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Strawberries & Cigarettes chapter.1

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He leaned back on the brick wall and lit a cigarette, he placed it between his lips and inhaled, then slowly blew it out, the thick smoke rolling off his tongue. He was alone, this was his way of winding down. He was always surrounded by people he needed alone time... Well, more or less alone time, he only really liked having you around. You were always around. You walked around looking for him after your lecture, you always walked home together. Then there you saw him, you walked up to him, the wind blowing, you tucked your hair behind your hair and pushed up your glasses, “Jake hey,” you said, approaching him and waving, he smirked at you and looked down into your eyes.

“You look cute,” he says smiling at you. You blush and roll your eyes.

“Right” you say sarcastically pushing his head back. He would always flatter you, but you never took him to serious since he was known to be a flirt, you used to really like him back in high school since he was so sweet to you but he would always be with a different girl every week, so you decided to just let go of those emotions, but sometimes the taste would still linger in your mouth.

“I mean it, you know” he says, taking another hit blowing the smoke out in another direction so it doesn’t hit you, “when are you going to give in and try one.” he asks you, pursing his lips, pouting, and tilting his head to the side.

“You know I'm not into that stuff.” you reply. Your phone buzzes, instinctively you take it out of your pocket to see what it was. Jake started talking again, you weren't really paying attention to him wrapped up on your phone. Suddenly Jake places his index finger and thumb on your chin tilting your head up forcing you to hold eye contact.

“Look at me when I'm talking to you, I like when your attention is on me” he says playfully flashing you a smile. “Plus this way I get to see your pretty eyes”’

“Stops messing around,” you laugh, pulling your head out of his grasp. “Plus you know there is only one man for me-”

“Heeseung I know,” he says, cutting you off. “Can you at least just talk to him already?”

He says agitatedly.

“You’re crazy.” you say turning away. You turn back to look at him and see him on his phone typing something. “What are you doing ?” you ask curiously.

“If you don't tell him I will” he flat out responds.

“What?!?” Jake and heeseung have been friends for over a year and they are super close, that should have been an excuse for you to get close to him too since you've been friends for longer, attached to jakes hip, but he doesn't like mixing friends so you never got the chance to properly meet him. “Really?!” you're not sure if he is just messing with you.

“Duh you are my friend after all, i'll help you out.” you smile widely at his response.

“Oh my god jake you're the best actually,” you say getting excited. “But what if he like, isn't feeling me?” you ask him getting in your head.

“I don't see why he wouldn’t ,” he looks up from his phone once to look at you, “You're mad fine,” he looks back down, “Anyone would be lucky to have you.” you feel your cheeks getting warm after his complement.

“Mad fine” you say, mocking him. He rolled his eyes.

“Now we wait.” He puts his phone in the back pocket of his loose black jeans.

“What did you end up texting him?” you asked him, crossing your arms tightly out of nerves.

“Hey Hee, you know y/n? Well she's kinda got a thing for you but is too nervous to say anything about it.” he read directly from his phone.

“Oh em gee Thanks.” you say smiling softly. “I really owe you one now.” you added, finally walking away from the wall together trying to think on what you could do… you keep your arms crossed looking at the side walk dragging your feet until i hits you.

“Isn't there a party tonight?” you ask, looking over to him.

“Yea,” he replies, keeping his eyes on what was in front of him.

“I'll go with you then,” you say “as a thank you”

“For real?” he asked, bringing all his attention towards you “you don't have to” you never went to parties, they weren't your scene.

“Yea you always say i got to live a little,” you respond.

“Okay then, i'll get you at 10” he says “it's a date.”

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Jake ends up walking you home, You walk up stairs to your dark grey apartment door, the paint outside was peeling off at the handle. You grabbed your keys and opened the door, it was pretty dark in there with the slightest bit of sunlight coming in from the back window, slightly reflecting on your hardwood floors. You take your shoes off as soon as you come in and hang your small bag on the rack at the door. You flick on the lights to your kitchen and grab a glass of water quickly, you lean on your kitchen counter thinking. It's 6:30. ‘Lowkey, I could take a nap and wake up at 8:00’ you're thinking to yourself trying to figure out how to manage your time. ‘2 hours should be enough right?’ you say, drinking your water until you realize. Heeseung is hosting the party, ‘2 hours is not enough’ . You put your cup in the sink and immediately start the shower.

