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uuyyh um what do you like. about. gengeal... like your favorite thing about them

OUGUOHGHGHH that's a good one!! I really like childhood friends and tragically doomed couples LOL. I think their dynamic is really interesting too, and both of them have so much interesting symbolism in general. The nitty gritty is fun to look into, but I think the idea of Genesis desperately wanting to be a hero and not quite managing to, and Angeal being an ideal kind of hero is really good in general. Idk if that was intentional though.

I also like the thought of them both being the one person who knows the other the best! it's wholesome :}

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spsppspspsp.... ask me some questions! I feel like answering asks!

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Guys i promise im not dead. ive just been going through it. please take this Cloud i drew trying to figure out his hair as compensation

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Sephiroth with some of my personal headcanons !! I love him :}

(He matches that one Angeal drawing I made a while back, teehee)

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Why do you like angeal? I don’t understand the appeal, he has the personality of cardboard and just repeats the same thing over and over.

I fucking love Angeal so much, and honestly I can understand thinking he's a flat character. Crisis Core has a problem with rushing its characters, and not fully delving into them fully. Angeal was one of these characters, and unfortunately it shows. But for what we see of him, and of the extra content given, he resonates with me!

Angeal as a character hits me hard when it comes to him being a character with apparent depression and suicidal ideation. He's a man with so much love for his cherished ones, but lacks that kind of kindness towards himself. He doesn't realize that people don't see him as the monster he sees himself to be, and that he himself is worthy of the compassion he shows other people. I wish Crisis Core had been fully remade, honestly. It desperately needs more than just a fresh coat of paint to fix its missing pieces and fractures. Characters that had insane potential or really good bases just wind up falling flat because of the rushing.

Anyway, if it wasn't clear, I enjoy Angeal regardless of this :}}}

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Bit of a ramble, but a Zakkura headcanon I have is that Zack, for all of his being able to flirt with girls, cannot manage to be as smooth with Cloud. He tries and fails. Is it because of his lack of experience flirting with men, or is it because Cloud doesn't get the hints he's trying to drop? (Hint: It is both )

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cheebi gengeal teehee!

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This fucked up Sephiroth drawing I made... LOL

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Double whammie! I drew me and some friends some icons ^^!

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guys i did it again. i posted on main by accident.

anyway, if i started making zakkura merch... would that be silly or what :}?

Too much Strife, went blankie mode.

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please have this shitty gengeal i speedran while my wifi has been down.

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i am so sorry for not feeding you guys (Rebirth happened), so have this silly thing i made a while back :}

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Im a big dumb dumb idiot and accidentally posted this to my main blog LMAO

discord jamspace doodles. their heights are weezer accurate.

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Warmup drawings from today! A warm Aerith and some childhood Gengeal for the soul!

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Zack's ADHD

Zack fair has ADHD. That's something I see tons of people acknowledge that I myself agree with, but a lot of it feels very shallow/surface level? I mostly see people talk about his diffculty paying attention, but never really explore a lot of the other symptoms of ADHD that he very clearly has. In general, ADHD has symptoms that can be put in two categories. These being inattentiveness and Hyperactivity/Impulsive behavior. I'm going to try to go into each symptom I've seen him display. Going through things that fall under inattentiveness since that's what most people focus on first and foremost! Obviously, Zack has a short attention span. The opening of Crisis core has Angeal setting him back on track multiple times, and has to remind him of his mission. That bleeds into another symptom of ADHD, which is having a hard time listening to or following instructions.

Another few symptoms of ADHD under inattentiveness is being disorganized, forgetful, and making careless mistakes. Zack has shown to fit under all of these things in DMW scenes. One in particular features him both losing materia AND forgetting his sword.

Again, we see that he's a messy person when he's talking to Aerith in another DMW scene.

Now I'm going to go into the symptoms that fall under Hyperactivity. Some of the most talked about symptoms he exhibits are a lack of ability to stay still, excessive physical movement, and excessive talking. Noteably too, people with ADHD can have difficulty controlling the volume of their voice, or how fast they speak. For example here, Zack is told right before to calm down by Angeal, and immediately proceeds to talk loudly (giving away their position.)

Circling back to the previously mentioned symptoms, trouble staying still and excessive movement are some of the few things I feel people notice first in correlation to ADHD, but never really think about what it really is in the context of ADHD. Zack tends to do squats when he's excited. It's a repeated motion he does to calm himself down and/or focus. Sound familiar? that's because it's stimming. Interupting conversations lines up with ADHD, and is something Zack does in-game too!

