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[rotandachebeneathmyskin]

Alexander didn’t know how to respond to that. A makeover? Surely they were joking, right? He laughed, rubbing the back of his neck. “Is..is this a joke or somethin’?” It had to be. But Ivan seemed genuine despite his own reservations about it.

He’s never worn makeup before. Obviously. Even when he was younger, when people still saw him as a girl. He just wasn’t pretty enough for it. Ivan seems to think otherwise, saying he’s beautiful.

Ivan just seemed excited at the idea of it. Happy in fact. He feels a little flattered and warm inside. Desire the complicated feelings he had about it, with a heavy sigh, he nodded his head.

“…yeah, yeah if that’s what ya want, s’alright. I don’t mind it. Uhm, just pick colors that look good on me yeah?”

*Ivan was simply strolling around the headquarters(or patrolling, if that's what you prefer!), until they saw Alexander turning a corner as well. Immediately, Ivan sprinted towards Alexander and latched onto him, not seeming to have thought of how abrupt it was and how it could've startled Alexander.*

HELLO!

*Ivan was basically yelling.*

- @lobotomizedmeninyourarea

Alexander barely had the time to react when Ivan latched onto him, shouting right into his ear. He screamed, loudly, jerking away from Ivan on instinct.

“JESUS FUCK!”

He almost, almost socked her right in the face before realizing it was Ivan and not some stranger or an enemy trying to murder him or something. He had to take a breath, attempting to calm his racing heart as he looked up at Ivan.

“…” Alexander took a moment to catch his breath before speaking. “…don’t sneak up on me. Again. Please?”

He placed his hands on Ivan’s shoulders, smiling in a somewhat distressed manner.

“I’m a real jumpy guy Gon. I’d think ya learned not ta do this when I kicked ya in between cause ya came up behind me.”

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Alexander couldn’t help his face flushing suddenly as Ivan kissed him on the forehead and hugged him. He felt a shock of electricity go through him. That’s what it felt like anyway.

Though he had to give Ivan a deadpan stare. Why would anyone buy lipstick the same shade as their skin tone?

He couldn’t begin to understand half of what went on in Ivan’s head. Usually when Ivan talks to him he feels like he’s missed the memo on something. Then again he feels like that with everyone. And everyone usually finds him hard to talk with. Except Ivan.

“I dunno Ivan. Are ya wearing, uh, masacra? I don’t know anythin’ about makeup so I-I genuinely have no idea.”

Are they doing this to show off? Is Ivan looking for compliments??? Maybe they are? He’s wracking his brain for answers. The only reason he could think of someone wearing makeup that’s practically invisible is to experiment. He’s never asked Ivan about their whole…gender shitck. He wasn’t sure if it was something they ever wanted to talk about.

“Is there somethin’ ya wanna tell me?”

*Ivan was simply strolling around the headquarters(or patrolling, if that's what you prefer!), until they saw Alexander turning a corner as well. Immediately, Ivan sprinted towards Alexander and latched onto him, not seeming to have thought of how abrupt it was and how it could've startled Alexander.*

HELLO!

*Ivan was basically yelling.*

- @lobotomizedmeninyourarea

Alexander barely had the time to react when Ivan latched onto him, shouting right into his ear. He screamed, loudly, jerking away from Ivan on instinct.

“JESUS FUCK!”

He almost, almost socked her right in the face before realizing it was Ivan and not some stranger or an enemy trying to murder him or something. He had to take a breath, attempting to calm his racing heart as he looked up at Ivan.

“…” Alexander took a moment to catch his breath before speaking. “…don’t sneak up on me. Again. Please?”

He placed his hands on Ivan’s shoulders, smiling in a somewhat distressed manner.

“I’m a real jumpy guy Gon. I’d think ya learned not ta do this when I kicked ya in between cause ya came up behind me.”

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Alexander figured Ivan was in their head too much, too distracted and airheaded. Not that he minded much when it came to her.

