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Lol did that like 30 minutes ago

telling ppl they need to eat while actively starving>>

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Just a reminder: No month will be yours if you don't commit to your goals.

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Just broke a 30h fast, I was only planning on doing 24h but it felt so good, I had to break it through cause I throw up if I don't eat for too long. I miss being able to fast for 3 or more days easily but it's probably from that among other things why my body can't hack it anymore. I've eaten a few slices of tomato and I've made rice cakes with egg and tomato on it but I'm so scared to eat it, and these are all safe foods it's so stupid

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Sometimes it feels like this.

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Skin shouldn't touch skin, stay beautiful.

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I've noticed I become less active when I'm not losing weight, I just feel ashamed, my weed addiction makes me binge and purge and I'm a sloppy purger so I just gain weight but I'm out of weed and I'm broke so I can stop smoking and lose this weight

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Drunk and high as hell but gonna do a small workout, crunches etc, a little bit is better than nothing.

five minutes of exercise is better than none. one snack is better than three. 1500 cals is better than 2000.

slow progress is better than no progress.

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Fuck life man, I have an ed, I'm drinking daily from the moment I wake up, doing drugs and I still don't feel happy, Im constantly fucking my dopamine receptors how ever I can and it's better than being sober, it's better than nothing but it's still not enough. Why is everything so hard, why is everything too much, why isn't the world built for people like me, why am I so lonely. I honestly don't know what's it's all for, for me at this point suicide isn't an option (believe me I've tried) but life is so hard, I am terrified of the future (but also terrified of death), that is the root of a lot of my problems. I need help desperately but I don't believe there is any help out there that can help me, I'm "not autistic enough" for an NDIS support worker and I've been in therapy half my life and it doesn't help. Or the therapist ditches me. I feel like I can't talk to my friend about it or rely on them because no one wants to be a Debby downer and they have there own problems, talking to them will only make them feel worse, I need to make friends cause I only have 2 and 0 family cause they are all cunts but idk how especially in a small town. Anyways sorry for the emotional drunk ramble I just needed to get shit out.

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One day of allowing myself whatever I wanted for my birthday turned into a 3 day long stoned binge session, fuck the munchies, I'm just glad I've run out now. I can't bear to weigh myself for the next few days.

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I wanna walk in the snow and not leave a footprint, I wanna walk in the snow and not soul it's purity - Manic Street Preachers

Listen to 4st 7lb by Manic Street Preachers my second favourite ed song.

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I gotta find moots, new account would y'all be dear and reblog this for me?? Ill be posting pretty much every day. Things like body checks, wieiad, progress, vents and all my fucked up thoughts the rest of the world wouldn't get. thank youuu <3

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reblog if you hate your thighs

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Why do my friends think it’s necessary to tell me they haven’t eaten all day?? Do you want an award or sum

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My gw is 50kg but I know when I get there it won't be enough, my ugw used to be 45kg and my lowest is 46kg it will bother me forever that I desided to "recover" literally 1kg before I hit it

The feminine urge to lower my ugw everytime I look in the mirror 😍

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If you had enough self control you’d be skinny now.

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someone: quit bouncing your leg

me: hesitates but continues to lowkey bounce my leg