supernova1995

[supernova1995]

You may not like it, but that is what the ideal girlfriend is like

why are my girlfriends always randomly wet and cold

[supernova1995]

uwu

Someone: "Get you a girl wh-..."

Me: "okay" *walks out of the room*

*noises of someone moving things around in a box*

*noises of things being thrown*

*bonk*

*clash*

*cat scream*

Me: I've got a girl. Now what?

Girlfriend: uwu

Me: okay that's fucking adorable

[supernova1995]

[Image ID: A drawing of a fat person pulling up a sweater to show off top surgery scars. The sweater has a trans flag on it. He has short spiked hair, and stretch marks on his stomach and thighs. He wears boxers. There are wavy trans flags surrounding him, and the text to his right reads "Fat people deserve trans healthcare." His facial expression is enthusiastic and happy. /.End ID]

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Please remember that fat trans folks experience increased medical discrimination and decreased access to life-saving medical transition.

It's very common for surgeons to have upper weight limits measured by BMI (body mass index), an outdated and bigoted system that many healthcare professionals have spoken out against as flawed and medically inaccurate.

Doctors often cite potential weight gain as a reason to deny trans people HRT (hormone replacement therapy.)

It is also common for trans people to be asked to lose weight prior to surgery. This is dehumanizing and abusive to the patients.

Fat trans people are often silenced in discussions of their own health. They are exposed to higher rates of medical abuse, inappropriate medical conduct, and bigoted medicine practices.

Fat trans people are often unsafe and unable to advocate for themselves in medical settings.

Furthermore, finding medical professionals who will work with you instead of on you is time-consuming, draining, and costly, on top of the preexisting difficulties of transition.

Advocate for and protect your fat trans friends, particularly your fat trans friends of color, and help prevent medical abuse. Having an ally in a doctor's appointment can be the difference between access to life-saving healthcare and a note to lose weight.

In short, remember to help fat queers where you can, and especially those in the medical field, challenge your colleagues when they reinforce fatphobia. It can be the difference between life and death for a patient.

Parents with fat children, speak up for them. You might not remember it, but your kids can recall each and every time their doctor noted their BMI and you didn't say anything.

[supernova1995]

My E shot: walkthrough

Make sure your hands are clean!☆

So what I do is I take the little glass container and hold it upright. I flick it, sometimes rotate it so that it gets up-side down, anything to make sure the fluid is in the bottom. Then, I break the top off.

After that, I open a sealed thick needle (1.2 mm) and use it to suck up all of the fluid. Do not touch the needle if possible, just, like, touch the cap it comes in.

All of the fluid is sucked up, so now I take off the needle and flick the syringe so that the fluid is in the bottom of it. I pump out all of the air so it looks like in picture 3 (it can take a couple of tries because sometimes bubbles form just at the top)

I then put on a thin needle (0.7mm) and press on the syringe carefully until a little droplet comes out. Then I hold the syringe like a dart for throwing darts and stick it in one quick motion into my Vastus lateralis muscle on the side of my thigh. (Make sure the skin is washed clean)

I pull back to see if any blood gets sucked up. If you see blood, take out the needle and stick it somewhere else in the muscle. You don't want to inject into your blood stream! If there's no blood, I inject it. It takes a while, because the fluid is thick and the needle is thin. About a minute of injecting and I just pull the needle out. There might be a drop of blood, but it's no biggie!☆

Hope this helps!

- SuperNova☆

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My mom got upset at me for using the wording "average woman" when referring to a cis woman when in a video call with my grandma, trying to explain a thing to granny. You're telling me the average woman isn't cis??? Where the fuck are all the non-cis women, mom? Are we living in Cisgender City???

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Doing injections on yourself isn’t that bad after all!

Now that I have the hang of it, I’ll try to make a post explaining on how I do it (with pictures) at some point! Maybe next time I give myself a shot? Also: I have an appointment with the surgeon next week! I might have already blogged that though haha

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Appointment with surgeon+ selfie for TDOV

I went to the surgeon today and I got some great news! My request for a breast augmentation has been approved!☆

I got to try on different sizes of prosthetic breasts to see approximately what mine would look like depending on the implant volume. I havr had a hard time sleeping for a few days, so I wasn't really clear in the head (I even got lost in the hospital) so the surgeon offered that he could order multiple sizes for surgery day and I could even decide just before what size I want! That's probably enough time to decide for somebody with decision-making problems, right?

There is no set date for the surgery, but I have been put in waiting line. I asked how many surgeries they make, to get an idea of how fast the queue advances... he said that they do three trans-related surgeries per day, five days a week. I somehow feel like that might be a bit of an optimistic approximation, but even if they do 10 surgeries a week that is way more than I imagined they do!☆

And just to prove that I am visible, because I haven't uploaded one in a while, and because I'm hot as shit, here's a selfie:

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ALRIGHT GOT MY TITTY GRADED

So I went to the surgeon and, first of all, he kept staring at my tits (yeah, yeah, it's his job) but, like, dude... you've already inspected them.

Anyway, he deemed my boobs as "female enough" which is a ridiculous statement/grading in my opinion, and that "if he has a say in it I shouldn't get implants", BUT I kept telling him I was there because I had some questions! Instead of listening to my questions he basically just went "yeah your boobs fineeee"...

After lots of internal frustration he finally answered my questions...

Is it normal to become less sensitive in the nipples after surgery? "No" he said and reminded me once again that my tits shouldn't go through surgery. "Not unless you cut around the nipple, which we don't do."

Will I have to get another surgery to replace the implants? Apparently they have new implants that have a "life-time guarantee", but they're new-ish on the market so who knows. (Also: I shouldn't get a boob job)

How big are my boobs now? Around 250 milliliters each, which is "good enough!"

