fit in just fine.”

Joaquin made a happy noise and melted into it, and then, suddenly, he was surrounded—Bucky behind him, Sam in front, you right beside him, arms tangling, feeling comfort all around.

And when you all leaned in—pressing little kisses to his cheeks, his forehead, his nose—he just laughed, happy, because he really was exactly where he was meant to be.

—

Only a couple months later, you four were invited to your first public event together. And while you, Sam and Bucky were practiced in sneaking around events, it was Joaquin’s first real test of avoiding cameras.

Bucky and you were the congressman and wife. Sam was here as Captain America, Joaquin as his second-in-command. No one questioned why you were all near each other, why you gravitated into the same orbit. It made sense for the four of you to be close.

They just didn’t really know how close. 

The state gala was polished and grand, as expected. It was full of the kind of bullshit small talk that meant nothing but looked good on camera. 

Bucky was ever the charming congressman, his hand always lingering on your back. This was the image everyone knew.

But the real thrill of the night was in the details.

You felt it once every in a while Sam’s fingers skimmed over your hip when no one was looking. Then Joaquin’s eyes would find yours every time your hand brushed his. Still, Bucky squeezed your hip possessively when some young hotshot got a little too interested in you. Anyone that wasn’t him, Sam, or Joaquin wasn’t allowed to so much as look at you. 

And of course, you weren’t necessarily the center of attention. 

Sam’s hand lingered just a little too long on the small of Joaquin’s back when he guided him through the crowd. Joaquin’s eyes locked onto Bucky’s mouth every time he took a sip of his drink. And Bucky, ever the composed public figure, let his fingers trail down his arm.

This was exhilarating.

—

The first time someone was pulled aside, it was you.

Sam found you mid-conversation with some diplomat’s wife. He leaned in, all smiles and charm. “’Scuse me, Mrs. Barnes,” he said, “your presence is required elsewhere.”

A thrill shot down your spine, but you only smiled, excusing yourself as Sam’s hand found your elbow, guiding you away.

“You’re enjoying this,” you whispered once you were out of earshot.

Sam shrugged. “A little.”

He pulled you out into the secluded garden, his body pressing you against the wall.

“Gotta say,” he said, voice dropping almost an octave, “you look real good tonight, sweetheart.”

You grinned, fingers curling into his tie, tugging him down. “So do you, captain.”

So he kissed you. It was long enough to feel your mouth moving against his, but not nearly as long as you usually had. Still, it was enough to leave Sam chuckling against your lips before pulling away.

“I’ll be coming back for more later,” he promised.

—

The second time, it was Joaquin.

You had barely made it back to Bucky’s side when you felt someone hovering behind you.

You turned—and found Joaquin looking down at you with his dark eyes, nervous but wanting. He was still getting used to this, after all. 

“Can—” He licked his lips, glancing around as if someone might notice him talking to you. “Can we—just for a second?”

Bucky chuckled under his breath, refilling his drink. “Go ahead.”

Joaquin swallowed hard before tugging at your wrist and leading you away.

You didn’t make it far. The moment you were tucked behind a towering column, Joaquin’s hands landed on your waist.

“I can’t believe we’re doing this,” he whispered, breathless.

You smiled, brushing your fingers over his cheek. “How’s it feel?”

Joaquin chuckled, eyes flickering down to your lips. “Like… the best kind of secret.”

Then his mouth was on yours, unsure at first, but the moment you melted into him, he made a quiet, needy little noise and pulled you closer.

Your lips started trailing down his jaw when the sound of laughter from nearby forced you apart, and Joaquin buried his face in your shoulder, flustered beyond belief.

“You're is gonna be the death of me, cariño,” he mumbled.

You laughed, pressing a kiss to his temple. “We’ll take care of you later, babe.”

—

The third time, it wasn’t you. 

You had returned to the party, sitting beside Bucky, watching the room with mild amusement—until your eyes landed on them.

Joaquin had been fidgeting all night, glancing at Bucky, glancing at you, like he didn’t quite know what to do with himself.

Apparently, Sam had decided to fix that.

You saw it happen. Sam leaned in at the bar, muttering something (probably dirty) into his ear. Joaquin’s mouth parted slightly, eyes wide.

Then Sam touched him, a guiding hand at the small of his back. Joaquin practically melted as Sam whisked him off away to find some empty conference room.

When they made it, the door had barely clicked shut before Sam had Joaquin pressed against it.

“You've been looking at me all night like you wanted something,” Sam’s lips were grazing the shell of Joaquin’s ear. “So what is it, Lieutenant?”

Joaquin swallowed hard, fingers curling into Sam’s biceps. “You.”

He chuckled, pressing a kiss to the side of Joaquin’s neck. Sam’s hands were teasing at the hem of Joaquin’s jacket, hooking in his belt loops, when they heard a knock at the door.

They broke apart instantly. 

“You in there, Cap?” came a voice from the other side. It sounded like one of the other congressmen Sam was friendly enough with. 

Sam smoothed his hands down Joaquin’s chest like he was fixing his uniform—but really, it was just an excuse to touch him.

“Yeah,” Sam called, voice perfectly steady. “Me and Torres were just going over some mission details.”

Joaquin swallowed a laugh, tugging his jacket back into place as Sam adjusted his tie.

—

The fourth time, it was Sam.

Bucky wasn’t as subtle about it as he should be. One moment, Sam was chatting with some government official, and the next, Bucky was on his side. 

“Excuse me,” Bucky said gruffly, “need to talk to him.”

Sam smiled politely but followed Bucky anyway. It was amusing, really. How everyone thought their relationship was purely platonic.

“You know, usually when someone steals me away, they at least try to be sneaky.”

Bucky ignored him, finally arriving in the deserted hallway he was looking for. 

“You been teasin’ them both all night, honey,” Bucky placed his metal hand on his hip, “but not me.”

Sam raised a brow. “You jealous, darlin’?”

Bucky rolled his eyes but didn’t deny it. Instead, he pressed in closer, his breath warm against Sam’s lips. “Just wanted my turn,” he admitted, fingers curling into the lapels of Sam’s jacket.

Sam grinned, tilting his chin up slightly. “Then take it.”

Bucky did.

He kissed Sam slowly, savouring the way Sam’s fingers curled around his bicep. When Bucky finally pulled back, Sam looked annoyingly smug.

—

The fifth time, it was Joaquin.

He had been lingering close to you and Bucky all night, like he was waiting for something but didn’t quite know how to ask for it. 

Even after a couple of months, he still found Bucky the most intimidating.

Bucky knew that.

So when he caught Joaquin’s eye from across the room and noticed no one was paying attention, he held out his hand. Joaquin blinked, setting his drink down and slipping his fingers into Bucky’s palm.

You noticed that they were being a little too obvious, so you took matters into your own hands. You “accidentally” bumped into one of the smug politicians who kept voting against every bill Bucky proposed, sending a glass of red wine spilling down the front of his white suit.

The man shouted in outrage and you offered a saccharine apology, distracting the crowd just long enough for Bucky to slip outside with Joaquin.

Before disappearing onto the balcony, Bucky mouthed, thank you.

Joaquin let out a deep breath as soon as they were alone. “Did I look that desperate?”

“Not desperate,” Bucky corrected, “Just… waiting.”

Joaquin swallowed, glancing at him. “And now?”

Bucky brushed a hand along his skin, tilting his chin up just a little. “Now I’m done making you wait.”

Joaquin barely had time to take a breath before Bucky kissed him gently like he was making a promise.

When they finally pulled apart, Joaquin was breathless and a little dazed. “That was worth the wait.”

—

The last time, it was Bucky.

You had just finished a conversation with some senator when Bucky, who just got back from the balcony, leaned in. “Bathroom. Now.”

You gulped, a wicked grin tugging at your lips. “Bossy,” you joked.

He huffed, faking being annoyed at your resistance. “Go.”

You didn’t even think twice.

You slipped away, barely making it to the lavish bathroom before he spun you around and pressed you against the cool marble countertop.

“Can’t resist anymore, doll,” Bucky murmured against your skin.

Before you could respond, his lips were on yours. It was hot, desperate, he stole your breath away.

Then the door opened.

Joaquin gasped. Sam laughed.

“Knew we’d find you in here.”

Bucky shrugged. “Took you long enough.”

Joaquin looked like he finally understood what was happening. “Are we—are we—?”

Sam sighed dramatically, rolling his shoulders. “Well, I was gonna be patient, but…”

Then he stepped forward, grabbing Bucky by the tie, kissing him. 

After he pulled away, Bucky, the smug bastard, reached out and yanked Joaquin right into it.

Joaquin let out the softest little gasp against Bucky’s lips, going pliant in an instant.

You bit your lip, watching, heat pooling low in your stomach. “I should leave you three alone.”

Sam turned, “Don’t you dare.”

And then you were in it, pressed between them, with stolen kisses, limbs tangling, the thrill of secrecy making it all the more addicting.

No one knew. No one had any idea.

This was just yours. 

—

While sneaking around in public was fun, where you all truly loved was behind closed doors. It was the private moments—the ones that made your love feel intimate.

Joaquin had settled into it well over the past three months. It still caught him off guard sometimes, how easy it was to belong to all of you.

But he still had no idea what was happening today. 

He had just finished a long morning shift at base, expecting to come home, maybe shower, maybe crash on his couch for a while before heading to yours and Bucky’s place—because, let’s be honest, that’s where he and Sam always ended up anyway.

But the moment he unlocked his front door, something smelled rich and buttery.

His house smelled good. 

Joaquin frowned. He knew for a fact he hadn’t left anything in the oven. He hadn’t even used his oven in days (since you had a better one that didn’t have a wonky thermostat). 

“Uh… hello?” he called, stepping inside with caution,

Then he saw you standing in his kitchen, pulling a tray of muffins out of the oven.

He saw Sam, leaning against the counter and preparing drinks dimples deep as he smiled at him.

He saw Bucky, setting the table—his table, in his home— with little decorations. 

Joaquin’s brain almost completely went into shut down.

“What—?” He blinked, still standing in the doorway. “What are you doing?”

You laughed, setting the muffins down with a gentle clatter. “Celebrating.”

Joaquin’s mouth opened, then closed. He knew he wasn’t missing a birthday. Was he missing a holiday? It wasn’t Valentine’s Day, right? “Uh… celebrating what?”

Sam chuckled. “Three months, babe.”

Joaquin stared. Oh.

Bucky smiled at him, arms crossing over his chest. “Three months of putting up with our bullshit.”

Joaquin’s cheeks flushed instantly, ears burning.

He looked at the table— at the little spread you’d put together. It was nothing too fancy, just muffins, coffee, a candle that was probably stolen from your kitchen, along with some little recycled decorations you kept in your top drawer. 

He loved this, looking at you three, standing there in his space, in his home, looking at him like he mattered.

“You—” His voice wobbled, so he cleared his throat, “You guys didn’t have to do all this.”

“We wanted to,” you said, stepping closer. “Because you’re ours.”

Sam, unable to resist, reached over and tugged Joaquin forward, pressing a firm kiss to his temple.

Joaquin relaxed into the touch.

Bucky chuckled, wrapping an arm around his waist, pressing a kiss to his other temple.

Joaquin let out something close to a whine, face burning, but he didn’t pull away.

And then you kissed the tip of his nose, and—god help him—he actually giggled.

Bucky chuckled. “You feelin’ celebrated yet?”

Joaquin let out a helpless laugh, tucking his face against Sam’s chest. “Yeah,” he whispered. “I do.”

And when all three of you pulled him in tighter with love wrapped around him like something vast and endless, he knew—

This was the closest to heaven he had ever been.

–end.

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An Unorthodox Method

Poe Dameron x F!Reader

Rating : 18+/E

Word count : 7600 (ish)

Warnings : It's the one bed trope!, Lil mild angst, lots of teasing, Poe being an adorable little shit, mentions of Poe having hearing problems/being partially deaf in one ear, fluff, banter, SMUT, PIV, fingering, marking (love bites and nail marks), praise kink if you squint, illusions to cum eating, mentions of oral f- receiving, overstimulation if you blink, aftercare, very brief mention of casual sex/one night stands.

Summary : All you want is a hot shower, some clean dry clothes, and to crawl into bed. What you absolutely do not want is Poe Dameron in that bed with you.

@campingwiththecharmings thank you so much for this request! I'm so excited to finally do the one bed trope for Poe! I hope you like it.

