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My mutuals are so niceys to me all the time! OK goodnight!! :)

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Struggle of wanting to reach out to see if I can help a friend whose not been doing so well lately vs the fear that I’ll just be adding more stress and unwelcome stimuli to an already bad situation :(

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Also the inexplicable but omnipresent GUILT

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Sometimes I forget just how insane I sound to other (especially neurotypical) people when I talk about my highly specific irrational fears

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Whenever I make a personal jokey post that references other big popular posts, I always have this irrational fear that mine will blow up too and then ppl will start accusing me of plagiarism 💀

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Me, unemployed and only a part time student: why is nobody on tumblr to play toys with me

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Sometimes I do feel like my art is regressing in quality rather than progressing. Whatever.

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sometimes i’ll see mutuals post about certain fictional characters and i’ll be like wow. match made in heaven <3

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Well. Hopefully this goes well.

Google how do I initiate an apology conversation without coming across as guilt trippy and insincere

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Google how do I initiate an apology conversation without coming across as guilt trippy and insincere

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Lots of things on tumblr pissing me off today but I’m. Being so brave about it

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Wow wtf HIV/AIDS was discovered by Flossie Wong-Staal, an Chinese-American woman, and she’s the reason the HIV test even exists. AND THEN she invented the molecular knife that lead to treatments for HIV/AIDS. And she’s STILL ALIVE. We don’t hear about the contributions of Women of Color enough, my word. Madness.

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Screw terfs n all but are you normal about transgirls who don't want to medically transition? Are you normal about transguys with boobs who don't wear binders? Are you normal about the trans people who only want to socially transition because that's what's right for them? Are you normal about the transgirls with beards? Are you normal about the transguys who love their curves? Screw terfs, but are you normal about trans people?

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From the Freedom Flotilla, April 27 2024:

On Thursday afternoon, the Freedom Flotilla Coalition was contacted by the Guinea Bissau International Ships Registry (GBISR), requesting an inspection of our lead ship – Akdenez. This was a highly unusual request as our ship had already passed all required inspections; nevertheless, we agreed. The inspector arrived on Thursday evening. On Friday afternoon, before the inspection was completed, the GBISR, in a blatantly political move, informed the Freedom Flotilla Coalition that it had withdrawn the Guinea Bissau flag from two of the Freedom Flotilla’s ships, one of which is our cargo ship, already loaded with over 5000 tons of life-saving aid for the Palestinians of Gaza. In its communication informing us of this cancelation, the GBISR made specific reference to our planned mission to Gaza. It also made several extraordinary requests for information, including confirmation of the ships’ destination, any potential additional port calls, and the discharge port for humanitarian aid and estimated arrival dates and times. It further demanded a formal letter explicitly approving the transportation of humanitarian aid and a complete manifest of the cargo. Again, this is a highly unusual move from a flagging authority. Normally, national flagging authorities concern themselves only with safety and related standards on vessels bearing their flag, and are not concerned with the destination, route, cargo manifests or the nature of a specific voyage. Just like when you register your car, the authorities don’t require you to detail to them every place you are going to go with the car. Sadly, Guinea-Bissau has allowed itself to become complicit in Israel’s deliberate starvation, illegal siege and genocide of Palestinians in Gaza. Israel is showing the world the extent to which it will go to deny Palestinians the aid they need to stay alive, in direct contravention of International Humanitarian Law, UN Security Council resolutions, and two orders of the International Court of Justice. [...] without a flag, we cannot sail. But, this is not the end. Israel cannot and will not crush our resolve to break its illegal siege and reach the people of Gaza. The people of Gaza and all of Palestine remain steadfast under the most horrific, unimaginable conditions. We take strength from their incredible, inexplicable ability to maintain their humanity, dignity and hope when the world has given them no reason to do so. It is our responsibility to keep that hope alive. WE WILL SAIL.

The Freedom Flotilla, which was set to depart from Turkey on the 27th of April with 5000 tons of life-saving aid, has now been delayed because Israel and the United States has pressured Guinea Bissau to withdraw its flag from the Flotilla's lead ship.

Seeing as how their tactics worked on Guinea Bissau, organizers now fear that Israel and the US will exert the same pressure on whichever country the Freedom Flotilla attempt to register their ship under next.

To help the Freedom Flotilla reach Gaza, please keep an eye out for further updates from the organizers. Right now, as of April 27th, they're asking people to help boost their visibility, and to donate to their member campaigns.

For more info, see their webpage.

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My brothers’ birthday tomorrow :)

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🎫 here's a gush pass ^^ feel free to gush about whichever f/o you want, however much you want, then send this ask to 3 other self shippers (optional) !

(if you dont wanna do it thats fine too ✌🏾) -gideongrovel

YAYYY HI GIDEON!!! :D ty for this!! (And tysm for the reassurance that I didn’t HAVE to do this/gen idk sometimes I have the energy for these types of things but sometimes I don’t, tonight I do lol)

OKAY OKAY SO

I kiiinda suck at gushing coherently but uhhh hii gongeous :)))) (/ref)

HES SO PRETTY ITS NOT FAIRRRR ‼️💥‼️‼️💥💥

Also ummm he’s my cutie sweetie handsome guy even though. The um. The killings. (He is a professional hitman)

Also this gif too (below)

Makes me a little (a lot) crazy..

Godddd I need more still screenshots of him tho too but I can’t find any that aren’t incredibly grainy and bad 😭😭😭

It’s okay, the gifs I have are good, I get to see him smile in motion <:)

He’s so silly goofy but also so wildly capable at so many things it’s insane!! Like he’s got this childish sense of whimsy but it’s about killing ppl 😭

And he’s sooo layered. The show alludes to this particular trait of his but they never really capitalized on it bc he’s a side character 💔

But what I mean by that is..

He canonically lies. A lot. One could even argue it’s almost compulsive. Whatever. The point is, he is purposefully deceitful in most of his human interactions. And he does it in a really insidious kind of way that’s just so impressive to watch!!

You’ll hear him tell the main characters something and it sounds perfectly plausible and then like entire seasons later you’ll find out that oh that was a lie too.

And BECAUSE of this particular trait of his, I can make his backstory basically whatever I want with the little information I’m given by the show!!

In the show, he confides in Mac that he killed his abusive father (and encourages Mac to do the same lol)

I choose to take this as one of the few bits of truth he weaves into his deception. It makes sense. And he does do this, weave bits of truth into his ever flowing waterfall of lies, this is canon too.

But like, he’ll lie about stupid meaningless things too. He once lied about being deathly allergic to peanuts to Mac but later made a show of snacking on some in front of him. It’s so dumb but it’s really endearing in a very weird way!!!

I think part of it is I see a lot of myself in him too, so I’m kinda projecting a little?? Like we are very different on the surface level but dig a liiittle deeper and you find two verrrry emotionally repressed people who can’t cope with genuine human feeling to save their lives.

I lack emotional regulation and bc of this I cry over most things (sad, frustrated, embarrassed, etc) and I get deadly mad at the smallest things to the point where I fear I’ll become physically violent.

Murdoc doesn’t deal with his own emotions. He lies about his feelings to other people and he manages to do it to himself too. But he has no problem with taking it out via physical violence.

You understand.

Anyways.. we mirror each other in some key ways and that’s part of why we work so well together I think :)))

SORRY THAT WAS SO LONG TY FOR READING ILYYY/p!!!!