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“The crazy girl”

I was once called the crazy ex

we all know how that goes right?

“lock her up” they sneer,

“oh there she goes, i hope she doesn’t have another episode” they whisper.

Mental health is so stigmatized it’s bad.

I once was fired for having episodes at work, they’d say “we’re not here to help, we’re here to serve.”

Long grueling hours meant, lack of sleep, a long day of school, even more work and then the cycle repeats as soon as I get off.

My mental health struggle but it’s been truly lifesaving and life changing. I am a different and better version of myself.

I still have a lot of work to do.

But I know in the end, i’ll have reached my best and most successful version of myself.

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Overthinking

i’m terrified by the silence

the moment you start to type i shriek in joy

and then it stops.

The whole world seems to turn into violence,

a rage so strong and so powerful no one could ever think of being unleashed into this unholy world

then the fall, the spiral,

the dip of it all.

My thoughts seem to collide, crash and bang.

I’m out of patience, out of happiness, have barely any money to spare.

And yet i still check

check for another text, a reaction,

something ANYTHING

the rage comes hurling back

i scream and kick

i holler out, why tf did i get cursed today, with this unholy text bubble

a bubble so small, that could vastly impact your life whether it be positively or negatively.

Despair as i seep

back into depression,

pretty deep.

I can’t get out of it, these feelings seem to fuck with my head.

One says “block them, they were never worth it” and another holds on to hope.

I try to look at things positively maybe just maybe you read and didn’t respond because you were distracted.

“No you’re being ignored” says a little tiny voice, a voice that goes off like a trigger.

Overthinking is my worst enemy, i couldn’t sleep thinking and overthinking or under thinking and distracting myself.

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Crush fails

why cry over someone you’ve never really loved or known?

because the thougjt of them makes you smile

and all they’ve ever shown

is love

i didnt understand that a perosn could be so worth while

until i lost them, like a favorite glove or perhaps some long lost objects

but the more i think about them

the more it effects

my heart and soul

it was genuine

atleast i thought it was

but i shouldn’t be crying over someone i barely know

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Not to "flex" But apparently my whole freshman year of high school, i did incredibly well. I am surprised to say the least, during my last quarter, I suppose I must have overworked myself and grind so hard that I was able to achieve such grades.

This goes to show good, hard work, goes a long way.

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If you ever feel like your holding the weight of the forever spinning world, take a deep breath in and close your eyes.

Think about the positive, push the negative out.

Open your eyes and relax. Remember to relax yourself in these trying times, i feel as though we are coming out of covid the world will press us with more stuff, whether it be work, school or anything stress inducing remember to take that break <3

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Oh my!! I haven’t posted in a while, kind of embarrassing for me, anyways hope you guys are having a wonderful day, going to try to dry out flowers!

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guess whos failing math !

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If I never left you...

TW// small mention of su$c$d3

If i never left you,

we would be so happy.

We would've been

four months together,

and you would be the only thing

I saw.

But I will never change,

I wont stop loving you

and going back to you,

id thought you'd be like

the others,

but you

werent.

I loved you like I never thought

I could,

Fucking kill me

I cant make the right

fucking decisions

FUCK

I just want tobe with

you.

everything would be so different

If i never had left you.

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I like pushing people away... I don't like it it just happens.. Anyways does anyone find that there aren’t enough people with your interests, I just like reading poetry on nice rainy days, and nobody literally in my town likes that, I can't get out of my town yet since i'm still in high school, but when I do i'm gonna live out my dreams... have a nice day thanks for coming to my ted talk.

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I look at my bookshelf sometimes and I feel like i have too many books, but then i remember my dream to have a house lined with bookshelves instead of doors and walls... I must keep collecting books to acheive my final dreams

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Honestly sometimes I want to curl up and do absolutely nothing, just imagine im not here.. 

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Guys Im not political but she got it all mixed up dang. 

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Source @summerthaw​ Reblogged from @slytherubbish​

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Hello all .. this sounds like some sad email sent to workers being laid off.. sorry lol, i havent been active as much and when I got 42 notes i was like wtf.. guess people like my words 

Anyways .. im slowly achieving my dark academia dreams, I recently started reading some of Walt Whitman’s work.. strange .. yet beautiful .. i love trying to decipher what he says.. i also acquired Dead Poets Society.. I have yet to read it.   

Goodnight and Thank you to my followers <3 you are loved and appreciated

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You are all beautiful people!

Hello all! I wanted to let you every one of you out there, you are appreciated, you are beautiful, you are valid, you are accepted, you are the brightest star shining for all of us.. keep on shining my stars!! <3

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I wanna let out all my internal rage and be stared at, to stare back and laugh, I wanna be the main character..