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For Tonight

(Before outbreak) Joel x Reader (a little bit of Tommy x Reader)

Warning : reader is 22 years old and joel is 32. Handjob, cursing, implied spice, mature content.

Summary : you were hooking up with Tommy for a bit, but nothing serious. Once you met his older brother, Joel….you didn’t want to end things just yet.

Word count : 2.8k words

A/N : I suck at summaries lol. Anyways it’s been a minute. Hope this was good enough. I’m rusty! Lmao feedback is always welcomed! Thank you!

Tommy was just a guy I’d hook up with here and there. He wasn’t anything serious. Just something to get me by for now while I figured out what the hell I wanted to do with my life.

Tommy was only 3 years older than me. He was unpredictable, and low maintenance. It was exactly what I needed in the short span of time. That was until I met his brother, Joel.

One night, about a month or so ago…Tommy had asked for me to drop off his jacket at his brothers house. Apparently he never told Joel so that conversation was a bit awkward.

But when I saw him, I felt something tug at me like an unexplainable magnetic pull. He was definitely good looking if I had to be honest. But I knew I had to shake my thoughts. I was kind of seeing his brother.

He flashed a smile, which almost made my knees melt.

Since then, I had ended up back at that same house to meet Tommy or to hang out with the both of them. I knew my feelings for Tommy weren’t that strong enough for me to meet family and spend this much time with him, but I couldn’t help it. I wanted to see Joel. To be near him. I hated myself for feeling this way to begin with. Using someone to get with someone else ALWAYS ends up bad.

Whenever I came over and saw him, he always made me feel some type of way. He was sweet, and funny, always knew how to make me laugh. Even on hard days.

Joel wasn’t always so chatty with me. He had moments when he kept to himself, I mean—it took a few weeks before he had a full on conversation with me.

But when he finally opened up, even just a bit, I loved every second I had spent with him.

Besides, I was sure nothing was ever going to happen, I just wasn’t ready to end things with Tommy yet, because that meant I’d have to say goodbye to Joel as well.

I sat between the boys on the couch, watching a zombie movie; a new weekly tradition. It was hard to keep my composure every time Joel’s knee brushed against mine.

Tommy hadn’t seem to notice though. He had his arm over me, talking over the movie which irked me more than anything else.

“I swear these movies only ever get worse!” He cackled, pulling me closer to him.

—

Joel’s POV

Sitting on this small couch, so close to her, it made it hard for me to focus on anything but her.

I would be lying to myself if I said I didn’t feel something for her. But I knew my place, she was my little brothers girlfriend for God’s sake. I couldn’t be thinking of her in any way other than Tommy’s girl. So, she was off limits.

She adjusted herself, probably trying to get comfortable in between two big dudes on this tiny ass couch.

But every time I felt her pressed against my side, a sudden electric jolt seemed to race through me. I tried to hold my composure…I tried to seem like I didn’t notice the way she laughed at the awful jokes in the movie or the way she pushed her hair back with her hand, radiating a scent of her shampoo every time she did. I worked hard to keep my cool, to suppress my reaction.

How Tommy ended up with someone as amazing as her, I will never know but damn…was he a lucky son of a bitch.

“Looks like we ran out of beer.” Tommy exclaimed, propping up on his feet. He caught not only my attention but hers as well.

“Need me to get some more—“

“Nah I’ll get it. I need to buy a pack of smokes too.” He looked to her and pressed a quick peck to her lips, and suddenly a tinge of jealousy washed over me.

I shoved my hands deep into my pockets, balling them into fists to help keep my cool.

“D-do you want me to go?” She asked him.

Tommy shook his head, “it’s okay babe. I’ll be back. You look like you’re really into the movie anyways.” He chuckled.

And with that, he grabbed my keys; “hey—“

“Don’t worry Joel, I’ll bring your truck back in one piece.”

I sat back into the couch and groaned, no point in fighting with him over it.

Once he left, tension started to brew or so it felt. I had been alone with her before but this time felt different. This time, I had spent more time with her so my feelings were stronger than all the other times. It wasn’t just pure list anymore. I was genuinely captivated by her and I couldn’t shake it.

“Your brother is something else…” she drawled out, still sitting beside me though there was more room on the couch now. Not that I would complain.

“Yep. That’s Tommy for ya.” I said, trying not to move too much.

“I think he’s cheating on.” She went on. “That’s why he didn’t want me to go.”

