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I just FaceTimed my sister and her and a dude were on camera so to be funny I said “so YOURE the one that’s fucking my sister” and she said “STOP THATS MY BOSS HE JUST HIRED ME” and i don’t think flex tape can fix that

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One year.

It took one year of physical therapy,

It took one year of sports medicine,

It took one year of thinking this will all go away if I just do my exercises and go to my treatments,

It took one year of my physically active career down spiraling,

It took one year of pain every single day,

It took one year of doctors telling me it was in my head,

It took one year of missing out on hobbies I used to enjoy,

It took one year of tears,

One year of frustration,

One year of trying to tough it out,

One year of my cartilage and connective tissue deteriorating,

One year of not knowing what was wrong with me,

It took one year for a doctor to tell me “this is what you have. Pain will be your normal. This is your life”.

That my normal is my body will always work against me.

That my body is breaking down over time.

That I will always have to work hard to improve my body,

And that even when I’m doing everything I’m supposed to, there will still be pain.

I’m 24 and I feel like I’m in the body of a 70 year old.

I’m tired of trying to get better when my “normal” will always be this.

I feel trapped and that my body is a prison,

Deteriorating,

The walls and foundation falling apart,

But I’ll never be free.

I don’t want to give up,

I don’t want my life to be this way,

But at the same time, I’m fucking tired of trying.

This is my normal… Are you kidding me?

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Some ruins I found near a trail

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Wanna see something you could’ve gone your whole life without seeing? Carpet bathroom

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I love nature so much 💚

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