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Redemption

I am so secure and safe in myself that no comment by anyone triggers or makes me angry. I am aware that everyone including myself have our own pain and baggage. I am quick to forgive myself and others, I hold no grudges and I don’t take anything personally. I am always filled with joy, love and gratitude. Regardless of where I live or how I live, be it in rags or richness, I radiate Joy and…

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Dead to me

JEN: But he’s right. I’m a piece of shit, Judy. I’m a fucking piece of shit. Ted fucking hated me. My kids fucking hate me. I fucking hate me. Everybody fucking hates me. JUDY: I don’t hate you. I could never hate you. JEN: Oh, God, that’s because you love anyone who just gives you a morsel of fucking attention, even if it’s abusive. It’s like you get off on it or something. It’s why you loved…

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नमः

नमः – Sanskrit loosely translated to “not me” or “not mine” or “not my ego self” I want to log this before I forget or loose this chain of thoughts. You all probably know this already, nothing new or a breakthrough here. Just a spec of being finally understanding the ways of the world. There is nothing to be taken personally because there is nothing that is personal. Anything that seems personal…

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Thug Gradma

Loving this grandma from the movie “Rumour has it” If you love the guy, there is something to hang on to. If you don’t wanna marry the guy, don’t. If you do, do. If the marriage implodes, divorce. You haven’t lived fully till you’ve been through one of those. I would like to give a toast. Life is short. But marriage is long. So, drink up.

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loving person

Now how do you become a totally loving person? It’s not that complicated, it’s not easy, but it is simple. Number one is accept yourself unconditionally. Accept yourself as a valuable and worthwhile human being. Don’t be the type of person who doesn’t feel that they’re good enough. Just accept yourself unconditionally. Recognize that you were put here on this earth for a specific purpose, a…

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Old soul entries

I don’t care how this sounds, it’s my truth. My biggest goal in life was always to meet my person. A partner, an equal, somebody that I could grow old with, and like, love with all my heart through every stage of our lives. Somebody that deserved all the love that I knew I had to give, and would give it back to me two-fold. And at times I felt guilty for dreaming of something that relied so…

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Muthulakshmi Reddy the less known hero

Recently read the book “Icons of TamilNadu” by our favorite publisher Amar Chitra Katha. One of the icons was Muthulakshmi Reddy, as I read about her I felt so bad for being a Tamil person and have never heard of her. Shame on me, shame on the society for not celebrating this women. If you are any way related to “Tamil Nadu”, please read the book Now the spoiler aka the actual story: She was…

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Angels

And then there are fewWho don’t need luck,Who don’t need prayers,Who don’t need gods to be on their side,Who don’t need supportive friends or families –Not because they don’t want all those,But because they are true to their heart,Even if being true is at odds with all the above. Their life could in deep shit,shit like you would have never imagined,crap that would stink beyond galaxies,yet they…

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Deshbandhu Chittaranjan: Book review

Of all the leaders who were famous in the freedom fighting movements, my favourite by far is “Deshbandhu Chittaranjan”. I am learning many about freedom fighters that are surprising to me. The men instrumental in the freedom-fighting movement were very well-educated and fine men. They were not only scholars in Indian colleges but have also moved to Universities in the UK Oxford or Cambridge.…

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ChatGPT vs Me

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Book review: If truth be told a memoir

Wow! So Ulupi, the snake princess who lived underwater and eventually married Arjuna is real. Ravana is real. The legends on penance, gods granting boons, demons in dingy places, cross saving life from demons etc… are real. Wow! Loved the book. Kept me gripped. Love books that make me want to forget everything else about life. Weirdly for the first part of the book I couldn’t help but hear Om…

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Melancholy to Mirth

By the grace of god my life is filled with beautiful, wild and interesting moments. For the vast majority of my child I remember being very sad. Over 6-7 years ago through books, yoga, wonderful humans, nature, good jobs, self love etc… my life started changing for the better. I started writing since I was 12-14 as a way to cope sadness. Now that I am happy nothing motivates me to write anymore.…

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வாழ்க பல்லாண்டு

In the beginning of the document Nayanthara mam says “this is an effort to share happiness and invoke happiness in the audience” and the document is true to that statement. Towards the end of the document without even me realising the phrase “வாழ்க பல்லாண்டு” came out of me. It felt like royal wedding and who else can be the queen but Nayan. Glam world is properly one of the most male dominated…

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The joy of cooking

How I found joy in cooking :)

I would never have imagined writing a blog post titled “The Joy of cooking”. While I cook for survival I never attributed joy with cooking until few months back when dear flatmate was sick with flu. You see, she is no ordinary flatmate, she is an extraordinary woman who stared war at its face, said “fuck off”, was in hiding in Austria and eventually moved to UK. She was a woman who did double…

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Kindness kontinues

Story time

This person continues to blow my mind by their kindness. So, this happened. We were chatting about things. For the sake of anonymity of all involved, lets say I live in Madurai. North of Madurai is Chennai and South of Madurai is Kanyakumari. I have been to both Chennai and Kanyakumari via train or bus. So, in theory I should know that North of Madurai is Chennai and South of Chennai is…

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The thank you song

Thank you song written about a friend

Thank you for quilting.Thank you for knitting.Thank you for baking.Thank you for reading.Thank you for opening the pasta jar. (do you remember? i hope you do lol)Thank you for being normal.Thank you for being a calming factor when things around me got chaotic.Thank you for coming out of Cambridge without turning into a prick.Thank you for being kind and decent.Thank you for being kind and decent…

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Mrs Maisel - review

Love it.Man oh man, the language, the plot, the characterisation damn oh damn good.Also made me realise that, whenever my life bumps into something golden, I never realise it at the first glance.Good Men.Jane Austen.Mrs Maisel. I always find them boring or oh not my type and then life gets me. Thank god life gets me eventually. Good Men, Jane Austen, Mrs Maisel, love them all. Love them very…