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your misery in life (is your ecstasy in death)

@saxhamsurvivor asked:

"Hold still..."

@hearthandhomeward | Titus Glauca answered:

For a while, he'd assumed he was dead, all things considered. For a while, he'd even been happy about it. No more conflict, no more divide-- no more fighting for one side and betraying the other. No more expectations, no future, no past, no honor, no pride. For a while, he is dead. And then he isn't, pulled back screaming to the waking world and the sun high, unyielding, unforgiving, overhead, as Arra yanks the blade from his chest and smashes a cure flask right in the worst of it. Drautos swears, violently, hands half-armored and digging into the rubble of what was once the First Bank of Insomnia, as the curative does its impersonal work-- what he wants to do is grab Axis Arra by the throat and break his neck for inflicting this on him. He was dead, gods-dammit, and he'd actually liked it. It is the longest series of moments in his life, longer than the eternal battle with Ulric, longer than every tedious moment spent in company of a king he loathed. Arra looks like he should be dead, too, haggard and wan, when Titus finally regains sense enough to push past the frigid fingers yanking bone and muscle and organ tissue back together to look at him. "--Thanks," and there is grudging gratitude there, because being alive means he can still finish what he started. "The others with you?" Furia, Bellum, other people he'd set up like ducks in a shooting gallery, pawns on a chessboard. His people, like Crowe, never intended to survive the Fall.

Axis watches his one-time captain with the implacability of a coeurl on the hunt. He can see the murder there, in ice-blue eyes, and ignores it as he does the begrudging thanks. He didn't revive Titus Drautos to save him, after all.

"I sent them on ahead," Axis tells him, flat and cold. "We need gear, clothes, a ride."

He should have cut Drautos' throat the moment he saw him breathing, but the peace on the older man's face had enraged him.

He still doesn't know if he intends to leave him here or lead him out, or pretend to follow like he used to. He thinks Drautos knows Axis will never be loyal to him again.

The kids are safe, and the man in Glauca's armour doesn't know where. It's enough for now.

[saxhamsurvivor]

Axis’ birthday is coming up. Unfortunately for him, not only is it my mother’s birthday, it’s TotK release day.

rip in pepperonis, axis

[saxhamsurvivor]

the heathen force {that gets you}

send ⛓️ to find my muse bloody, bruised and restrained

@empatheticscientist said:

⛓️

He watched the woman with soil-dark eyes, ignoring the lightheadedness that came with blood loss and the pain in his bound limbs.

He didn't know what her orders were or if she was in charge overall; he just knew that being in a Niflheim lab was never a good thing.

[saxhamsurvivor]

I touch myself whenever I think about you. More specifically, I rub my temples because I get a headache because you’re awful. 

[saxhamsurvivor]

send ⛓️ to find my muse bloody, bruised and restrained

[saxhamsurvivor]

“ I’m a bit scared. “

"Honestly, I feel bad for the poor daggerquills. They died only to be used in this monstrosity-- did she just put them in the microwave!?!?!?"

[saxhamsurvivor]

in a mirror, twisted

@saxhamsurvivor asked:

"you should sit down."

@hearthandhomeward | nyx answered:

He should. Really. "I'm fine." Leaning more of his weight on Axis than he really wants to helps a little, even. Keeps him still going, one foot in front of the other as they slog slowly toward the nearest haven, sigils glowing faintly in the distance. "I'm totally fine."

"You're really not," Axis murmurs. He has one of Nyx's arms hooked around his neck, and his left arm firmly around the younger man's waist. He's sorely tempted to just stoop over and drag Nyx across his shoulders, but he doesn't know where Nyx has been hurt so it could do more harm than good.

"Mind telling me what happened?"

[saxhamsurvivor]

“ It tastes good but it feels like a preexisting condition. “ -corditeheart

Axis can't help but laugh. "My father would've taken that as a compliment. "I doubt there's anything healthy in this except the apples. Maybe."

[saxhamsurvivor]

“ This isn’t food, it’s a war crime! “

"I think it's actually a fetish," Axis says thoughtfully, unable to tear his eyes from the horrors unfolding on the screen before them. "Why else peg the turkey with a block of cheddar?"

[saxhamsurvivor]

B. DYLAN HOLLIS HISTORICAL COOKING SENTENCE STARTERS P. 1 various lines taken from TikTok user bdylanhollis ‘s cooking videos of historical recipes. Some are funny, some are serious so take that into account. Feel free to modify as needed. Make sure to specify the muse it is for for multimuses!