He tilted his head at Ivan, wondering what they were doing now. Ivan was generally confusing and it was hard for him to wrap his head around why they did what they did.

Then she had to ask that dreaded question. As far as he could tell, nothing much had changed of them.

“Uhh…”

Were they trying to torture him psychologically?? Was that it? Was he just stupid? He swore he might actually go crazy because Ivan did not look different. At all.

His head raced trying to think of a response while he attempted to spot any difference. But he came up with an idea. Maybe he could smooth talk his way out of it?

“Well nothin’ I’m not really noticing about ya is different. Other than how stunning ya are everyday.” He smiled, shooting finger guns and hoping he’d come off as smooth and cool rather than extremely awkward and lacking social grace.

*Ivan was simply strolling around the headquarters(or patrolling, if that's what you prefer!), until they saw Alexander turning a corner as well. Immediately, Ivan sprinted towards Alexander and latched onto him, not seeming to have thought of how abrupt it was and how it could've startled Alexander.*

HELLO!

*Ivan was basically yelling.*

- @lobotomizedmeninyourarea

Alexander barely had the time to react when Ivan latched onto him, shouting right into his ear. He screamed, loudly, jerking away from Ivan on instinct.

“JESUS FUCK!”

He almost, almost socked her right in the face before realizing it was Ivan and not some stranger or an enemy trying to murder him or something. He had to take a breath, attempting to calm his racing heart as he looked up at Ivan.

“…” Alexander took a moment to catch his breath before speaking. “…don’t sneak up on me. Again. Please?”

He placed his hands on Ivan’s shoulders, smiling in a somewhat distressed manner.

“I’m a real jumpy guy Gon. I’d think ya learned not ta do this when I kicked ya in between cause ya came up behind me.”

[rotandachebeneathmyskin]

*Ivan was simply strolling around the headquarters(or patrolling, if that's what you prefer!), until they saw Alexander turning a corner as well. Immediately, Ivan sprinted towards Alexander and latched onto him, not seeming to have thought of how abrupt it was and how it could've startled Alexander.*

HELLO!

*Ivan was basically yelling.*

- @lobotomizedmeninyourarea

Alexander barely had the time to react when Ivan latched onto him, shouting right into his ear. He screamed, loudly, jerking away from Ivan on instinct.

“JESUS FUCK!”

He almost, almost socked her right in the face before realizing it was Ivan and not some stranger or an enemy trying to murder him or something. He had to take a breath, attempting to calm his racing heart as he looked up at Ivan.

“…” Alexander took a moment to catch his breath before speaking. “…don’t sneak up on me. Again. Please?”

He placed his hands on Ivan’s shoulders, smiling in a somewhat distressed manner.

“I’m a real jumpy guy Gon. I’d think ya learned not ta do this when I kicked ya in between cause ya came up behind me.”

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”Dostoevsky told me that you watch every sparrow that falls.”

He sucks in a breath, feeling the panic and fear rise in his chest.

“Feels like I’m falling. Are you watching?”

That or he’s sinking. He can’t tell the difference anymore. He feels scared all the time and sad.

“Are you still there God?”

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“I feel so tired all the time now. I wish I could hibernate like a bear. That’d be nice, to just sleep for awhile. Maybe forever.”

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(today is my birthday. finally an adult.)

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Alexander feels a burst of electricity under his skin followed by nausea when his arm goes around him. Despite that Ivan’s touch feels better than it feels worse. 

He has to stifle a laugh as Ivan almost knocks the chair over. 

Sometimes he forgets how Ivan’s so boundlessly positive and has a helluva brighter look on life than him. 

‘Useless goddamn ray of sunshine’ he thinks. 

“At least ya can enjoy the simple things, that’s good. S’always good.”

Thankfully, his face is already red from the alcohol so Ivan can’t see him blushing when he leans closer. But Ivan saying ‘my dear’, that makes his face feel like it’s burning. Ivan’s laugh is cute he thinks.

