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Looks like it's near-unanimous, the Gaki bod is IN right now, apparently.

I really hate to say it, but.... I don't QUITE believe you guys. I mean, I'm not saying you'd lie to me, I just.. you know..

I haven't actually run across many ladies who are into it. I personally feel silly lugging that thing around with my insect limbs.

That's the thing that kills me, my belly is the only place fat will go, and even at my peak muscle-y physical fitness, I look unsettlingly thin and wiry. Even then, people still NEVER stopped saying "wow you need to eat!" or "you gotta put some meat on those bones, fella!" no matter how healthy I was. I gotta wonder if the gut is the lesser of two evils.

It was given to me as the side-effect of a fun drug called Vraylar, which I am thankfully no longer on. It's 40 pounds I gained virtually overnight, and my doctor all but mandated that I keep it.

I just feel like it looks dumb, and 80% of my shirts are mediums that I can't wear anymore.

I'm gonna keep doing my exercise and regulating my diet to see if I can get rid of it. I wouldn't mind the belly so much if I knew for certain that the opposite sex found it preferable to the Gollum bod, but it hasn't exactly gotten compliments. If I get more testimony that it's BETTER than looking like a spider, maybe I'll consider the Hungry Ghost look.

For now, I dunno man.

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I feel like I look ridiculous, and I could start a rigorous exercise routine to fix it..

Or should I just say "fuck it" and embrace my new Gaki body type?

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The one and only Ian Miller. One of my biggest inspirations, and a master of linework that has no equal. I don't care what others might say, but to me, the worlds he depicts are paradise.

Paradise.

When I die, that's where I want to go. I'm not even kidding.

"At an exhibition of my work, I once overheard an onlooker comment: "Look at that, he MUST be on something"

I'm not."

- Ian Miller

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I haven't plugged it for ages, but I have a side-blog @thelaughingserpent for more personal stuff, re-blogs, silly stuff, and talking at length about stuff I like, or stuff that sucks. I try not to dwell on stuff that sucks nowadays.

Head on over if you feel like it. It's a great way to find out how fundamentally weird I am.

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"A good man is hard to find

Don't let strangers sleep in my bed

And my favorite words are Goodbye

And my favorite color is Red"

🎶

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"A good man is hard to find

Don't let strangers sleep in my bed

And my favorite words are Goodbye

And my favorite color is Red"

🎶

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My son playing on the PS5.

I now have a son

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I now have a son

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It's my birthday! I'm 36! Would you believe it?! I can't! I don't!

I've missed out, and am STILL missing out, on so many aspects of human life. I'm closing in on 40 and yet I still feel like a dumb kid who's barely out of college, who hasn't grown up yet.

But why dwell on what I'm lacking, and just celebrate the things I have. And spoil myself rotten all month long, consequences be damned. I'm lucky in many ways, and I've gotta hold onto that.

Thanks everyone for your support of my art, my prime joy in life, my best medicine. If I can someday make a decent living off my art, it'll be because of you folks and your support.

Thanks, love ya 🧡

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Sun is up, the world is flat

Damn good address for a rat

Smell of blood and drone of flies

You know what to do if the baby cries

HOIST THAT RAG

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Hope everyone has a happy The Day Before My Birthday this year!

The fireworks set off to honor the eve before my birth always makes me feel special, thanks everyone!

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"Day 226: Need a new sync coil, found a head in decent shape that might have one that isn't decayed. Hopefully it'll stop my hand from randomly making a fist. So sick of it. Calorie printer works again, tastes like wheat. Could be a lot worse. I can get used to wheat."

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All we are

Is dust in the wind, dude

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Update:

Didn’t get the job. Pray for me again.

Might have a new job soon. Pray for me.

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It's Jaws' 50th anniversary, so mom and I watched it yesterday, and it still strikes me that Quint's USS Indianapolis monolgue is, to me, the scariest scene in the movie. It's utterly horrifying.

It's just a guy telling a story, with barely audible string music in the background, but Robert Shaw makes it nightmarish.

The music just slithers under your skin, and Robert Shaw does an amazing job of playing a seemingly tough man drunkenly confessing the most horrific event of his life. You don't need a flashback, his words are enough. Thus far he's been the most abrasive man on the planet, but in this scene, Quint conveys just how tortured he still is. He thinks he's gotten over it, but you can tell his brain was irreparably wounded.

A lot has been said over the years about how Jaws allows the viewer's imagination to fill in a lot of the horror, and this scene is certainly that.

Lots of horror movies frighten and horrify, but I've always felt Jaws is a movie made to Haunt you. It definitely did that to me as a kid, especially this scene. The movie, as a whole, just burrows deep into you and stays there forever.

Even after an incredibly satisfying finale, the damage is done.

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One time I drew a werewolf and things spiraled out of control.

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My friend and I playing Magic: The Gathering solely with each other, since we don't know any other people who just play for fun and aren't total chodes.