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I've had Solavellan children on my brain for weeks now and I haven't had the time to catch up on redesigning Selphie (my inquisitor) and personal story beats between her and Solas- yet.... so I've jumped straight to drawing children to cope.

Kids are so cute man. Idk about your Solavellan end games (would love to hear it), but I'm WEAAKKK for the domestic ending for them. My two are having a whole dang litter of pups and live quietly together for the rest of their days.

Older boy is El'rin and younger boy is Liraen (they do have daughters dw. Girl dad solas is happening)

Anyway, I'm going back to my dark little corner to keep drawing the fluff.

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"I'm not one for dancing but for you, I will gladly try."

Finished my cullavellan Regency drawing and I am so happy with the results! Also may I say, Cullen pulls this look off so well 😩👌

Commissions are open 💗

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been a while since i locked in and finish a rendered art in a day. might hate the way it turned out by the time i see it again this morning but welp 🫩

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Totally forgot to upload my sketches here as well🙈

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Reasons for being enemies

They are enemies to lovers - but why exactly start they out as enemies? For @moonchildsthoughts

being wronged by the other one/breaking their trust

- getting cheated on

- getting lied to

- broke a promise

- sabotaging them in any way

- getting physically and/or psychologically hurt by them

taking credit for the other's work

ruining the other's reputation

being ex-partners with resentment towards each other

competing for the same job or win

- competing academically

- competing athletically

- competing for a prize

- competing financially

- competing for someone's affection or friendship

having competing businesses

having very different personalities

having different worldviews

having different morals and ethics

working for opposing groups

being on different sides of a war

being part of feuding families

one representing something the other one despises

having a power imbalance

believing the other to be unworthy or themselves as better

being too proud to admit a wrong

getting stuck together and resenting it

blaming the other one for being in a bad situation

having a terrible first impression of each other/meet ugly

having a big misunderstanding

More: Enemies to Lovers Masterpost + Reasons for lovers turning to enemies + Enemies Masterpost

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AU ideas

A compiled list of alternate universe ideas.

Roommates AU (x)

Flower Shop AU (x)

Coffee Shop AU (x)

Bookstore AU (x)

Tattoo Shop AU

Mob/Mafia AU (x, x)

Royalty AU (x)

High School AU (x, x)

College AU (x)

Boarding School AU (x)

Time travel AU (x, x)

Spies AU (x)

Coworkers AU (x, x, x, x, x, x)

Neighbors AU (x, x, x)

Teachers AU

Friends with benefits AU (x)

Library AU

Supernatural/Magic AU (x, x)

Bodyguard AU (x, x)

Prison AU

Hogwarts AU (x)

Outer Space AU (x)

Firefighter AU (x)

Cop AU (x)

Lifeguard AU (x)

Modern AU

Assassins AU (x, x)

Rockstar AU (x)

Band AU (x, x)

Acting AU (x)

Professional rivals AU (x)

Soulmates AU (x)

Guardian Angel AU (x)

Mermaid AU (x)

Werewolf AU (x, x, x)

Ghost AU (x)

(Post-)Apocalypse AU (x)

Fairytale AU

Arranged Marriage AU (x, x)

Celebrity AU (x)

Historical AU (x, x)

Pirate AU (x)

Superhero/Villain AU (x)

Social Media AU

AU Masterpost

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I started drawing Dick with his mom and dad taking care of baby Dick after a nightmare... than it kind of went from there.

I imagined they had this big blanket his Mary treasured, but one day, Dick accidentally ripped it. So she cut off the damaged piece, fixed the edges, embroidered it, and turned it into a mini version just for him.

That got me thinking about how confusing everything must’ve been after his parents died, and how much must’ve been lost. I mean, I’m sure Bruce, Alfred, or even Haly’s Circus tried to return his parents’ belongings to him, but realistically, it’s hard to believe nothing got lost in all that chaos.

So… cue the angst.

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Solas and Sex

going to say right away that this is not a horny post (although i make plenty of those too). this is genuine meta about the culture around sex in arlathan and solas' personal perceptions around sex and how they change and develop, especially with a relationship with the inquisitor who i will be calling "inquisitor/inky" and using they/them pronouns for in this post! much love to all solasmancers

i am absolutely of the opinion that during arlathan era, sex was just normal. it was not exclusive to romantic relationships and it could have any number of meanings, or be largely without meaning

(could easily go down a rabbit hole here but i'll avoid it - maybe some other time!)

the evanuris were not always viewed as gods. that developed. and i think prior to its development, solas likely participated willingly and with enjoyment in the sexual aspects of the evanuris, as well as all else they did. but i think as time went on his participation changed... i don't think it necessarily stopped, but the meaning underlying it was different

if andruil pursued him, and he let himself be caught, it was not to experience her body, to take pleasure in her touch. if it was enjoyable, that was a side benefit, but not the goal. the goal was to see what she might say with her guard lowered. how she might behave in the bliss of afterglow. even to observe how she tried to use and manipulate him, and infer things from that

he was manipulative with it, and cunning, and strategic. and he was not alone in this. i think over time the meaning would have changed for all of them. sex as control. as changing a context. as disobedience. as subversion. as upheaval. as plot and ploy. as distraction. as coercion. as claim. as possession. as worship. as punishment. as reward.