You slide your leather jacket off your shoulders and slip off your shirt, you look at yourself in the mirror as the water heats up, you begin to zone out, you lightly rub on your face and pick at your skin but quickly stop yourself to not break out. You then begin leaning on the bathroom sink scrolling on your phone, once the bathroom gets steamy you hop in the shower, you squeeze out a handful of shampoo and begin washing your hair, you rinse it off running your fingers through your hair then putting on conditioner. You then use your strawberry scented body wash, you exfoliate your legs and shave with your pink razor slowly to not nick yourself by mistake, you made sure you didn't miss a single spot. You then apply a more moisturizing body wash. Then rinse. You get out of the shower and put your hair up in a white towel and wrap your body in another one, you then walk towards the mirror and stand in front of it wiping your hand across the foggy mirror, you see your mascara now running down your cheeks and your a little pink, you wash your face taking off the now melted makeup. You throw on a sheet mask and walk out of the bathroom to head towards your bedroom, the cold air from the hallway causing goosebumps on your freshly shaven legs.

You walk into your dimly lit room and sit on your chair in front of your vanity, you take out your nail polishes trying to see what color you should use. You land on black and paint your nails in the solid color, you let your nails fully dry before removing your sheet mask and starting your makeup. You decide to do a pretty neutral look with a smokey wing,and burgundy lip tint. Once finishing your makeup you take your hair out of the towel so it can start drying, at this point you have 2 hours to do your hair and pick what to wear, you already had a general idea. You go into your closet and take out a black denim skirt and a white tube top, you also get knee high boots to match with it, you put it all on, its “missing something” you think to yourself you open your jewelry box and take out one of your spring necklaces and a couple of rings, you also put on a black belt with a silver buckle. Now that it was fully styled you really liked it, you finished getting ready by drying your hair, you just left it down and put on earrings, sprayed some perfume and touched up your makeup a bit. With that being done all you had left to do was wait for jake.

You didn't have to wait too long. He waited for you in front of your house, he was on his phone when you walked out, he didn't notice you until you opened his car door. “Shit.” he said under his breath as you sat down. You were not really hearing what he had said. “You look…” he paused, taking you in “so good.” he said. You giggle softly,

“You think so? Thank you.” you smile, he stays looking at you for a moment.

“Ok well uh let's go then.” he drives to Heesung’s, the car ride didn't have much conversation you just listened to music on the way there, once you arrived at Heeseung’s jake stepped out and opened the door for you, you stepped out of the car and walked side by side with him, there was some people outside and you could feel all the eyes on you both, he knew everyone waving and saying ‘hi’ as you walked by. You never truly noticed how many friends he had, does that make you self absorbed? You walked into the party, the music blasting, you saw all these people, they all knew each other somehow. You got a little anxious at the thought of being the new person there, Jake noticed. “Hey …” he tried talking to you but you didn't really hear distracted by all the noise. “Y/N” he said, grabbing your arm bringing your attention to him. “Are you ok? We can go, we don't have to stay-” you cut him off.

“No it's fine, really lets get a drink” you brush it off, you just needed to get used to it, you knew it would only take a couple of drinks to let loose. He smiled at you and took your hand and dragged you to the kitchen, he held your hand tightly so you wouldn't get lost in the crowd and separated. Having jake there definitely made you more comfortable, once making it into the kitchen you sat on the counter and let jake pick your drink. Out of the corner of your eye you noticed heesung, he was coming your way. You grabbed jae by the sleeve and brought him closer to you. “Heeseung, heeseung” you said in his ear, he looked over to him then to you, he could see your eyes sparkle infatuated by him, he couldn't help but get a little jealous. He waved at heesung getting his attention. You quickly let go and adjusted your hair and posture.

“Yo.” Heesung said as he greeted jake. He then looked over at you, “Hey y/n” he smiled. your eyes widened.

“Hey heeseung.” there was slight tension and awkwardness. The first time talking to him, he knew your name that's a good thing right? Yea. Jakes eyes traveled between the two of you, he took it as his que to go.

“Oh I'll be right back.” Jake said, he glanced at you and winked before leaving the kitchen and vanishing into the crowd. An expression of worry grew on your face as jake left you two alone, not knowing what to talk about with him.

“So,” you quickly looked over at heesung, he was all in the fridge finding something for you guys. The blue fridge light shining brightly on him in the darkness of the party. “ Did Jake grab you a drink yet?” he asked, grabbing two beers out of the fridge.

“Oh no he hadn't gotten to yet.” you replied. He reached out his hand, giving you one of the cold beverages.

