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I've been writing Pollux Black for the past few months for no discernable reason other than it's extremely fun to fill in blank characters. Anyways, he ended up being such a soft and lovely man, probably not remotely canon– definitely a contrast character to most of the family.

I looked up the name Pollux a few weeks ago, and holy hell, maybe I was right on the money– because Pollux means very sweet. Also means crown, but eh. I'll take it.

Kinda been writing all of the historical Blacks, it's just that Pollux is my favourite.

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Well, I'm a mess.

But not too much of a mess to attempt drawing the damn dragon from the cover of GOF– like I've been telling myself I'll do for twenty damn years. Three hours! So many tiny details! Agh!

Also, I miss y'all, and I'm sad, and someone should send me Grindeldore memes

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I'm still alive, my brain just felt like going on a rather lengthy hiatus that I apparently have no say in. Kinda writing on and off. Lord knows I needed a break, I never willingly take them. Still, I'll be back soon, with chapters and blurbs galore to spread across the land!

Also, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONE.

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I FEEL SO GUILTY BECAUSE I HAVENT TOUCHED MY STORY IN TWO WHOLE WEEKS.

Read some of my cute and fluffy Albus blurbs today, and it made me miss him so much. I just really want to wrap up the side story I've been working on and get back into Sundeath. Ended up writing about 100k words for a damn OC, but Gellert is heavily featured at least, so I haven't strayed too far since it's all in the same universe.

ANYWAYS - I found some little Grindeldore fluff blurbs that I'm going to put up soon, and probably write a whole bunch more, because I MISS MY BOYS.

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Saw the movie again (sober this time - lol)! Gunna finally put up my thoughts up in the next coming days - I know I kinda missed the hype, but now I have a clearer image going in my head.

I did cry a little this time, in the end.

Albus makes my heart so sad.

I hope the franchise makes it through, there's so much more I need to see! Put positive thoughts out there everybody, maybe they'll pull through!

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I'm not even high, I don't understand what happened - but I sort of wrote a blurb for a Fantastic Beasts Parody, meant to pair with A Very Potter Musical, only it's mostly Grindeldore and pizza, and IT'S SO STUPID. I DON'T KNOW WHY I WROTE THIS.

A Very Fantastic Musical [Alternate working title: A Very Fantastic Pizza.]

Starts with summer 1899, big ol' number that suddenly ends with a somber imperative dance or something. Lights, pizazz, then young Albus flopped in some tragic Shakespearean pose - ends with a punchline of some kind.

Then it cuts to Hogwarts maybe, an echo-y reprisal as it reveals older Albus looking in the mirror, seeing all the summery pizazz, reflecting.

The blood pact is something stupid, like a pizza pendant, because Gellert and Albus both shared a love of pizza. On the fence about sausage euphemisms... Oh God. Then it turned out that Gellert was lactose intolerant all along, a heinous betrayal.

There's going to have to be a song about pizza, all wistful and morose eventually. Just know it.

Newt is still in school, and for some reason Jacob is there, because Albus was all - fuck it, here's a toy wand, just pretend.

I want Rumbleroar to be some wise counsel or something. Scarfy sorts Gellert as a sadistic fuck, and Albus is obviously as gay as the fourth of July, cause keeping with the Americanism and all that.

Then, I dunno, everyone splits off into teams, the goodies and the baddies, and Fawkes does something cool I guess.

I want Gellert to be all Shakespearean with unexpected profanities. He just crucio's everything. Even the chair, and someone yells it's not alive, it can't feel pain, and Gellert is all, anything can feel pain if you try hard enough! Crucio's his tie when he can't get it right, gets himself by accident. Adorable. Cut to Albus sobbing, no, Gellert, not the pizza!

WHY IS IT PIZZA LMAO???

OH MY GOD and Gellert can have a crystal ball, and sees Voldemort at some point, peers all close and shit, taps the glass because he isn't moving, like the screen is frozen, then Voldemort goes BOO! and does that insane cackle only Joe Walker can do, scaring the shit out of him. Ends up being like girl talk, but it's dark lord talk instead, then they heatedly argue about who's wand is bigger hahaha. Yeah well, *I* have a fortress! - And *I* become immortal, you swiiiine!

The running gag is figuring out when Albus's birthday is. He's Ron with food, only it's sweets, so he can do the Red Vines bit at least once. Constantly licking a lollipop, cause why not. A fucking rainbow of outfits, some are definitely sparkly, and he changes like every other scene. Maybe some split suits to save time lol.

Something about a pinky promise with the blood pact, and Gellert has a hissy fit and is all but everyone knows you can't go back on a pinky promise! And Albus is all, that was a long time ago, I'm a changed man, my pinkies have physiologically changed cells several times over, in fact-

Gellert grumbles and huffs and calls him a nerd or something, and is all what about our pizza? You promised we'd make it, together. Albus- YOU LIED TO ME GELLERT, YOU MADE ME BELIEVE *sobs* THAT YOU COULD DIGEST DAIRY. Gellert- It was never about eating it. It was making it, together - swirling the sauce across the soft dough, the sprinkling of infused herbs-

*Albus snaps out of his dazed dream, in which they swirl the imaginary sauce and breathe in the happy aroma of a promised pizza* I told myself I'd never touch another pizza...

