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queshinmark-blog · 6 years ago

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Letter to a ghost.

Im writing this here because even if i said it to your face they would still only be words to you, and i might be more devestated at the fact that they dont mean to you what i wish they could than i am at the thought of there never being a reconciliation. See right now i live in the unknown. I wake up everday wondering if i cross your mind at all. I wonder if you ever have days like me where you wish we could erase that moment everything changed. I wonder if you ever still cry like i do, months later without any other reason than pure regret. Right now the possibility of it all is the only thing keeping me going. Quite frankly, im writing this here because im scared of the end. I am terrified to know that i could never mean the same thing to you again. I made mistakes that i had such a hard time taking responsibility for and now for every time i wasnt a man and called you names and everytime you sat locked in the bathroom crying anytime i lifted a finger at you i think about it all and i feel my entire f***ing soul die time after time after time. I dont know what it was that blinded me from how much i loved you. Im writing this here because i know youre gone and i have no one to talk to about how devastated i am by it all even still. You were my bestfriend, my lover, my rock and If i could go back to that moment i would have told you i loved you and never let you go instead and maybe id still be holding you tonight.

I will always miss you i guess youll just never know.

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queshinmark-blog · 6 years ago

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Im getting tired of missing you.

#i miss you #why are things like this #forever was short #we could have had it all #regrets #goodbye

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queshinmark-blog · 7 years ago

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Apologizing doesnt mean you were wrong, it means you have ackowledged your role.

#sorry #forgiveness #forgive #apologies #apologize #ackowledgement #blame #peace of mind #im sorry #forgive me

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queshinmark-blog · 7 years ago

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Fuck it all.

#fuck #fuck this #fuck that #fuck you #fuck him #fuck us #fuck everything #i quit

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queshinmark-blog · 7 years ago

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So good luck on fixing me and what we could've been

But you'll always fail to see I'm forever broken

I hate your guts, I hate his too

I hate myself for loving you

You're the only reason that

I hate everyone

#hate #i hate everyone #falling in reverse #love #broken #broken heart #relstionship

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queshinmark-blog · 7 years ago

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White Flag 🔳

I know i left too much mess and destruction to come back again

And i caused nothing but trouble i understand if you cant talk to me again

And if you live by the rules of its over then im sure that that makes sense

-Dido

#white flag #dido #surrender #in love #relationship #break up

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queshinmark-blog · 7 years ago

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Blue Slide Park.

7 years ago today Blue Slide Park was released

One of my favourite albums of all time. It was about always being appreciative of the moments we get to be happy and spreading love, a message thats nearly impossible to find in music today.

R.I.P Mac