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I apologize, I was hospitalized. I appreciate your patronage.

Thank you all,

Mod (xe/xer)

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sometimes I someone claiming to plural talking about an experience and I think “yeah that’s not how it works. At all.” And instead of harassing them? I just move on with my day. None of my business.

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i just reunited with my old friends and im absolutely ecstatic but. one of them is questioning if theyre plural and as much as i really reaaaalllyy wanna help and give them my two cents i. im not sure if i should because i might slip up and say something that immediately give away the fact im pro endo and/or plural or something, and i have no idea if theyre anti endo or not nor am i out as plural to them

god i wish i could just be plural without having to worry about this kind of stuff like come on man :(

[[- 🍋🍉 ]]

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we split REALLY easily and we keep accidentally creating headmates "sourced" from other collectives. like we cannot go on another collective's prns.cc for too long or we're taking one of them back with us HELP

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Kinda stupid/silly confession but we don't let one of our alters debate because she has eerily similar speech patterns to Donald Trump. No, she's not an introject. She just talks that way and people get weirded out or think we are doing a bit and accuse us of bringing politics into something. But no, she unironically, completely full heartedly, speaks like that.

Her fronting irl when we have to talk at length doesn't go much better.

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we're a DID system but we've been considering creating a thoughtform for a while

we think it'd be really helpful for our system but at the same time we prefer CDD spaces (that usually tend to be anti endo) when it comes to system stuff most of the time after quite a few bad experiences with pro endos and those spaces we just don't quite feel welcome or comfortable in pro endo spaces that wouldn't care if we did have thoughtforms

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I hate it when people say I need to recover from my trauma to heal, especially because my chronic illnesses are being worsened by it. My trauma is extremely severe, I will never be able to recover. People don't understand the unspeakable things that happened to me are not just average trauma that is easier to overcome and I am afraid that if I start to remember more I won't survive, I won't be able to live, my body will shut down and I will die. I am barely coping heavily dissociated as it is.

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i think i’m plural / a system in some shape or form ,, i worry about people accusing me of faking and shit but then i’m like . actually fuck you i don’t give a shout they’re my experiences not yours

[ - anakin ⚔️ from an unnamed collective / system / something i don’t know whatever bye bye ]{

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people who fake claim a system for having too many fictives are. unintelligent.

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I am not looking for a diagnosis, but. This seems like the only safe place to put this.

I don’t know if I’m a system because I logically CANT be, but I’m not. One person. I’m not even the HOST of whatever the hell we are, I only started existing today and nobody else is worried about this?? ,:(

We don’t match the qualifications of any system disorder is the issue. To my KNOWLEDGE [as again I came into existence today], the first ‘alter’ formed when host was like 7, so too late to be a DID thing. The first few formed from minor trauma at the ages of 5-7, and at the age of like 10 a major traumatic event made this small number erupt into multiple more, and some of them are NOT good people, and not all of them communicate with anyone else??

We don’t have memory blackouts, it’s. Just. Foggy between memories. I can’t remember details from the past couple years, or even MINUTES. But. Some people can?

I don’t know. Im confused. Sorry. :((

-Ginger, from the 🦋 ‘congregation.’

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white bitches loooove to be systems

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I prefer to say I "have a" system instead of "am a" system.

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out of all the things that people claim are aNtI rEcOvErY, the core theory is possibly the stupidest.

i dont think its hurting anyone for my system to point at a child alter who looks and acts like "we" did pre-did and say "this is the original". cause like. what else do we fucking call her.

i know its outdated and inaccurate and im not trying to say that its not either of those two but how is it anti recovery to use specifically the word core to describe an alter

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someone calling someone else out for having a blog dedicated to making fun of systems is really ironic when the person also has a blog dedicated to making fun of systems. like you're just as shit you know. maybe apologize for your shit blog too. i do not care how "obvious" the satire is, you're being hypocritical at that point.

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It's weird to me how many of the people harassing and bullying the person who made the bait blog were complicit in it. They were in the server. They knew what was going on. They chose to keep it a secret.

When the people who were actually lied TO are forgiving them, but the ones who were complicit in the lie are attacking them, it makes me wonder if these people are just looking for an excuse to hurt pro-endos.

They were okay with the bait blog because it hurt pro-endos. Now that the person who made it has become pro-endo, they're actually attacking them for their syscourse stance but masking it by demanding an apology for the bait blog.

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I ran the parody blog Translucent System.

I feel awful about it looking back. I was in a bad state of mind. I had recently rescued my daughter from the grooming she had undergone from people who told her she was plural and had tulpas and kept telling her that they were helping. And I was angry. I made up a story about a girl who was in the same position as my daughter, but didn’t have someone to help them leave that position.

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The things my partner system has confessed to me weighs heavily on me. But I know I can't tell a single soul anything. Not only because it was illegal, but I'm so scared the wrong people will find him again and drag him back into that life. I can't let that happen, at any cost.