sleepyrxsetea

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now it's time for.....self doubt hour!

the hour when I convince myself that I actual suck as a writer and that what i'm writing is stupid and no one will ever want to read it because it is so weird and gay and I can't even write a decent sentence!

it is my favorite hour and I'm so glad to be there right now instead of actually trying to write something :D

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spelling is so hard because what do you mean I can spell hypothetically first try, really fast, without the help of spell check and yet can never successfully spell beginning for some reason and always get really frustrated over it until I eventually give up

the worst part of this is I barely use the word hypothetically while I’m writing and consistently use beginning

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me when two writing ideas are very similar yet different enough that I can’t combine them into one thing because it wouldn’t work out:

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are churches basically just one big book club that just keeps reading the same book over and over and over again?

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You CANNOT separate art from the artist when the artist is still alive and producing new media to profit off.

So on that note, do NOT watch the new Harry Potter series. Do not hate watch it. Do not watch it because “it’s going to be my childhood remade”. I do not care. Do not watch it. This is a direct move to erase the original trio who have all stood against jkr.

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just took a godly parent quiz for shits and giggles for the first time in like five years because I was talking to someone about the Percy Jackson books recently

I got Hephaestus then

and I got Hephaestus now after years of so much changing as a person.

I was almost 100% sure I would get Apollo because I think I’ve shifted into his domaine of stuff as I got older (I do so much music stuff it’s not even funny)

but I took several different quizzes on different sites and got Hephaestus on all of them.

It’s nice to know I haven’t changed as much as I thought I have

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I need writing help

I have been doing some plotting and world building for one of the stories I’m working on (draft one is not in fact done but I’ve written like half of it and I had new ideas for later)

But the thing is, with all my replotting SO MUCH of the story has changed. it is almost a different story entirely, especially for one of my characters

the mythology has changed and gotten more specific, the world building is more detailed, characters have new stories to follow, the antagonists cause actually makes sense

but

I still haven’t finished a draft one.

because I’m not done with draft one and my ideas are so different from where it is going now, should I abandon it (of course taking whatever I can to the new draft) or should I stick with it

I have no idea what to do

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I want a new original epic fantasy movie.

not one based off a book and not one that is a sequel or in the same universe as something else.

I want something that is completely new characters and new plot and is about traveling across a vast world full of new surprises just to reach some far off goal with an unlikely crew (which is kinda recycled but if it’s told well and has a twist that would be perfect)

and if possible I want the entire story told well in one movie.

I know it’s expensive, not easy to do and I know that people aren’t making those movies right now because of those very reasons

but I don’t give two shits

you can bet that when (not if when) someone makes that movie I am going to that movies biggest fan because I have been waiting and wanting something like that for literal YEARS

I am *this* close to starting to write something myself so that someone does it but I know I would never be able to do it any justice

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stormlight has skewed my perspective of book lengths so badly why did I just download the first mistborn book and say "huh that's kinda short" like what

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i find it so interesting how for years i've hated the person i saw in the mirror. it felt like something wasn't right with how i looked and the clothes I wore and I hated it.

but a few days I got a hair cut and decided to get bangs on a whim to try something new.

and now I feel so fucking pretty and hot and cute and handsome all at the same time.

like, every time I look in the mirror I can't help smiling because that is me staring back.

i feel right for the first time in a long time.

and all because I decided to get bangs.

it's strange to think about how that works sometimes.

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You are never letting a WIP rot. You are doing it a service. Your WIP is a sourdough starter and the five words you wrote that one day were all it needed to sustain itself. It will bubble and be ready when you are.

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just finished the green creek series

I feel a bit empty now that it’s over because over a year I grew to love that world and those characters so fucking much that it hurts now that it’s over

like, those books were my constants through the last year and were the thing to keep me company through the election and they were the thing that made me remember that I want to write a book that makes peoples heart ache when it’s over just as much as those books

gods, if I could read any book series like it’s the first time again it would be those books no doubt

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a writing competition i was going to participate in again this year has announced that they now allow AI generated content to be submitted

their reasoning being that "we couldn't ban it even if we wanted to, every writer already uses it anyway"

"Every writer"?

come on

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fucking writers block is back

woopdidoo

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I plotted too close to the sun I ended up making something completely new

uhhhh….

fuck buddies to lovers?

but, it’s like about a king’s bard that keeps getting kidnapped by different groups (each chapter is a different kidnapping) and the fuck buddy is the head knight of the king’s royal guard and he has to keep saving the bard because the king really likes this specific bard.

anyways, they slowly catch feelings for each other because I feel like it and the whole friends with benefits thing would never really work out for them anyway because the knight is a golden retriever and also the bard doesn’t confess first because I am just being realistic about him and he wouldn’t want to if that makes sense

I don’t know, it’s just silly and it’s going to be like 100 pages because I don’t have much to say. It’s not that crazy of a story but I’m having a crazy fun time writing it.

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I wouldn’t drag you kicking and screaming…that would draw to much attention

I would opt to find a less aggressive way ☺️

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you should play the game though it will probably make the movie more enjoyable, lol

should I play project sekai before my beloved friend drags me to the movie kicking and screaming

(/j /j @sleepyrxsetea I'm very excited)

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59 pages later and I finished act 1 of a first draft :D

I started at the end of December and through mostly working on it to and from school

I finally did it!

it’s so rough and I have already thought of so many things I want to do differently in draft 2 but that’s the point, isn’t it?

I’m so proud of myself, lol