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spottedsunbug has officially been blocked on everything (including finch...?) so spottedsunbug is almost certainly on hiatus

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i feel like i'm suffocating in my own skin

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tw sh + sh blogs dni

ohhh the urge to relapse

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he drinks american tea (hot) with cream and sugar

his dream proposal is chandler and monica's proposal

he has a mole on his left shoulder, his stomach, and one right above his right knee.

his favorite flower is a rose but not just bright red, he likes white and DARK roses too.

he got a helix to match leigh whannell (cause he's a dork)

it's our three month anniversary

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it's our three month anniversary

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i miss my ex

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spottedsunbug live execution right now.

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i wish i didnt still love him because he's so happy and there's the faintest signs he feels the same way but also maybe i'm just trying to see what i want but fuck i love him and i will always love him

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he's asleep on call for the first time since we broke up and i know he's not mine anymore but it feels right and i miss him so so much

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trying to explain the unexplainable

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ugh (with want)

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guys can i be vulnerable. or will i be killed

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sorry i can’t come i’m too busy hurting my own feelings over nothing

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does anybody know what’s wrong with me

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My Dear R, You never showed up, and now, after looking at your blog I understand why. I don't imagine you will receive this letter but I nonetheless must send it. R, oh, R. I was just starting to dream the silliest and softest of dreams. I miss you, and I will always miss you but I cannot live like that, and it seems you cannot live any other way.

When I am with you, the world makes sense but when we are apart, I see clearly that your world is not a world from which one can escape. I am so sorry, for everything long ago and for dreaming up that perfect life again. There's a good man within you, R, but he is wrestling with a giant. And the giant, wins, time and again. You've broken my heart, again and I fear I have broken yours.

For that, I will never forgive myself but you must let me go now. I enclose a ring I kept for you many years ago, when we were both young, not because I don't like it, but because I care for it far too much and it reminds me too much of you. I hope, one day you will find some people in love who can use this, for it kept me thinking of you all these years, and I hope by returning it to you I can finally be free. Goodbye, G.

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What happened

sorry what ?

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What do you look for in a partner?

that's a really good question !!!

i dont have a "type" and im on the aromantic spectrum, so that's there too.

i think i really just want someone patient to take stuff slow with that is trustworthy and reassuring. all in all i really just wanna be loved, i dunno.

loyalty is important. not specifically through monogamy just having a loyal partner who loves me, y'know? long distance or in person doesn't rlly matter cause i've done both lol.

honestly all i want/can ask for is to be a first choice and have a partner who geniunely loves me and shows me that