Special thank you to @mandinlore for the beta 😘

~~~~~~~~~

The rain hammers a steady ping ping ping on the window as you and Poe stand in the doorway to the room, your clothes soaked and sticking uncomfortably to your skin, your shoes leaving puddles of water.

"You have got to be kidding me!" You groan as Poe laughs.

You had been looking forward to a hot shower, a nice warm bed, and at least a good few hours of peace and quiet. The last part had already been thwarted by the fact some error in the hotel booking meant you only had one room with no others available, and now to add insult to injury there was only one damn bed.

"Well, this is going to be fun!" The pilot chirps happily from beside you, walking in to dump his bag on the chair and leaving wet boot prints in his wake.

Climbing into bed with the resistance's best looking pilot, who you were, if you were honest, a little bit in love with, did not constitute as fun. In fact, after the day you had spent with him, it was the very last thing you wanted to do.

Poe was always, and had always, been chatty, but today he seemed to have turned all his dials up to maximum. He'd talked non stop, made unfunny jokes, inappropriate innuendos that with anyone else you suspect he wouldn't have gotten away with, and done just about anything he could to make himself the most annoying person this side of the galaxy.

For what reason, you had no idea. You had started to suspect perhaps he had realised your warm feelings towards him, and maybe this was his way of making you hate him so he didn't have to let you down, and honestly, you might think it was starting to work.

Trudging into the room, your boots squelching with each step, you place your bags down, resigned to your probably sleepless fate.

"You want the bathroom first?" The pilot offers, despite the fact he's worse off than you, having given you his jacket to hold above your head the moment the downpour started. It hadn't helped much after the first few minutes, but you had been grateful for the shelter anyway.

You don't really register his question, your thoughts lost as you finger the worn leather coat remembering the way his scent clung to it, invading your senses as you splashed through the flooded streets.

"Hey," you look up to find the pilot watching you, his brow furrowed. "You okay?"

You drop the jacket onto the dresser, giving him a smile and a nod.

"Just sick of listening to you."

Poe snorts with laughter, grabbing the hem of his shirt and peeling it up over his head. You purposely busy yourself pulling out some dry clothes from your pack , not allowing yourself to peek, although it's a difficult battle.

"There's nobody you love listening to more than me," Poe states, thankfully not seeming to notice your internal fight of keeping your eyes off him.

You sigh, somewhat thankful his annoying cockyness is a distraction from his semi-nakedness. Picking up your sleepwear and wash bag you head towards the bathroom, trying to ignore him. Poe however gives you no quarter, trailing along behind you.

"So what exactly are the sleeping arrangements going to be?" He asks.

Frowning you turn around, your eyes deciding to flicker over his bared torso before meeting his gaze. Even the smallest glance is enough to get blood rushing through your veins, and you can feel heat blossoming across your cheeks.

Ignoring the feeling you gesture to the bed with a raise of your eyebrow.

"But what if you snore?" The pilot asks, clearly not noticing your desire to leave the room until he's decided to put some clothes on.

You pull a face, not quite understanding his issue when he's half deaf from the war anyway. The explosion that had damaged most of the resistance ships had permanently damaged his eardrums, which Poe liked to use to his advantage when he decided he wasn't going to listen to someone, although you think he hears far more than he lets on.

"Poe, you can hardly hear out of one ear as it is! Just sleep on your good ear and you probably won't hear a thing out of the other one."

He folds his arms stubbornly. "I'll hear if you're right next to my head."

"Then you are more than welcome to sleep in the bathroom once I'm done," you offer, stepping into the tiny fresher.

"Nah, I'd rather sleep in the bed. But what if you steal the covers?"

"Then you can take them back."

"What if you cuddle me in your sleep?" He fires quickly.

You give him a withering look, trying not to think about pressing your body against his, keeping your eyes trained on his face.

"Oh trust me Poe, I won't." In fact you will do everything possible not to touch him, just for your own sanity.

"But you might. I'm very into consent and if I'm asleep-" he pauses mid sentence, opening his mouth and then closing it again before leaning against the door frame. "Actually scratch all of that. I absolutely give you consent to do whatever you like to me."

The pilot grins at you and you feel a familiar surge of heat through your body, collecting and coiling in your abdomen. Combined with your patience finally snapping, it's the last straw. You slam the bathroom door in his handsome smug face.

The lukewarm shower really tops off the day.

~

"I've been thinking" Poe starts the moment he exits the bathroom, after loudly complaining through the door about you using up all the hot water.

You pinch the bridge of your nose with a sigh, the hope that he would have calmed down and go straight to sleep evaporating. You are grateful however that he's at least finally put a shirt on.

"That must hurt."

"Oi!" He protests with a shocked expression, that at least brings a little smile to your lips. He grins at you, letting you know he took no offence at your words.

"As I was saying," he continues while you lay out his clothes to dry, the ones he dumped in a wet pile in the middle of the floor. "I've been thinking, and I know what's wrong with you. I want you to know it's okay."

The way his voice suddenly goes so gentle makes you look around. The pilot holds out his hand, wrapping his fingers around yours as he pulls you closer, holding your gaze steadily. You hope he doesn't notice the way your breath catches, or the heat blazing through you that makes your hands clammy.

"It's okay to be nervous," he continues, while your mouth goes dry. "I know spending the night with me is a lot, and it's going to be so difficult for you to keep your hands to yourself, but we are going to get through this together, and you'll be able to tell everyone about it when we get home."

You snatch your hand angrily out of his while the pilot bursts into laughter.

"Grow up and get in the damn bed!" You growl, climbing into bed, pulling the covers up to your chin and turning over away from him, your heart thundering in your chest. How, even when he was joking, did he manage to get so damn close to the truth?

"Why do you want me in bed so badly, huh? Thinking about late night cuddles?" You hear the pilot ask, feeling the mattress sink with his weight.

"No. When you're asleep, you're not talking," you bite out, still stinging from the embarrassment of your reaction when he was just being his usual annoying self.

Poe ignores your hostility and you feel him shrug.

"Listen, all I'm trying to do is tell you that we could eliminate some of this sexual tension. Well, if you wanted to."

Sexual tension wasn't exactly what you would say was between you, but there was always certainly something, although with Poe you imagine he had that with everyone. With you though, your feelings for the pilot ran a little deeper, not that you'd ever dare speak those aloud. The last thing you needed was the "it's not you, it's me" speech, especially if his behaviour was to drive you away. Best to let sleeping dogs lie.

You run a hand down your face with an exasperated sigh. "There is absolutely no sexual tension, Poe. What there is, is murderous tension."

Poe lets out an exclamation of excitement.

"Oh my favourite kind!"

You bite the inside of your cheek to stop a smile, lest you encourage him to continue.

"Please Poe, go to damn sleep," you whine, pulling the pillow from under your head and pressing it against your ear, trying to block out his incessant rambling.

"I will if you admit it."

"Admit what?" You groan, frustrated. Why can't he just shut the hell up and let you get through this?

"That you've thought about us."

"Poe I swear-" you take a deep breath, grabbing the cushion with one hand, rolling over with the intent on smothering him into silence. You're surprised to find the pilot on his side, almost nose to nose with you in the small bed.

"You've seriously never thought about us kissing?" Poe interrupts.

"I…I…" you’re thrown by his closeness, by his long lashes and soft smile, by the damn doe eyed look he's giving you.

You know there's no shutting him up until you tell him what he wants to hear so you take a breath. It wouldn't exactly be news to him, Poe knew just about everyone had considered kissing him at some point or another. The man did come with a reputation for having a rather skillful mouth after all.

"Fine! Maybe once or twice. Now go to damn sleep!" You growl, annoyed at him, and yourself.

The shit eating grin he gives you is enough to make you turn back over, tucking the pillow under your head and shutting your eyes tightly, as though that alone might drown him out.

"I knew it," he gloats with a happy sigh, clicking off the bedside lamp.

You grip the pillow, considering the option you still have of smothering him.

Thankfully he's quiet from that point and infuriatingly asleep in less than five minutes. You can feel the mattress move with his slow steady breaths.

Glancing over your shoulder he's laid out on his back, one arm tucked under his head, his lashes fluttering against his cheeks as he dreams, his full lips open with a soft sigh.

Turning around again you punch the lumpy pillow, trying to get more comfortable.

You will not think about kissing him. That was a one time thing. Okay, maybe three or four. Well maybe more… a lot more. You're determined tonight for once, you will not fall asleep thinking about his mouth on yours, you will absolutely not think about his lips on your skin, or his fingers caressing your breasts…

Someone suddenly shakes you and you open your eyes groggily, the room swimming and blurred as you blink sleep from your vision.

"What the hell?" You grumble, looking up at the pilot with his sleep tousled curls, still half asleep himself, one eye still shut and the other half open, bathed in the soft moonlight glow that sneaks through the blinds.

"You said my name," he mumbles, voice still sleep gravelled. "You alright?"

Flashes of his mouth sealed over your nipple, his tongue darting out to lick a path down to your navel, your hand gripping his hair, his mouth between your thighs.

Oh no. You absolutely did not have a sex dream about him. Not now, not here. Please no!

"You must have dreamt it," you swallow, desperately trying to play it cool. If Poe heard you while he was dead asleep, then you must have been loud. You feel the heat prickling the back of your neck.

"No, I definitely heard you say Poe," he insists.

"Well even if I did I'm fine so you can go back to sleep," you insist, shifting your legs restlessly. You're too warm. Well not just warm, burning hot, sweat cooling on your skin, an uncomfortable ache between your legs that screams of unsatisfied desire.

"You sure? You sounded a bit…breathless?" The pilot asks again, genuine concern in his tone. Although you can barely see him in the dim lighting you can still see the frown pulling his brows together, both eyes now open and studying you. You really don't want him to press any further. Even his voice brings back flashes of the dream, sultry whispers in your ear, his tongue lapping at your folds, the cry of his name from your mouth.

You swallow again, pushing the thoughts away.

"Really, I'm fine. Must have been a nightmare if it involved you anyway."

"Ouch." He holds his hands over his chest, collapsing back onto the mattress as though you wounded him, giving a long drawn out dramatic death rattle.

Pulling up the covers you throw them over his head with a laugh.

"Go back to sleep, Flyboy."

Laying back you shuffle as close to the edge as you can, putting as much distance as possible between you and the pilot. You wonder if it would be better for you to stay awake, just in case your dreams come back to haunt you. You absolutely wouldn't get away with saying his name a second time.

"It's okay you know," Poe speaks suddenly into the darkness as you lay rigid beside him. "If you were dreaming about me. I wouldn't mind."

You can't help but snort with laughter at that.

"You wouldn't mind if anyone dreams about you."

"True," Poe admits. You feel him shift and even though you can't see him, your eyes staring up at the ceiling, his gaze burns you.

"Let me rephrase. I'd like it if you dreamt about me." He continues.

When you don't turn to face him or grace him with an answer, you feel the shift of the mattress again as he lays back.

"I'm sorry," he sighs, and for once it sounds genuine, not a hint of playfulness in his tone. "I thought this would cheer you up. It's been a long week and you've just seemed so… I don't know. Not yourself, like you're bottling everything up. I figured maybe if you were thinking about how annoying I was, or making you laugh and fight with me, it would give you a bit of a distraction and an outlet, but I get it, maybe I took it too far, even if it is the truth."

It had been a long week, the longest in fact. While the mission itself had been a success, you had seen a lot of the First Order's destruction in the process, and it was worse than either of you had realised. You'd felt melancholy for days, the sights you've witnessed replaying in your mind. You hadn't noticed it much at the time, too lost in your own thoughts and angry that he was so loud that it was impossible to hear yourself think, but the more you think about it, the more you realise what he's been doing — trying to make you smile, keeping you distracted, making you focus on anything but what's happened. All you've done is complain to him about it.

Guilt twists hard in your stomach.

How typical of Poe to try and be helpful in the most unconventional way.

Part of you wants to reach for him, to cuddle him tight against you and thank him, to tell him you're here for him too if he needs someone. The other part keeps you rigidly pinned to the mattress, afraid to move in case so much as a finger brushes up against him, unsure if you can hold yourself back with the lingering memory of the dream.

"You mean the truth is that you really are worried I snore?" You ask, trying to break the unbearable tension.

His answer is the most serious he's sounded all day. There isn't a trace of humour, of teasing, just a tiredness, the kind that comes from pretending to smile all day, the kind that signals a surrender.

"No, I could live with that. I mean the dreaming part. I'd like it if you dreamt about me."

"Oh." You can't find anything else to say to that, your heart hammering so loudly in your chest you're sure even through his damaged ear he can hear it.

The ongoing silence suddenly feels heavy, like a crushing weight on your chest, the truth feels like lead in your belly. Poe hasn't made a single noise in a while but you get the distinct feeling he isn't asleep. You wonder if he's laying still too, muddling through his thoughts.

You can't take back your behaviour towards him but you can at least give him something in return.

"Poe?"

The response is instant, "Yeah?"

You take a breath, swallowing hard, your fingers twisting into the sheet at the edge of the bed, nervously gripping them.

"Every day," you whisper quietly.

"Huh?"

You feel a slight shift as he must turn to look at you.

You clear your throat, staring hard enough at the ceiling that your eyes start to burn, repeating yourself louder.

"I said every day. I lied earlier. It's not once or twice. I think about kissing you every day. I have for a while," you admit.

A sudden blinding light obscures your vision, making you cry out in surprise and squeeze your eyes shut against the sudden intrusion. Coloured lights flash behind your eyelids and you have to blink a few times in order to see anything.

When the room comes back into focus Poe is sitting bolt upright in the bed, staring down at you, the bedside lamp illuminating his head like a synthetic halo.

"You were dreaming about me!"

With a groan you grab the pillow and hold it over your own face, deciding if you can't smother him you could just smother yourself instead, which seems like the better option than actually having this conversation.

