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update!

hello! I found out my brother has a phone he doesn't use anymore so I downloaded my Instagram, Pinterest, Facebook and shopping apps there. I'll keep it at home bc it has a really bad battery + it doesn't have a sim card!

I'll try to keep Tumblr in my main phone to use as a personal blog, + Notion as an archive

^here's a digicam pic I'm really proud of (I've been at the lake the past few days)

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hi! I'm alive and well!

these months I've been realising I'm kind of fed up with most social media. I don't have tiktok and Instagram is just too overwhelming

I'm very interested in old web, dumb phones, neocities, nekoweb (even though I don't have a pc to use for coding)

I'd really want a place to use as a kind of archive + personal blog, I already have notion but I kind of like having interactions with other users

let me know if you have any suggestions + thanks for reading my rambles

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hello there!

I'm going to officially be inactive until I feel like it :)

I'm okay!! I just don't feel like posting here at the moment

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7-11-2024

Last week I went to an anime con and had so much fun!

I got a signed copy of "It's lonely at the center of the world" by Zoe Thorogood and such a good comic omg

it got me reflecting on what I want to do with my art and my sense of purpose and identity. I'd really want to explore my interests a lot more

also, with my doc's approval I'm starting to decrease my antidepressants dose: until I won't be able to go to a psychologist, I don't think things will change much in my head (it's alright though dw)

regarding uni stuff, I decided on my exam schedule and I started to study

19th December: Physics

8th January: Biochemistry

16th January: physical methods in organic chemistry

3rd February: Organic Chemistry II

21st February: Physiology

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Hii! I just realized that it's been a while, and especially bc of that last vent post, I hope ur doing well (not only academically, but really w/ your personal stuff); u don't have to answer or anything, just wishing u better days and more sunny skies ❤️

hii, I'm alive and well!

thanks for checking in! I'm doing better now, even though I had some bad days

I didn't have much time to post here, I'm reflecting on a lot of things. I'm trying to make time for my hobbies and art account on ig as much as possible, while studying and doing my best academically

I don't know how to manage everything (but in reality I probably just need to spend less time on my phone lol)

I won't delete tumblr ofc and you can check in anytime!

maybe I'll start posting consistently again ฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

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01-10-2024

hi, it's been a while!

2nd year started and I'm getting a nice grasp of this semester's classes and how the professors teach

my classes for this semester

Organic chemistry II

Physiology

Biochemistry

Physical Organic chemistry

really cool classes, I like them a lot (even though the last one is a bit weird, its applications are so cool (we're basically learning how to recognise a molecule's structure and its bounds from the way it interacts with radiations!))

I really like just making notes and tidying them up and not having to worry about studying (until the last week of October)

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19-09-2024

vent post, feel free to scroll

I honestly feel like shit cause some of my colleagues were like "lol I only studied for 4 days!" and they still passed

I did not pass my physics test, again.

in my test there was an exercise I didn't understand even when reading the corrections + a formula that literally wasn't on the course topics but okay

it's just unfair. I know I'm not the only one in a situation like this, but it's unfair how some people study like ⅒ of someone else and still end up with a higher score

also my family sometimes treats me like garbage because I don't look the way they want (cause I have glasses and "too" long hair and I don't feel comfortable wearing tight tops and that's a problem apparently??)

today my lectures started again and I feel scared and overwhelmed and I'm afraid I won't be able to understand things

also, my water bottle was run over by a bus (honestly hilarious, I wish I was joking)

I'm sorry for this vent but I have to put this somewhere, and honestly I don't have the energy to write in my physical journal

I'll just treat myself like I'm sick for tonight, wearing comfortable clothes, staying warm in my bed

it's just been a rough day and I just want it to end

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13-09-2024

wtf datura growing from a sidewalk in my town

the cold weather is here!! kinda aggressive tho, as the temperature went about 10°C down in A DAY.

not really complaining tho, I want fall so bad

I've been reviewing physics for about 3 weeks now and honestly I don't know what to review anymore (??) the exam is this Monday but idk I've done almost all the exercises, read the exam program and wrote everything I knew from memory and also answered previous exams' questions without looking at my notes

maybe I'll review electromagnetism and modern physics again, but this time directly from the slides my prof gave us

I don't necessarily feel confident, cause I know you have to read the professors' mind to pass, but I don't know what should I be doing more than this

also, the exam is on Monday and on Thursday I'll start classes again! kind of excited cause we'll have an entire day without classes, and I'll have 4 subjects instead of 5

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29-08-2024

I did it!!! I passed my Ochem 1 exam with 27/30!

^here's all the post-it(s?) I put up my wardrobe

now I can concentrate on studying physics (again), though I know the prof is probably going to not let anyone pass as she always does (she's kinda famous in our course for that lol)

(I'm not that worried because she will retire this year soooo)

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21-08-2024

omg 113 people follow my silly little blog?? thank you!!

7 days left until my ochem exam and oh god I am scared

I need to start studying for my 2nd attempt at physics lol, we don't even know precisely the date yet but it will be around the 2nd week of September

I miss the cold weather and the cosy nights and Christmas and and.. being able to stay in bed in the evenings and the bed not becoming boiling hot (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠)

tomorrow I will begin writing ochem reactions by memory. I struggle with keeping track of when I need to add certain bases, water, hydrogen etc. like, I know where the reaction is going to but I tend to mess up little things in the mechanism

I can't be the only one to struggle to study in the summertime. too hot. too humid. can't stay focused. feel sluggish. meh

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the sexual tension between me and making art content Instagram and tiktok and also blogging on tumblr and also making yt silent vlogs

also the sexual tension between me and vanishing from every social media platform ever

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03-08-2024

so I did not pass my physics test but honestly I had to keep in mind that this prof is known to make things even more difficult for students (she literally took me away points because I said "particle" instead of "photon" when describing how laser light works, and also bc i used "particles" instead of "atoms" when referring to a gas) so.. yeah lol

I went to her office as she gave students the opportunity to see the paper etc.

also many of my friends did not pass as well so we're all on the same boat

I started last week to re-study ochem for my exam in the last days of August, I'm kind of ahead of my plans but I'm anxious stil.

I've also been sick these past days so, my head hurts so bad and I have a cough and a stuffy nose

I hate summer because of how humid it is where I live, I miss the cooler months :((

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23-07-2024

I did my physics exam yesterday, could have been better but so much worse. I'm not really satisfied with what I did, but I don't have the results yet

Imagine a physics exam in which you have to study literally everything (mechanics, fluid mechanics, electrostatic, electrodynamics, magnetism, optics and modern physics) and you get graded on one single exercise and 2 questions

I also decided to do my ochem exam next month (instead of tomorrow) cause I was not prepared as much as I wanted to be. Ochem is literally the foundation of my course so I prefer to study better and really build my bases

I kinda feel disappointed with myself cause I could have studied better in the first place, but I'll take this as an opportunity to learn from my mistakes and grow as a student.

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01-07-2024

We're in July already??

nothing really happened from my last update, I spend my days studying and using my phone (which I'm trying to use less)

this weekend I'm going to the beach with some friends for a few days, I'm kind of excited about studying while viewing the sea

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24-06-2024

I'm 20!! that's actually so scary to think and say out loud

yesterday I went on an aquarium date with my bf 💙💙

these days I keep having really bad thoughts but maybe they're done for now. they really do come and go in waves, especially around my birthday