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Sometimes I worry that I let my emotions take the wheel when writing and posting way too often. I'm worried that I'm gonna get seen as some kind of asshole that only cares about how much smut she can get her filthy hands on, or something like that. I probably also have to stop worrying so much.

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In case you didn't know or had forgotten: I post art and attempt to use my voice for good on Bluesky!

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I need to not go feral over my own OCs. Like it would be fine if they were all somewhat conventionally attractive. And I have OCs that are pleasant looking! But instead of my dumb rabbit brain going awooga over one of them, it goes awooga for a fucking dingy ass, off-putting yet kind hearted doctor creature. Fuck my life 😔

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If it makes you feel any better I don’t ever plan on leaving this community because of assholes outside of it. If I ever did stop it would be because I simply lost interest and nothing else.

Also I’m fairly open about my fet//ish. I mean I don’t yell on my main accounts “Hey I have a fart ki//nk!!!” But I don’t care if my non-ki//nk friends found out. And the ones who do know don’t really care and we just joke around with each other because “Haha farts funnyyyyyy”

And while I used to delete old art out of embarrassment I decided to stop doing that because I realized it’s better to archive something you might want later

Answering this after a vent post so I can use it as a kind of mind bleach(?)

I find it heartbreaking that so many people decide that it's somehow better to isolate themselves and live in fear, than to be themselves, regardless of what someone who's probably not even supposed to be in an adult space might think.

It's nice to know there's at least a couple of people in this community who won't just fall off the face of the earth on a whim.

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My inadequacy as an artist.

Another essay-esque vent post.

I know I've started plenty of posts here with some form of "I don't know how to start this" but I actually don't know how to start this.

Some of you may know that I'm an artist, I've always been an artist. And I'll also be the first to admit that I'm overambitious as hell. And overly critical of myself.

I have this bad habit of ending up with negative hyperfixations for other artists. And all I can feel is pure jealousy and agony. They have a fan base that loves their work, they have people to help them with their projects, they have everything I could want but don't have because I'm too much of a mess to actually make any of them. What do they have that I don't? What shortcuts did they take to get them to this point? And most importantly, why do I feel so much goddamn hate for someone who doesn't affect me in the slightest.

Something that scares me is sharing my projects with the world and having everyone take one look at them and say "Oh, that's just a rip-off of that other thing". That nothing I make will be of value to anyone.

I want my art to exist so, so bad. But I never have the energy for it. I don't even have a team of people who could help me make my art real. I'm stuck, eternally floundering.

There's a game I've had envisioned in my head for about 7 years now. A game that if developed and made popular could possibly help with the stigma that surrounds kink communities by showing the messier parts, where self loathing sets in, and where sticking up for each other matters most. And maybe, just maybe, people could learn to humanize us. Or at least that's what I keep telling myself.

It's entirely possible that whenever that game gets to exist, no one will care. Everything I had worked so hard on, meaningless, lost on deaf ears. And honestly, I don't know what I'd do if that happened.

The long and short of this is that I don't feel like I'll ever be able to make my dream projects a reality.

I want to be loved by the masses and loved for trying to make a difference through my art.

But right now that feels so far away.

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I guess the only perk to being blocked by the only Twitter exclusive artist I care about is that I no longer have an excuse to use Twitter.

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im such an idiot i thought that maybe if i tried to empower others and give them the same advice that has helped me that i could make the world a better place but instead all i fucking do is make things worse i just need someone who already has people listening to hear me, to hear us i don't want anyone to have to hide because of a kink or fetish i dont want to worry about having my career destroyed because of this i don't want to have to watch helplessly as this entire community falls apart because of a bunch of fucking bigots i just want to exist i don't want to hide please please i just need a voice why wont anyone be our voice

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⚠️ Chapter 3 spoilers inbound (More specifically the secret boss) ⚠️

New worst hear me out just dropped...........

They don't even have an official name 😭 (I've stuck to calling them the famicom demon) I'd let them fart on me, but I DON'T KNOW HOW THEY'D DO SO???? Oh well, if there's a whim, there's a way!

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Thinking about a Flygon roughly pinning me down against my bed and forcing me to inhale its musk.

One of its claws gripping my neck while it starts growling aggressively, and soon it’s stomach follows suit.

Its tail slowly raising, a warning of what was going to come next. Releasing disgusting multi minute long farts out into the air, hotboxing the entire room in the span of mere seconds.

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Saw a celebrity today

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yo just wanna tell you

i’m asexual with a huuuge fart fetish. Genuinely it’s like the only thing that can get me off LOLL don’t let anyone tell you what to do with ur identity

It makes me happy to see other people who are like me. It makes me feel valid.

Which like, I know I'm valid, but sometimes I don't feel valid.

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Asexual eproctophiles rise up

REAL!!! SO REAL FOR THAT!!

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I am also an asexual who is into eproctophiia and not traditional sex even asexuals can like sex they just don't need it the same way most people do.

See, you get it! You’re so right! It makes me happy to see that other people like me do exist.

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There’s nothing wrong with having a fart kink. Thousands of people like gas just like you do, myself included. If you’re not hurting anybody, then there’s no issue. Please take care of yourself.

This is from January and I can’t remember what I was going through when this was sent but finally going through my ask backlog now.

Also this is important and true!

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I don’t care how good the creators are or how active they are, I am not fucking using Twitter. I only use Twitter on my main account because I have a couple friends on there. I refuse to use Twitter for anything else.

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I need someone to take a couple hits from a bong just so they can burp weed smoke right into my face.