You feel the pillow tug back gently, but you hold fast, refusing to give it up.

"Come on, let go and talk to me. You've said it now." A grunt of effort and a hard tug on the pillow before Poe sighs. "I'm not going away so you're either going to suffocate or talk."

"Then I'll suffocate," you mumble into the pillow, already regretting saying anything.

"You know I can't hear you right? Come on." This time he tucks his fingers under yours and peels them off the pillow cover until it falls halfway off your face.

"Better," he smiles, letting go of your hands to remove it entirely. "Why are you hiding from me?"

"I don't want to see your smug smile about how right you are," you glare, trying to hide your embarrassment that you've blurted out exactly what you've been trying to conceal from him. Once more, Poe takes your attitude in his stride.

"I've thought about kissing you too, you know? In fact I've thought about kissing you at least four times since you woke me up." He gives a shrug, like you should know that, like it's completely utterly normal for someone to think about kissing you that many times in the space of ten minutes.

You bite your lip, familiar tendrils of desire reigniting in your belly. Your body, still clearly on edge from your illicit dream, thrums with tension.

"So why haven't you done it yet?"

Poe rolls his eyes, as though the answer is obvious. "Clearly I'm building up the sexual tension for it!"

You're done letting him have the upper hand in this. In a surge of confidence, and to stop the smug look on his face, you wrap your hand around the back of the pilot's neck, before you pull his lips to yours. You feel Poe's brief smile, probably of victory, against your mouth before he kisses you back.

It's soft at first, almost sweet tender kisses, short and playful, getting to know each other. He kisses your top and bottom lip, he gives you tiny pecks of affection, he licks playfully at your bottom lip.

Effortlessly he shifts his weight over you, slotting himself between your thighs as though you were made to fit together. His tongue licks into your mouth, slick and hot, sliding against your own as he presses his body against yours, your kisses descending into something much more passionate.

Maker, the rumours weren't wrong. He is good at this, better than good actually, infuriatingly good. You can't even find any fault to tease him about.

You tangle your fingers in his curls, tugging gently and causing the pilot to moan into your mouth. You give a shiver of desire at the sound, your mind filled with thoughts of how you can draw it from him in other ways. Poe's mind seems to be on a similar track, his hips grinding against yours, pressing himself against your core and causing you to let out a gasp of surprise at the jolt of pleasure.

Perhaps there was a little sexual tension after all.

The pilot pulls away, his chest heaving, eyes dark and lips kiss swollen, his curls messy and tousled from your fingers.

"Fuck, sorry. I didn't mean to get carried away so quickly," he apologises, swallowing hard as he clearly tries to get a handle on himself, holding his body off yours, allowing a brief respite for you both to collect yourselves.

"I don't mind getting carried away," you admit, still feeling feverish with his closeness, your mind filled with the fantasy of your dreams. You raise your hips, pressing up against his clothed length, making the pilot let out a choked moan of surprise before his eyes darken.

"Well in that case," he grins, recovering all too quickly. Desire coils in your belly and before you can drag his mouth back to yours, in true Poe fashion, he continues talking. "Why don't you tell me what I was doing in this dream of yours?"

You give him a coy smile. As if he's going to get it out of you that easily.

"Fulfilling my deepest fantasy," you answer as Poe licks his lips, eagerly leaning forward to listen.

"Oh yeah? What fantasy might that be?"

"You were quiet for a whole five minutes," you sigh dreamily. It takes a second to register with him before he leans back bursting out laughing. You can't help but start to giggle yourself.

"Okay, I deserved that!" He laughs. "My methods may be unorthodox, but they work!"

He was entirely correct in that him being his usual annoying self was exactly what you had needed as a distraction, although you're sure there were less annoying ways to achieve the same means.

"I don't know. I actually considered murdering you at least a few times. Maybe I still will, when you're fast asleep and least expecting it," you warn, running a finger along your throat in a playful threat.

Poe hums, leaning back down over you, caging you to the bed with his arms.

"What exactly makes you think either of us will be going back to sleep?"

Oh.

There's another rush of heat that tingles against your skin, shooting straight down to your aching core. It's not at all helped by the fact Poe leans down to capture your lips, his tongue slipping between your teeth as he moves one hand to grip your hip, sliding it slowly up your body and under your shirt to trail his fingers across your breast.

You moan into his mouth as he rolls your peaked nipple between his fingers, grinding yourself up against him, uncaring of whatever commentary he wants to make as long as you can deal with this rapidly intensifying desire.

When he finally pulls away once more it's hard to get your breath, especially as he continues to steal little kisses from you, his fingers still resting against your skin.

Bracing himself on one arm above you, the other slides down to tiptoe over your hip.

"Do I have your consent to remove these ugly pants?" He grins teasingly, pulling at the waistband of your shorts. They had seen better days in all fairness but you hadn't really considered anyone else seeing them.

"Hey, they aren't that bad! Not like you're the pinnacle of fashion." In retaliation you poke your finger through a hole in the leg of his threadbare sleep pants, making the pilot laugh.

"These are my lucky pants."

You can't help but snort with a roll of your eyes. "That's the stupidest thing I've heard."

Poe raises one eyebrow, a smug smile tugging at his lips.

"They got you into my bed didn't they?"

You scoff, "The hotel management got me into this bed."

"You know what, you're right. Maybe I should go thank them now," Poe muses, his grin turning into a laugh as you wrap your arms around him, preventing him from leaving.

"Will you please just stop talking?" You laugh, wondering how much of the night is even left. You swear if the sun rises and you haven't resolved this, you will combust of need, and you will take the pilot out with you.

Poe raises his eyebrows.

"Well, I would, but you still haven't answered my original question."

You stare at him, trying to figure out what exactly he's talking about before you realise.

"For the love of… Yes Poe, I give you consent to do whatever you want to me as long as you stop dragging this out like a massive tease!"

The pilot lets out a soft chuckle, leaning down to brush his nose against yours, a soft gesture in a stark contrast to what leaves his mouth, "dangerous words, sweetheart."

You almost shudder with the flash of desire that bolts through you, making sharp heat rush across your skin and your pussy clench.

"I need you to make me a promise first though," his fingers slip across your abdomen, resting just above the waistband of your pants. The feverish desire at his touch is overshadowed by annoyance that he's still talking. Maker, you swear he won't survive till sunrise.

"Po-

"I'm going to need you to be loud," he purrs in your ear, cutting you off as his hand slips under your waistband. "I don't want to miss a single noise you make."

Even if you wanted to be quiet, the pad of his finger slipping across your clit causes your body to react in a primal way, letting out an embarrassing loud moan for such a little touch.

Poe chuckles.

"Just like that." He praises, sliding his finger down further to dip into your entrance, letting out a soft groan of his own at how wet you are, before he drags it back up, spreading your slick over your aching clit and making you whine again. "Can you do that for me? Can you be loud enough?"

The best you can muster is a whimper as he slowly thrusts his finger knuckle deep into you.

"Nu-huh," Poe chides, "loud."

A second finger quickly joins the first, stretching your walls and filling you more than your own ever could. This time you arch your back off the bed, chasing the blissful feeling as a much louder groan tears itself from your throat.

"Better," Poe grins. "I heard that one."

You want to smother him, you want to kiss him, but most of all, despite his annoying little smug smile, you still desperately want to fuck him.

You decide on option two, at least for the moment, pulling his lips down to yours.

His tongue licks into your mouth as he thrusts his fingers inside you at a leisurely pace, swallowing each whine and moan you give at the pleasure skittering and coiling in you.

Poe curls his fingers, pressing up against that spot inside you, making you pull away from his kiss to throw your head back in pleasure, a loud groan of his name escaping. You're half expecting him to make some sort of cocky comment, but Poe seems as lost in this as you are. He drops his head to press open mouthed kisses across your neck, biting and sucking, marking and claiming you as his.

When he works a third finger into you, his thumb brushing against your clit, you come undone. Normally you would feel embarrassed about how loud you are, the way your body shudders and heaves, your pussy clenching hard around his fingers, but the shaky little fuck Poe groans in your ear, obliterates any notion of embarrassment.

As you come down from your high, your body still trembling from the aftershock, whining as he slips his fingers from you, you realise he's breathing almost as heavily as you are, his breath coming out in short pants as he looks you over.

"I need to fuck you," he growls, clearly struggling with his own needs.

You're already nodding before he gets halfway through his request. Whatever he needs, whatever he wants, you'll give it to him without hesitation.

He all but tears your pyjamas from you, making short work of removing them and throwing them across the room, before his join the unceremonious pile on the floor.

This time you allow yourself to look, you allow yourself to take in his broad chest, the little scars crisscrossed with a larger one, old and new, your gaze trailing down across his abdomen to the line of hair that guides your eyes down to -

"Are you done admiring?" Poe's amused tone makes your eyes snap back up to his, your face growing warm with embarrassment that you've been caught staring, although you know he has probably done exactly the same to you.

"I don't know about admiring," you shrug as though your pussy isn't pulsing at the thought of him burying his cock deep inside you. "Think the resistance needs to re-evaluate their best looking pilot status."

Poe simply grins at you, seeing through your nonchalance all too clearly.

"Good to know you like what you see. Tell me, how wet did it make you to see me earlier, all soaked and shirtless?"

"Didn't," is all you are able to punch out as he leans down, pressing his body against yours, rolling his hips just slightly so his hard cock brushes against your slick folds, holding himself at your entrance like the tease he is.

"Really?" He smirks, "Somehow I think you are lying. But alright, I'll get the truth out of you, one way or another." The threat gives you a rush of excitement, wondering exactly how he's going to do that. Not that you're going to let him know that so easily.

"Are you going to keep talking or are we going to-" your question cuts off into a gasp of pleasure as he presses himself inside you, slowly, so you can feel every vein and ridge as he stretches your walls.

"Are we going to what?" He grins.

You slap his arm in reply but there's no power behind it, you're too busy concentrating on the wet noise as he pulls out of you before slowly pressing back in, making you whimper in need. The first time your pussy clenches around him it's involuntary, the second time it's just to enjoy the little groan the action draws from the pilot.

"Stop," he warns, his head dropping to your shoulder, clearly trying to steady his breathing as you clench around him a third time, just for fun. "Taking it slow."

"You don't have to take it slow," you assure him. For a moment you think it's sweet he's considering your comfort but you're more than ready for this.

"I want to," he grits as you clench around him again. The tone of his voice lets you know he's digging his stubborn heels in and nothing will change his mind. Even so you need more than he's offering. This has gone on too long, the tension is too much, the need drumming through your veins screams to be sated.

You whine, you beg, you plead, you drag your nails along his back and arch your hips against him, but he doesn't give. He rocks into you slowly, achingly slowly, maddeningly slowly, and for all your initial protests you enjoy every second of it.

The pleasure builds just as slow, each roll of his hips winding the cord tighter and tighter until you're sure you can't take any more, and then it pulls further. You can't do anything but surrender to the bliss it offers, raising your hips to meet his in the hopes his resolve will eventually break.

"You're incredible you know?" He pants against your mouth, sweat beading at his hairline, his curls sticking to his forehead, his eyes hooded and glazed. "Not just at this, but this too."

All you can do is stare at him, somewhat dazed, wondering how he's even thinking in coherent sentences right now, let alone speaking them. Somewhere your subconscious registers his words and it accompanies a host of butterflies in your belly.

"Just you, exactly as you are. You are incredible," he repeats, only this time it comes with a much harder thrust. You arch against him, your fingers digging into his shoulders as your head drops back against the pillows.

"Poe, please," you beg, unsure if you are able to take much more. Clearly neither can he, his name on your lips undoing his patience. He wraps his fingers around your thigh, hoisting your leg up over his hip as he sinks deeper into you, picking up the pace.

His hips slam into yours, filling the room with the sound of flesh on flesh, accompanied only by his curses and praises that fall freely and loudly. For all his requests for you to be loud the pilot's own moans are enough to drown yours out.

Working a hand between your bodies you press a finger to your clit, rubbing tight circles around the hardened nub as Poe angles his hips, pressing up against the blissful spot inside you. Your whole body almost arches up off the bed with the combined pleasure catapulting through you, an almost screamed curse fighting its way out of your throat.

Poe groans low and shakily, barely holding his own climax back, his thrusts becoming messy and mistimed.

"That's it baby. Fuck wanna feel you cum, wanna hear you," he groans, completely wrecked.

That's all it takes. Your orgasm hits suddenly and brightly, your whole body writhing and stiffening as the pleasure overtakes you, coursing through your veins like lava, making your vision go white as you tremble through it. Poe had wanted to hear you, but the purely feral noise you let out, you wouldn't be surprised if the whole damn hotel heard you. You're sure Poe would probably enjoy it if they did.

It's almost too much for your oversensitive body to feel Poe thrusting into you faster and harder, chasing his own end, babbled curses and praises falling from his lips. You shake with overstimulation when his hips stutter, emptying himself deep inside you, your nails leaving crescent moons on his shoulders as you cling desperately to him, your thighs trembling, chest heaving as you try to catch your breath.

Poe half collapses on you, letting your leg down slowly as he presses soft kisses to your neck, against every love bite he's given you in the heat of the moment. You suspect there may be quite a few questions when you get back to the base tomorrow. Turning your head you press a soft kiss to his cheek, making him lean up to look at you.

"Better than you dreamt?" He grins, still flushed and panting.

"I didn't dream about that," you giggle breathlessly, shaking limbs melting into the mattress, sated and tired. Poe raises his eyebrows, letting out a thoughtful hum before he suddenly pulls out of you, making you whimper and immediately miss the feeling of him inside you.