I shot my gaze to hers, furrowing my brows. “Tommy?”

She didn’t seem upset, she seemed sort of relaxed as she nodded. “Yeah, I heard him on the phone the other day. I think her name is Maria.” She said. “I overheard him say he missed her and then called her baby.”

My eyes grew wide. Tommy cheating on her with a girl named Maria? He never mentioned anything to me which wasn’t a surprise. He never really talked to me much about the women he dated. Shit, I probably only ever met two of his girlfriends.

“Probably meeting her now.” She said, snapping me back to reality.

“A-and you’re not mad?” I asked.

She shook her head and sigh escaped her lips. “Can I be honest with you?”

—

Your POV

My stomach churned with anxiety. I was going to tell Joel the truth and part of me was scared shitless. I didn’t know what he was gonna think or say, and I also didn’t want him to hate me.

Before I said anything, I took a big breath; there was no turning back now.

“I’ve been wanting to break up with Tommy for quite some time now.” I blurted.

Joel swallowed hard once he met my gaze. It was always hard to read him to figure out what he was thinking but it was especially hard to read him right now.

“Y-you—I had no idea…” he said, scratching the back of his head. “Why?”

Shit…he probably hates me now.

“Tommy and I were really just friends with benefits, ya know? It wasn’t anything serious—“

“Could’ve fooled me.” He interrupted.

Yeah—he definitely hates me.

“I mean he’s a great guy just, not for me.”

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Joel’s POV

My head was spinning, different thoughts running through my mind as I heard her talk about wanting to break up with Tommy.

“I mean, he’s a great guy, just not for me.” She said.

No words formed in my mind. I just sat there, silently not knowing what to even say.

I could see that she was growing more anxious as time passed, she had sat up straight, staring at me with furrowed brows. “Please say something.” She whispered.

“Why didn’t you break up with him when you wanted to?”

She looked down quickly…was she—was she flustered? I couldn’t really tell.

“I—I….I wanted to keep seeing you.”

Suddenly it felt like everything had froze in time, only she and I were moving. I never expected her to say this let alone tell me that she wanted to keep seeing me. I couldn’t lie…a part of me felt shitty cuz Tommy is my brother but the other part…that part loved this. My whole body felt like it was burning. I wanted nothing more than to get up and grab her. To taste her and feel her against me. I had thought about it for weeks. Especially at night, when I was alone in bed…she took up every fuckin corner of my thoughts and damn…the things I wanted to do to her.

I adjusted myself, feeling myself grow harder just by the thought alone. I pulled a pillow over my lap, hoping she didn’t notice.

This can’t happen..right? It’s like an unwritten rule to not sleep with your friends or your brothers girl. No matter if it were serious or not. But damn, the longer I stared at her, the more I was ready to lose it all and fold. My body ached to feel her against me.

She reached out and placed her hand on my thigh, making my breath hitch to the back of my throat. Her touch alone made me want to rip my own skin off just to get rid of these urges. She had no idea how close she was to just getting picked up and thrown over my shoulder while I take her to my room.

I wanted her more now than ever.

“Please say something,” her voice was low, almost like a whisper.

Fuck. It’s over.

“You and Tommy—y’all really are just hookin up? It ain’t anything serious?”

Just then she bit on her lower lip and damn if that didn’t just throw me over the edge.

“I’m telling you Joel, it’s not serious at all. I really think he’s out there right now, meeting this Maria chick.”

I took in a deep breath, trying to focus on what I should do rather than just taking her right here and now.

“I mean, he should’ve been back by now. The gas station is literally down the street.” She added.

That was true. It usually only takes about ten minutes to get there, buy what you needed and drive back. And he never took this long.

“Let me call him…see where he’s at.” I say.

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Your POV

I honestly couldn’t believe I told him everything. I told him that the reason I stayed with Tommy was for him.

That’s his younger brother for crying out loud. There’s no way he’d be okay with me now. Why would he?!

“Let me call him…see where he’s at.” He says.

He pulled his phone out and called Tommy right away, glancing at me then straight forward.

I didn’t realize my hand was still on his thigh, and as I was about to move it, I barely lifted it up before he grabbed it with his free hand and held it to his thigh again.

Did he actually want me to touch him? Did he want me just as much as I wanted him??

“Tommy, where the hell ya at?” He groaned, looking at me.

I couldn’t help but glance at his lips, wishing I could taste them, feel them against mine. I bet they felt smooth. Without realizing, I pulled my bottom lip in between my teeth, trying to fight my urge to kiss him.