This is totally when the wistful and morose pizza song occurs, with an echo of the pizazz in the background, and Gellert serenading Albus with a list of possible cheese blends.

Of course, Gellert's best argument is lactose free cheese, which makes Albus sob THAT'S NOT A FUCKING PIZZA AND YOU KNOW IT! This is just another of your sick experiments! You're twisted!

I'm howling at this, I can't - it's so fucking ridiculous. I can't with this plot.

Bro - then Jacob makes them a pizza at the end.

Or sends them a kit at least, so they can make it together.

...I have more ideas for all the other characters too, and the casting and everything, and I'm so pissed and pleased with myself all at once. I have no fucking clue why it's pizza. I blame dinner. No hate to non dairy cheese!

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So I saw your post, and I’ve seen the film (thanks UK release) and I WILL NOT spoil it, but I’ll tell you that I’ve been emotionally devastated precisely because this movie loves Albus as much as I do. I’ve had the same experience of “wait, I thought this was just me projecting, what do you mean it’s canon???” up to the release, and now it’s here, I want you to know that you don’t have to worry it will hate him.

Thank you for your words and no spoilers! I was so happy with everything, and I'm positive I'm going cry for the second watch.

There was a whole handful of things for me too that ended up being canon, more than just the trailer stuff! Totally blew my damn mind.

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[Just some Grindeldore fluff I wrote this morning that made my heart all kinds of happy.]

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Peering curiously through his open book, Albus stands, and without taking his eyes away, murmurs, "Gellert?"

"Mmm?"

Albus drops himself along the armrest, brows furrowed, and watches Gellert finish his own paragraph, and drop a finger down to mark his spot. "What do you think of this passage?"

The moment Gellert tilts himself to look, Albus softly catches his lips, and clips the book shut in his lap. There is a quiet sound from Gellert's throat, as his hands reach up to gently caress his face, kissing him slowly. There is a hum of warmth spreading through his body when Gellert pulls him into his lap, touching his hair, pulling his hat off and dropping it to the ground. Albus smiles into the kiss, and feels Gellert’s own smirk tugging at his lips.

After a moment, Gellert pulls away to rest his head along the back of his chair. He looks at him for a moment, with a quiet kind of sadness that Albus never wants to see, and murmurs, "I think it's far too good for me."

"Mmm," Albus catches Gellert's hitched breath with his lips, "but it was written just for you."

Gellert pulls back again, eyes uncharacteristically soft, his lips parted in surprise. Perhaps to prove his point, Albus kisses him again, only this time - Gellert doesn't pull away.

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OH! For fun - this is a little poll to ask you, the readers, what do you want to see in a Grindeldore fic?

For example, Albus being more fashionable, or Gellert being more realistic, more fluff, etc. Tropes, plots, additional characters, whatever you'd like to say, I wanna hear. Additionally, what you DON'T want in a Grindeldore fic too.

My story is well underway already, but, for fun, I'd love to hear what the people want and don't want - and it's not too late to incorporate some little ideas (plus I apparently have an expanse of blank chapters in my freshly updated outline). I'm just immensely curious to hear what people genuinely like to see in Grindeldore stories.

Also - I'm 1000% putting in Gellert’s tie as a gift from Albus, because why the fuck wouldn't I?

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I'm a little drunk - but I did NOT have an emotional breakdown, much to my surprise. I have ten thousand thoughts to share tomorrow!

I'M SO HAPPY, AHHH!

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I'm shaking, guys.

Half an hour.

I'm going to have to buy my best friend like a thousand presents or something for putting up with me through this.

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Sundeath Blurb:

The few comments thus far on my prologue almost made me cry, out of sheer happiness. This story is going to be such an emotional rollercoaster for all of us, and I'm so excited to get it all out there.

As a small update - I don't expect the first chapters to be ready for another week or so. They're nearly done, but there is a lot of other work behind the scenes with my parallels and working out small kinks, etc. Been mostly focused on full chapter outlines this week, and would like to finish them before continuing to post, but we shall see.

The first chapter may come sooner than expected, which starts out with Gellert in the past.

For fun, I did some math, and of the 14 chapters that are near completion, (some of them are later chapters though - the woes of non linear) I have around 70k written there alone. Funny enough, my longest chapter so far is one of Ariana's, which sits around 8k. Something tells me that this story is going to be a lot longer than the original 350k I'd estimated.

That is all!

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Haven't seen the movie yet, and am steadily losing my mind as I count the minutes.

I'm so overwhelmed, and I'm 99% certain that I'm going to scream or cry or faint right there in the theater at this rate. I've never ever been so excited for something in my entire damn life. The release of Deathy Hallows, and the first Fantastic Beasts doesn't even hold a candle to this - combined.