“Then this is for you.” you smiled. You cracked open the can and took a sip, the condensation of the can making your hands wet and dripping onto your exposed thighs. You were quickly startled by Heesung’s cold hand on your forearm. You looked at him “I didn't know you had a tattoo.” he said lightly caressing the image on your arm.

“Oh yeah,” you said as you placed your drink next to you and lifted up your arm closer to him, showing him better. “I don't really show them off.” you said. He looked up at you.

“Them?” he asked. “You have more?”

“Yea but they are hidden.” you say, “Well not intentionally, more like not visible right now.” you correct yourself. He gets closer to your face, and whispers softly into your ear.

“Can I see them?” You can feel his warm breath go down your neck, and a shiver goes down your spine.

“Oh right now? I mean sure. i guess. i'm not too sure-” he laughs.

“I'm kidding, I'm sure I'll see them eventually.” he smiles. You finish your drink out of nerves and heesung hands you another. You weren't much of a drinker so just one beer already had you a little tipsy. “Wanna dance?” he asks, putting his hand on your thigh. You weren't sure if it was the fact that his hands were cold or the fact that he looked really good, but everything he did made you tremble.

“Yea.” you get down from the counter. Heesung puts his hand on your lower back and walks with you. Once making it to where everyone else was dancing you both get closer to each other, bodies forced together by the mass amount of people around you, you naturally begin moving to the music.

“You look really good.” he said whispering loudly, with his face close to yours causing a smile to grow on your face.

“I'm glad you think so, ” you respond, hands traveling up his back. “it was for you after all.” you add.

“Seems like you already know what I like,” he puts both his hands on your waist, his cold drink on your skin, you take another sip of yours, the alcohol starting to kick in, the music feeling louder, your vision getting more narrow. Heesung being the only thing you can focus on, you lean your head in his chest as he begins to hold you tightly. “It's loud in here huh? He asks you, you simply reply with a nod, “Let's go somewhere more quiet.’ He takes you to his pool side, you both sit next to each other on a lounge chair. It's cold outside. You rub your hands over your arms trying to keep a little warm. “Here.” He puts his jacket over your shoulders. “I can tell your cold.”

“Thanks.” you smile.

“So, how come I never see you around?” he asks.

“I'm not really one to go out.” you reply, “but you know jake always asks me to come out to these parties and i just decided today was the day.”

“I'm glad you made that decision.” he says flirtatiously.

“Oh really? How come?” you matched his energy.

“Well you know, I've heard some things,” he says. “ And it made me more curious about you.”something about his words made you nervous.

“I see.” you said. “How curious?” you got closer to him.

“Very.” he said only inches away from you, “So.” you pulled back a bit. “Tell me about this?” He looked at your tattoo again.

“Oh. I got it a super long time ago. Honestly, it didn't really mean much at first but as time went by I kind of associate it with my youth and the events that happened.” you said. “I remember my parents never supporting the idea and their faces when I showed up with it one day.” you laughed at yourself. “ they learned to like it tho, i'm glad they did.” he smiles. “I was kind of a bad kid, I grew up too fast, I'd say that's why I'm the way I am now.”

“You were a bad kid?” he said skeptically.

“Yes!” you exclaimed. “I'm not very proud of it, I used to sneak out, drink, smoke, you know never cared about school, or about how my parents would feel. But then I got close with Jake and changed for the better.” you smile. “We hung out so often, we still do, he's my best friend.”

“He is really great, I wish I was able to meet you sooner too.” he said.

“How was your childhood?” you asked him.

“Oh you know, I moved often, with my dad getting a new job every couple of months, I could never really keep friends. My mom didn't like all the moving, they would always argue. She just wanted to settle down. They ended up getting a divorce when I was 12, they made me pick who I'd rather live with, I naturally got along with my dad more so I just left with him. I haven't seen my mom since, but I don't think she really cares to see me anyways.” he paused. “ My dad is still traveling, but now that I'm older I'm able to just stay alone. I was finally able to make friends here, Jake being one of them. I really treasure our friendship.” a moment went by “It is hard living alone and having to take care of myself but i've always kind of needed to do that anyways with my parents both being quite absent.” he looks you softly in the eyes “ I guess we have the “growing up to fast” bit in common tho huh?”

“Well we’ll just have to look out for each other it seems.” you take his hand gently. You felt sorry for him, but not in a pitiful way, you just thought he didn't deserve that, he was so … sweet. You both hold eye contact and slowly get closer, you close your eyes and go for it. You kissed him. You feel butterflies in your stomach, you go to pull away and quickly apologize but he kisses you back. Slowly and softly, he puts his hand on the back of your neck holding you close, you could feel your cheeks getting warmer. The short kiss, that felt like hours to you. This is what you've always wanted, never would have thought for it to happen. You were getting even more drunk with his kiss. The places where he would set his hands, the tenderness, it felt so warm. You went to get even closer but he suddenly pulled away, at the buzz of his phone.