Shuffling down your body he presses a soft kiss between your breasts. You frown at him, confused by his sudden movement and how he still has so much energy. How is it you're a wrecked mess and he's still acting like he can go another ten rounds? Why can't he just be still for one second?

Another kiss to your ribs, first the right side, then the left, moving slowly down, before he pauses, looking up through his lashes at you.

"You didn't dream about us making love?"

You go to make fun of his choice of language but before you have a chance he licks a hot stripe down to your naval, making your breath catch with the sudden rush of pleasure. You're starting to question if he's able to read your thoughts, if he knows the truth of your dream already. Perhaps you had said more than just his name in your sleep?

"Nope, not about us," you breathe unsteadily, trying to hold yourself back from begging anything from him again. You suspect you know what's coming next and honestly, you're not sure if your body is able to handle it, barely over your first two climaxes. Still you weren't about to give in to his questions, he'd never shut up if you admit it. "Told you, I wasn't dreaming about you."

"You are a terrible liar," Poe states, his hands gripping your thighs, pushing them apart. The rush of cold air against your heated flesh makes you gasp and the pilot smirks, his eyes flickering down to your swollen cunt, leaking with your combined climax before coming back to you, a devilish grin taking over his face.

"'Whatever I want to do to you' still stand?" He asks.

All you can do is nod mutely, a fresh wave of need building despite your exhaustion.

"Good," Poe grins, pinning your thighs to the mattress, preventing you from moving. "Because I'm going to get the truth out of you my way."

He does exactly that. He drags the truth out of you to every question he wants answered and more, twice with his mouth, then again with his cock, reducing you to a babbling trembling mess, willing to tell him whatever he wanted to know, and he's infuriatingly smug about it.

~

Poe had been surprisingly tender afterwards. He'd carefully cleaned you up, brought you a glass of water, massaged your sore muscles, before he'd finally pulled you into his arms, holding you close against him.

Of course you had known Poe was kind, of course you knew he took care of the people he was close to, even those who only spent the night with him. There were enough stories around the base to give you a general idea of that, but for some reason you can't place this felt different, it felt intimate.

What surprised you more than anything was how quiet he was now. Appart from a few murmured words about how good you had been for him, and to check you were alright, he hadn't said much at all. It was almost unnerving after his behaviour all day. Really if you had known this would have shut him up you might have jumped on him hours ago. But now, the silence seems worrying.

"You okay?" You ask, your head still against his chest, listening to his steady heartbeat as his fingers draw mindless patterns against your back.

"Yeah, I'm okay. I was just thinking…maybe we can do this again? Sometime soon? Be in the same bed I mean." The pilot asks. He doesn't sound like the cocky confident Flyboy you're expecting. If anything he sounds a little unsure of his own question.

You won't give him the satisfaction of the enthusiastic yes that tries to escape. The last thing you want out of this night is to become some regular casual hook-up. Poe wasn't exactly known for keeping long term relationships, citing the fact it was too difficult during the middle of a war, which you suppose you could understand. He was at least always very clear about that with whoever he got involved with.

Equally you don't want to say no. You want this, him. You want the moments of passion and quiet, you want the teasing and fights, you want more in whatever way you can.

In the end you go for the middle ground, giving him an option of more, while closely guarding yourself against this being a casual fuck.

"Hmm, suppose if you buy me dinner first then I might consider it. I don't make a habit of sleeping with people without dates."

It's disarmingly sweet when he presses a soft kiss to your head, tightening his arm around you. Your chest aches all the more for moments like this.

"Alright. A date it is." You can hear the smile in his voice, sleepy and happy.

You didn't exactly expect him to agree to that so easily, and while it gives you a flutter of hope, you don't quite trust he catches your meaning.

"I said I'd consider, I didn't say I'd agree. I might have other options," you warn, trying to get him to consider what he wants you to be to him.

Poe lets out a soft chuckle.

"You say that like your pretending it wasn't the best fuck of your life, and you're desperate to do it again."

You lean up on your arm to look at him, raising an eyebrow and fixing him with an unimpressed look at his cockyness.

"Tell me I'm wrong," he challenges confidently, "because if I am, then I'm just going to have to keep trying. The aim is to make you fall hopelessly in love with me eventually."

"Through sex?" You laugh, ignoring the now familiar butterflies that tell you he might be closer to his aim than he knows.

Poe shrugs, "through whatever necessary means, as long as I get to keep you as mine."

It's almost a knee jerk reaction to open your mouth and tell him you aren't a pet or property to be owned, but as you meet his gaze you realise you are once more judging him a little too quickly and all too harshly. It's clear he means more than that, his gaze open and vulnerable.

A warm feeling of familiarity, of safety, of something bigger, spreads through your very bones, something that shows there is much more than lust and affection, perhaps for both of you.

Your response is much softer than your initial reaction might have been, had you not taken a moment.

"Take me to dinner tomorrow then?"

"I think tomorrow might be today," Poe smiles, nodding towards the window where the faint pink light of dawn is starting to peek through the drawn blinds. You groan knowing sunrise both means you really should untangle yourself from the pilot and head back to base.

"Well honestly I think I've had enough of you for one day." You tease, pushing yourself off him and sitting up, debating if you can handle another cold shower. In all honesty a cold shower is probably exactly what you need after you make the mistake of glancing down at Poe, still naked, the sheet barely covering his more private parts, his curls messy from your fingers, peering up at you with a half smile.

"We both know you can never get enough of me," Poe states, before he wraps his arms around you and drags you back down onto the bed. He throws one leg over yours, effectively trapping you next to him as he snuggles up close to you.

You don't bother fighting, too tired from the night's activity to argue your way out of his grip. Sighing you sink into the bed, allowing your eyes to flutter closed.

"I knew this would work," Poe hums happily in your ear. You mumble enough of a sound to make him realise you're asking what he means.

"Getting you in a hotel room with me would make you admit you wanted me."

You give another tired hum in acknowledgement before his words finally hit you, and you sit up to stare at him, suddenly wide awake. Poe grins back at you, knowing exactly what you are thinking.

"Tell me this was not some plan to get me into bed!"

Poe feigns a comedic shocked expression, holding one hand to his chest as he stares open mouthed at you.

"Of course not! What do you think of me? Why is your opinion of me is so low that you think I'd go as far to break the ship engine, so we'd be stuck here alone, find the busiest hotel on this planet, specifically book one room knowing the others would be booked already by the time we got here, ask for the smallest bed-"

He doesn't get to continue. Picking up the pillow you repeatedly hit him hard with it while Poe laughs, holding his hands up in surrender.

"I'm joking. I'm joking, I swear," he laughs, grabbing his own pillow and hitting you back. "I'd never purposely break a ship."

"You manipulative little shit,"

Neither of you surrender until the bed is covered with feathers, the pillowcases empty and discarded, your limbs tangled together, lips pressed against sweat salted skin. This time it's you who pries the truth from him, your way.

"My methods may be unorthodox but -" he gets no further before you smack him in the face with your pillow, causing him to dissolve into laughter once more.

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had to rb a personal fave 🥰

Always

Pairing: Marc Spector x gn!reader

Word Count: 1.3k

Warnings/tags: fluff, fluff, fluff, look i think Marc would be into Formula 1, is that just because I love F1... maybe?, sleepy!reader, soft!Marc🥰

a/n: 😬… I’m backkkkkkkk. Not that I think anyone noticed I was gone but I started anxiety meds and they've taken some getting used to. But I opened up my drafts the other day and found this and finished it, so essentially I started making it, had a breakdown... bon appetite?

(not my gif)

The other side of the bed’s cold, your hand swipes across the empty space in search of the warmth that is normally there. Your sleep-addled mind pauses to think—had your boyfriend even come to bed? What time was it? Is that noise in your head? Slowly, you pull yourself up from the warm cocoon of the duvet and your hands rub at your face in an attempt to erase the sleep that still clings to you. Blinking a few times you try to adjust your eyes to being open again as your hands fall into your lap. You can just make out some light in between the gaps in the bookshelf that separates the bed from the rest of the room. Your tired eyes look to his side of the bed again, still empty and the alarm clock shines the time a little too brightly, 6:22am. Reluctantly you move your stiff legs, pushing the warm duvet off of them and whining a little as the cold air in the flat hits them. You pull yourself out of the bed, immediately grabbing the blanket from the end of the mattress to wrap around yourself. The noise you’d heard becomes clearer now, it sounds like someone talking but it’s fast and all mushes together in your head. You take steps toward it, rounding the bookshelf to find exactly what you were missing.

“Hey,” Marc’s voice comes out in a whisper and he sits up the second his eyes clock you, his hand reaching for the tv remote immediately. The volume goes down with each push of the button, “I’m sorry, did I wake you?” You keep taking slow steps towards him, passing in front of the tv and going around the coffee table until you reach the couch.

“Are you okay?” You completely disregard his question in favour of asking your own as you sit next to him, he nods whispering out a yeah and so you move your body to lay down, placing your head in his lap.

“I woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep,” you look up at him as he speaks. One of his hands comes to rest on top of your head, “plus there’s a race on.” He looks back to the tv and you follow his gaze, twisting until you lie completely on your side.

“What’s a red flag?” Your head turns so you can look at him again briefly, a little smile graces his face and then you go back to staring at the screen, trying to understand why in the middle of a race none of the cars are moving.

“One of the drivers went into the barrier and they have to stop the race to clean it up before they continue. It just means it’s not safe for anyone to be on the track,” Marc explains it so gently, no annoyance or condescension crosses his tone for your lack of knowing.

“Are they okay?” There’s a slight hint of worry and you almost sound like a scared child.

“Yeah sweetheart, look, that's Albon there.” He points towards the screen and you watch as it briefly shows a young-looking guy speaking with someone else, “it was his car that hit the barrier but he got out of it straight away.”

For a minute it’s quiet, you both just watch the screen as it shows different people. Marc had turned the volume up a bit and you could make out what the commentators were saying now they’d slowed down their talking. Without any prompting, Marc starts to quietly tell you who everyone is every time the picture changes to someone new. He shares little pieces of knowledge with every name and you find listening to him soothing. You knew he sometimes watched these races but you’d never really taken the time to sit down and watch one with him. You’re starting to regret never doing it before, you’d been missing out on this beautiful opportunity to get to know his interests better.

Ultimately, though that tiredness still clings to your mind and the way his voice is quietly lulling you makes you think of the times when Steven reads you to sleep. Just as the race starts up again, your eyes begin to feel heavy, the blinks start getting slower and longer. You’re unsure if Marc’s noticed because he keeps calmly explaining what’s happening as it happens. His fingers had absentmindedly started rubbing circles into your scalp which was not helping the way you were quickly slipping back into your sleeping state. The tv eventually disappears, and your eyes are finally sealed shut again but some conscious part of your brain can still make out the race commentary in the background alongside Marc’s soothing voice.

The next thing you know it’s daylight, the sun shines brightly through the uncovered windows. It hurts your eyes when they open and instinctively you turn your body away from it, glad when you’re met with darkness. You comfortably bury your face into the warmth of Marc’s stomach while trying your best to stretch your stiff limbs without really putting much effort into it. You take in a deep breath before just relaxing for a moment. Your mind slowly wakes as you lay there, coherent thoughts begin to form and you start to feel more awake with each passing second. You could’ve sworn you’d only been asleep for a few minutes. The tv is still making quiet noise in the background and you can feel Marc taking slow deep breaths.

Once your brain has managed to come back to some semblance of consciousness, you slowly pull yourself to sit up on the couch. The sight you’re met with makes your heart melt it doesn’t matter how many times you wake up next to him, each time feels like the first. He looks so peaceful, his head propped on his fist that leans on the arm of the couch. Eyes closed, hair sticking around every which way and lips slightly parted. You admire him for a minute before you think about how much his neck is going to hurt after sleeping in this position. As slowly as you can you twist yourself around again and stand, taking a second for your brain to catch up with your body’s movements. Then gently you tuck your hands under his knees, pulling on the deadweight and turning them to rest on the couch. All the movement rouses Marc from his sleep, the top half of his body reluctantly following the bottom with a grumble.

“It’s okay, go back to sleep.” Quietly you shush him as he continues to wiggle around until he’s settled down on the couch where you were just laying. The crease in his eyebrow slowly relaxes as your fingers comb through his hair, you’re crouched next to him trying to push him back into his little slumber. A long sigh comes from deep within his chest and you just know he’s back in dreamland. With a gentle kiss to his temple, you stand again, grabbing the blanket that had fallen to the floor at some point and draping it over his body. Satisfied with how much more comfortable he looks now you go to pull yourself away to shower and maybe start on breakfast—or maybe brunch at this point, but a hand grazes your leg.

“Stay,” the mumble of a plea falls past his lips as his hand blindly searches for yours. Without a second thought, you give in, encouraging him to lift his head so you can slip back onto the couch. Thoughts of how good a shower would be right now or of what to cook to rid the rumble in your stomach disappear completely. Now you sit with Marc’s head in your lap, mirroring the exact position you’d both been in just moments prior. You take a long moment to just watch him, the way he nuzzles his head into your thighs and how relaxed he looks for a change. Then you’re thinking about how happy he makes you. How lucky you feel to be a part of this moment and how you only ever want to be right here with him, always.

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absolutely insaneeeee for that ghostface agathario x reader fic. whowwwwwwwwwwww wowowow

