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nothing is ok, everything is horrible

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— Mary Lambert

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“you’re so polite” thanks! i feel guilty for existing

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and suddenly, again, I feel really tired, as if the world is draining me of everything i ever had

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growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

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As someone who likes being alone all the time usually, you know shit is getting bad when feeling alone starts to actually hurt you for once and you just want someone to hold you and be there.

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staying alive is becoming less and less tempting

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sadness so bad it just hurts my heart and i feel like i cant breathe or even move (my fp made me sad)

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i need this more than oxygen

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Put me out of my fucking misery

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i think i was destined to be ruined. i think i’ll always be fucked up.

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i must create scars, scars are what define me

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I never thought I’d get to 27… I don’t know what to do from here. My whole life has been useless and worthless , I’ve been not thinking I’d come this far

Well, now I’m too old to kill myself now I guess

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bpd culture is desperately wishing you could do anything to apologize to your mother for the draining burden that is your existence

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BPD culture is having quiet bpd and everyone thinking you’re extremely introverted and sweet and sensitive and quiet and in your head you’re drowning in ways no one could ever imagine and it’s like you want to rip off your own skin so you seclude yourself from the world because it’s too excruciating but you want to live, so , so much.

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