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“A mighty pain to love it is, and ‘tis a pain that pain to miss; But of all pains, the greatest pain, is to love, but to love in vain.”

-Abraham Crowley

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Article 13 NEEDS TO BE STOPPED!!!

I DON’T CARE IF YOU’RE NOT EUROPEAN!!!!

THIS WILL AFFECT THE WAY EVERYONE USES THE INTERNET!

DO YOUR RESEARCH!

CALL/EMAIL YOUR MEPs!

KEEP THIS HORRIBLE LAW FROM GETTING PASSED!!!

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These make my anxiety run rampid and I hate them so much

“But if you forget to reblog Madame Zeroni, you and your family will be cursed for always and eternity.”

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“Chaos was the law of nature, order was the dream of man.”-Henry Adams

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“Forever and Always.”- The Mikealsons; The Vampire Diaries

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Of Cynicism and Soulmates

In this AU when you touch your soulmate skin to skin for the first time sparks fly literally. Depending on the strength of the bond though the reaction is stronger/weaker. For example minimal sparks for weak bonds and for extremely strong bonds shit literally explodes.

This is set right after Jim takes the Kobayashi Maru test for the third time. Warning minor violence(pushing, punching, choking etc) and swearing.

Kirk

They say that when you meet your soulmate sparks fly, quite literally in fact. People went crazy over the idea of meeting their soulmate but James Tiberius Kirk never found much solace in the idea of someone made for him, neither did his best and only friend Bones. Both were quite cynical people when it came to love or happiness in general. Bones had fallen in love before and even though they were soulmates she quickly became dissatisfied with him and took everything they ever had including his young daughter, Joanna. Leaving him only his bones as he had once so eloquently said.

Jim however had never wanted a soulmate. He’d heard countless stories of how the great George Kirk saved 800 lives in under 20 minutes but it paled in comparison to what he saw. He saw a woman wracked by grief. A woman who cried herself to sleep. A woman who couldn’t bare to look at him or even love him because to her he was a ghost, a ghost of her dead soulmate. So no Jim Kirk didn’t want a soulmate. He didn’t want any single person to hold that much power over him.

So our desolate hero stood finishing his last beer, blood dripping down his face and left. He wobbled his way to his dorm very obviously drunk off his ass. When he collapsed on the couch Bones quickly turned him on his side. “You’ll choke on your own vomit laying like that kid, not that that wouldn’t be a good thing.” He said in a gruff voice. Jim let out a little giggle, Bones have a little smirk at the sound. “Yeah yeah kid get some rest or I’ll hypo you.” Jim only groaned before falling into darkness.

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When Jim woke the next morning he was groggy and there was drool coming out of his mouth. However most noticeably his mouth tasted disgusting, god how many time had he puked, he wondered to himself. He groaned and stretchers out his sore back. Just then an announcement rang out “Would all students report to the main hall.” Jim got up quickly almost falling over and rushed to get dressed, no way was he going out looking like a mess and smelling like a bar.

Bones was waiting for him at the door and they headed out together. “What did you do this time you idiot?” Bones questioned only half joking. Kirk just shrugged and shoved his hands in his pocket. Upon arrival in the main hall Jim and bones sat next to each other and waited until everyone settled down.

When everyone had been seated Admiral Barnett called from the podium. “This session has been called to resolve a troubling matter. James T. Kirk, step forward. Cadet Kirk, evidence has been submitted to this council, suggesting that you violated the ethical code of conduct pursuant to Regulation One-Seven point three of the Starfleet Code. Is there anything you care to say before we begin, sir?” Jim joined him up front and immediately went into genius mode.

“Yes, I believe I have the right to face my accuser directly.” Jim said slightly annoyed. A man rose from the audience. A Vulcan man by the looks of his ears and the oh so signature bowl cut. “Step forward, please. This is Commander Spock. He's one of our most distinguished graduates. He's programmed the Kobayashi Maru exam for the last four years. Commander?” The man- Commander Spock joined them at the front.

Spock looked at him blankly which should have made him mad but strangely left him with tingles running up his spine. Confusion flickered through his eyes and he spoke. “Cadet Kirk, you somehow managed to install and activate a subroutine to the programming code, thereby changing the conditions of the test.” Jim felt slightly miffed were these men accusing him of cheating? “Your point being?” Jim replied. “In academic vernacular, you cheated.”

