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Have you met Poshi?

My lovely Virtual Friends,

Long time no see indeed hah? Well, let me summarize what I was doing all that time or where fuck I was. It will not be a cute or lovely story but I am still proud of myself to be normal. So as you already understood, yeah there were some bad days. At least my lovely virtual buddies, there will be no corona-days' dumps.

Let me start with what I was doing. To be honest, I was working like hell in a corporate international firm. It looks so fancy but in reality it almost made my soul old. So I decided to quit this terrible lifestyle by working almost everyday-more than 14 hours. During that time I also ended my relationship. Cuties, please do not worry, I am more than Bridget Jones to cry about my precious memories here. So when we turn back to the main topic, It can be stated that I was creating a new person out of me. I moved to another city, I enjoyed/am still enjoying being alone, I changed my work, I redesigned my family relationships... None of them were easy or in a short time. Basically, I succeeded with all the pain. What I am doing right now, I am learning web-development as my new free time activity. If I do it as a job maybe I would hate it. So let's keep it as a hobby. It is almost the only area in which I feel happy these days. I also checked the data science application and now I am working as data analyst. To be honest, I am in the progress of healing at least with doing the job I love.

There are many many details to discuss, but let's give it a short notice of saying that "I am okay". I hope you have also missed me and enjoy my writings again. It is nice to see you fellas and thank you for your time to read until here.

P.S. : I am still a cat-dog mom. Recently, we also have a new family member Poşi. Please meet my new babe!

Love and love,

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Uncertainty is the most annoying concept in the world.

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The harmony of three parts

Hi everyone,

I recently watched a social movie Layla M. by Mijke de Jong. It looks like a social movie with a familiar and ordinary topic radical islam, and it has a lot of sociological concepts too. Since we will be the parents of the next generation, we should watch this movie to understand that giving our attention is very important for our kids.

At the beginning of the movie, Layla can be observed as a young rebellious spirit with a Moroccan culture in Netherlands. Since she felt the discrimination or/and she was looking for a discrimination with a feeling of being in a minority, she started to show how she feels. However, there was no one to listen and give attention to her especially from her family and friends.. Since she was already lonely, she found herself in a society where she got acceptance and attention. When we are in her shoes, it can be stated that now we could have someone to share what we feel, think and etc.

Until now it looks quite cute, isn’t it? The reality is a big NO. That new society which looked like a radical islamic society, was the first step of ISIS. Additionally, when Layla’s friends and family realised that the new society would hurt Layla, it was so late. So it can be stated that Layla was wrong, Layla’s new world was a mistake, her boyfriend (lately husband) was a bad decision, etc… Okay. What about family? Were they innocent as angels while they were not taking care of their daughter? I do not think so.

We will have future generations with us as our own kids, relatives, or friends’ kids. We have to take a little action to protect them. This action includes three main parts which can be counted as Listening, Understanding and Observing. With the harmony of these three parts we can avoid mislead teenagers in our world.

With the best wishes,

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Yu Kasamatsu - The Four Seasons, 1984

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Algeria, 1950’s.

Such a lovely smile.

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Lake Garda Italy by :

© S. Termanini

Lake Garda is a heavenly place on earth, with lovely towns, restaurants, activities on the lake (boating and sailing) and in the mountains (Mont Balo: trekking and cycling), great car drives, history,… Lovely place to walk and enjoy stunning views, typical Italian atmosphere with food, gelato, shopping and enjoy the typical hand painted art.

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“Gentlemen Prefer Blondes” (1953)

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“I look for ways to say “I love you””

— A$AP Rocky (via neckkiss)

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Me: I’m gonna sit down and write!!

My brain’s ability to string words into sentences:

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Shit happens.

REBLOG.

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Soul-Sense Paradox

Hi everyone,

Today I wanna talk about the Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. Since it has been talked and argued a lot, I also wanted to share what I felt after I read that novel. Would I recommend that book? Obviously yes! It helps you to meet your own darkness and your inner thoughts.

There is a phenomena in psychology which is called a self-fulfilling prophecy. Basically, it means that making the stereotype or belief, which is in your head, real with your attitudes or behaviors. In this book you can see the examples of the self-fulfilling prophecy in Dorian’s attitudes towards people in his life. For example, Dorian’s attitude towards his artist friend was completely what he expected from this poor artist guy. Additionally, the narcissism effects on Dorian’s evolvement was considerably high to catch his end.

When I connect myself with this book, it would be possible to state that I was very similar to him. Manipulation of myself was the biggest regret of mine in my life. Dorian was manipulating himself by covering his attitudes as self confidence. However, in reality he was killing and being killed for himself. It is happening in everyone's life at a realistic level. We are making terrible things because of terrible things which have already been done to us. Furthermore, when I checked the side characters, I also realized some similarities with Dorian’s first girlfriend. Falling in love with a creature you felt you knew everything about. In this situation, when you obtain any new (even good) detail from your loved one, you are getting a bit broke with the feeling that you do not know him enough. That is terrible.