sex does not exist in a vacuum, and it would not there, either. all of these goals are pursued in countless ways, and sex is just one tool among many, but it is a tool

none of this is to say that sex for pleasure or sex for intimacy did not exist in arlathan, even during the height of politicking. i think solas and mythal had more of that dynamic. i think andruil and ghilan'nain did as well. and while we know so little about them, i think it is fair to assume sylaise and june had that too

to me, that's pretty much solas' background with sex. it developed from something purely physical and exploratory into one of many tools in the "game" arlathan played, and his perception of it developed with it

the way solas returns the inqusitor's early flirtations... this, to me, is in line with the game of arlathan. it is so smooth, so eloquent, and so quick. someone approaches him with interest and he knows how to respond to that interest immediately

this isn't to say there's no truth in it at all, either. just that it's a learned behavior. and he gets a bit of a kick out of totally turning the tables and flustering them. but it's not anything super serious at that point

i think the fade kiss is one of the bigger, realer moments for him, but at the same time, he's still leaning on learned behavior. i truly think he wants them at this point and that there is an element of the intuitive, the reactive, the instinctual in the way he slots their legs together, in the way he deepens the kiss into something very intense, but it's also leaning a bit on what he's learned to do. it's hard to do otherwise! countless centuries of participation in these activities in arlathan, so much of this is deeply internalized

but the way he approaches them afterwards, wanting to talk... i think that's him trying to draw a veil (heh) between them, yes, and to minimize the pursuit he fell into, yes, but it's also because he doesn't want to play the game with them. he wants to know them. he's full of conflict, and is at his best, in a way, when any one behavior can have multiple benefits. in this case, he's distancing himself from the kiss, quickly steering the conversation away from physical intimacy and his own true and performed desperation, and into a much safer territory... while also being able to indulge in his own developing interest

and, lbr, this man likes to converse. i know the fandom jokes about how he talks so much, and he does, to a degree... but it's conversation that he enjoys, not monologuing. he relishes the chance to have a deep discussion with someone. he does not share his stories with the inky randomly, only when asked, and he approves of them asking him to tell him these things, but also asking questions afterwards, about keeping an open mind

but the absolute turning point in the romantic relationship is not in haven. it's not in the fade. it's on the balcony. it's after wisdom.

the inky can show solas that they understand that a spirit is his friend. that he cares about it. they can try and help him free it. (note: i haven't done alternative playthroughs of this particular quest because I Don't Fucking Wanna)

and that is the big shift. for many reasons! one of which is, of course, the fact that solas himself is a spirit. or was, but truly, i think he still is in many fundamental ways. but it is also about the inky being open-minded, not just in words, but in actions. because when they arrive, there is no gentle spirit waiting for them... there is a demon

the inky can choose to trust solas, to trust that even though it is a demon in front of them, that there may still be something they can do. that is the turning point for solas. that is why he approaches them on the balcony. that is why he brings up the kiss again. that is when he first tells them he loves them

because he does. he does

now, this is a meta about sex, and i haven't forgotten! things are left up for interpretation on whether or not solas and the inquisitor had sex. but setting that aside, i think it's worth considering what sex with someone he has fallen in love with would mean to him

now, i write him as demisexual. to be clear, this wasn't something i set out to do intentionally, but the more i wrote him the more clearly his demisexuality manifested. so he's had sex. he's also had sex with mythal, a woman he genuinely loves and is loved by (at least in my view), so intimate sex with a physical desire for the other person is not entirely unknown... but it was not something he thought to ever have again

and i think arlathan ruined sex for him for a long time. instead of a form of intimacy, it became a tool. a weapon. i suspect he and mythal's sexual relationship slowed until it was all but nonexistent, because it just felt fraught and complex

so to find his way back to it again...

i think he's fighting with himself. boldly leading, his body a tool... and he has to stop himself, because he doesn't want that. not with them. if it's during inq, he probably allows a certain amount of that. because he still has to manipulate them. he doesn't want to, but they still can't know who he is

but after... or even after veilguard, in the fade... confident hands on their arms turn to clutching ones, trembling, and his breathing sharpens. he's trying to bury the learned behavior. he wants to be here, to feel this. i can see it going many ways.... starting only to stop, maybe a bunch of times... or letting his partner lead, try to ease him into just reacting instead of guiding, to soften his learned behaviors until they eventually fade away and let something more sincere emerge

they could talk it out. they could feel it out. he could force himself to perform until the performance drops away (i doubt any partner would want that, but it could be solas' choice to do that anyway without consulting them)

and i think this is why being dommed is easier for him, in my view. and why especially being pushed all the way into subspace is easier for him. because suddenly the barriers drop and he's a raw nerve and he's all reaction. there's no performance left. and the fact that he's safe, that he's held afterwards, that as he shakes he's comforted, it makes all the difference