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memories ~ evan ‘buck’ buckley x reader

you've secretly kept every important thing from your relationship with Buck; from your first picture to an 'i love you' note scribbled on the back of a receipt and when you make the move into Buck's apartment he finds the box of memories—or just remember how buck's parents gave maddie a baby box right in front of him then dropped the bomb that they never bothered to make him one, so when you've put in all this effort to keep every small memory of your relationship buck realises just how much he loves you

w/c ~ 1k+

no warnings just a lotta fluff🥰

“Okay, this is the last box!” You cheer as you walk through the door to Buck’s apartment—which you guess is also now your apartment. You place the box down on the small pile by the door and approach your sweet boyfriend who has already started helping you unpack. Buck’s sitting at the kitchen island, an array of things spread out on the surface before him, and your curiosity sinks in. Your arms circle around his soft middle and you have to go up on your tiptoes to rest your chin on his shoulder, “whatcha doing?” You say just as your eyes fall down to see a familiar box and all its contents spilling out, a little embarrassment makes its way to the surface. You pull away from Buck and move to the side, as you reach to collect the miscellaneous pieces of paper and photos scattered around Buck’s hand stops you.

“You kept all this?” Your eyes reach Buck’s slightly glossy ones and you’re confused by his reaction. You were convinced he’d find it weird that you kept all these things from the duration of your relationship; movie theatre stubs, a concert ticket or two, the first picture you took together, a Polaroid of him from the first morning you woke up in his apartment, so many memories you couldn’t bare to part with so you collected them in an old shoe box.

“Yeah… you think it’s weird don’t you?” Your gaze falls to the ground, mentally preparing yourself for Buck to make fun of you for doing such a thing, like so many people before have but the ridicule never comes. Instead, you’re taken aback when Buck wraps his arms around you, squeezing so tightly that all the air is pushed out of your lungs. “Thank you,” his muffled words snap you out of your embarrassed state. Your hands move up to hold him, fingers sinking into his hair immediately. His head raises and you can see his teary eyes, “you don’t know how much this means to me. I love you so much.” You’re still a little confused at his reaction but your heart melts at his words. “I love you too,” you hold the sides of his face now before bending down to press your lips to his. The fear of judgement melts away with just a simple kiss.

“Can you show me everything?” Who are you to deny him when he looks at you with those sweet puppy dog eyes. He turns back to the kitchen island the second you agree and you pull out the stool next to his. A smile immediately appears when you spot one of your favourite things, “Oh, this!” You reach over Buck’s hands and grab a small book from the box, he looks at you curiously as you open it, “I learned how to press flowers just so I could keep the first bouquet you gave me.” Your sentence grows quieter as you feel Buck’s eyes on you, watching as you open the book to see beautiful pressed flowers between sheets of paper, “but then you kept giving me flowers so I made this book.” You nervously hand the book over and Buck smiles as he looks through the pages delicately. Each page is dated and the type of flower is written in cursive next to it. Buck takes his time looking at each page and your eyes drift from his joyful expression to the other bits and pieces. You smile to yourself when you see your half of a photo booth strip; it’s from your second date, the date scribbled on the back, you both only had enough change for one set of pictures. So, Buck tore the strip in half, slipping his half into his wallet and sheepishly giving you the other half. You’re so caught up in the memory you don’t notice Buck pulling out his wallet, he holds his half of the strip above yours, reconnecting the two for a moment. You see the second an idea pops into Buck’s head and then you watch as he takes both halves of the strip over to the fridge. He turns back to you grinning lovingly and your heart melts when you see he’s put the halves together on the fridge surrounded by pictures of his favourite people.

Buck comes back to join you, kissing the side of your head before sitting down. He quickly goes back to looking through the box. He pulls out a movie theatre ticket that’s attached to an adorable selfie of you both; you smile brightly at the camera while a slightly blurred Buck kisses your cheek. You reminisce about that day that Buck happily agreed to go see the Barbie movie with you and you swear you fell in love with him more that day when he picked you up dressed in a pink shirt with an old cowboy hat from his rancher days atop his head. “We should watch it again tonight,” Buck says gleefully, extending his hand to hold yours before bringing it up to his lips, “we can order takeout.” He places another kiss on your knuckles, “We can get all cosy,” another kiss, “and then I can take you to our bed. Make your first official night here special.” Your body instantly heats up, a slight shyness appearing through the cracks. Even after so much time together Buck still seems to be able to reduce you to a fumbling mess with just a few words and simple touches. “I should start unpacking.” You giggle as Buck’s hand slips up your neck and he grins at your poor excuse, “We can unpack tomorrow.” He lowers his head slowly, both your smiles growing until your lips meet. “Okay but we’re getting food from the Korean barbecue place down the street,” you mumble out against his lips. Buck laughs, pulling away only a fraction before giving you another quick kiss, “Done. Anything you want.” You pull your head back slightly, tilting it to the side as your eyebrows lift, “anything?” Buck’s hands have drifted down to your hips, absentmindedly pulling them closer to the edge of the stool. “Absolutely anything.” He leans in to give you another kiss and when he pulls back this time he sees your teeth sink into your bottom lip and he knows he’s got you thinking now. “Well,” you draw out the word, “it takes them like 20 minutes to deliver…” A wolfish grin makes its way to his face and he lowers his head to press his lips to your cheek before reaching your neck, “That seems like a challenge.” You giggle again when he nips at your skin, “You have to order the food first, Buck.” His groan vibrates against your neck, “I’m just getting a head start.” You squeal when he jolts your hips off of the stool completely. Your arms and legs immediately tighten around his strong frame as his lips lock onto yours again.

Your first official night living together was definitely going to be something special, Buck would make sure of that.

[phantomspiderr]

I completely forgot I wrote this series and rereading it makes me miss moon knight so much🥹

Summer Break

Pairing: Jake Lockley x reader

Word Count: 400+

Summary: Flying is not great at the best of times but it's made especially worse when you're both overtired and you just can't get comfortable

Warnings/tags: just a lil fluff, grumpy!jake, flying

a/n: just started writing little stories about going on a summer trip around europe with the moon boys and it's made me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside🥰 so look out for more lil stories with the other boys too coming soon!

You’re only an hour into the flight but you’re already so uncomfortable. You’ve been squirming around in your seat for like 20 minutes now, unable to find a comfortable position in the narrow plane seat. You’ve tried everything and the combination of being uncomfortable and over tired is not a good one. 

A slightly grumpy Jake sits next to you, unhappy about having the middle seat and especially unhappy with the way the guy sitting next to him had been eyeing you up as you got into your seat. He sat with his arms crossed, earphones in to try and distract him from the screaming child a few rows back. Flying was definitely not his favourite activity and he’s growing more annoyed by the second. The morning had not gone as smoothly as planned, what with the long airport lines and the stressful environment causing more switches between the alters, Jake was absolutely exhausted. He just wanted to be at your destination already and the more he wants that, the longer it seems to take. 

Jake’s annoyance especially grows when you keep accidentally nudging him each time you move around. He knows he shouldn’t be frustrated with you, that you’re probably just as uncomfortable as he is. So, he lets his grumpiness falter for a moment, pulling up the armrest between you and he mutters your name quietly. Instantly, you look at him with apologetic eyes thinking you’ve nudged him one too many times and he’s going to scold you like a child but to your surprise, he doesn’t. Jake simply lifts his arm, motioning for you to come closer and you do, cuddling into his side immediately and finding some slim form of comfort you had been craving. His arm rests around your shoulders, firmly holding you close to him while the other reaches for one of his earphones. He offers you the earphone even though it now means he can clearly hear the child crying while its mother tries her hardest to soothe it and you gladly accept it, slipping it into your ear and resting your head back against Jake’s shoulder. 

Gently you reach for his free arm, slipping his hand into yours and absentmindedly tracing the lines on his hand. Jake actually manages to crack a smile, even though he’s partly given up his own comforts he’s happy that he’s the one that’s able to make you comfortable. 

summer break series

[phantomspiderr]

reblogging my favourite of the fics I wrote since it’s Halloween

roleplay w/ ghostface!rio vidal x reader x agatha harkness

kinktober '24 ~ no 5

a/n: little bit of warning, it's rio so there's knife play involved. I would also mark this as dubcon/noncon so if that's not for you please don't read. I wrote this with the thought of this being a prior conversation and rules and safe words being in place etc in mind

You jump out of your skin as your phone rings out loudly in the kitchen, your heart thumps in your chest and your body tingles all over. It rings once, then twice before you pick it up to answer. “Hello?” You receive no response but there’s a quiet electric hum coming through the speaker so you repeat yourself. Just as you consider hanging up a voice sounds, a hello followed by your name. The voice is unrecognisable, it’s croaky and robotic and it only adds to the drumming in your chest. “Um, hello. Who is this?”

“Wouldn’t you like to know?” You roll your eyes, sitting yourself in one of the dining chairs.

“Well, you know my name so I think it’s only fair I know yours.” You counter, tilting your head to the side as if the mystery caller could see you.

“What’s not fair is a pretty girl like you being home all alone.” Your heart drops at those words, eyes instantly darting around to the back door to your yard and then to the kitchen window above the sink. A maniacal chuckle comes through the speaker and you can feel your body tremble. “Did you think I would just knock?” You don’t even get a chance to respond because suddenly, there’s a blaring sound coming from the living room. You drop the phone on the table, hands coming up to cover your ears and you run toward the deafening noise. The tv plays some old news clip about a group of teenagers who were mysteriously found murdered. You fumble around throwing pillows and blankets off of the couch until you find the remote, shutting off the television immediately. You let out a deep breath, feeling disoriented by the loud noise and fast-moving.

“Very funny Rio. The plan wasn’t to burst my eardrums.” You call out into the room then you hear your phone ring loudly again and your whole body jumps and the remote goes clattering to the floor. With quick steps you move back to the kitchen, grab the device and answer.

“Do you like scary movies?”

“No. Now, who is this?” You continue to play along with Rio’s little game. A silly idea she’d proposed to you after a spooky movie night. A night that you spent curled into her side jumping at every little scare.

“Oh, why not? Are you scared?”

“No.”

A door slams and a short scream escapes you. It’s just the wind you tell yourself as your heart continues to race. The voice on the phone laughs again and you think for a second that you hear the laugh coming from upstairs.

“I thought you weren’t scared.”

“Why are you doing this?” You’re met with silence and then the line goes dead. You look at your phone confirming that the call is no more and then there it is, the sound of slow deliberate footsteps coming from directly above you. Everything in you tells you to run but your feet seem to have a mind of their own as your body moves toward the stairs. You stand at the bottom peering up into the darkness and that’s when you hear a slow call of your name but you can’t tell where it’s coming from. It seems to bounce around the house, not revealing the place of origin. A sound almost like nails on a chalkboard pierces your ears sending ripples down your spine. Then suddenly, there’s a pounding coming from your front door and a muffled raised voice slips through the cracks. Perplexed, you rush to the door and swing it open to reveal your neighbour, Agatha. Her face splattered with what looked like blood and a tinge of fear washes over you. She shoves you aside and slams the door shut, bolting it and leaning her head against the wood while she huffs and pants.

“Agatha?! What happened to you? Is that blood? Are you okay?” Your chest feels like it’s going to explode from the thumping of your heart.

“She’s gone crazy. She tried to kill me so I had to…” Agatha turns to you, a crazed look in her eyes, “You’ve got to believe me. It was self-defence!”

“A-Agatha, what happened?” Agatha’s movements are frantic, her hands smearing blood across her face. Fear washes over you and before Agatha can utter another word you both hear a door creak, it’s the familiar creak of your back door and your head immediately snaps around to the source of the sound. But you can’t see the door and suddenly there's a hand over your mouth, muffling a surprised yelp.

“Uh oh, looks like I didn’t finish the job.” Agatha whispers in your ear, sending a shiver down your spine, “Better run and hide bunny.” Her hand drops from your mouth and slowly you turn to face her, a sinister smile etched on her face. You’re moving before you can even register, had Rio brought Agatha in on her little game to really sell it? Haphazardly you climb the stairs, tripping on a couple of steps in the process. You can’t hear any movement behind you but you don’t stop moving. Your mind races trying to think of a good hiding place but your feet carry you to the one place you feel the safest, your bedroom. Your eyes search for a place to hide and you pick the only reasonable option even if it is the obvious one. You rip open the closet doors and practically throw yourself into the corner, you’re hugging your knees and trying your best to calm your racing heart and mind. There’s a tiny crack where the doors meet and you can just make out the bedroom door. The only sound you can hear is the blood pumping in your ears, no footsteps or doors opening. The wait is agonizing, it feels like you’ve been there too long for nothing to have happened by now so you pluck up the courage to get up. Maybe Rio wanted more of a chase? You try to be quiet, opening the closet just slightly and peeking into the bedroom. Nothing, it’s empty. So, you emerge from the closet and slowly you take steps toward the bedroom door. Your hand just rests on the doorknob but you’re jolted away from it when two hands are suddenly grabbing you. You scream as you're dragged backwards before a hand is slapped over your mouth to muffle the noise. The unknown strength uncaringly throws you onto the bed like a rag doll and your eyes go wide when you see the dark cloaked figure with that ghost white mask. Then they’re on you before you can get away but you struggle against their iron grip, wriggling as the masked figure pins your hands above your head. You cry out, not stopping until you feel cold metal press against your neck and you finally stare into the black eyes of the mask. Their head tilts as if they’re scanning your face, watching your expression as the knife presses harder and causes a searing hot pain to develop on your skin. Your eyes shut tightly and sting with tears, and then the blade is suddenly gone and your eyes shoot open to see the knife raised in the air and without warning it begins coming toward you. There’s a genuine fear coursing through your veins as you expect a sharp pain but instead, the knife is buried in the pillow right by your head. You flinch, your head turning to see a familiar green dimpled handle.