My favourite characters, who's heads I've been living in for the past year, as I write my longfic, have leapt out of the pages and into a fucking movie, and honestly - it's too much, but it's not enough, and I'm just freaking the hell out now.

This is also partially because lot of the plot points look eerily similar to mine - and some of the lines I've written have already appeared in the trailers too. It's spooky, and humbling, and wonderful. Already, I've heard several things in interviews that have existed in my story this entire time, and they're CANON. My headcanons are coming true, and it breaks my heart as much as it makes it soar with excitement, BECAUSE I CAN'T HANDLE IT.

All that I know, is that if Albus Dumbledore has anything remotely resembling a breakdown on screen, or so much as sheds a single tear, I am going to break apart in the theater. I will ugly sob in front of all of those people, and then probably spend days in bed trying to heal my poor broken heart, because I love Albus so very much.

It sounds ridiculous - because it is - but writing Albus in the depths that I have, for such a long time, makes him feel like family to me almost.

Point is, I am fully prepared for tears, laughter, a plethora of new information to obsess over, and a broken heart two days from now. I'm so fucking excited. I'm probably going to ignore the internet from now until then, followed by a whole weekend of obsessively picking it apart in my notes. I'm also pretty sure I'm going to go for a second viewing, like immediately after.

My little Potter soul is so happy. It's been twenty years, and this world feels like home as much as it did back then. Ahhhhhhhhh.

Happy viewing, everybody!

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Prologue for my Grindeldore longfic is up!

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Guys. There is a very strong possibility that I'm going to post my prologue today or tomorrow this week. Wanted to hold off a bit longer, to pair chapter one with it - but I just don't want to wait anymore.

UPDATE: I've posted it!

Here's the official introduction.

[Blurbs about this fic are tagged as sundeath, because The Death of a Sun is a mouthful.]

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WHY HAS IT TAKEN ME FIFTEEN YEARS TO NOTICE THIS PHRASING!!!!

You made plans to visit and observe foreign wizards?

Sounds like one hell of a trip, guys.

[Yes, I'm aware the context doesn't necessarily mean anything, BUT JUST LOOK AT HOW IT'S WORDED.]

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Gellert Grindelwald Character Recs.

You know, for fun. My small list includes chaotic, charming, manipulative and emotionally distant characters. All of them remind me of Gellert Grindelwald in some way, sometimes in an eerily similar manner. This is based on personality - less so on actions, so no dictators taking over the world, or anything too wild. Link added to each one, if anyone's interest is peaked. I'm sure there's more to list, but this is all that I have for now. Coincidentally, they all happen to be gay men:

Brendan Brady, Hollyoaks - Sociopath, difficulty being close to others, callous, manipulative, deeply flawed but embraces the hell out of it. He's charming, quick witted, sassy, very rough around the edges, but - there is a softer side to him that he keeps buried. Deeply complex character - when I watched Brendan's story this year, my constant stream of thought was how much he reminds me of Gellert. A charming villain. Has a grace to his actions.

Likes to assert dominance by taking bites out of other people's food. Shows affection with threats and violence. Will bludgeon a man to death for even thinking about hurting someone he loves. Does a lot of fucked up shit. Brendan is fearless, and bulletproof.

A very damaged man, who keeps it well hidden, and will snap and do something drastic - just for fun. Likes fruity drinks and confusing the hell out of everyone, will be an intimidating piece of shit while singing under his breath, walks into church and taunts Jesus - would definitely steal candy from a baby. He also reminds me of the brothers from Boondock Saints - Irish, religious, usually murders with good reasons.

I highly recommend watching his story, it's long, and devastating. You will despise him, then grow to love him. You will sob your eyes out by the time you're done. I have never in my life, seen a character as well written as Brendan Brady. He is absolute chaos, and you won't regret watching his story.

Brian Kinney, Queer as Folk - A God amongst men, unapologetically queer, callous and dry, emotionally distant, might also be a bit of a sociopath. His mantra is no apologies, no regrets. A master at getting what he wants, and giving no fucks.

An asshole, always, because it amuses him. Deeply charming. Self centered, because he knows he's beautiful and can have whoever he wants. Aversion to love and intimacy, keeping everyone at arms length, but inevitably does break his no relationship rule. King deadpan humour.

Brian will always be one of my favourite characters, because he is authentic and unapologetic.

James Nightingale, Hollyoaks - This one is more loose, but there are similarities. Cold, detached lawyer; very dry and clever insults, highly intellectual - but James has a grace, and a flair that I see in Gellert.

He is very elegant in how he carries himself and speaks, and is rather particular about his style. Classy, kinda old fashioned. Feels that he is above others. Highly unethical, problematic and angsty.

A little damaged and broken inside. Discovers what it means to truly love someone. Occasionally will acknowledge when he goes too far, and will feel remorse. I adore James, the problematic little gay ball of trouble that he is.

[Edit: If you actually check anyone out, let me know what you think! These characters aren't very common, and I'd love to hear other's perspectives.]