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I FUCKING HATE MY FAT ASS BODY

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I was able to stop myslef from binging, so I guess there were some good things about recovery..

all I had today was iced black coffee with cinnamon

1/4 cup of arroz amarillo (yellow rice)

1 pork chop chopped

1 green pepper diced

3 asparagus minced

1/4 onion minced

1 large carrot chopped

seasonings: garlic powder, paprika, cumin, salt, pepper, nutmeg

3 skinnydipped peanutbutter cups

total cals 810

pretty good for not restricting in a long time

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i starve for the feeling, not just the result

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getting back into it,

ate pretty bad tbh

had a 320 cal protein bar that had (30 g protein) for breakfast/lunch

then I just had a 4 peice chicken tender meal from chick fil a with one sauce packet for lunch/dinner 1010 calories (35 g protein)

I think that’s all I’m having today because that’s pretty junky

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I’m back again beeches.. thought I’d try self 3d recovery, guess that didn’t work out.. #eed #tw3d #3d #edrel4pse #maleanna

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i had a barbecue brisket sandwhich and a half a sausage and now I feel sick :/

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we went to this food mart and I was watching the rest of my family get junk food while I got nothing at all

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I love it when my appetite decreases… :b

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I’m happy, all I’ve had today so far is two black iced coffees and a diet coke total: 0 cals

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I know I’ve been “recovering” from binge eating n shit but I rly miss the restricting, the feeling of being empty, being able to feel the cold water fill you up, slightly fainting every time I stand up, seeing myself thinner and thinner every time I look in the mirror.. I’m not happy with how I’ve been eating so much, even if it makes my body happy it doesn’t make my mind happy, I need help to get back into my old eating habits where I lost 45 lbs in 3 months, I fucking hate binge eating why can’t I judt starve myself like everyone else..

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going back to fasting.. lets see how this goes, haven’t fasted in over 2 months

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I’m fucking tired of my eating habits, so much sugar and carbs and junk food I hate myself everyday, I used to be so good at starving myself, what changed???

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I haven’t weighed myself in over a month and tbh I’m kinda scared to because I’ve been a pig

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I always do the best art in class 😤 smh

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i need to work out more 😕

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another body chex standing up