“That wasn’t funny Rio.” Your eyes are watery and you move your body in an effort to push her off but she doesn’t budge. “How did you get in here without me seeing you?” Your head tilts a fraction but still you get no audible reply. “Did you cheat? We said no magic.” Your chest still rises and falls quickly and the lack of response is startling you. The black voids of the mask stare back at you, your eyes move to watch as their free hand reveals a small bundle of rope. You don’t resist it when the cloaked figure loops the rope around your wrists, pulling tightly on purpose to ensure there will be marks tomorrow. You wince as they pull and tug at your limbs until they’re wound together and secured to the headboard.

“Oh no, please don’t kill me.” You whine, hoping that playing along with Rio’s fantasy will elicit a response. It’s not the response you hoped for but you watch as she wraps her gloved fingers around the blade once again. Your eyes flutter closed when she places the tip on your cheek and you feel it graze down your skin, nipping at the collar of your shirt and trailing down further. Once it reaches your waist she pauses and your eyes open to see why. In an instant, the knife expertly slips under your pants and you take in a sharp breath as the blade slices through the material like butter. Your eyes flicker between the cut in the fabric and the mask. It’s almost like you can feel the grin that burns through the mask. The knife is suddenly thrust back into the pillow by your head and you flinch again, letting out a shaky breath. Her hands are back on you; first starting by cupping your face, their head tilting to study you. Then her hands move down, trailing along your neck and slowing to brush over your breasts which you instinctively push up into. She momentarily halts her movements when you do that, then her hands press harder making sure her fingers fan across your covered nipples. Your mouth falls open with a sharp inhale and your hips buck upward. Her hands fall away from your breasts and move down your stomach, this time her fingers dig into your flesh until she reaches the tear in your pants. She makes sure to ghost a finger down the newly exposed skin where the fabric falls away. Then she’s tearing at the material, wanting to expose more of you. It doesn’t take long for there to be nothing but tatters left on your legs. Your skin is left red and sore from the yanking and rubbing of the fabric. You squirm as you try to reposition yourself into a more comfortable position and use it as a way to hide your now bare pussy but it’s impossible as your cloaked figure kneels between your legs forcing them open. You keep pushing against their grip but when one of their hands disappears under their cloak you grow curious. She pulls her cloak up to expose a thick purple strap secured tightly around her waist and you swear you begin to drool at the sight. Maybe this wasn’t such a bad idea if it meant Rio bought you such a nice new toy to play with. You seem to back down and become relaxed as her grip on your thigh grows, her nails digging in to add a sharp sting. Your breathing picks up when slowly she towers over you again, your eyes locking back onto the mask. She hovers above you, one hand now at the side of your head to hold her up and the other moves the tip of her strap through your folds. Your body shudders at the touch and you fight to keep your eyes open. Then with no further warning, she pushes into you and a scream escapes you as the stretch stings and your hands tug against your confides repeatedly. Your eyes prickle with tears but it only seems to spur her on. She straightens up so she can thrust rapidly until your screams turn into gasps and moans that seem to build more when her covered thumb presses down on your clit. The jilting of your bodies causes enough friction that she doesn’t even need to move the digit. Your eyes seem to roll back as she continues on her rough pursuit, her palm pushing down on the bulge she creates while driving her cock into your abused hole over and over until you're on the edge of cumming. 

“Well one of us is going to have to change.” Your eyes shoot open at the sound of your girlfriend's voice, it sounds further away than you think it should be and you’re confused by the sentence. But the pounding continues and you’re still panting when you see Rio standing by the bedroom door dressed in a black cloak and holding an identical white ghost mask. You’re completely disoriented at this point, if Rio is standing there then who is towering above you still thrusting their cock into you as your girlfriend watches.

“You couldn’t have let the sweet girl cum before you interrupted?” A muffled voice grunts from under the mask, then their hand raises to pull off the mask. “Hi sugar,” that sweet neighbourly voice rings in your ears as she grins down at you.

“A-Agatha?” Your question draws out as a string of moans tumbles out of your mouth. Your eyes flutter shut again as wave after wave of pleasure washes over you. Both of Agatha’s hands had shifted to your hips, aggressively tugging them to meet her thrusts as she watched your orgasm overtake your body. Your back is arched and your toes curled as she forced her strap into you again and again until you were over-sensitive and crying out. Her thrusts eventually come to a stop, her cock still buried deep inside you as you clench and squirm. You flinch when a gentle hand touches your face, your eyes open to see Rio standing by the bed now. She smiles down at you, a hint of pride in her expression.

“Angel,” the sweet pet name rolls off her tongue like honey but then she’s squeezing your face between her fingers and a dark look washes over her face, “you can’t be making all that noise.” You blink up at her, still keenly aware of Agatha’s presence between your thighs. “What if the neighbours complain?” A wicked grin breaks out on Rio’s face as she looks up at Agatha who mirrors her expression. “We’ll just have to find a way to keep you quiet huh?”

“I can think of one.” Agatha remarks quickly and Rio’s fingers release their grip on your face. Rio hums as if in thought, trying to play off like they haven’t already orchestrated this whole thing to go a certain way.

“I like your thinking, Aggie. Why don’t I sit on that pretty little face while you have your way with her again and again until she just can’t take it.” You seem at a loss for words as you just watch your beautiful girlfriend climb onto the bed. She kneels beside you for a moment to share in an exchange with Agatha, the pair holding one another’s face for just a brief moment before Rio moves again. She straddles your chest and you wriggle slightly, momentarily forgetting that Agatha’s strap is still stretching your sensitive hole. A whine falls from your lips and Rio tuts. “You’re such a pretty girl, it’s a shame you just can’t keep quiet.” Her condescending tone floats through the air as she hikes up the black fabric that drapes her body to reveal her bare pussy just inches from your face. She slips a hand into your hair as she pulls herself forward. She tugs your head up and sinks her wet folds down onto your face, your mouth instinctively opens and your tongue gathers her familiar taste. Immediately she begins rocking her hips back and forth and your eyes fall closed as she uses you for her own pleasure. A sharp moan vibrates against her core as Agatha begins to move inside of you again and Rio’s grip on your hair tightens. “Do that again.” You’re not sure if she’s growling at you or Agatha at that point but you both seem to respond as Agatha fluidly starts thrusting into you again and a flurry of moans vibrates against Rio’s clit. “Fuck!” She cries out, now arguably she is becoming louder than you were but no one is sitting on her face. Your tongue continues to lick and prod at her, trying your hardest to make her cum. Your eyes open to see her head thrown back as her hips move in time with Agatha’s and you’re not sure whether it’s the lack of oxygen or the second orgasm washing over you that prickles your vision. You look up at Rio’s blissed-out face, seeing black spots as your hips thrash around while Agatha relentlessly continues to hammer into you. Wave after wave of pleasure hits you again and again until your mind is completely gone.

“Oh now you’ve gone and killed the poor sweet thing.” Agatha’s echoey voice whirls around your head.

“Don’t worry, she’ll come around.” You can feel a soft hand holding your face and an arm secured around your shoulders. “Look there she is,” Rio’s voice seems to pull you back as your eyes slowly blink open, “hi sweetheart.” A weak smile stretches out on your face as you curl your tired body inward, snuggling closer into Rio’s arms.

Your hands had somehow been freed and now you were curled up in the bed with Rio next to you and another presence close by.

“What-what happened?” Your weak, croaky voice comes out and your throat feels dry.

“Don’t worry angel. Why don’t we just get you cleaned up and in bed huh?” Your mind is fuzzy and your entire body aches but you feel a buzz running through your veins.

“Did I do a good job?” Your question comes out small and you hear a duet of giggles before Agatha closes in to press a kiss to your temple and she softly speaks.

“A good job? Baby, you’re gonna be in the sequel.”

[phantomspiderr]

mirror kink w/ evan ‘buck’ buckley x f!reader

kinktober '24 ~ no 6

a/n: I really took a feeble attempt at kinktober and I realised I; 1) am not good at writing smut and 2) get really uncomfortable writing it really easily🙃 anyway I’m gonna try finish one more fic for Thursday and maybe next year I’ll try flufftober instead

“What are you doing with that?” You snicker as you watch your big, strong boyfriend heave your full-length mirror into the room until it’s placed against the wall next to your bed. At that moment you are more than grateful that he is shirtless, his muscles define more with the exertion and it makes your body heat up more than it already is. When Buck moves his attention back to you he’s grinning ear to ear seeing that you’re still lying in the same spot he left you only a moment ago. You’re half-dressed and your breathing is still rapid from the eager make-out you both just shared. A quiet giggle passes your lips as Buck crawls on top of you, your hands instinctively circling his neck and he lowers his head to kiss you quickly. Then in a second, his lips are by your ear and finally, Buck replies to your question.

“I’m going to fuck you,” his head raises until his eyes meet yours, “and I want you to watch.” You catch your bottom lip in your teeth before pulling your body up toward Buck. You’re back to exchanging heated kisses, tongues delving in for a taste as you both feverishly work on removing the rest of each other’s clothing. Buck’s hands are rough; they tug your jeans down your legs, turning them inside out until they’re off completely. Then he dives straight back into kissing you. Your noses brush together, breath mixing as you share another heated kiss. And another. And another. Delicately your hands fumble with Buck’s belt buckle and just as you’re getting close to undoing it one of his hands pushes between your bodies to hook around your wrist. He pries one of your hands away, pressing it into the mattress as he laces his fingers with yours. Absent-mindedly your other hand just follows, expecting him to do the same with that hand but his other hand never appears. Instead, it unexpectedly slips into your underwear, the touch of his fingers has your legs falling open even more.

Your breathing stutters and Buck finds this as an opportunity to move his kisses to your neck, going from placing gentle kisses to biting down just ever so slightly. His head keeps nudging yours to the side as his fingers start circling your clit just the way you like. Your mouth is agape, quiet pants falling out and then a much louder whimper when your eyes open and see the reflection in the mirror. It’s like an out-of-body experience. You watch as Buck’s bicep tenses, defining the muscle again with every movement. You can’t tear your eyes away from the reflection, it has you breathing harder and it doesn’t go unnoticed. You can see Buck raising his head and you can feel the lack of his warmth in the crook of your neck and your hand but it just doesn’t register in your mind that it’s happening to you. His eyes are glued to the side of your face, watching your reaction when he roughly thrusts two fingers into you with ease. Your eyes don’t shut instantly or roll back like they usually do, they’re locked onto the mirror as you eagerly keen. 

“You like watching baby?” His gravelly voice brings you back, reminding you that this is actually happening and you’re not imagining it. Your head snaps back until your nose brushes with his again and then you’re nodding the best you can whining out ‘yes’ over and over as Buck’s fingers continue to thrust into you. Finally, you remember you have control of your body and move your limp arms back around his neck, pulling him down just enough to capture his lips again. A moan escapes you when Buck changes the pace and your head slips to the side, pressing your cheek against Buck’s and feeling the slightest scratch of stubble on your skin. Your eyes fall back to the reflection in the mirror and your breath hitches before another moan slips out. Buck places a few gentle kisses on your cheek, a sweet form of affection amongst the passionate exchange. “You gonna cum for me sweet girl?” Buck changes the movement of his hand, and now his fingers barely rock into you as his palm presses against your clit.

“Please,” you say through a pant, enjoying the new angle as your body curves up into his. It’s a slow build and you have to fight to keep your eyes on your reflection. Your fingers grip his hair and you feel his lips ghost over your jaw, his breath fanning down your neck. Then a choked sound of disappointment escapes you as Buck pulls away. He shushes your cries, “Hold on angel.” His fingers curl under the material of your underwear and he removes them in one swift motion and discards them haphazardly. His rough hands slowly trace up your legs causing goosebumps to rise. Buck suddenly moves off the bed, standing in front of the mirror facing you and his hand circles around your ankle.

“Come here,” you sit up and turn your body toward him and as gently as he can Buck pulls on your leg, dragging you to the edge. You look up at him, mouth agape as his hands come up to hold your face. You feel tiny looking up at him like this, head fuzzy as you wait for another instruction. Buck bends until his lips are on yours again, he gives you just one sweet kiss before he asks you to lay back. You rest back on your elbows and watch as Buck gets down on his knees, prepared to worship you like you deserve. For a second his eyes lock on yours and you see the sudden pink hue grow on his cheeks and it makes your heart flutter. He tries to hide his momentary shyness by pressing gentle kisses on the insides of your thigh, hoisting each leg over his shoulders and slowly his confidence grows again. Your eyes flutter to the reflection behind him, you can see his defined muscles ripple with every move and a long sigh falls from your lips as he raises enough to place a line of kisses on your hip. There’s a smirk on his face when your eyes fall on his again and he’s suddenly diving between your legs without another thought. A satisfied moan echoes through the room and your head falls back as you feel his tongue circle your clit in just the same way his fingers did. Buck doesn’t seem to waste any time, pushing two fingers back into you and your head snaps back up to watch. Your eyes keep moving from his face glued between your legs to the mirror. You can see every curve and line of your own body, something that you’ve worked hard to grow to love which is easy when your boyfriend worships every inch until you believe how very beautiful you are. You actually find it kind of hot being able to watch yourself in the mirror like this, moans falling past your parted lips as your tits bounce softly with every thrust of Buck’s expertly moving fingers. It’s when Buck begins to suck on your clit, teeth just grazing the small bundle of nerves, that you start to feel yourself hurtling towards the edge yet again. You blink rapidly, trying to keep your gaze fixed on the sight in front of you as your moans grow louder by the second. You can feel your legs tensing, heels digging into Buck’s back as he works hard to get you to the point of climax. Your body tingles and his name repeatedly falls past your lips. Then it happens, it washes over you in waves, loud whines echoing as your body shakes. If you could bottle this feeling you would so you could experience it over and over again whenever you wished—but you suppose that’s exactly what Buck is for. You can’t keep your eyes open any longer and you fall back on the bed as even as you hit your peak Buck doesn’t seem to stop. He continues until you’re begging and thrashing on the bed, he has to remove his fingers so he can use both hands to hold you up as your ass now slips off the bed completly. You can just hear the filthy sounds as Buck continues to devour your centre over the sound of your pleas. Your hands yank at his curls as you become more overwhelmed with every passing second, your thighs squeeze his head in a feeble attempt to close your legs but none of it seems to affect him. You don’t know when your first orgasm ended and your second began but you’re practically screaming, sure your whole neighbourhood will think you’re probably being murdered. There’s a veil of sweat covering your whole body and your heart feels like it’s beating out of your chest as you continue to pant like a dog. Your painful grip on his hair slackens as he begins to slow his movements, finally showing you some mercy when he pulls away from you with a satisfied grin.

