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Bukowski & Me

I read Bukowski

Must be a hundred times

And it gives me hope

To know that someone else

Like me

Despised this terrible place

With its terrible people

And its terrible ways

But it gives me hope as I say

To know that someone else understood

The drink

The drugs

The women

And being alone

And being

Just fine

With that

Better to be alone

With drink

With drugs

With women

And understand why

Than to be

In terrible company

In a terrible place

With terrible people

And their terrible ways

And to be completely

And utterly

Misunderstood

Much better

To be

Alone

Like Bukowski

And me

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“I don’t speak that language anymore and that too is a massacre that I am bathing in.”

— Joel François, “Haiti”

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Marnix.

“You asked if you should call. I asked if I should visit. We both fell back into our whiskey, neither of us thinking this would be the last time we didn’t say goodbye.”

— Jared Singer, from Forgive Yourself These Tiny Acts of Self-Destruction

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“I have long since forgiven your lies. I have long since forgiven my body for failing, for breaking. Maybe forgiveness is transitive.”

— Jared Singer, from Forgive Yourself These Tiny Acts of Self-Destruction

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Recovery vs. relapse is such a vicious cycle 

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“But I must admit I miss you quite terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby. I go to bed early and rise late and feel as if I have hardly slept.”

—

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Visit me in my dreams. So you can tell me what form your soul takes when it leaves your body. That way, it’ll be easier for me to find you — in another world or another time. I’ll be staring at the stars like you told me to, waiting patiently for any sign of you, my lighthouse.

I love you forever, Marnix.

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Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story

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War cats in hammocks. Known as ship’s cat, these heroic felines have been a common feature on ships since ancient times. They are of value not only for providing protection from rodents, but also as morale boosters.The spread of mass communication during World War II, led to a number of ship’s cats becoming celebrities in their own right. (Source)

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“I am in love with reciprocity. I eat you eat. I starve you starve. I hunt we live.”

— Dave Harris, from Patricide

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“I exist, that is all, and I find it nauseating.”

— Jean-Paul Sartre, Nausea

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I’m not a survivor, I’m a victim. A survivor finds the will to live again. I am trying to find reasons to stop what is left of me from flowing out of my wrists. 118 00 000 seconds and I can barely find the will to breathe.

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found this today! i did this when i was in high school. it’s a drawing of noah and allie from the notebook. the two are drawn with the words “if i’m a bird, you’re a bird” over and over, and the background has a few quotes from the movie. done in a felt pen.

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soliloquy of the solipsist, sylvia plath

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Grieving for someone who is alive is bad and enough.

Imagine grieving for someone who’s never coming back.

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I wanted him.

I really wanted him.

But you don’t know what you don’t know so I wasn’t missing out.

Sorry to my unknown lover. - @seluleko

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“A cigarette is the perfect type of a perfect pleasure. It is exquisite, and it leaves one unsatisfied. What more can one want?”

— Oscar Wilde (via quotemadness)