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i cannot make speeches

cinnamon girl - lana del rey // emma (2020) - dir. autumn de wilde // text post - @tturing​ // the unbearable lightness of being - milan kundera // the song i’ll never write - gary barlow // earth, my likeness - walt whitman // the most profound things are inexpressible - christina badal // @theweeknd on twitter via @z-ndjenja​ // cinnamon girl - lana del rey

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Maybe if I could have stayed

I'd have told you how I feel

But I couldn't find the words to say

To let you know it's real

To tell you that it's always you

You're basically my life

I wonder if you got the clue

That I could be your wife

Maybe you'd say that I'm dramatic

Counting chickens 'fore they hatch

But when you're here it's automatic

Can't help but feel we match

I've felt this way for quite some time

Much longer than I'd thought

I think I'd like to call you mine

Maybe I'll shoot my shot

Cause every time I see you smile

The sadness in me dies

Thought we'd just stay friends a while

Til you caught me with your eyes

Something 'bout the way you looked

And how you held me long

Maybe that's what got me hooked

I've never had felt so strong

I want to be the light in your eyes

Find home in my embrace

And you can be like my sunrise

Each time I see your face

Maybe this will help you see

I really want you close

Not having you next to me

Is what I hate the most

So take these simple words I've shared

And hold them in your heart

Seek comfort in the way I care

When we are far apart

Know that all this distance

Is bound to disappear

So if we are persistent

Soon I'll have you near

So tell me if you feel it too

It's all that's on my mind

Maybe I was made for you

You're the best I'll ever find

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Make me feel

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With anger burning as a lit candle

I’ve had it up to here, trying to handle

A consumption of everything I feel

Draining me till unsure of what’s real

Temper tantrum was made dire

As it continued with raging fire

A combustion of my mind

A release difficult to find

Screaming at the world

Childish as the problematic girl

With control lost

But paid, at what cost

I’m sick and tired

Of being relentlessly sired

To a mind who’s only desire

Is to fuck over and retire

Cursing with every word spoken

The heart screwed over and broken

Tied to a chain mastered with defect

Left as a token for the devil to collect

A mind’s invasion of a brawl

A path to an inevitable downfall

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You threw away her trust

For a boy.

And pushed into the dust

All her joy.

Did you not know she cared

About you?

The friendship that you shared

Is now through.

You still consume her brain

Night and day.

Though anger causes pain

It will stay.

She can finally see

You're toxic.

The way you treated her

Is just sick.

So go ahead and fall

For some guy.

She won't pick up your call

When you cry.

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Why so much doubt

When I’m living without

Did I make a mistake

And is it too late

To go back to you

With hopes to pursue

As you haunt my mind

The perfect gentleman so kind

Knowing that another you,

would be difficult to find

I sit and wonder,

If you’ve found someone new

That’s honest and true

If she treats you right

And makes you smile so bright

It’s been so long

And everything still seems wrong

A mistake I can’t retrieve

I wish I just would’ve believed

Every day I miss you,

Hoping you miss me too

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High upon inhale,

You're the world's purest drug

Enhancing my senses

and exiting my blood

The scents of your presence

insist a calm bliss

Your warm rays of light

are like a lover's kiss

Fresh air swirls,

entangled in fields and trees

Weaving over hills

like water rushing from the seas

Birds sing their melody

of your awaited waking

Paintings from your sinking sun

honestly breathtaking

Lawns become dotted

with little yellow freckles

Like miniature suns,

Embodied in petals

Stripes of black

Upon wings of yellow

Basking in your warmth

We can't help but be mellow

If only you could stay forever

this is what I would pray

Though I know the tristful cold

Will soon steal you away

But until the sun sets

On all the fun we've had

I'm grateful for the chance

To see a summer so rad

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Some days it seems

Like insanity became even more

Than what it normally deems

Like I’m constantly banging on the door

To be let out

And be apart from my vices,

No more reasons for doubt

A calmness that’s priceless;

Some days it seems

That my mind is on autopilot

In a place I’ll never find peace

Constantly making things a riot

A life made of fear

Wishing to just disappear

Some days it seems,

I’m tested to the extremes

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But when the THC wears off, you're still gone

And I'm still sad

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I used to live for the chance

To reignite our lost romance

But your apathy had appetite

So you let me go without a fight

Taking parts from inside of me

More than your share, guaranteed

Like syllables that our love wrote

Every word and dulcet note

Valuables from my ribcage

Causing warmth to disengage

Anegapesis, help me heal

From little things I still feel

If you take the pleasure, take my blight

It would only be polite

Halt the rhythm inside my chest

Tell me that it's for the best

To let you go, to let you rot

In morbid blissfulness of thoughts

That maybe you are hurting too

Regretting the idea we were through

Wishing that you had held on tight

Or said some different things that night

Things that could have made us stronger

If you'd held on a little longer

But longer will never be forever

So I'm glad I finally severed

The frowzy excuse of redamancy

That had fallen into dormancy

Unfortunately, the lesson learned

Is even if love we give is returned

We cannot always reap what we sow

When we let our affections show

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Rip me

Limb from limb

Light me

On fucking fire

Remind me

Of what I was

Convince me

It's my fault

This is me

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Is it dark or pure light Swallowing the self within Restraint by ropes drawn tight A battle to win Captured hearts in a cage Left defenseless, Could be mistaken for rage Bound to oxygen’s play Each breath taken slow The body shakes Until calm as the waters that flow When beating stops cold, To nature’s wind who’s breeze blew brisk The story of death told Provide's chill like the thrill of the risk But painted in blood are the lies that unfold A darkness, with no more light to behold

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