Here he interupts Angeal's speech (and gets a fond smile in turn. I will bring this up later for something else). Zack is impulsive by nature, and tends to rush into things without a clear plan. He has a very absent sense of danger sometimes as well. All of which fall under the Hyperactivity category of ADHD symptoms.

The symptoms I see in Zack that hardly a soul has acknowledged though, is him being easily frustrated or irritated. ADHD makes it hard to regulate emotions, and Zack showcases this a lot throughout Crisis Core. For Zack, this sometimes seems to fall under under Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, which is common in people with ADHD. It's a discomfort and difficulty regulating feelings of failure or rejection. For Zack, this also takes the form of confusion/frustration/annoyance. However, in most instances of him taking criticism, he mostly manages to move past his and take the criticism/corrections to improve himself. Funnily enough, you can see his quick frustration/irritatrion in the very first cutscene when Angeal jumps down to elaborate on the parts of the mission he missed because Zack jumped a bit too soon due to his eagerness (more impulsivity). Zack gets angry due to this interuption to the task he was focused on, and becomes cheerful as soon as he is able to get back to his task. The frustration with interuption and being quickly upset is interesting. There are more instances of this kind of behavior, and it all really feels like it falls under this umbrella of him struggling to regulate his emotions. This also goes hand in hand with his stimming, since it isn't just the frustration/anger he has difficulty managing. His excitement and stress is something we also see him have difficulty managing, and can be tied into a lot of the other aspects of ADHD I have discussed here! Zack gets frustrated again later when Angeal ends the training simulator, and puts an end to the task he had been hyperfocused on.

It's an irrational anger, but it makes more sense when read through this lense. Zack was excited and hyperfocusing on his mission. He charged ahead without hearing or understanding the full objective, and almost got hurt (in the context of the training sim). The sim was ended before Zack felt it was "finished", which resulted in a frustration he expressed outwardly. His hasty behavior and exciteability is a core character trait, but makes far more sense if you read him as a character who lives with ADHD. How he is written and how other characters interact with him is interesting to watch as well! One thing in particular I love a lot is Angeal's treatment of Zack's ADHD tendencies. For being in the military, which is a very unforgiving enviornment, Angeal shows quite a lot of compassion for Zack's ADHD tendencies. Things that would normally get him into trouble are instead corrected rather gently! Angeal consistently repeats instructions to Zack when he needs it, and keeps a firm hand when he guides Zack through missions. He never tells Zack to sit still. He never berrates him for his interjections (Zack going "And? And and and?"). The only time he really scolds Zack is when he's doing something that may endanger them.

For example, here they're on a mission that requires stealth. Zack being loud isn't normally a problem, but here, they need to be relatively quiet in order to achieve their goal. Angeal is compassionate and understanding when Zack is... doing things that are very ADHD coded. As mentioned earlier, Angeal doesn't get upset when Zack interupts him. Instead, he just smiles. It's likely Angeal was the one who taught Zack to do squats to stim, actually. In the Ever Crisis version of Crisis Core, Angeal says this to Zack. Although it's not necessarily canon, it's still entirely plausible and just. Very wholesome.

More of Angeal's tolerance for Zack can be seen here, when Zack's attitude slips after being criticized, and Angeal pays it no mind. (Again, his rejection sensitive dysphoria plays a part in having him react rudely)

Again, you need to keep in mind that despite their closeness, Angeal is still both his mentor and superior. He doesn't have to be as patient with Zack as he is in-game, but he does so anyway because... that's just how he is. Angeal cares a LOT about his loved ones, and Zack is included in this. He shows a lot of love to this little guy! I think it's nice, because I love seeing characters with ADHD being treated with consideration by others. It's something I wish people did more IRL, really. Lots of ableism surrounding aspects of ADHD that aren't as easy to romanticize and considered "annoying", so having Angeal respond to them with understanding makes me incredibly happy. Altogether I just absolutely love Zack as a character. I love reading him with ADHD since I have it myself. I just want people to see the depth to it more though, since there's more to it than just "he's high energy and gets distracted". You get to understand his actions or irrational behavior a lot more when you dive past the surface of his writing. Big, massive, enormous fucking thanks to my bestie @rune-rapier for letting me bounce ideas to and from him!! He helped me get a lot of these scenes in here to analyze, and brought up a LOT of points that made it in this post, and made it a lot easier for me to word.

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If it hasn't been made clear yet, I have Zakkura brainrot. Badly. All-consuming, really. Hoping to balance the 3WA and Zakkura rattling around my skull.

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How Zack found out Angeal is Gay