(because i like to explore him being in subspace in arlathan... and it being a vulnerability. whether it's used against him or not i tend to keep intentionally vague, but he knows it is a vulnerability, and any vulnerability can be exploited)

but i also think him finding his way towards his own desires - and particularly any desires around domination or sadism - would be very, very important and cathartic for him as well. anything he does with his lover is going to be completely consensual, but if they want to be dommed by him, if they are a masochist, then he can explore those desires in himself, too, in a safe way

because i do think solas probably has... a lot of kinks. ppl can have kinks for any reason, but ppl can also develop kinks based around their own traumas. so i think he'd have some where that is the origin. and that doesn't make them bad! but it's something i think he'd struggle with, and struggle with the morality of them

sex as a tool is easy. you use it to meet your own ends. you know how far you are willing to go, and that's how far you go. you're in control, even when you're play-acting at vulnerability, unless you're not in control because someone's using the tool on you instead...

but that's the complexity of it all for him. and i think being able to explore these things in a safe, affirming way would actually ease a tremendous weight that he has carried for a long time

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He’s very pretty. sorry

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Angry Dialogue

Part III

"I can't believe I wasted so much time on you!"

"After everything we've been through, this is how you treat me?"

"You have no idea what you've done, do you?"

"Don't talk to me like I'm the problem here!"

"How dare you accuse me of that!"

"You made your choice, now deal with the consequences."

"If you think I'm going to forgive this, you're delusional."

"You didn't 'forget'—you just didn't care."

"It's always about you, isn't it?"

"Do you ever stop to think before you act?"

"Why should I keep fighting for someone who doesn't fight for me?"

"Have you lost your mind?!"

"You think you're untouchable, but you're not."

"Stop twisting my words to suit your narrative!"

"I don't owe you an explanation after what you did."

"You made a mockery of everything we stood for."

"How am I the bad guy now?"

"I refuse to let you manipulate me any longer."

"No one is coming to save us! Don't you get that?"

"This is not something that can easily be fixed!"

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Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Danny Phantom, Batman - All Media Types, DCU, DCU (Comics) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: Danny Fenton, Danny Phantom - Character, Sam Manson, Tucker Foley, Jazz Fenton, Jack Fenton, Maddie Fenton, Batman, Bruce Wayne, Joker (DCU) Additional Tags: Cross posting from my tumblr, Dc x dp, DP X DC, Danny Phantom being well Danny Phantom, One-Shots, Drabbles, Chats, Chaos Ensues, just chaos, Humor, Joker's Death awaits Summary:

I am going to be posting my DP x DC posts here on this site.

Chaos ensues...

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The left image as a rug and the right image as a ceiling poster

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It’s done :]

I am aware the colors are a bit off but I am happy with how it turned out! More DA embroidery to come! 💕

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Solas and Morality

I can say "I think solas is fundamentally a good person" but that's a sorta ridiculous statement considering what he does...

but what he does, while cold, calculating, brutal, exacting... it strikes me as smth closer to surgery than cruelty

which is why I can't really see the "he's a bad man he's a bad person he's a racist piece of shit with a superiority complex and that's why we love him 🥰" angle. no judgement: if it works for you, if you like it, if it's what you see, i'm not saying you're wrong or trying to convince you otherwise. i just can't see it

it's not just that he's sympathetic - although he is - it's that we see his precise reasons. there are many of them! some selfish, some selfless. and you can absolutely argue that a person doing bad things with good intentions is still bad and that's fair and fine

but it brings me back to the surgery comparison

surgeons have to do horrible things to ppl, things that outside of their specific context would be undeniably considered torture, but they are instead working to save lives

solas is a surgeon for the world

one can argue whether it is necessary or not, important or not, worthy or not, valid or not, but in terms of what is driving him, the reasoning behind his actions, i think there is much to consider about what it says of his personal moral character

i don't see many ppl talking about the end result of 1) solas failing, and 2) rook & co. failing/not having existed/not being powerful enough to take down two elven "gods" and their dragon thralls

doom upon the world. the blight and the last two evanuris, unleashed

or if solas was passive, if he sat back and let things happen, if he indulged in the life he wanted and wants to live...

at some point, his prison failing

doom upon the world

so, yes. i see solas as a surgeon. he is doing horrible things. and he does have good cause. his reasoning is not irrational or unrealistic; the consequences he foresees and fears are very, very real. his biggest failing is not in perception or execution, it's in his constantly-reinforced belief that he has to do this alone, that no one else will stay the course

it is brutal. it takes everything from a person. it renders them unrecognizable to themselves. more monstrous with each step. it is a burden. it is a responsibility. it is the dinan'shiral. "there is only death on this journey."

everyone else denied it. or failed it. or rejected it. or fought it

in the end, he thinks that he alone is the salvation for the world, but it is not a glorious salvation. it is the bitter, awful work of a surgeon, one whose patient cannot be numbed, who is fighting them every step of the way, while everyone else looks on in horror

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Current embroidery WIP :3