He glances down at his phone. “wait one sec i'm going to grab another drink” he starts typing and doest look back up to you. You nodded, as he walked away you licked your lips. You sat there waiting a little, you felt light headed. You also grabbed your own phone and went to text Jake to tell him about what just happened. You felt like a teenager with a crush. He didn't respond right away, he didn't respond at all actually. You sit there for another moment and decide to take this chance and go to the bathroom, you walk back into the house, in the loud music blasting in your ears, it was a song you liked, which gave you a good feeling. You walk through the crowd looking for the bathroom, you walk through a few halls and finally found it. You walked in and locked the door behind you, touched up your smeared lipstick remembering how it got smeared and smiled to yourself . You didn't think you were in there very long, but you were definitely in there long enough for there to now be a line for the bathroom . You made your way through the hall and back to the main room but right before you went back to the pool side you saw him, you were just going to go up to him but you immediately stopped. He wasn't alone. You saw arms around his neck, you slightly squinted he was with another girl. Your heart sank. The music suddenly felt louder, you felt suffocated, you felt out of it. Tired. Dizzy. Anxious. Sick. You felt sick. You turned around and tried to get out but there were so many people you kept bumping into them.

“Hey watch out, are you ok?” a tall guy said to you. You look up at him, tears starting to form in your eyes. “Hey what's up? You're too pretty to cry. “Want to hang out with me? I bet I can make you feel better.”

“What? No, I'm good.” you shake your head declining his request.

“Come on dont be like that.” he says. “It will be fun, trust me.” he takes your hand but you pull it away.

“Im ok.” he grabs your arm again.

“Don't reject me like this, just a little bit-”

“She said no.” Jake pulls him off of you and takes your hand, without even looking at you he drags you upstairs, not caring about pushing people out of the way, you received some dirty looks from those who got pushed but they got over it quickly. He takes you into one of the rooms and locks the door behind him. He sits you down on the nicely made bed and sits beside you. You didn't say anything, you just sat there, tears now beginning to run down your face, “Hey hey.” He cupped your cheeks and looked you directly in the eyes, you avoided eye contact for a moment then looked at him. He felt at fault, he couldn't help but choke up seeing your eyes glowing with the reflection of the outside light.

“Why did you bring me here?” you suddenly asked. You didn't know who to blame, you didn't want it to be your fault. “Why did I suggest this..?” It was your fault.

“Is this about the guy? Did he do something to you?” he started asking.

“No he didn't get to.”

“Where was heeseung? I thought you were with him this whole time. If i would have known I wouldn't have told you to come.” he said instantly after.

“He… went to get more drinks.” you said. Not wanting to tell Jake the details. “And well yeah I went to look for him and I saw-” you hesitated. What made you so anxious? “And that guy started coming on to me, but thank you for helping me.” you said completely skipping a very important part. He hugged you. You felt safe with Jake, you got that same warm feeling. He held you close.

“I'm sorry y/n. I never want anything bad to happen to you.” he says looking at you, trying to make out your features in the dark room. You look up at him as well. Something about this moment, something about the muffed music and the tears, the only source of light coming from outside, and the flashing lights peeking in at the frame of the door. Your senses feel heightened but your brain feels off. You could feel Jake's heart beat beating with yours. His shirt felt cold on you but his body heat would seep through. You didn't want this moment to end. You can feel him inches away. Your breath got shaky. None of you shared any words initially.

until . “Y/n…” he said under his breath. “If you want me to stop, tell me and I will.” suddenly all you could feel was his lips on yours. Your eyes widened for a moment but they were quickly closed, you kissed Jake back. This kiss felt different from Heeseung’s, it was hotter. You felt more than butterflies when kissing jake. You both stayed attached to each other, hungry for more, the alcohol was definitely to blame, but not fully. It came so naturally, like you both knew exactly what to do. Jake began slowly moving his hands along your body, up and down your sides, each movement getting lower and lower. Your hands traveled up to his hair, his locks intertwined between your fingers as your kiss grew more passionate. “I've been wanting this.” he whispered into the kiss and he pushed you on to the bed getting on top of you.