Without going so deep in private life, let's focus on our masterpiece. According to what I feel in this novel, I highly recommend this book for everyone and mostly for teenagers. It is a chapter with a good guide in Life 101. Thanks for reading until here. I hope you enjoy the virtual art forest of Reddish Panda.

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Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul.

Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

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Rest for silence

A cosy day in the middle of spring. Mikka just wanted to walk in the park which is next to the train station. Walking, resting, thinking… This relaxation time could make her day. While she was walking with pleasure she saw dogs with their owner and some old people around. A careless whisper came;

- Hey. Do not ignore me again. Hey!

She was confused and checked who was the whisperer. However, Mikka kept walking. A lady from the old people looked at her and acted like she saw something disgusting. Mikka considered this ugly shut of looks from her and checked her clothes. There was nothing wrong. She did not want to act paranoid and then just kept walking. Old lady looked at her last time with deep emotions in her eyes. This time Mikka also looked at her like she was answering. When the old lady turned her head Mikka left that place in the park and went to the pool side.

There was a new bench in front of the pool. In this bench you can see the pool, baby ducks, and a summary of the park. Mikka decided to sit on that bench and take a little rest. She was not tired indeed, at least not physically. Who was the whisperer? Why did the old lady look at her with intensive emotions? Mikka realized that it would be better to go and ask what is wrong and/or search for the whisperer. After 10 min rest she went back. The old lady was still there.

Mikka started to walk towards the old lady. However, the old lady was smiling and walking in the opposite way. Her direction was like a signal for Mikka. She was acting like she wanted to be followed by Mikka. It happened though. Mikka followed her until the station. The whisperer’s voice increased;

-Hey. Don’t dare to do this!

Mikka was looking around suspiciously with a frightened face and then she looked at the old lady directly. The old lady smiled like all good things were happening in the world. Mikka walked faster now to talk to the old lady. The whisperer came with all the screams in the world… Everyone around the station started to run. Everyone wanted to see or go away from the dead body of the old lady on the railway. Mikka stopped thinking, listening, feeling...

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Ada Limón, Mowing

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A usual motto: Enjoy the Moment!

Hi everyone,

Today I wanna talk about the Portrait of Maude Abrantes by Modigliani. When I saw it for the first time, I am kinda enchanted. What a portrait it is! It is possible to see the feelings of Maude Abrantes with the harmony of colors. Additionally, this painting makes you find some similarities or emotions from yourself.

I assume that all of you had the feeling or desire of walking in the empty street in the dark weather when you are alone. Sometimes people think that it is one of the effects of depression, in reality, you may enjoy that moment. Or sometimes, in a crowded party you would be seen as the most enjoyed person, while in your head you were about to cry. OR you would act as the most powerful person in the world when you have to with your all frustrated and disappointed memories.

I feel that Abrantes has one of these scenarios with a gorgeous, luxury and powerful look. Even if she looks dark, serious, powerful, or gothic; in reality she has a face full of sadness. Eyes of her became her sentences in the painting. The deepness is coming from just a shut of brushes by Modigliani. Although she is just a painting, you can take your wine and sit in front of her to talk by just looking into each other's eyes. No worries, no disturbance… Just enjoy the moment!

Thanks for reading until here. I wish you would enjoy the virtual art forest of ReddishPanda. I would be happy if you see the portrait and send your feelings to me. Maybe one day I can find someone who feels at least closer to mine...

Portrait of Maude Abrantes, Amedeo Modigliani. (1907)

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Reddish Panda 101

Dear Virtual Friends,

OK. Sorry for the extremely serious entrance. I just want to introduce myself like who the fuck I am and why the fuck I am here. For this reason, I want to share this post. Firstly, I'm gonna answer who I am? Then, I will share my purpose that I am here. So lets start!

Hi again, I am Reddish Panda. A new graduate person with anger issues, a cat mom, a dog mom, a gossip lady, a half stupid half genious normal person, etc. Okay, now I feel like Khaleesi with too much title. In short, I’m just a bored person who just entered social media. When I look at my interests I can count them as reading, writing, watching and painting. If it is cliche enough, you can suggest new hobbies. Ah, I was about to forget to mention that I also love camping. It is my escape method with a sophisticated mentioning. Mmm what else… Ah yes, private life. I have a good family with an overprotective brother (indeed extreme protection but still my hero). I have cute and stupid friends who generally bring happiness. So, yes… The answer of “who the fuck I am?” is here.

Lets focus on our second question “why the fuck I am here?”. Since I already mentioned that I'm so into reading, writing, watching and painting; I am gonna make my art blog. I will share my trials, my paintings, my interpretations on books, and my feelings about the movies. I know, you can find a lot of similar pages or you may never find my page at all. However, at the end, I would be happy to write what I want to write. Additionally, if you would find my page, maybe you can enjoy my style of writing. Ahh, by the way, I promise that I am not going to bother you with long long loooong writings. So, yes. I'm here for these reasons.

If someone would read this post, I want to say that it's nice to meet you. Welcome to my virtual art forest… I hope you will enjoy reading Reddish Panda because I will enjoy it when I'm writing. I wanna end this long introduction with a photo which can introduce me without reading. Bye...