Slowly, you feel your back sliding along the bedsheets until you’re face to face with your gleeful boyfriend. He’s pulled you off the bed to sit in his lap on the floor. His eyes are glued to your face, taking in the blissed-out expression dawning on your features. “You okay?” Buck basically whispers, one hand coming up to brush against your cheek. A breathy giggle escapes you as you nod, mumbling out a yes as your hands come up to wipe away the glistening juices dripping down his chin. Buck protests by nipping at your palm, causing more giggles to erupt and his strong arms wrap around you, tugging you closer till he can kiss you. Immediately the gentle pecks turn into his tongue delving into your mouth, forcing you to taste yourself. You groan deeply when his hands anchor onto your hips and drag you down over his still-concealed cock. You can tell he’s becoming desperate now and so your hands find their way between your bodies fumbling again with his half undone belt. This time he lets you, glad when you manage to unbutton his jeans and feeling instant relief when you reach a hand into his underwear. Buck moans against your lips, feeling satisfied just from your touch. You manage to raise yourself just a fraction to free his cock from its confines and in doing so you disconnect your lips. Buck looks up at you with pure love in his eyes but he’s quick to move his lips to your chest now, sucking a purple mark onto the skin just above your breast. While he busies himself with that you surprise him by dragging the head of his cock through your folds, it elicits a deep groan to vibrate against your chest. Then almost in unison, you moan as you sink down on his cock, taking him inch by inch and his head snaps back until his eyes are on yours. Your arms come to rest around his neck, fingers combing through his hair and you rest your forehead against his. Your noses press together as you both take deep breaths, Buck tilts his chin up to place a chaste kiss on your lips once you’re fully seated in his lap.

“God, you’re so beautiful.” Buck smiles as he pulls his head back just a fraction, his hands now digging into your plush sides. A grin makes its way onto your own face and you find a sliver of energy in your tired limbs to begin rocking your hips. You both let out a shaky breath and you feel Buck’s arms firmly wrapping around you and the beginning of his hips thrusting upward. You suddenly catch your reflection directly opposite and you moan, you're unsure whether it’s from seeing yourself in this position or the angle at which Buck’s cock is hitting that spot deep inside you.

“You like this sweet girl?” Another whine comes from you and you feel Buck’s chest vibrate, a muffled chuckle coming from the crook of your neck. You watch in the mirror as Buck now takes over most of the work, he uses his strength to move you as he thrusts his cock into you over and over. You can see a red trail form on his skin as your nails scratch along his pale skin. He groans loudly when you do it, enjoying the mix of sensations and it seems to spur him on to go faster. You’re practically crying from the overstimulation you feel between your legs but you beg over and over for him to let you cum again. “You’re so pretty. You sound so pretty, baby.” His mouth is on your neck as he speaks, mumbled words only making you cry out more. It happens before you can even register it fully, your third orgasm hitting you like a train. You can barely make out the blurry image of you sitting bouncing in his lap, tears filling your eyes as Buck now uses you as some kind of toy. “Just hold on angel,” Buck’s words are strangled and he uses all of his strength to keep you moving, his cock still pistoning into your convulsing walls, “I’m almost there.” Your head falls onto his shoulder, cries mixed with moans still falling past your lips and it only seems to add to Buck’s pleasure and just moments later you feel him cumming. Buck moans loudly as he keeps you moving until he’s completely ridden out his orgasm. His chest heaves as he slows his movements and he loosens the tight grip he had on your hips. Buck finally stops, allowing your body to slump more against his and gentle hands ghost up and down your spine. Quiet whimpers still escape you as you come down, legs still trembling as your muscles continue to contract. Slowly, you can feel your body begin to relax and Buck patiently waits until you’re able to lift your head. 

“Hi.” He grins when he’s finally able to see your pretty face again, one of his hands coming up to caress your cheek. 

“Hi.” You manage a small smile, your body growing heavy with exhaustion. Buck’s thumb wipes the tears that have left trails on the top of your cheeks and he can’t resist the urge to press a kiss to your other cheek as you nuzzle into his gentle touch. 

“You okay?” His voice comes out in a hoarse whisper and you briefly nod at the question. His hand gently pulls you close and he places another kiss on your forehead. Your head sinks back onto his shoulder and he’s quick to wrap his arms around you again. You share a quiet embrace and when your eyes open they find your reflection once again. You watch the slowing rise and fall of Buck's back as he attempts to calm his breathing, faint crescent moons litter his shoulders from where your nails had obviously dug in a little too hard and his curls are now sticking up all over the place from the repeated tugging. An absentminded smile pulls at your lips when your eyes finally see your face, tear-stained cheeks and puffy lips. A heat that crawls all the way up your stomach to your cheeks and a post-sex glow that shines in the setting sunlight peaking through the blinds. You could definitely get used to seeing yourself in the mirror if it was always like this.

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Tummy

summary: when buck decides to start his cut a little early, you show him how much you love his tummy.

word count: 2.8k

a/n: i got 2 requests for bucktummy adjacent things; bucktummy smut and crop top buck, so i decided to combine them. love these requests because i am the #1 bucktummy supporter. enjoy<3

warnings: smut, bucktummy (deserves the warning), no use of y/n, fem!reader, plus size!reader, race inclusive!reader

MDNI- 18+ Only!

Buck drops his bag on the floor as soon as he steps over the threshold of his apartment, both his arms and legs feeling like jello as he makes his way over to the couch and plops down beside you. He rests his head on the backrest of the couch, letting out a big sigh, which catches your attention.

You set your book down beside you and turn slightly to face him, frowning at his clear exhaustion. You tug the blanket further up your lap as it falls slightly, now angling your body towards his as you sit criss-cross beside him.

“What’s wrong, baby?” you ask in a sad voice, reaching out to grab his hand. You know he went to the gym today, and he usually loves the gym, so you’re a little confused about why he’s in such a bad mood. His hair is still damp from his shower, but even then, you know that he’s usually not at the gym for this long either.

“Started my cut today. Worked a little too hard, I guess.” he tells you, trying to shrug it off as he turns his head and looks at you. Your frown gets deeper at the mention of his cut.

“You started your cut already? Don’t you have another week left?” you ask, confusion written across your face. He has a calendar on his fridge, and you see it pretty much every day. You know you’re right because you love when he bulks.

“Wanted to start early.” he says one hand moving to rest on his shirt-covered tummy instinctively. You furrow your brows as your eyes follow his movements, and when you look back up at him, he sighs before he explains.

“Look at my belly; it’s getting too big. Just figured I’d start the cut early.” he says nonchalantly, and you scoff.

“I like your tummy.” you tell him, and it’s his turn to be confused. You laugh softly at his confused expression, then get up onto your knees and throw the blanket off your legs before you lean over to meet his lips in a kiss.

“You really like it?” he asks in disbelief as he pulls back, and you roll your eyes as you smile.

“Baby, your tummy is hot.” you tell him a bit sternly, although the smile is still on your face. He chuckles quietly, running his tongue across the inside of his cheek, a blush spreading across his cheeks.

He grabs your hips and pulls you to straddle him, and you happily oblige, sitting on his lap. His hands move up from your hips, up under your sweater to your waist, his thumbs gently rubbing circles on the sides of your own tummy.

“Why does that sound so familiar?” he asks in a teasing tone, tilting his head to the side and narrowing his eyes slightly as he looks up at you.

You sometimes have what you both have deemed “bad body days,” and when you do, Buck is quick to praise your belly, showering it with kisses and soft touches. He’s never upset at you for those days; he knows they happen to everyone, so when you tell him you’re having one of those days, he makes everything about you.

“Because you say that to me all the time. And I don’t think you’re lying when you say that, are you?” you ask, tilting your head in the same direction as his as your arms find their place draped over his shoulders.

“Of course not.” he tells you, his face going serious for a moment. You smile, leaning down to kiss his nose, which makes him scrunch his face up.

“Then you have to believe me when I tell you that your tummy is hot, too. That’s how it works.” you tell him with a smile, tightening your arms around his neck and kissing him deeply. “Let me show you how much I love it.” you whisper against his lips.

“I feel like we’ve had this exact conversation before.” he teases, pulling you back gently by the back of your neck to meet your pretty eyes.

“So let me return the favour; show you how much I love your body. Tummy and all.” you purr, and he grins before he pulls you back in for a desperate kiss. You begin to slowly grind your hips against his, feeling the tent growing in his sweatpants. He lets out a low groan, hands firmly gripping your plush hips and forcing you to move harder against him.

You feel like a teenager with the way you’re both clawing at each other, kisses sloppy and desperate as you try to pour all of your love and affection into your actions.

Suddenly, you pull back with a mischievous smile on your face. He raises a brow, but he doesn’t have time to ask you what the hell you’re thinking about before you’re off his lap and halfway up the stairs to his room.

You come back down less than a minute later, and although you weren’t gone long, Buck has to resist the growing urge to palm himself through his grey sweats. He looks confused when you throw his crop top at him, and then settle on the couch beside him and urge him to stand up.

He looks down at the fabric for a moment. He cut it himself one day on a whim after seeing a fitness guy he follows on Instagram wearing one, but he’d only ever worn it around the house.

“Come on, put it on.” you tell him in an encouraging tone. And he shrugs before pulling his other shirt off and putting on the crop top. Your eyes travel down to his tummy peeking out of the shirt, and you bite your lip, a soft hum escaping your lips.

“Now, get up. Do a spin for me.” you say in a teasing tone. He rolls his eyes, trying not to laugh as he lets out a huff. As he stands up, you smack his ass, watching him intently as he moves to stand in front of you, putting his arms out and gesturing to himself.

“Spin.” you say again with a giggle, and he huffs before he follows your order. The shirt stops at the perfect spot, allowing his tummy to poke out, as if teasing you. All you want to do is kiss and bite at his tummy, but you hold back, taking in his back as he turns in a circle.

“Why am I doing this?” he asks once he’s facing you again. He stays standing in front of you, waiting for you to tell him to sit down, and he blushes when he sees just how into his tummy you are. Your eyes are focused on it, and with the way your chest is moving quickly, he’s sure your heartbeat has increased as well.

You can’t help it. He’s a large man. Strong and solid. He has clear, defined muscles, although there’s a layer of fat covering parts of his body, and that’s what makes your mouth water. He’s soft around the edges, and it reminds you that although he’s the strongest man you’ve ever dated, quite possibly ever met, he’s still so soft with you, so calm and comforting. You can nuzzle against him after a hard day, and you know that his strong arms can protect you as well.

“Do you remember when I was feeling insecure, and you made me wear that set for you that I was too scared to wear?” you ask, finally tearing your eyes away from his soft tummy and looking into his eyes. He nods, realization finally crossing his face.

“Is this payback?” he asks, and you nod, laughing along with him. You stand up and close the distance between you, hands going to his chest before drifting down to his exposed tummy.

“I like your tummy, and I’m gonna prove it to you.” You don’t give him a chance to reply before you grab the front of his shirt and make him turn. You move him back towards the couch and push him to sit on it, earning a soft grunt as he hits the couch.

You’re back on his lap again in an instant, kissing and nipping at his neck as your hips instinctively move against his in a slow grind. You can feel your arousal pooling between your legs, and every touch feels magnified as you feel the material of his sweatpants brushing against your bare legs. You’re wearing a hoodie and sleep shorts; you were ready for a lazy day at home, but now, you have other plans.

When you feel you’ve given his neck enough attention, you get up and kneel in front of him, hands spreading his legs far enough for you to fit between.

You raise his crop top with both hands, holding it high enough for you to see his entire belly, and you trail your eyes up to meet his gaze slowly.

“Love your tummy. My pretty boy.” you murmur before you lower your lips to his tummy, starting to kiss just below his chest. He watches you with a dazed expression as you press gentle kisses down his tummy, moving up and down and left to right above his belly button. You can see from the corner of your eye that his hands are firmly placed on the couch, fingers digging into the material as if he’s itching to touch you, and you lean back just enough to speak.

“You can touch me, baby.” He listens immediately, putting one hand on the side of your head as he lets out a deep breath, and you hum happily as you lower your lips back down to meet his tummy. You move down below his belly button, keeping eye contact as you kiss over the freckles and scars that you’re sure you don’t want to know the stories behind.