“Kehehe, you’re a real schumck ain’t ya? It’s..s’cute though. Not much stuff I’m thankful for…you’re one of ‘em though, that’s for sure. But that’s enough right?”

He tries to smile at Ivan earnestly as he can so she knows he means it. 

(NO IT'S AMAZING!! Ivan is such a silly billy..)

Alexander stumbles drunkenly over to Ivan, his feet unsteady. He’s holding a bottle of vodka in one hand that seems dangerously close to falling out his hand and shattering on the floor. Hey, hey Gon! My buddy, my pal…let’s have a drink. We should celebrate y’know, talk about what we’re thankful for!”

Alexander puts an arm around Ivan, laughing and giggling, clearly drunk off his ass. His smile is wide, crooked, almost looking like he’s baring his teeth with how sharp his canines are. But there’s no aggression behind his words.

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Ohhhhh... Thanksgiving! Yes, yes, let's celebrate!

*Ivan put an arm around Alexander and brought him a chair, getting himself one too. He opened his mouth to speak for a second, but quickly jumped and ran(almost knocking the chair down!!), before grabbing a glass and snatching the vodka out of Alexander's hand, pouring it, and giving it back.*

Let's see...! I'm thankful for... My tongue! To taste such good drink! And for eyes! To see master Fyodor... And ears to hear such beau~tiful music! And for the lovely people in my life! Like...

*Ivan put a hand to his chin and leaned back before leaning closer and putting up multiple fingers as he named people.*

My master Fyodor... Hawthorne... And you! Oh my, I am so thankful for you! My dear Alexander!

*He said as he began to giggle like a schoolgirl!*

(I REALLY HOPE THIS WASN'T TOO BAD!!)

[rotandachebeneathmyskin]

Oh my, someone actually remembers this character.

(of course I did. how could I not? when he’s just like me? i know most people wouldn’t but i will.)

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“it is…thanksgiving apparently. Some dumbass American holiday being all thankful ‘n shit, celebratin’ with family. What a joke.”

Alexander stumbles around drunkenly, a bottle of vodka clutched tightly in his hand.

“Ain’t got anymore family and nothin’ to be thankful for…except alcohol ‘n drugs.”

He laughs to stop himself from crying but the tears well in his eyes regardless. He sniffles and wipes his eyes. “…well I guess there’s one thing I’m thankful for. One person anyway.”

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PUSHKIN! 😁😁😁 WHY DO YOU CALL YOURSELF "UGLY"??? 😂😂😂😂 YOU ARE QUITE THE OPPOSITE! 😂😂😂😂🤤😂😂😂

- @lobotomizedmeninyourarea

Kehehe don’t worry Gon, s’just a joke. I know I’m hot 😎 everyone just thinks otherwise…kehehe…I’m flattered ya think otherwise though

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⛓️🥀 Feast in a time of Plague 🥀⛓️

Haii this is my first BSD RP account on tumblr ever!! Who am I??? That’s a secret >:3cc I’m obviously RPing the great and amazing Alexander Pushkin! (if anyone remembers who he is <\3)

🥀 Please interact!! Send asks and well RP obviously :3 I can’t wait to meet people :3

⛓️ 18 years old so obviously an adult, joke nsfw asks are fine but don’t send super sexual or graphic stuff otherwise kys

🥀 Anonymous asks will be allowed, be super silly if you want!! Or send asks that would psychologically torture Alexander!! Ask him questions of things he wouldn’t want to confront!! Make him self reflect and do introspection!!

⛓️ Also regarding asks, please don’t send vents. I can’t deal with that and if you do I will be a dick about it or ignore it. I’m a person w/ my own shit. Leave me alone abt that stuff!!

🥀 If you wanna RP with my account just send a message or well reblog a post!! Send asks!!

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🥀⛓️ Some extra info. This blog will most definitely have triggering content. Will be tagged obviously. Obviously Alex has a bunch of issues, this is BSD after all.