“ This isn’t food, it’s a war crime! “ “ If there’s one thing I’ve learned, Jello is inevitable. “ “ Just like my relationships, candy is unhealthy. “ “ I’m a bit scared. “ “ Your time has come! “ “ Are you a sorcerer? “ “ There shouldn’t be 8 to 10 cups of anything! “ “  This is ridiculous! “ ” From my personal experience, depression and ice cream are a match made in heaven. “ “ How am I supposed to survive the apocalypse if I can’t survive oats? “ “ Sweetie, this needs a lot of things. ” “ It’s an interesting idea because it’s awful. “ “ It tastes like an identity crisis on a plate. “ “ We meet again. : “ What’s the point?! “ “ What have you perfected?! GARBAGE?! “ “ If I cut off my feet, do we still have to do this? “ “ There are too many things happening. “ “ Looks good, but looks can be deceiving. “ “ I wouldn’t mind it in a coal mine, but in a coal mine I am not. “ “ I’ll take a divorce. “ “ …Do you think it could hear me? “ “ Any less and it might gain consciousness. ” “ What’s scary is it isn’t terrible. “ “ French Revolution your pineapple! “ “ We don’t know what it is either! “ “ Remember kids, the main ingredient in pie crust is self-doubt. “ “ Here come the tears. Like my mom after a glass of wine. “ “ Honey that ship has sailed. “ “ It tastes good but it feels like a preexisting condition. “ “ They have this for breakfast. Now that’s what you call bravery. ” “ You’re gonna die here! Yes! “ “ Add one very lonely egg. “ “ What exactly are we trying to raise up? Hope? “ “ What is with dead people and their obsession with lard?! “ “ No officer, there’s no shell in there.” [Pulls out egg shell from bowl]  “ So far so good!” [30 seconds later] “I take it back. “ “ Bake to my liking? Sweetie none of this is to my liking. ” “ Don’t come back! “ “ It came back…” “ This is what I’d imagine a toiletbrush to taste like.” “ Oh I just know this is going to be awful…” “ Disgusting wasn’t enough for you? “ “ Call the U.N. ! “ “…You’re a piece of work. “ “ I should have gone to church. “

[saxhamsurvivor]

"the trauma made you kind" fuck that. no. i am kind because i cannot allow anyone to go through what i did. i am soft because i chose to be.

[saxhamsurvivor]

what could be more sinful than this smile

[saxhamsurvivor]

Confess a dark, twisted, or otherwise sinful thought your muse has had about mine.

On or off anon, it’s up to you!

[saxhamsurvivor]

𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

my original batch can be found HERE! i got all kinds of angsty and protective vibes took over, but if u think of any more that you’d like to see on the list, shoot me a DM so i can add it!

“ get behind me… ”

“ stay here. ”

“ don’t worry. everything’s going to be alright… ”

“ you shoot anyone who comes through that door who isn’t me. ”

“ when you love something, you protect it. ”

“ i’ll keep you safe. ”

“ do everything that i say, and we might both live to tell the tale of this night. ”

“ when i say run, i need you to do as i say and don’t even think about me. ”

“ get down! ”

“ close your eyes, you don’t need to see this. ”

“ why wouldn’t i save you? ”

“ it’s alright. they won’t be hurting you again… ”

“ of course i came for you… it would take far much more than that to stop me. ”

“ listen to me… i need to go back out there. but i promise you, i’ll be right back. okay? all i want you to do is stay hidden, and i’ll be back before you know it. ”

“ there’s nothing in this world nor any other, that would stop me from protecting you. ”

“ get out of here! now! ”

“ i knew you’d feel guilty; you do understand that i’d take a thousand wounds if it meant keeping you safe, don’t you? ”

“ i swear to you. as long as i’m by your side, you’ll never be harmed. ”

“ it’s my job to keep you safe, yes, but you could work with me a little to make it easier. ”

“ protecting you isn’t my duty. it’s my privilege. ”

“ who did this to you? where are they? ”

“ listen to me. i don’t think i’ll be able to buy you much time. and once i go out there, the clock starts. so the second you hear us fighting, i want you to run. as fast and as far as you can. ”

“ are you alright? “

“ can you move? “

“ why is it so difficult for you to believe that you deserve to be protected? “

“ you’re a good person. good people deserve to be safe. “

“ i’m going to protect you, now. because that’s what we do for the ones we love. we keep them safe. “

“ stay close. whatever you do, do not leave my side. “

“ i’ll do whatever it takes to keep you safe. no matter the cost. “

“ i’m on my way. ”

“ it’s alright… it’s okay… i’m here now. i’ve got you. ”

“ it’s all over now. don’t panic. it’s not my blood. ”

“ i don’t know how long i’ll be able to protect you for, but i guarantee you, i’ll only stop with my final breath. ”

[saxhamsurvivor]

infideliis​:

“I’m not moving, don’t worry.” Though Ravus is very curious; he’s never seen a chikatrice before, not up close, and despite his words, he cannot help but inching just the tiniest step closer. “Which is most likely, do you think?”

“Full disclosure? My neighbours are probably idiots. Most of the original tenants fled when my family did; nobody wanted to near a Bussemand troupe. So either the landowners fled Insomnia and settled here, or fleeing Insomnians settled here with permission of the landowners, and not a man jack among ‘em knows a damn thing about local flora and fauna.”

[saxhamsurvivor]

Send “picking up chicks” for a starter where my muse is holding a chicken chick.

@infideliis​ asked:

“picking up chicks”

“Don’t move,” Axis says to Ravus, carefully rising with the bird in his arms. “Chikatrices aren’t native to this area, which either means a flock got very, very lost, or one of my neighbours was very, very stupid.”

[saxhamsurvivor]

Sending “picking up chicks” for a starter where my muse is holding a chicken chick.

Send “chick magnet” for your muse to be holding a chicken chick.