surelynot-emerson

[surelynot-emerson]

𝙵𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝟷, 𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟸 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺-𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟹

[ID: February 1. Nothing, merely tired. END ID]

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we were put on this earth to watch movies and listen to music and read books and look at art. and thats it.

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to care about a book seems so daft & so remote to think about a story that isn't us that we've not wrote

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literature of our own chapters forever and a day a book yearning to be whole and to be full of ourselves

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this book is full of ourselves.

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[the only pages i'm interested in turning are the pages stacked on our shelf.]

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my thoughts pour & i rush to get her on paper knowing ill look back & regret the hurry later

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to bother feelings like an empty promise to like feels of waning balance im sure to myself ill never be honest but her name is ringing & i cannot ignore this

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i plaster her on the walls of the inside of my mind i've found that without her presence nothing is left of mine

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i carve her in the skin of the bottom of my lip where her name was once worn out along with the mind she always was in

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i sink into the hotel bed

her smile, where my mind always lands

the frigid air blows on my neck

so in my dream tonight,

she has ice cold hands

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my heart opens

when i hear her laugh

my cheek melts into her shoulder

anything to have these

small moments back,

anything for us to prosper

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i don’t dress for the male gaze i dress for the female gays

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painting: “springtime” by pierre auguste cot

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having “gaaaaaaay” shouted at you as a term of endearment by another lgbt+ person is such a beautiful thing

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i want to be inconvenienced by you. i want to wait for you, i want to hold your things while you do something else, i want to make adjustments to my plans to make space for you. someone at your side who takes up no space and has no needs of their own is not a person, but a shadow. i don't want a shadow, i want you. i want my life to be altered by your presence in it. please, inconvenience me.

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Positividad caótica 🍃

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god i sure hope so, but it’s hard for me to imagine why :/

to ppl who spend all day every day doing nothing ur so important ur so needed don’t ever forget it

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