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can't believe it's already september, summer wasn't easy to enjoy.

don't think i can make it to november, i just really need to hear your voice.

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― Mieko Kawakami, All the Lovers in the Night

[text ID: The light at night is special because the overwhelming light of day has left us, and the remaining half draws on everything it has to keep the world around us bright.]

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When Lucy Dacus said “you don’t deserve what you don’t respect” and “you don’t deserve what you say you love and then neglect” and “i feel no need to forgive, but I might as well,” and “am i a masochist, resisting urges to punch you in the teeth” and “what was the plan, absolve your guilt and shake hands” and “forget you ever saw me at my best” and “five years from now I hope these songs feel like covers dedicated to new lovers” and and and

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i have now read several elena ferrante books and i simply love her and her leitmotifs. please enjoy these ferrante leitmotif memes

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"okay, it's not a creep convention... and it's not important" the height of romance !!

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“It can be really exasperating to look back at your past. What’s the matter with you? I want to ask her, my younger self, shaking her shoulder. If I did that, she would probably cry. Maybe I would cry, too.”

— Elif Batuman, The Idiot

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great was our love, it was one for the books, we gave it the best we could.

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i'm so proud i got to love you once.

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god. it’s just. it’s dreams by the cranberries. it’s the montage of them all voting yes. it’s orla’s little smiley face in the box. it’s the live footage of the troubles. it’s erin’s speech. it’s the way that the last shot is of grandpa joe and anna jumping together out of the voting hall. it’s the sheer symbolism of youth and age being joyful and hopeful together. god.

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either way, we're not alone, i'll find a new place to be from [...] no, i'm not afraid to disappear, the billboard said "the end is near", i turned around, there was nothing there, yeah, i guess the end is here.

ちっぽけで からっぽで 何にも持ってない 優しさに 触れるたび わたしは恥ずかしい (tiny, empty, i have nothing at all, to be treated with kindness always makes me feel ashamed).

知らぬ間に 失くしちゃうから心に深く刻み込んだ あなたの眼差し (before i knew it, i lose it, that's why your gaze is deeply engraved in my heart).

if it isn't love, then what the fuck is it? i guess just let me pretend [...] i don't wanna die, that's a lie but i'm afraid to get sick, i don't know what that is [...] wish i wasn't so tired, but i'm tired [...] i used to think if i just closed my eyes, i'd disappear.

i got this, i'm truly fine 이제 조금 알 것 같아 날 (아직 할 말이 많아) [i got this, i'm truly fine, i think i know myself a little bit now (still have a lot to say)].

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あの夢をなぞって / ano yume o nazotte by YOASOBI

[romaji & eng]

miageta sora wo kazaru hikari ga ima terashita yokogao. sou zutto kono keshiki no tame ni. sou kitto hora futatsu no mirai ga, ima kasanariau

the lights adorning the sky that i looked upon now illuminated your face. indeed, always, for this scenery. indeed, surely you see, the two futures are now coming together and overlapping.

yoru no naka de kimi to futari tadoritsuita mirai de. (daijoubu) omoi wa kitto (daijoubu) tsutawaru ano hi mita yume no saki e.

i'm all alone with you on this night, in the future i've reached. (it'll be fine) my feelings will surely (it'll be fine) reach you. onwards into that dream i once dreamed.

ima wo nukete asu no saki de, mata deaeta kimi e. mou chotto douka owaranaide, mou chotto hora saigo no hanabi ga ima, futari wo tsutsumu oto no nai sekai ni hibiita, "suki da yo”.

beyond the present and into tomorrow to you, who i'll meet once again. we're almost there please don't end, we're almost there, look, the final fireworks are now enveloping us, it echoed out in the soundless world, "i love you".

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- before the coffee gets cold, toshikazu kawaguchi

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It hurts but I would have said the same thing.

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