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just realizing this week I’ve been in a homoerotic friendship since I was in like fourth grade and then a different one in high school and the last year has been me realizing what a normal best friend relationship is actually like…

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I wish boys knew they were allowed to like other boys 💔 it’s okay buddies you can have a crush!!

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following people you went to high school with is so weird 😭😭 like why are you becoming catholic and why is EVERYONE’S boyfriend ugly????

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Whats up with wanting change so badly but being so completely terrified of it at the same time

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that’s all…

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years ago when I began questioning my sexuality, it was “am I attracted to women or do I just want to be them??” the answer was both but now I’m at the stage of “am I attracted to men or do I just want to be them??”

And I must say it is much worse because I do really want to be them but like if I was a boy I’d want to be taller so that’s just not going to work for me. Is this nonbinaryism someone help me PLEASE

also like sometimes I think guys are cute or hot but thinking of being in a relationship with one just seems like wrong.. I don’t know how to explain it.. but like maybe I’d kiss one again but I didn’t used to like having further encounters past kissing…

my friends think I’m a lesbian but am I allowed to think boys are cute?? There has been so much hostility to and from lesbians about what makes you a lesbian and what doesn’t.. I’m stressed OUT

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been going through it so bad lately!!!! need to find a new vice. what show should I watch next??

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I’ve been craving N+C and they were roommates ficlets all day. Finally in bed, hopefully I can make it through a few before falling asleep 😭😭

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pride weekend: finished!

girls kissed: none :(

texts from an ex: one!

I cried: twice!

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Nick and Charlie 🧡

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Time to rewatch all Heartstopper 🙂‍↕️💖

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HEARTSTOPPER ⏤ 1.04, “Secret”

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does anyone have any good heartstopper fic recs rn? something sweet!!

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hey guys I just remembered I got to see r+j on broadway in October and now I am going to think about it every day for the next two weeks because honestly that show was unfortunately life changing for me and I will never get over it. Kit Connor is everything to me!!! Rachel Zegler is everything to me!!! I feel like I’m going to vom

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this is literally me making friends and wooing my lovers like I cant help but just make them little gifts… I’m just a penguin… I mean girl…