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[Spoken softly, but auto tuned]:

"So I use to work at a JCPenney back in high school and I had a manager who was allergic to peppers. And I knew that because there was a note on the fridge that said in the break room that said 'Don't put peppers in the break rooooom.' And not knowing the smell of peppers would cause an allergic reaction, I went on my break to Freebird's. And I got extra poblano peppers in my steak booooowl! I went back to eat it, and all of a sudden the door of the office slams shut, Gina inside, having an allergic reaction just to smeeeell. So then another manager named Lisa went back to give her the EpiPen, but she accidentally stabbed herseeeelf! And so, when I saw Gina go on the stretcher with the ambulaaaance, there was a second stretcher for Lisa right behind herrrr. And I got written up."

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Lord guide me.

Dear, Heavenly Father guide me. Guide me for I am about to enter a new chapter of my life each year. Guide me for I am about to open new doors, accept new opportunities, chase blessings, and get through my obstacles. Guide me when I am frustrated about something. Guide me when I am getting sad or angry. Guide me when I am at my highest point because yes, even at my highest point I still need you to guide me. We have our bad days and we have our good days. God put us in this world to dominate. To become who we want to be. To find ourselves. Start by taking a step forward and not a step back. When you get knocked down get back up and keep moving forward because once you step back you will feel behind. Pray on your bad days, but also pray on your good days. Pray when you need God to hear you. Talk to him. Let him in. He is your medicine, he is the reason you heal deep down inside and he is the reason you can keep pushing. Have faith in what you do, where you go, what you say and how you feel. Do not stress over the things you can’t control and let go of the things that hurt you.

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Ugh, if you don’t love this song... :/

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ALWAYS CHOOSE HAPPINESS. 

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Writing...

I have seriously found that I love writing and now I think I will forever write and continue this blog and woah... I am super excited for this. 

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How we should all go about our life.

Today was a good day and I will continue to say this everyday because even when you wake up its a good day. You are blessed because you woke up. Everyday I wake up to the gift of my car, food, water, my arms, legs, eyes, hair, working limbs, no pain, a job, a mother, a father, a strong family and etc. Everyone is different. Everyone feels different pain whether it is a sad feeling, angry feeling, odd feeling, terrifying and etc. I feel like a lot of people fail to realize this. People need to understand the value of your life. It is easier said than done. We all have mental issues, emotional issues, physical issues and what not. I started praying and realizing how short life was when I lost some close people to me due to a senseless act of violence, cancer, and much more. It hit me hard and makes me who I am today. 

As I write this I miss my grandfather. A grandfather who was the funniest old head I knew. He would crack so many jokes and make everyone in the room laugh. If there were 3 things he loved it was chicken, ice cream, and fishing. It broke my heart when my dad found out he passed away. He was old, a drinker and not much of a person who would go out unless we had to force him out of the house. Every time you saw him talk or laugh you would see his gums because he had no teeth and I think that was the funniest thing about him, and I am sure what others thought was funny as well. He was in the military and fought for us for a while. To my grandfather please continue to watch over me, protect me and be my angel. Lord only knows how much I love you and I love you as much as you loved me.

As I write this I miss my friend Trey. I knew Trey for a while because of his brother. His brother was a close friend of mine and continues to be a close friend of mine. I always use to call them my brothers and in fact I use to call  them blood. Trey’s brother I and went to school together and had many laughs together. We still talk to this day and will always continue to talk. I pray for Vonte. (Trey’s brother). I pray that Trey watches over him and protects him as well. I pray that he continues to be his angel and mine as well. Trey was a funny person, He would brighten any mood and change anyone's day whether you were family, a friend or even a stranger. He loved his horses because of course his brother Vonte rode horses at a farm and also competes which I will forever and always find hilarious for as long as I live no matter what. He loved to dance and he was always acting goofy. That was just his personality. Not much more I can say considering I wasn’t around Trey too much to know him like the back of my hand but the days I was around him you noticed every single little thing about him and that is in a good way of course. I love you Trey. -17 years old.

As I write this I miss my friend Tevin. This one breaks my heart. This was when I knew things were real and this life shit was not a joke. Not a day that goes by where I dont think of any of these people. I was young and when I say young I only mean about 16 but thats young especially if I didn’t experience this before. I was actually at my aunts funeral when I found out Tevin was no longer going to be on this earth. My friend Brian called me and when I asked him which Tevin I dropped to the floor in the hotel bathroom and cried.. I cried and I cried and I cried till I could not cry anymore and just when I thought I couldn't cry anymore I also had a funeral to attend the next day. I drove back home from Virginia with my family in a whole different world. I didn't know how to feel, what to say and how to go about this situation. I felt alone and really confused. I was scared. Tevin I was only in person with once, but that one time felt like forever. He was funny and very bright. Although when I knew him he didn’t talk as much as I am not sure if that is because my mom was around or what. According to everyone else in his life he loved J. Cole. He loved to roller skate and was just a smart amazing person all around. Tevin, continue to shine your light on others. Watch over everyone who is still hurting and will continue to hurt because you are gone. Be there angel and please be mine... -19 years old

As I write this I miss my aunt. This goes way back to where I dont remember much but I know my aunt loved to cook. She was funny and loved every single one of us. Unfortunately cancer got the best of her and took over which took her life. I will never forget my dads face at my aunt’s funeral. He was hurt. He wanted to cry so bad but held it in because he knew he had to stay strong for us. Especially his daughter. He didn’t want his daughter to see him cry in pain. But I knew. And that hurt me the most. Auntie continue to protect every single one of my family members including me. Watch over us and put a good word in up there. I know you love me and want the best for me as well as granddad does too. I know you are my angel. I miss you.

I ask everyone to please kiss your parents, kiss your grandparents, tell the people closest to you that you love them. Tell the people you dont know that they are loved and that things do get better. Don’t pass trouble. Help. Hold your hand out to another who needs help. Give. Because giving is better than receiving. Do a good deed. Hold open a door for somebody, wish someone you dont know a happy birthday. Help someone cross the street, pay for somebody else’s food or item, fix something for someone, visit a long lost friend, visit your close friends, just visit friends. Visit family, spend a day with a family member or friend. Give the love you would want. Treat somebody the way you would want to be treated. What goes around comes around and this life is too short to be mad or sad all the time. Have no regrets and live your life to the fullest. Have no regrets and live up to your goals. Have no regrets and just live. 

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Red room

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Looking for God but you're down on your knees 😈

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Stranger Things (2016)

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You guys ever get complimented by a teacher and stop functioning for the rest of you life?

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Mood 25/8..

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