With the way he’s looking down at you, you’re positive that he’s never been worshipped like this before. You know he likes worshipping you, and you’re sure he’s done it with every partner he’s ever been with, but with the way his breath is catching in his throat and his cheeks are red and hot, it’s clear that he’s not used to the attention being turned onto him.

And as you kiss down his tummy, you’re not sure why he’s not used to this. He’s a gorgeous man, obviously, and you don’t think you can point out a physical imperfection even if you tried.

He lets out a soft whimper when you remove one hand from his crop top and slide it down his tummy to the bulge in his sweatpants, palming him slowly while you take your lips away from his hot skin right above the waistband of the sweats sitting low on his hips.

His hand moves down to your cheek and he brushes a thumb over your chubby cheek, and you smile. You ghost your other hand down his tummy as you continue to move your hand over his leaking cock, and when your hand finally reaches the waistband of his grey sweats, you take your other hand away from him and tap his thigh lightly.

He lifts his hips easily, and you pull his sweats and his boxers down his legs in one swift motion, grinning as his cock springs free, tip bright red as it slaps against his soft tummy.

“You want something, pretty boy?” you ask in a slightly teasing tone, mouth watering as you try to focus on his face. He nods desperately, his hands clenched into fists as he resists the urge to take matters into his own hands and push your head down until you’re choking and gagging on him.

“Please.” he practically whimpers, and your smile turns into a smirk. You spit into your hand before you wrap it around his cock, pumping him a few times. He licks his lips, groaning as he watches your hand move, and then a breathy plea escapes his lips again, and you giggle softly.

You don’t tease him any further, however, and you lower your mouth down to lick a firm strip up the underside of his aching cock. He moans, watching you intently as you swirl your tongue around the head of his cock, licking the bead of precum and humming softly.

His hand finds the back of your head, and your eyes dart between his eyes and his tummy before you push yourself down as far as you can, feeling him hitting the back of your throat as tears form in your eyes.

The groan he lets out is music to your ears, and encourages you on, moving slowly up and down on his cock as you moan around his length. Your sounds vibrate up his cock and through his entire body, and he throws his head back against the back of the couch as he gently guides your head up and down on him.

You lower as far as you can again. The hair on his pubic bone is tickling your nose, and you can hardly breathe, but with the way he’s whimpering and squirming under you, you don’t care. While one hand stays on his thigh, keeping yourself balanced on your knees while the carpet beneath you digging patterns into your skin, the other moves up to his tummy again. Your fingers dig into the flesh, and he tilts his head back down to look at you again, his eyes wide as the moan dies on his lips.

“Jesus Christ, you’re killing me.” he whispers, and you pull away from him with a quiet pop, your lips wet and pupils dilated.

“Love your tummy, baby.” is all you say before you lower back onto him again, moving with increased fervor as you move your hand from his thigh to the base of his cock. You move your hand and your mouth in unison, desperate to bring him release, and he groans, feeling his high quickly approaching.

What finally sends him over the edge is when you pull your mouth back from his cock for a split second, continuing to pump him with your hand as your mouth goes down to kiss and lick his balls. He doesn’t even have time to warn you before he’s cumming all over his soft tummy, white hot cum dripping down his skin as he looks down at you with hooded eyes.

You give him a smile, mumbling a “so good for me” as you lean back before you stick your tongue out and begin to lick up the cum littered across his tummy. Your eyes move between his cum-covered tummy and his face as you clean him off, and if he wasn’t so overwhelmed right now, he’s sure he’d cum again at the sight.

When you’re sure you’ve gotten it all, you lean back, giving him a sickly-sweet smile as you stay on your knees between his legs.

“Do you believe me now, baby?” you ask, and he nods quickly, swallowing and taking in large breaths.

“I think I do.” he replies, and you beam.

“Wanna do one more thing.” you murmur, eyes already on his tummy as you lean back in, mouth going to the soft flesh a couple inches above his hip bone, but not quite on his side. He knows what you’re doing as soon as you start, and while he knows he probably shouldn’t let you; he can’t bring himself to stop you.

You pull back after a moment, admiring the big, dark mark you left on his skin. You then make eye contact with him, giving him a sheepish smile.

“You like it?” you ask, and he finally tears his gaze off of your face and to the work of art you’ve just created on his flesh.

“I love you.” is all he says before he takes your hands from his thighs, urging you to stand up. You squeal when he hoists you up by the back of your thighs and into his arms, giggling as he stalks into the kitchen and sets you down on the counter. He still has the crop top on, and you’re fully clothed, which, for some reason, excites you.

“Gonna show you how much I like it.” he purrs before his lips find yours, kissing you desperately. You wrap your arms around his neck and pull him impossibly closer, aching to have him inside of you.

“Keep the shirt on.” you whisper against his lips, and he chuckles as he pulls away, grabbing your ankles and pulling your ass to the edge of the counter. You fall back onto the counter as he tugs you, giggling as he looks down at you with dark eyes.

“With pleasure.” he murmurs before he’s yanking at your shorts, eager to finish what you started.

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Bunny love

Summary: As much as she may try to hide it from her Rio knows that Agatha gets lonely when she has to “work” and while away she finds what she hopes may be the perfect companion for her wife.

Tags: Pure fluff, married Agathario, soft Rio, soft Agatha, baby Senõr Scratchy, pet names (mi amor, angel) , pre Agatha all along?

💢Spoilers if you don’t know Rio’s identity yet💢

Author’s note: Hi hello, I genuinely don’t remember the last time I wrote anything but I couldn’t get this idea out of my head and I just love them so much, we aren’t going to talk about how much research I did into rabbit breeds being introduced to which countries and in which years, it’s embarrassing…. Enjoy!

Scotland 1953

It was late into the night, maybe even early morning judging by the pitch blackness outside the windows as Agatha sat next to the fireplace she’d been tending with a blanket thrown over her lap and one of her many spell books balanced neatly on the arm of the couch. The Scottish winters were harsh but the little cottage nestled away in the highlands that her and Rio shared fared well and it was more than worth it for the beauty of the landscape that surrounded their home. Here she and her wife almost felt closer to their witch roots than even that of being back in Salem and Agatha certainly didn’t miss the reminders of her Mother and Coven everywhere she looked, here in the forest surrounded by only nature she knew they were safe to live their life together, not having to hide their magic or their love for one another.

With a slight sigh Agatha pulled herself out of her little daydream and focused her eyes back on the pages of the book in front of her, her head was starting to hurt from the jumble of Latin and other languages, Agatha reached forward for the piece of paper she was jotting down notes on, grabbed her pen and wrote down a few more things that could be of help for the spell she was trying to create, Rio said she was mad trying to make a child of magic that would be both of theirs equally but Agatha would go to the ends of the earth to make it true, she wanted nothing more than a family with the love of her life and deep down she knew Rio wanted it too, she didn’t care if it was against the laws of magic to do so and for hours upon end every day she would read every spell book and grimoire cover to cover trying to find all the answers and incantations she may need to finally make her and Rio’s dream a reality.

The Netherlands (somewhere)

To be perfectly honest Rio wasn’t sure where she was, the Netherlands that’s for sure but she’s not sure which city she is on the outskirts of, you’d think after hundreds of years of transporting souls of the dead to their final resting place all over the world she would be better at her geographical knowledge but it wasn’t really important when you always had the same destination to reach in the end. It had been a tiring trip, yes she was death personified but that didn’t mean what she had to do got any easier over the years, this time it had been a young family and while at least they could stay together it still drained her to think of the life they could have had. Gently she lowered herself to sit on a frosted log and took a moment to collect herself before heading home to her beloved. As Rio rested her head in her hands she heard a faint rustling in front of her, she narrowed her eyes and looked forward, faintly bringing her green magic to the surface, even now the memories of the witch trials hung over her head and she was always ready to protect herself if need be.

Much to Rio’s amusement a small rabbit emerged from the undergrowth, “wow lady death being spooked by a bunny rabbit that’s a new low” she mused to herself as she watched the rabbit tentatively move closer to her. “Well you certainly aren’t meant to be out here, you’re definitely not a wild rabbit” Rio spoke to the small creature slowly lowering her hand out for the bunny to sniff, the little thing was as far from a wild rabbit as you could get, bright white with speckles of light orange and black spots and the floppiest ears you’ve ever seen also far too tiny to be out wandering alone.

Being a green witch and yet also lady death was a confusing combination for nature to comprehend sometimes, Rio was drawn to nature and it often returned the same feeling towards her, that included the living beings that inhabited its world and this baby rabbit seemed no different, hopping over after a quick sniff of her hand and settling down under Rio’s cloak to shield itself from the cold breeze that washed over the countryside, she chuckled at its actions and flicked her wrist, her green magic making some dandelions sprout from the icy ground which the rabbit happily munched on.

As the witch watched the small rabbit eat she pondered to herself, “can’t exactly leave you out here can I? And Agatha has been going on about getting a familiar” the tiny ball of fluff stood up on its back legs resting its front feet on the side of Rio’s leg barely reaching above her boot and looking at her intently. Rio smiled to herself and scooped the rabbit into her arms who settled down instantly into the warmth, “she’s going to say I’ve gone soft” she scoffed to herself as she prepared to transport herself and her new little companion home.

Agatha’s research for the night was becoming increasingly exhausting and she knew she should have been in bed hours ago, this was made abundantly clear when she felt the familiar pull of her wife’s magic that was so intertwined with her own she knew when she was close, meaning she was in fact home from helping another soul pass on through the veil.

Rio always transported herself home outside of their cottage when she was late not wanting to wake her wife from her slumber however as soon as she found herself on the snow dusted doorstep of their home she could feel Agatha’s magic humming with life and clearly not sleeping, gently tucking the little bundle of fluff she was carrying further into her cloak both to keep him warm and hidden so she could surprise her lover she gently eased the wooden door open and slipped inside quickly to not let the heat of the fire out.

Slipping off her boots and easing down the hood of her green cloak she moved her way into the living area where she saw her wife smiling tiredly at her from her comfy position on the couch, “mi amor what are you still doing awake” Rio asked quietly as she raised an eyebrow questioningly. “Just doing some more research” Agatha sighed, motioning to the still open spell book, “I didn’t realise the time, how was your trip angel?” She questioned softly. Rio scoffed as she always did at the pet name Agatha had bestowed upon her all those years ago when they met for the first time, quite fitting being called an angel when she was literally death itself. “Tiring” she mumbled leaning down to press a kiss to the top of her wife’s head, as she did Agatha noticed movement beneath Rio’s cloak and a quick hiss came from her wife’s mouth, Agatha noted that she still had one arm tucked away behind the fabric. She tilted her head quizzically at the green witch, “what are you hiding from me?” She questioned reaching to grab at her cloak, “ah ah ah” Rio tutted, pulling away, “it’s a surprise” she said, holding up her other hand to wave a finger at her wife mockingly.

“Oh come on Ri you know I hate surprises” Agatha said getting up on her knees to try get a better look over the back of the couch at what her wife was concealing underneath her cloak. Rio rounded the couch and Agatha turned to follow her movements now sitting crossed legged as Rio stood in front of her with both her arms now tucked back inside her cloak, “you’re going to make fun of me” the green witch said as she became uncharacteristically shy and turned her body slightly away.

“Well that depends what it is but I promise I’ll try not to tease” Agatha said with a smirk reaching her hand out to beckon Rio closer to her.

Now Rio stood right in front of Agatha and the purple witch gently took hold of the arm that her wife had been hiding and noticed that there were scratch marks, “you think I’m going to make fun of you for getting scratched?” Agatha questioned looking confused “why haven’t you healed it these are hardly anything” right as she finished her sentence from Rio’s other arm and behind the fabric of her cloak hopped the tiny bunny landing straight in Agatha’s lap. “Well now you’ve ruined the surprise” Rio glared at the bunny making Agatha burst out laughing.

Rio pouted and crossed her arms over her chest “told you you’d make fun of me” she whined. Agatha’s laughter died down wiping a tear from her eye as she looked up at her wife who looked like an annoyed child, “I’m not making fun of you love he just took me by surprise” she giggled as she pulled her wife to sit next to her and started to pet the bunny who sat happily in her lap like nothing had happened, “and what pray tell made you take me home a sweet baby bunny?” She asked leaning over to press a kiss to Rio’s cheek.

Rio sighed leaning into her wife’s side, “well you haven’t let up about wanting a familiar recently and besides he found me not the other way around” she smiled reaching over to boop the bunny’s nose.

Agatha looked down lovingly at the bunny as she continued to pet him, “I was thinking more black cat or raven you know but hmmm I think I can train him up to be a scary bunny” Agatha cooed as she snuggled the bunny under her chin, not long after he kicked off his back feet jumping onto Agatha’s lap before further hopping down to the floor and flopping himself in front of the fireplace leaving Agatha with matching scratches on her arms, “te veo senõr” Rio laughed and her and Agatha fell into each other giggling at the rabbits antics, “scratchy little thing” Agatha said examining her and her wife’s arms before looking back at the rabbit clearly making himself at home, “that’s what I’ll call you” she said placing a kiss to that back of Rio’s hand, “Senõr Scratchy” she said looking into her wife’s eyes “thank you my angel” she said softly before leaning in and connecting their lips in a soft kiss, when they parted Rio started placing kisses on Agatha’s arm, “now let me fix the little devil’s marks” she smirked at her wife before starting to gently lick at the superficial wounds, “I missed you amor” she sighed against her skin, “I missed you too angel” Agatha said gently kissing her wife’s head.

Their perfect little family was almost complete.

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wasn't that obvious? // don't ever leave me.

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#two sides of the same 🥺 coin

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