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#that thing bucky does with his lips that makes me soft™

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“I’m not a killer anymore.”

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Captain America: Civil War (2016) // The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (2021)

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AGHG I NEED THISSS

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Honestly, same.

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“do you think that you could take orders from a woman?”

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Bucky + EMOJI

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happiness looks so good on him

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Masterlist

Requests are open!

I write for Bucky Barnes, Steve Rogers, Loki Laufeyson, Spencer Reid, Anakin Skywalker, Draco Malfoy, the Tenth Doctor, Harry Styles, possibly others.

* = smut

Bucky Barnes/Sebastian Stan:

Bucky Barnes x reader:

It’ll Be Okay - y/n comforts Bucky after learning about Yori’s son

Steve Rogers/Chris Evans:

Steve Rogers x reader:

Spencer Reid/Matthew Gray Gubler:

Spencer Reid x reader:

Anakin Skywalker:

Anakin Skywalker x reader:

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It’ll Be Okay

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x female!reader

Word count: 931

Warnings: Sad Bucky, lil bit of swearing, mentions of violence, idk

A/N: This is my first ever fic that I’m writing and posting!! Ahh I’m so excited. I hope you all like it! :)

Plot: Bucky tells y/n about the death of Yori’s son, she comforts him

(Bucky)

“Thanks, Yori. It’s been great but I gotta get home, y/n will be wondering what happened to me.” Bucky smiled as he opened the door, leaving his friend’s apartment. The minute it closed behind him, his smile fell.

He couldn’t do it anymore. He couldn’t keep pretending to be there for his friend when he knew the truth. Listening to Yori’s devastated voice as he wondered about his son’s fate broke Bucky a little more every time they met. Reaching into his pocket, he pulled out his notebook and flipped to the most viewed page. At the top, the last name Nakajima stared back at him; circled but not crossed.

As he walked down the sidewalk, he carefully placed the book back in his coat. The street lamps gave off an eerie glow, glinting off his exposed hand. Pulling out his phone, he checked the time. 11:46 pm. Shit. Y/n would be beyond angry that he hadn’t texted or called to let her know he was going to be late.

“Hopefully she’s fallen asleep by now,” Bucky thought. He didn’t want to talk to anyone about things right now, just to go to sleep and start a new day tomorrow.

(Flashback)

“I think the worst part is not knowing what happened to him,” Yori said sadly, gazing at his son’s memorial shrine. “Getting that closure would be more than anything else I could ask for.”

Bucky swallowed, tensing his jaw. He studied Yori’s face as he picked up his son’s picture. The lines on his face showed the years of stress and worry he had been through, and Bucky knew he was to blame. With just a few words he could take away some of that pain, maybe ease a fraction of the suffering he had caused...

He opened his mouth to speak, but the words caught in his throat as Yori glanced up at him. “I-“ Bucky started, before falling silent. “I... I’m so sorry for your loss, Yori.”

(Y/n)

Y/n heard the knob rattle and was on her feet before the door could even open. Bucky entered, turning around to close it. “Are you okay? I texted but didn’t hear back, you said you’d be home by 10 at the latest.” She asked, approaching him.

He turned around and she stopped. His face was red and his eyes were full of tears. “Oh my god Buck, what happened?” She hurried over to him, engulfing his broad frame in a hug. Immediately he fell into her and began to sob.

Leading him over to the couch, she sat him down and held him until his crying slowed. “Buck, please talk to me. I’ve never seen you this bad, what happened? Is Yori okay?” She asked, pushing his hair back.

“I don’t... I don’t know how to say it. I can’t.” Bucky started, breath still shaky. “I tried to tell him but I couldn’t.”

Y/n looked at him, confused. “Tell him what?”

Bucky took a deep breath, and pulled out his notebook. Y/n had never seen what was inside it; she only knew he and his therapist were using it to help him move past everything he had been through. Flipping through the pages, he stopped on one with a list. Looking closer, y/ncould see it was last names. Most crossed out, with the exception of a select few. Bucky pointed to Nakajima, circled on the top of the right hand page.

“This is a list of everyone I wronged during my time as the Winter Soldier. As per my therapist’s advice, I’ve been going through each one and righting those wrongs any way I can.” He explained. “There’s only one that I can’t bring myself to do, and it’s the most important one.”

Y/n looked back up at him. “What happened with Yori?” She asked, hesitantly.

“I was on a mission. Take everyone out, leave no witnesses. I was almost finished, but there was one more. I can still see him trying to escape, begging me to let him go. He couldn’t get his key in the lock of the door he was trying to leave through. The closer I got to him, the more desperate he sounded.” Bucky stopped, taking a gulp of air. “That man... was Yori’s son. He was innocent, I should have let him go. Instead, I shot him right between the eyes.”

They sat there in silence, neither knowing what to say. Eventually y/n spoke. “Bucky... there was nothing you could have done. You may remember and know what you should have done, but in the moment you had no choice. Hydra used you, they took that choice away from you. This is their fault, not yours.” Bucky’s breathing was getting shaky again, and she took his hand in hers. “You were a tool that they used for wrong. And that never was, and never will be, your fault.”

Bucky looked up at her, and pulled her into a hug. “Thanks, doll. I just don’t know how to tell him... he has a right to know. He’s in so much pain because of me.”

“Buck. It’ll be okay, you just need to give yourself the time to be ready.” y/n said, standing up. “Yeah,” Bucky replied. “I need to do it soon, though. I can’t handle being around him knowing what I know.”

“You’ll get there, I know you will.” y/n reassured him, giving him a kiss on the forehead. “Let’s get to bed, you’ll feel better in the morning once you get some sleep.”

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Bucky’s face when being thanked though 😭😭😭

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“if you’re reading this, you must be in dire need of a change”

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Previews of my pieces for the Heart of the Valley zine!

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benjamin living his best life

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ceramic cats by @/studiomimmiceramics on instagram!