Barnett spoke again after a long while and yup he was definitely being accused of cheating. “Let me ask you something, I think we all know the answer to. The test itself is a cheat, isn't it? You programmed it to be unwinnable.” Jim felt slightly victorious when it took the Commander a second to reply Jim felt slightly victorious. “Your argument precludes the possibility of a no-win scenario.” Jim replied quickly and simply with “I don’t believe in no-win scenarios.”

“Then, not only did you violate the rules, you also failed to understand the principle lesson.” Spock said brusquely you could tell he was becoming a little frustrated or maybe only Jim could either way that's besides the point. “Enlighten me.” Jim stated quirking his eyebrow. Spock obliged “You of all people should know, Cadet Kirk. A Captain cannot cheat death.”

It was then that Kirk started to get a little upset as even Vulcans must know that bringing up someone’s dead parent to use against hem in an argument was a big no-no. “I of all people.” Jim relied tersely gritting his teeth. “Your father, Lieutenant George Kirk, assumed command of his vessel before being killed in action, did he not?” Spock seemed satisfied with himself Jim really wanted to punch that look in his eyes off his face.

“I don't think you like the fact that I beat your test?” Jim tried to deflect although he could already tell that it wouldn’t work. Spock gave him a once over and then continued on with his line of conversation. “Furthermore you ah e failed to divine the purpose of this test.” “Enlighten me again.” Jim snarked back.

“The purpose is to experience fear. Fear in the face of certain death. To accept that fear, and maintain control of oneself and one's crew. This is a quality expected in every Starfleet captain.” Spock said matter-of-factly. Just then a man ran to the front of the room and handed Admiral Barnett a folder. “We've received a distress call from Vulcan. With our primary fleet engaged in the Laurentian system, I hereby order all cadets to report to Hangar One immediately. Dismissed.”

Spock looked a little shocked and concerned at the Admiral’s words and quickly left. Bones walked into him and stood by his side. “Who was that pointy-eared bastard.” Jim said annoyed. Bowen just smirked at him and offered an “I don’t know, but I like him.”

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Bones had snuck him on the USS Enterprise as a patient. Which had then been followed by him warning Captain spoke of an upcoming Romulan attack. The destruction of Vulcan and his marooning on the Class M planet Delta Vega. Which to say the least had not been pleasant. Currently though he was on the bridge of the Enterprise trying emotionally compromise a Vulcan.

After a couple of minutes of taunting Spock he finally hit a nerve in saying, “You feel nothing! It must not even compute for you! You never loved her!” Spock lunged at him all semblance of control gone. Jim found it hot in an extremely scary way. Spock pushed him back by his shoulders. Kirk tried to block his punches but Spock only pressed on undeterred. In a flash Spock’s hand was around his neck choking his as he was pressed against the captain’s console.

Suddenly an explosion erupted from between them. Sulu and Chekov had to duck as other crew members dived away from the explosion. When it finally died down and most of the fires had been put out it seemed no one had been hurt, just severely amazed. Bones looked like he was gonna piss himself he was so surprised meanwhile Chekov and Sulu were peering their heads over their chairs and Spock, oh Spock, looked to be in complete disbelief.

“Well fuck.”

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I would totally platonically date Benedict Cumberbatch. Platonically because a) he’s married and b) i nEED FRIENDS OK

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“Everything is grey

His hair, his smoke, his dreams

And now he's so devoid of color

He don't know what it means”

-Colors; Halsey

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Me too bud

psa if you ever meet me in real life I am really sorry for how much I swear like it’s really not a joke I have a mouth on me like a fuckin sailor and I can usually turn it off around adults but if you’re under thirty five I will likely throw one ‘fuck’ in for every three words that leave my mouth it’s shocking

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“Destiny is calling me, open up my eager eyes...”-Mr Brightside; The Killers

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“If you live to be a hundred years old I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.” -Winnie The Pooh

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“The Tightrope Between Anger and Sadness”

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reblog if you think boys can wear dresses

proving a point to my entire family

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Reblog if you are LGBT+ and don’t feel any hatred towards ally straight people. Reblog if you are straight and don’t feel threatened by LGBT+

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“And though I know you won’t believe me, someday someone will come along who will tear down those walls you’ve built around your heart. And when that love comes back to you you must do everything in your power to fight for it.”

-Ragnor Fell, Shadowhunters TV Series

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“If Jace was gold catching the light and the attention, Alec was silver: so used to everyone else looking at Jace that was where he looked too, so used to living in Jace’s shadow that he didn’t expect to be seen. Maybe it was enough to be the first person to tell Alec he was worth being seen ahead of anyone in a room, and of being looked at longest. And silver though few people knew it was a rarer metal than gold.”

-Magnus Bane, The Bane Chronicles