rustyteeth

[rustyteeth]

My body hurts so bad bro. Everything feels like shit. Car accident can suck my cock. Fuck me and all this

[rustyteeth]

Just saw the most HannibalxWill shit I have ever seen

Chinese fisherman using a mix of bits of chicken for fishing(normal). But he also uses bit of pigs heart. And just whip's that bad boy out and takes what he needs and puts it away all casual like. Like hello? Absolutely wild. And the kinda shit that couldve come from season 4

CW: Photos of fishing and a not-graphic pig heart under cutaway

It worked well too. He was fishing very successfully

[rustyteeth]

Bein immocompromised is so ass.

I'm sick again. But who fucking cares. Im always sick. New ailments come and go so often it's not worth mentioning 99% of the time.

Im choking on my own lungs because of a measly cold that is turning into bronchitis as it always does. And Im working hard to prevent it becoming pneumonia. I also have two other infections at the same time.

Im so tired of this and of my body

The very first piece of art made by/for/about me was a piece my father did of me as a 1 year old. I was in the hospital with a bad stomach virus they couldnt narrow down. And it was unsure if I would make it through the night or not. He drew it to remember what I looked like in my final moments. He used some spare paper they had around and a hospital pen to draw it in the dark.

My mom took the news far better that night. Spending her time in the parking lot with her side piece railing instead of at my bedside.

As a 24yr now the dynamic has not changed much.

My dad was a piece of shit for his own reasons(like dedicating me as a newborn and even my name to his mistress. Same one one who actively ruined my life for two decades.) But atleast he is actually concerned when I fall apart. But to a degree it becomes about woe is him for how hard it is for him to have a sick child. And will have a whole thing about it. Mind you alot of my ailments are directly caused by his own medical neglect and gaslighting of me as a child and my siblings. So I rarely let him know unless its bad bad. Cause its not worth struggling and having to console him for me being sick.

My mother only cares when it makes her look good. And she can seem like a "good mom" or inspiring for doing something for me.

Life for me is painful, overwhelming, shameful, humbling and frustrating. And most of all being an American, very very very expensive.

Im so done with this. And as my pain is bad again right now I just want to relapse.

[rustyteeth]

Think my ED is comin back in full swing.. and I dunno if I care to stop it. And I can't exactly tell folks about it cause most round here think its just a chick thing... :/

And my algorithm is not helping as it started noticing my depressive episode and recc diet shit, ED shit, whole nine. Sucks ass

[rustyteeth]

As a teen I was a bit fucked. And made the wise ass choice to lunch cement as a form of self harm in private. Managing to fracture and break multiple bones in my fingers and knuckles. Now cold days like today I am reminded of just how many injuries I have from that and beforehand. Via excessive pain and cramping/aching.

Recovery is possible and worth it. But sometimes it can still be an asshole. Like a cat. My cats are sweet nearly always but sometimes they decide fuck it and piss someplace weird, bit the tv twice or whatever else.

[rustyteeth]

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📌Who am I?

•Jesse, gay, male, in US South

📌 What do I post?

•vent, ED, addiction, TWD, dysphoria/dysmorphia, trauma, disability, fatherhood, and poverty

📌Relevant CW:

• mentions of sh, ED, bigotry of all kinds, self destructive, past SA/CSA, religious trauma, horror, toxic relationships, cults and graphic subjects

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