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MY BES, A PURE SPARKLE, & HIS MY RAINBOW AFTER A RAIN

I recently had the wonderful feeling that I had reconnected with the first friend I made when I transferred school in the '00s.

So, I came from the city, then my parents decided to enroll me in another school where my elder sisters were. I started in preparatory school, but I wasn't qualified to get into first grade since I had trouble reading.

He was sitting at the corner, I at the back, then I just tried to talk to everyone, including him. He was quiet, but he had this sweet tone of voice and somehow showed that he was a bit scared at first. Knowing myself, having a strong personality, I acted as his elder sister. We became close and we just supported each other, even when this girl named Kelly tried to fight or start a fight with me; most of them are on my team with his help, of course. LOL.

Fast forward, we slowly lost our connection since I was really drawn to dancing, and he was just trying to find himself, like hello, we're so young, and most of the adults around us were not open-minded or supportive enough towards students' identity, unlike nowadays. We did catch up just this weekend, we shared and reminisced about some of our moments at school. Unfortunately, it was just a few things to tell because he transferred when we were 6th grade and then went back for the first year of high school, then transferred again to an all-boys school. Our last encounter or chat actually was at an event, a battle of the bands, and a dance contest. I really feel flattered and special hearing it from him that he will not forget that time when two of the judges liked me because I danced so well. I was compared to a professional performer, too.

I really feel so happy seeing him and trying to laugh at old memories at school, I even invited him to be my plus one to the homecoming next year. He's also glowing, knowing he's finally finding happiness with his travel and "ME" time, whether it is a drive, or pamper, sports, or gym time.

I am truly proud of him, moving on and looking good. And I want to be like him someday, chasing his cravings and wants to be better and to become a better version of himself. I can't wait to meet him again and continue catching up, just like we're inside the classroom, enjoying our lives with different challenges and fun. I love you bes, you're one of the best things that happened so far this 2024-2025. A genuine reconnection of childhood friendship turned into a mature and long-term friendship.

See you again soon. A!

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I AM FUCKING TIRED

i don't know where this is coming from. Is it from work? Family? Friends? Weather - cos it's fucking hot!

I am not really sure, but every day, I just don't have the energy to deal with people. I don't laugh at their jokes, I get easily irritated, and even if I am being scolded, I just don't care and just continue.

I even sometimes feel that I am alone, even at the office, like I don't know anyone at all.

i couldn't even talk to my boss and share my personal thoughts, cos that is how I see her she wouldn't care what we are going through since it's a workplace and all we need to do is work and perform and get good ratings as a team.

focus- as we say. To be honest, I just want to see my best friends. May it be AJ or AM, Al... Or anyone I know who can just lift and remove this heavy feeling.

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IS IT REALLY OK TO KEEP GOING?

I've been struggling to keep myself composed at work. All I know is that I am working and trying my best every day, but it seems that it's not enough. I keep on disappointing my boss and my colleagues. I laugh it off, but then there are moments when I really feel frustrated that I'm failing these consecutive days this week—like God, for real. Then knowing what my father is going through at work and now losing his sister, my aunt. It is too much for me. I couldn't even open up at work like I used to with my old teammates. At first, I was good with it since I didn't have to tell everything about me, I wanted my life or personal stories secret or kept to not mix with work. But there are indeed times that I just need someone at work to be a friend too. My best friend at work is rendering and I have a few days left to talk and share things with him since we have different work shifts. Bummer, really. Maybe I'll go back to just talking to myself or this laptop.

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12.29.2024

Today, I received a gift from one of the coordinators in the office. I felt joy in starting my day at work. I call her Nay Pabs. He's a she. She was a previous manager. I never learned how she handles people but I met her and she also discovered me after we finished training. She already asked me by then if I'd like to join the company's dance crew. That time came when the company needed a performance to compete with other accounts. I agreed and made sure to make her proud.

She looked after me since I had always been shy around new people. She believed in me especially in performing or dancing. She was always on my side. Even others were already talking shit about her I didn't care and I just knew I had to protect her because I understood how tiring her job is and she doesn't need and deserve unappreciative people around her when she handled us a team. She does have a lot of work load but there are people who don't see it and give such bad energy which is the complete opposite. SHE IS THE ENERGY in the office.

On regular shifts, she would check on me and congratulate me if I got great scores and if not she would say, "hang in there, you do better..."