What are the sizes of implants?

He said that if he did put implants in me, he wouldn't put in less than 150 milliliters in each breast because the diameter of the smaller implants is too small for my chest size, or something.

So anyways, we've got this dude who lobes tiddies so much he pursued a career in titsology, he most likely thinks they're all good, and if he were to put implants in breasts he wants to make huge boobies because teehee boobies... also he made a creepy comment about "trans women being so very nice", but that was probably just his extremely poor social skills.

Then I went and told my mom about this. I don't know if that was smart... Now every chance she gets she reminds me that I should go big, or go home! "I got 350ml in each boob so you should also get that! No sense in getting tiny implants!"

And while we're on this topic, I would like to present my theory on why cis people don't want us to have breast augmentation surgery: Because they don't want us to get huge badonkers and be "sexier" than cis women. My point here is that, at least for me, that is not the case! I have after this meeting also tried stuffing my bra with bags with 150ml uncooked bulgur to see how it would feel to have implants of that size, and.. it just felt so good? Like, that's what the longing feeling I've been having when dysphoric was yearning for! That was me in the mirror! ☆

I just want my boobies to be slightly noticeable when I'm wearing a jacket, y'know? For my own sake...

Oh, and I got to take professional tit pics after the surgeon's appointment, that was fun! ☆

- SuperNova☆

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I missed my appointment lol

Consultation is in December now

Hello I am on new anti-depressants and things are super weird.

What I mean by super weird and what I mean by things I mean that they seem to actually be working and I don't feel sad and stuff at all. Why is that weird? I still feel dysphoric. Super weird feeling. It's like "oh I'm ugly... okidokes back to whatever I was doing" or "my chest is so small and makes it hard to pass sometimes... and..?"

I do have another consultation meeting for surgery planned in November, but at this rate I worry I won't even care about anything. That would be bad.

- SuperNova☆

P.S. Because I am less depressed I get more horny and that is hella annoying. If you saw me interacting with an NSFW blog just pretend it wasn't me lmao

[supernova1995]

My actual birthday is, like, when I let my mom buy a cake and invite me over, but the anniversary of when I started HRT is when I invite friends over to celebrate me getting through another year!☆

I don't actually like my birthday, it invokes some bad memories, some of them gender related, and I only let people (like my mom) celebrate it because I know they like it... it's nice to have a day that isn't my birthday to get celebrated!☆

Hello fellow non-cis people, i'm back with another question :D

How do you feel about your birthday? Do you feel like it's relevant to you and do you feel connected to it, or do you feel like it was meaningless and decided to pick a new one who means more for you?

[supernova1995]

You're very pretty 💜

Why thank you!☆

[supernova1995]

Hello I am on new anti-depressants and things are super weird.

What I mean by super weird and what I mean by things I mean that they seem to actually be working and I don't feel sad and stuff at all. Why is that weird? I still feel dysphoric. Super weird feeling. It's like "oh I'm ugly... okidokes back to whatever I was doing" or "my chest is so small and makes it hard to pass sometimes... and..?"

I do have another consultation meeting for surgery planned in November, but at this rate I worry I won't even care about anything. That would be bad.

- SuperNova☆

P.S. Because I am less depressed I get more horny and that is hella annoying. If you saw me interacting with an NSFW blog just pretend it wasn't me lmao

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So my dysphoria around my boobas been getting worse these past months and I decided I'll go and meet a surgeon again. Not sure when it's gonna happen, but I just have some questions mainly related to post-op sensitivity of the breasts. My mom recently had gotten implants and said she barely feels her nipples anymore and that is a big no-no for me since that is my main feel-good spot!

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I called my grandma yesterday and she might have misgendered me a bit but holy shit was she trying her best and was she hella respectful? Yes she did and yes she was, and she's 70 and polish.

I told her about my partner and how they're non-binary and she immediately wrote down some notes to not forget, and she used gender neutral language even though it's very unusual in polish ;_;

She's always been so supportive of me and I miss being able to visit her and my grandpa...

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Ignore if annoying or too much emotional labor.

As a nonbinary lesbian, I often find myself relating more with binary trans lesbians than with cis lesbians but sometimes I’m nervous to say that because I am TME and don’t want to cheapen the struggles of trans lesbians that I don’t and will never experience. Also I don’t want it to seem I’m implying that binary trans lesbians are not women since I am not (fully) a woman. I just relate to dysphoria and the common trans experiences and cis lesbians just don’t get that stuff. Anyways so my question is-

How would it come across to you if a nonbinary lesbian said they related more to binary trans lesbians than cis ones?

For me it would come across as "Many cis people, including LGB+ people, never even had to think from a trans perspective, which makes it hard to be understood/accepted as non-binary/GNC/trans etc. and it makes relating to their experience more difficult."

In other words: I do not feel like neither my transness nor womanhood is being diminished at all here! ☆ If anything it's kind of a big mood for me. Relating to trans people of any sort is easier for me than relating to cis WLW most of the time.

Disclaimer: I am not a representative of all binary trans lesbians, they can have different opinions on this

-SuperNova☆

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hey!! i don't follow you but someone on my dash reblogged your tdov selfie and i just wanna say you're absolutely gorgeous 💞💞💞 i hope you have a good day!!

Sorry about checking the inbox first after like a year haha ☆

Thank you!

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Wooow your face is so interesting to look at. Like, your facial structure, cheekbones especially, and your eyes and brows. Idk you’re just really gorgeous and I wanted to tell you💖💜💞💘💖💗💓💞💕💝💜💕💘💖

:3 thank you~☆