#it hurts so bad :(

[traffys]

vivinos patreon post about round 6 is only making me more mentally ill because what do you MEAN their original concept for the ivantill kiss was more romantic but because it overlapped with mizisua they made it more complex, delicate, and emotional.

this is not a complaint, to be clear. their execution of the layers of emotion, communication and narrative in Cure was insane especially because the ivantill kiss was decidedly not romantic. it was DESPERATE. it was ivan’s last ditch effort to ensure till’s victory. but also, I think, an attempt to make till hate him. ivan is finally getting to kiss till for the first (and last) time, but you can SEE he isn’t happy or enjoying it. he doesn’t think till will mourn him. he only allows a brief, barely there kiss as his final admission to the true depth of his feelings, but how much would that register for till in that moment? it doesn’t start to all click into place until ivan is slipping away, lying on the ground at his feet. all of till’s shock and confusion and frustration returning to him when ivan is near, when ivan essentially BREATHES that life back into him. but till will only be able to process all of it, AND how he feels about it, now that it’s too late. now that ivan is gone. ivan isn’t so different from sua. he clearly understands her choice because he makes the same one. he can’t live without till. he thinks that till won’t feel anything because till isn’t like mizi, but till never had the CHANCE to feel that or explore that. there’s so much we still don’t know about till’s perspective on his relationship with ivan. what he feels. IF this is going to become even MORE tragic with till having to live with discovering how much ivan loved him and starting to see ivan in everything and love him back.

I hate alien stage so much, they cannot keep getting away with this

[bezierballad]

Yes hi I am not okay

[folksaga-if]

y'all.

ch1 part 2 is still coming ASAP but: spent 6 hours in the ER on this weekend after I fractured my elbow by closing a door on it. i WISH i was joking because that's an utterly absurd way to hurt yourself but alas, here we are.

eta because! IT'S A SUPER MINOR FRACTURE! just a wee baby. a hairline. i don't want to make it sound like my arm is shattered or anything it'll be totally fine, it's just so dumb! so dumb.

writing is a little bit slowed because elbow. ow. but i'm still trucking along!!!!!!! more in-depth update + patreon launch + timeline for the next week coming soon!

ily thanks for staying with me, busted 'bow and all xox

[astruccrow]

A day left before cancer strikes this bitch down

[seneon]

another day, another month of dreadful waking up at 4am bc cramps hits you out of nowhere

[madakunn]

collapsing on the ground its been 100 days

[soda-sparkss]

No One Will Care but I'm thinking of the au me and @connecfork are working on and you all get to hear me be annoying about it. In my head, there's one scene after the war has started, a little bit after the beginning. People are evacuating from the air strikes and Optimus is desperately looking around for Megatron so they can leave together. The mech catches a glimpse of a Decepticon warship and his Best Friend boarding. They lock eyes and Optimus's spark shatters in two. The one person he trusted with his entire being turned his back on him. And all the mech can do is stand there in pure shock while an air missile heads straight for his helm..

[zythebeeking]

Ghh.. finished rereading rangers apprentice. Crying. I hate letting go of characters. Even tho I get to read early years and brotherband and stuff now it’s just. Owwwww

[sleepymrshmllow]

"I think so highly of you.. I didn't realize you think so low of me." killing myself immediately

[sickficideas]

I read a fic yesterday that briefly mentioned Dazai not ever allowing Akutagawa to take pain medication and they wrote "there is not a hurt in his body that Akutagawa will risk angering Dazai for" and I kind of love that as a concept because of the multitude of reasons Dazai would have more denying him that, and reasons for Akutagawa to obey him, and the effect it would have on him after Dazai leaves...Akutagawa always refusing medication no matter how much pain he's in and no one understanding why...but the adverse too, maybe he gives in one day and realizes they do help, even if it's just a little, he's always in some sort of pain 😭 and becomes dependent/addicted

[killerssideblog]

I hate being in an afab body sommuch oh my god i thought birth control was supposed to stop period cramps. i feel like im gonna fucking throw up from the pain. I have to work soon and i dont thinknim gonna make it through the day. I cant even take more pain meds for 30 minutes since i took some at 4am (dog woke me up). Save me.

[felrend]

Pain

[batshikns]

how do you brew potions with household items. for a sore throat

[labrasmore]

Snowy died today

It hasn't even been 6 months since Saturn passed. Snowy had really suddenly gone down hill and found that her liver was failing, the kindest thing I could do was have her PTS. In her last days she grabbed onto me with the little strength she had, anytime I was too far away she'd cry, if I wasn't touching her, she cried. I pet her as she went, I kissed her, I told her I loved her. I told her to say hi to Saturn for me. They were bonded, and now they're together again. I love you Snowy, I miss you so much already, thank you for being the best kitty ever.

03-20-2011 - 03-02-2023

[stormbreaker-290]

Oooghghh,,,,,,, pat pat,,,,,,, Storm,,,,,, how is?

O ug I am in pain from the Mal angst drop and refraining myself from cyberbyllying anons/J 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[thejacketscloset]

"I'm sorry im the one you love. No one will ever love me like you again."

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