rvinol

[rvinol]

The story they have created about you reveals a lot about... them. Be at peace.

Dr. Thema Bryant

[rvinol]

I used to think I was too emotional. Now I realize I was just deeply alive in a numb world.

[rvinol]

I’ve learned to stop begging for closeness. If they wanted to, they would.

[rvinol]

“If. The only word that is a thousand letters long.”

— Stephen King

[rvinol]

I stopped expecting apologies. Some people don’t feel the damage they cause.

[rvinol]

I hate how easily I make myself small to make others comfortable!

[rvinol]

No one warns you that sometimes peace feels unfamiliar. Like you’re waiting for the chaos to come back.

[rvinol]

I’m constantly torn between ‘it is what it is’ and ‘it shouldn’t be like this.

[rvinol]

I don’t want to disappear. I just want to be missed enough to know I mattered.

[rvinol]

Funny how easily people replace you.

How fast someone who once swore they’d never leave can start acting like you never existed.

But I don’t chase anymore.

If you can let go of me that quickly, I was never held properly to begin with.

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I stopped explaining myself when I realized people only listen to respond, not to understand.

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i wish i could explain how tired i am without sounding dramatic

like mentally, emotionally, spiritually…

i just need a nap that restarts my whole life

[rvinol]

I’ve been tired since 2019.

Like… soul-level tired.

But I still show up.

Smile. Text back. Do the work.

And crash alone later.

[rvinol]

People say I seem distant.

But they don’t know what it took for me to even show up.

They don’t see the battles I fight just to let someone in.

It’s not distance … it’s protection.

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They think I stopped caring.

That I moved on coldly, suddenly.

But I didn’t.

I gave chance after chance after chance.

Until I realized that no matter how loud I loved,

They were never going to meet me halfway.

So I stopped.

[rvinol]

I keep falling for the versions I created in my head.

The one who knows how to love me.

The one who notices the details.

The one who never leaves.

But that version only lives in my daydreams.And I keep confusing it with real life.

[rvinol]

I be out here cutting people off, not communicating, not texting back,

and then wondering why I feel lonely.

Like??? Babe… you’re the issue.

But also… everyone else is annoying and I don’t trust vibes anymore so actually maybe it’s not me.