i feel so normal about them and not at all like laying out in the rain because i can’t process emotions like a person. totally normal.
xie lian really is living the ultimate grey-ace fantasy though, because imagine you’ve gone 800 years not being attracted to anyone and you’ve been totally fine keeping a vow of abstinence you have no obligation to keep —
and then one day you run into this guy and your brain goes “he’d be a great husband” and suddenly you’re thinking about how he’s so tall and fixating on his hairline and his bone structure and wow his hands are so big, sure wouldn’t wanna be choked by him, and you’re a huge embarrassing mess around him. but turns out he is equally as embarrassing towards you and you end up liking him a lot and you guys flirt and joke around when you’re together and it’s great except you have massive walls up because of all of your centuries of trauma —
and THEN you find out that this guy has known you nearly your whole life, was actually the person beside you at all your lowest points, someone who has already been tested and come out fighting. he’s not nice and he’s seen some shit but he has literally crawled his way out from hell and proven himself to be good, and most of all already proven that he will stand with you and be by your side in every way that matters. all that before you guys even started dating, before you guys even MET in this lifetime. just the perfect alignment of a) attractiveness, b) compatibility, c) resilience as a life partner — and he came over and started talking to YOU.
maybe it’s just me but i’m chewing on the walls????
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🎧msby warm up music🎧
kiyoomi hated the warm up playlist that the team has curated over the years. it was a clusterfuck of music that had no sense of cohesion.
bokuto added music from artists like eminem and dmx and snoop. who would have thought? but also, who was surprised.
hinata added some songs that were popular during his time in rio. the latin beat quick and smooth.
meian added the kpop songs. and he knew the dances. which meant most of the team also learned the dances.
inunaki added the anime op’s and ed’s which he sang dramatically and off key when they popped up in the shuffle.
and miya added most of the girl boss songs. megan the stallion and cardi b ‘just hit different’ he’d said.
the team had asked kiyoomi if he wanted to add anything to the playlist, and he had refused.
“we can put some classical shit in there if ya want, omi.” atsumu teased as he threw on his jersey. the playlist already playing in the background.
kiyoomi rolled his eyes. “is that what you think i listen to?”
“wait… it’s not?” hinata asked from down the row of lockers.
“nope.” was all kiyoomi said before he slid on his headphones and made his way to the warm up area.
kiyoomi always wore his headphones while he stretched. it was his time to get his head in the game and start envisioning the teams win.
hinata and atsumu were bickering between themselves when they walked in a few minutes later.
most of the team was present and had begun stretching. they were all dressed in their team jerseys and compression sleeves and knee pads. a couple team members were getting taped up by the trainers. the teams warm up music had moved from the locker room and was now playing in the warm up space.
atsumu nudged kiyoomi’s shoulder and gestured for him to pull of his headphones.
“yes?” kiyoomi asked, brow arched.
“is it jazz?” atsumu asked.
kiyoomi smirked. “i’m not telling.” and he slid his headphones back on.
hinata looked over to atsumu and rolled his eyes. then he reached out and tapped sakusa’s shoe while he reached for his own toes.
kiyoomi removed his headphones again and looked over at hinata.
“it’s gotta be like, hard rock. right sakusa?” hinata asked enthusiastically.
kiyoomi just shook his head and went back to stretching.
atsumu and hinata bickered back and forth and kiyoomi ignored them and focused on opening his shoulders up and making sure to stretch thoroughly.
by now, atsumu and hinata had come up with a scheme. kiyoomi could tell. they were so obvious. he resigned himself to whatever antics they were up to as he finished with his stretching routine.
kiyoomi closed his eyes as he entered his last stretch. that was also when a hand reached out and pulled his headphones off his head.
atsumu stood there like a kid caught red handed for a brief moment before putting the headphones on and finally finding out what kind of music the mysterious sakusa kiyoomi listened to for warm ups.
atsumu’s face fell at first…
then it scrunched up confused.
“omi… why aren’t ya listening to anything? did yer headphones die? are they not connected to yer phone anymore?”
kiyoomi stood up and snatched his headphones off of atsumu’s head.
the reality was that kiyoomi didn’t hate the team playlist, but it was always too loud. so his headphones buffered enough noise out while he was able to enjoy the music that was so distinctively msby.
“yeah,” he said. “something like that.”
unfortunately hinata was on to him.
“if they were connected to a personal playlist, did you just so happen to be listening to doja cat on your own terms at the same time it was playing 5 minutes ago?” hinata asked suspiciously.
kiyoomi met his gaze. he’d been found out.
“wait. wait. wait. omi, are ya actually just listening to the team playlist while ya wear yer headphones?” atsumu asked confused.
kiyoomi walked away to put his headphones up and hinata and atsumu followed along and continued to pester him.
“i don’t hate the team music… it’s just too loud with everything going on.” kiyoomi shrugged as he packed his headphones back in their case.
atsumu and hinata stared at him.
kiyoomi shrugged and made his way to meian as he waited for the rest of the team to gather up. hinata followed him shaking his head.
“so what kind of music would you want to add to the playlist?” hinata asked. “you obviously listen to it anyways. don’t you want to add something to it? leave your mark on it?”
“i think it’s fine the way it is. i really don’t have anything to add.” kiyoomi said with a hint of finality.
he looked around. atsumu was nowhere to be seen, but that wasn’t unusual.
that was until the volume of the music dropped considerably to a much more reasonable level. everyone looked around for a moment then continued on doing what they were doing.
individual warm ups were going to a close and it was about time to practice a few drills before the game officially started.
atsumu joined the rest of the team a few moments later while meian was going over details about their opponents.
kiyoomi felt atsumu hip check him lightly. so he looked over.
“if ya’d said something sooner, we coulda just turned it down a bit ya know.” atsumu said mildly annoyed.
“it’s the teams music miya, i’m not going to take that away from them.” kiyoomi said quietly not wanting to endure the wrath of meian.
“yer an idiot. yer part of the team. if ya don’t wanna add music, that’s fine. but if it’s too loud, ya gotta tell somebody.” atsumu said.
kiyoomi thought about it for a second. “thank you for turning it down.”
atsumu nodded. “course omi-omi! there’s nothing i wouldn’t do fer ya.”
kiyoomi nodded back as he felt the familiar twist of his gut. he knew the feeling well. he loved that loud blond setter. but that was something to unpack for another day.
for now, he listened to his captain and focused back on the game while the team playlist continued in the background.
yeah, the team playlist was absolute anarchy. but it was the msby playlist. it was made up for them and by them. it was cleverly hand picked chaos. it was home. it was comfort. and maybe it was a little too loud, but that would always be adjusted.
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