We also talked about a bit of our interests and she is also interested in dancing. She wanted to learn more contemporary which I have no much idea but I know wonderful dancers who can teach her and I can go with her...

She gave me a bracelet - round beads and transparent, scarlet and turquoise color with a dangling butterfly, which is not my personality but I was so touched knowing we don't know each other for so long but she figured out my birthstone and the color which I consider lucky on me and my survival color.

I gave her a gift as well before this day as my way of saying and showing my gratitude for all the time she was always there for me in lowkey ways. She's wonderful person. A beautiful human who also rocks in pageants. She does strut like a queen! I treasure people like her because she is such an amazing lady.

Thank you, Nay Pabs! 💗

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My best friend called unexpectedly. I cried suddenly. From too much stress, now it's less.

He was mad, but I was glad.

He was missing me, do I miss him? Oui.

He made me stronger and prepared for the day.

Said, "Goodnight," so he could go to work during the day.

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I am just so tired.

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HOW DO YOU KEEP PROFESSIONALISM AT WORK?

if employees aren't mature?

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Bitch, don't me

So we have this dance to perform. We already tried to help each other by creating choreography in each song provided.

I created my contribution to AMA DIVA, that's what they call it. So, go. I've made fast hits and tried to use different beats from the homecoming version.

I wowed them.

So, they are welcome. LOL.

But I just wanted it to have justice: Hit it if it is hit. Throw it if it's throw. Flip it. Bounce. Click. Then this girl who tries to run and lead tried to clean the choreography which doesn't give it the justice that I taught them.

I tried to lead on that part but she kept on counting and implying to follow her lead.

I went in front and said, let me do this.

She won't even try to do it full out. There was just a moment when I admitted wrong counting, her vibe was just all over the air, showing she is correct.

I held back, but I really wanted to start a confrontation. But then again, I am old enough, and I wouldn't want to put myself in a scene where I will be the bad guy. So, I let it go.

What I told myself quietly, I'll eat this whole piece up.

I am the only one who has no pause or rest or out in the routine.

I'll show you what I can do, dear.

Bitch don't me.

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I lost another grandma today.

I still reported to work, thinking I would have absences next week because no one would be left to look after my tigers.

I am very tested with all these situations I had to deal with moving forward.

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Coach Mar

So, I met this person who happens to be my boss for more or less 2 months. He's gay. And I like it. I find these kinds of people very versatile, sensitive, and frank in a good and professional way.

He's so calm and quiet at first but then jokes with his employees. He looks snobbish with his big pointed nose. He doesn't cross-dress, he's just the type of gay who wears a floral shirt, tight pants, and sneakers.

He cares about his team. He treats everybody equally, most of the time, it depends on how his employees would value their jobs, especially presence or attendance.

He silently approaches a person to ask how is he or she, and he make sure everyone understands what are the drills of the day.

He calls out people who are not performing or not focused. He is like a raven that flies over you just to observe what you are doing.

If only he could be my boss for the rest of my time in the company, I'd be delighted. But I am not saying I am not happy today. I also like where I am and I have an amazing boss again. I'll write something about her later.

Coach Mar is just awesome. He never would like to pressure a person to do a task but would rather learn from it carefully, understand it thoroughly, and execute it perfectly in the future.

He doesn't care about how the bigger bosses would look at him but what matters to him are the improvements of his employees and their performances. We failed a couple of days and we know we disappointed him but in the end, he would just say, "Another day tomorrow and we can do better". I don't know how or what he does in front of their bosses or during their meetings but I heard he would always defend us. We were performers, we just don't understand that we were given feedback from maybe 15s to 7s or 8s.

Actually, we planned to have a team gathering before unfortunately, the place where we were supposed to be staying was suddenly unavailable due to a family emergency of my colleague. We were all looking forward to it. We were ready to have fun and just relax.

He did enjoy his time with the team I am sure. He laughed so hard whenever we make jokes or teased each other during training hours.

I miss those days. But I am glad I met Coach Mar because he didn't treat me differently.

He is really an awesome human being. I even called him ROSEmar. and that's our secret. I am the only one who saw it and I support it. <3

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I have felt a bit lonely lately, hiding my emotions and thoughts about what is happening around me and what kind of people surround me.

I am adapting to an environment new to me, not knowing anything.

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I wish to spend a day with my best friend, but praying as well that everything is working for him and his family. <3