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[ryxu]

Social Media

Touch upon the glass portal

Gather information

Assume it’s normal

Establish a fantasy relation

For I do not fit your interpretation

-ryxu

08.02.24

[ryxu]

I changed.

Why did maturity finally hit me

My emotions don’t falter

I’m no longer hoping on a distant lover

My imagination sore with reality

I’m not longer distraught about bad people

They saw a lion in her hunting grounds and wanted to be her equal

I’m no longer encompassed on the negative

Dying is the end

All my regrets helped me learn

Let the flower blossom and the bud burn

For time is at the essence

The clock tiks as I’m writing this

And my future is balanced

Utilizing my talents

-ryxu

[ryxu]

Escapism.

My lens is blurry

The socials cause me fury

And my mental, wery

Excuses boil from my sloth mannerisms

My purpose flows in my metabolism

But this screen works as vandalism

-using your phone as a distraction from everyday life

-ryxu

[ryxu]

A sheep and it’s meat.

My future is divided

The stars are not aligning

For the sheep needs the stable to survive

But the sheep needs to be found

Will they appreciate it’s wool

Or butcher the sheep

Sever it’s meat

Like the rest

My wool is special

My wool is unlike no other

Please realize I am not just meat

For my future depends deeply on the appeal

Of my art on the easel

For I’d rather become meat

Than not have my wool appreciated

And face defeat

-ryxu

[ryxu]

Come here kitty.

I wavered a smiled at the wild eyed man

For my mind and eyes did not think him a fan

But he welcomed himself in as he began

My decency was not an invitation

For I did not want communication

As his wild eyes were trying to build a relation

I disperse rejection to the intruder

He did not handle it well, public abuser

He approaches another women

In hopes to seduce her

-ryxu

[ryxu]

Irreversible.

I was that crinkled piece of paper on the ground

You left me as I frowned

For I was not found

You pick up the paper

As if you didn’t break her

Unfolding and straightening the mess

For the crinkles you cannot address

-ryxu

[ryxu]

The breeze is so addictive

The air fuels my lungs

But the breeze is warmth

It is comfort

My mind flees at times

Will it pass by

Or will it blow me away

Entrap me in the air

Make the horses gallop

Allow the waves to rampage

I need that feeling

Because for the first time in my life

You are my oxygen

-To falling in love

[ryxu]

Sometimes I ponder

As life gets harder

My mind starts to wander

To the darkest places

My mind back to the races

As I hollow out my heart

An echo becomes clear

For death I do not fear

Regrets and anguish

I wish I could flourish

But now I’m thinking

Of the moment I stop blinking

And I take life for granted

As growing old has left me disenchanted

[ryxu]

I hate the thought of you

It’s enveloping

My life is not developing

I’m sick in bed

Sick in the head

I was feeling desperate

When you disconnected

I’m feeling neglected

I’m fantasizing

Romanticsizing

Your eyes are so mesmerizing

Hovering over your name

Hoping things will be the same

My face is about to turn red

Where could it have led

I’m really easy to tame

Been thinking about your name

[ryxu]

Strangers on a Bench - Ryxu

Part 1

Wiggling my toes

Scrunching my nose

Will he notice

Or does he know

Feeling distraught

Holding onto my thoughts

She looks so eager

But her gaze looks weaker

Sewing my mouth closed

He looks so opposed

Should I say something

I’m drawing nothing

Holding back my attention

Looking in the other direction

If I don’t talk

Should I just get up and walk

[ryxu]

(Very short poem)

Pry into my heart

Mention her name

Flaunt her pictures

Be untamed

[ryxu]

(Little song I made)

Decipher with your eyes closed

Show me all that I know

Gunning down no rifle

How the fuck should I know

Pull up to that house

Gonna force it out

Pushing up

But never pushing south

Take a couple pills

Shove it down your mouth

I can be your girlfriend

But never be your spouse

Living underground

Never taught me how

Life a paradox

But death gave me clout

At your address waiting to come out

Your intoxication keeping me in doubt

[ryxu]

Your weighted gaze

Fixed in my brain

Delusions flow over me

My vision in haze

[ryxu]

Enter that home

For you do not own

Take the peace

Rip what’s sewn

Passions run deep

A restless weep

[ryxu]

I am selfless

Striving for peace

avoiding the mess

Take the heart

make it full

Be their other half

make them whole

And I’ll be alone

Viewing the romantic tone

[ryxu]

Screeching sounds

Echoing in the distance

The lighting harsh

Your gaze unbothered

You told me you desired

And my answer made me a liar

[ryxu]

Is it because I’m a flower?

Now your heart is shallow

Two strangers on a bench

One strong, one cowards

You have your own flower

You give it love, shower

Earths tears desired

The want to be admired