“Tommy—it doesn’t take you this long to get a pack of beers and cigarettes.” He pulled the phone away and covered it with his hand. “I think you’re right. I don’t think he’s alone.” He whispers.

Tommy wasn’t that great at hiding things. He tried for the life of him, but I knew something was up when he would disappear randomly, leaving me alone with Joel or his friends. Not see me for a couple days then show up out of nowhere. It was obvious.

“Told you.” I said.

This would have hurt me if it were someone I actually cared about, but if I were being honest…I was actually kind of relieved.

This meant I had no guilt to feel this way. But it also meant that I was basically free to do what I wanted.

And I know once I officially break things off with Tommy, I’ll most likely never see Joel again.

So…I needed to make this time count. I needed to show him just how bad I wanted him. I moved the pillow that was on his lap.

“Tommy—“

He stopped talking the moment he felt my hand at the top of his pants. Our gaze locked, but not one word was spoken. I took his silence and the fact that he didn’t push me away, as a sign that he wanted this just as bad as I did.

“Yea—I hear ya.” He cleared his throat.

I unbuttoned his pants and slowly slipped my hand in, and under his boxers. My hand wrapped around his hard dick and instantly he let out a soft moan. “Oh god dammit.” He exhaled, tilting his head back, taking his free hand and pressing it against his eyes.

I started to pump up and down, still watching him.

“Fuck…”he whispered. “T-Tommy, I—I got to go. I uh—dropped my—my computer.”

I couldn’t help but chuckle at his mix up. I guess he liked the way my hand felt around him.

Joel hung up his phone and tossed it to the side.

—

Joel’s POV

The way her hand felt against my hard dick made me shudder. Every nerve in my body felt like it were on fire.

I tossed my phone to the side, not giving two shits about Tommy right now. All I cared about was her.

“Fuck—get over here.” I said with a stern voice.

I grabbed her face with my hand and forcibly pulled her toward me and closed the distance between us. Her lips tasted like her strawberry chapstick and I swear I was so close to just ripping her fucking clothes off. Fuck I want her bad.

I pulled her into my lap, making her straddle me on the couch. My hands quickly start running along her body, feeling her, digging my fingertips into her to bring her closer to me. I needed her. I needed to hear her moan and feel her clench around my hard dick.

“Oh god…you’re so…fuck” I couldn’t even finished a fucking sentence. No words could describe how badly I wanted her, how much I wanted to get her out of her clothes, how I just wanted to lay her down in front of me and enjoy every inch of her. I was losing control over myself. I was desperate. So fucking desperate to make her mine.

She nibbled on my bottom lip and slightly pulled back. Making me groan in pleasure. I start to kiss and bite on the nape of her neck, and the moment she let out a moan, I stopped.

She looked at me, confused, her brows furrowing.

“W-why did you stop?” She asked.

I wanted to tear the clothes off her right now but I needed to know one thing. “Are you sure about this? Because once I start this, I won’t be able to stop. I want you so fucking bad.”

I held her gaze with mine. If it were anyone else, I probably would have just risked it all but she was different. I needed her to tell me she wanted this.

She nodded. “I’m sure.” She breathed out.

I shook my head. “No. I need to hear you say it. I need to hear you say you want me to fuck you.”

Her eyes grew wide for just a moment but then softened. “I need you to fuck me, Joel. I need you…now.” She said.

I pulled her back to me, pressing my lips to hers more fervently. There’s no turning back now. By tonight she would be mine, and I will be hers.

I tore her shirt off not giving a fuck about ruining it. “I’ll give you my shirt once I’m done with you.” I said, to reassure her. “But right now, these clothes are in the fucking way.” I snarled.

She let out a soft moan. “I don’t even care about them, just rip it off of me.”

I groaned into her, the power she had over me was almost unbearable. And I fucking loved it.

“That’s my girl.”

I ripped into her bra, and tossed it to the side. The moment her boobs came into view, I felt the blood rush straight to my dick. She was fucking beautiful and I couldn’t wait to show her just how bad I wanted her. My hands lightly cupped her breasts, her nipples slipped in between my fingers. She could only moan from my touch.

“You like when I touch you, don’t you?” I asked her, not once tearing my gaze from hers.

“Mhm.” Was all she could muster out.

“Good, because tonight you’re mine. Got it? All mine.”

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