Continuing to kiss you, you grabbed his face to hold him close. You could taste the cigarettes. Your head was empty. Jake was quick to put his hands on your thighs, fingertips under the hem of your skirt, causing it to lift up slightly. Running his hands along the side of your smooth thighs. You followed his lead as you slipped your hands under his shirt, keeping them on his back. He smiled. He knew you wanted it just as much as he did, he started kissing down your neck, you let out a gasp, bit your lip to the feeling unused to it and closed your eyes, he moved his hand to your waist now up your shirt as well. His thumb on your stomach and the rest of his hand on your side. He started to lift the shirt off you, putting your arms fully allowing him to take it off of you, the cold air hitting your body causing goosebumps to grow on your skin. His breath on your chest causes you to shudder. He startled planting hickeys on your body, your breath got heavy, and you shut your eyes strongly. His hickeys now coupled with bites. Soft quiet moans escaping. He started pulling off your skirt. Leaving you in practically nothing, he stopped what he was doing, you felt him get off of you, you opened your eyes to look at him. All you could see was his slim silhouette taking off his shirt in the moonlight that snuck in through the blinds. He came back on top of you this time keeping all of him off of you, just looking. This made you flustered, instinctively you went to hide your face.

Jake let out a soft chuckle at your shyness, he got off you again, kissing your stomach on his way down, his hands sat at your hips. Each kiss he planted went lower and lower. You gasped at the feeling of his lips at your inner thighs. Each kiss he got closer and closer to your core, your breath got extremely shaky, and chills went all over your body, goosebumps growing on your legs. His hands now on the back of your legs pushing them up over his shoulders, as he kneeled on the floor in front of you. He slightly pulled you closer to him by the legs, sliding you down the bed. When he had you where he wanted you he moved your underwear to the side, and his tongue brushed your clit, your senses heightened. His eyes stealing glances of your body reacting to his touch. The way your back would slightly arch every time he moved faster, He slowly began to move his mouth against you, every movement causing a soft moan to escape your lips. He started so gently, trying to make sure you were as comfortable as possible, “mhm that feels good,” you moan as Jake grips on your legs massaging them as he eats you out. You have never felt pleasure like this from anyone else before. The more comfortable you got, the more comfortable he got. One of his hands slides around from the back of your leg towards your lower abdomen, his other slowly inching to your dripping pussy. When he comes up for air he looks at you laid down before him, so willing to give him anything he wants. The break of contact also causes you to look down towards him. Momentary eye contact. A sly smile grew on his face. He knew the effect he was having on you. Your ‘fuck me face’ was very prominent, especially as you subconsciously moved you body closer to him more. That flipped a switch inside of him, inserting one of his fingers inside of you, His saliva lubricating your slit making it easy for it to go in. A moan escaped this sudden feeling and you slightly tilted your head back. He took no time to put another finger in. You let out a muffled moan as he begins to pump his fingers inside of you. “Fuck~” You moan. Jake brings his face closer to your core, his warm breath on your clit. He flicks his tongue on your clit, you squirm. Moving his mouth against you again now while his fingers go in and out. Your body loves it. Your hands reach into his hair, Fingers intertwining with it. He sped up his fingers, causing your grip in his hair to tighten.

He looks up at you again, “You like that?” He asks you, out of breath his mouth is all wet, fingers still moving at a steady pace.

“Shut up, you know I do.” you say, already breathing heavy as your moans interrupt your responses. Your hand goes from his hair down his face to his chin. You pull him up to get on top of you, bringing his face to yours, kissing him. Tasting yourself on his tongue. You make out. His fingers raming inside of you, his other hand now massaging your clit. You moan into the kisses. “I want you” He says with a growl. You move your hands to his pants slowly moving your hand over his growing bulge, “so have me.” You say as you begin to undo his pants, zipping them down, the only thing between your hand and his dick being the thin fabric of his boxers. Gently caressing him, his breath hitches.

“Dont fucking say that.” he says, suddenly he felt nervous. Having you laid out in front of him so willing. You looked so hot. He wanted to fuck you so badly, so hard. But he knew what actually having sex could lead to. He was scared to risk it. But was he already in too deep? Was there even a point in worrying if he already messed everything between the two of you up? You gave him puppy eyes. There is nothing you wanted more in this moment then Jake and you didnt care what that meant, or what it might do. Your desire was too strong.

“Please… i want you just as badly” you continue to look at him, biting your lip trying to seduce him. You slightly prop yourself up with your arm, still leaning back. You look him up and down, his dick still rock hard. His boxers are getting tighter. “I can tell all you want to do is fuck me jake. So do it.”

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