#! lav loves you !

[lieutenantism]

i'm currently thinking about how jean loses himself completely to harry. just dissolves entirely. very little sense of identity left outside his partnership with him, which i find so intriguing. i mean, it's the definition of codependency, but that doesn't make it any less interesting (long post, again).

"i won't let my life unravel because of this." is just so insane and melodramatic to me because WHO is that man to you, jean? and why is his alcoholism the reason for your life unraveling? jean takes on harry's drinking problem as a problem of his own, a threat to his life before harry's, even though the drinking doesn't affect harry's ability to do his job, and jean acknowledges that as well as everyone else in the major crimes unit.

but why does he have such a big problem with harry's alcoholism? why's he the only one out of the task force who seems to care obsessively? because the one before him failed to save him, and he feels as though it's his responsibility now. to jean, harry's life is divided to three parts; before him, during him, and tragically, after him.

the fact jean puts himself in the same position as dora, harry's ex, tells you enough. almost as if he considers them to be the same, in terms of responsibility for harry's wellbeing. he's cleaning up her mess, he seems to think. she was way before my time, as though they hold the same significance to harry. of course, this isn't entirely jean's fault. both him and harry share the guilt of their twisted relationship; harry's guilty of getting too personal with anybody within arm's reach.

and jean's guilty for wanting to clean up a mess that he didn't make, and losing sight of himself and his true professional duties in the process. so it goes like this; they partner up, harry's bad at drawing the line between personal and professional relationships and jean's even worse, harry goes on benders every week and jean witnesses them and tries to pull him out of them relentlessly, which then leads to whatever fucked up partnership they had, right before martinaise. the question is why did jean feel the need to save him? because he projected onto him severely.

they're both broken men; mirrors of each other, though jean will never say it out loud. he sees himself in harry, and since he can't save himself and everyone's given up on him, even the professionals, he decides not to give up on harry. in a way, jean's trying to prove to himself that he's not a lost cause through sticking by harry's side through it all, because if even the most lost of causes manages to have at least one person who's there for them at all times, who says he can't have one too? why must he be labelled as the anomaly? if harry du bois could be saved, so can he. he maintains this "i have my shit together, i'm better than you." persona during the entire confrontation, when he isn't. like i said, harry is everything jean works hard in order not to become, yet he still manages to lose his sense of identity while "saving" him and only becomes "harry's partner". that's all he is. nothing but a safety net, there to catch him at all times.

that's why he becomes extremely defensive when you choose the "kim's cooler than you." option, because you're practically robbing him of his identity. throughout the entirety of the game, he keeps repeating: "i'm your partner", to reassure himself more so than anything else, and what the game does here is very clever. you first hear him say that on a call, so distant and away from you; he cannot convince you that he's your partner even if he tried. then, he says it when he's in an idiotic disguise that you didn't recognize, and quite frankly it's making you uncomfortable, it's hard to take him seriously when he looks so stupid so you don't believe him, again. then at last, when he confronts you, and he's himself. then you think it sticks.

but it doesn't, and you dismiss him again to ask about the others. i've always found it perplexing how there's no "how can you be my partner?" option during the confrontation. you can ask about mikael heidelstam for fuck's sake, but not your partner. simply because you don't believe he is, at least not anymore. he's just a very angry man who was in a stupid disguise, and that's all you can ask him about. isn't that so insanely tragic? when you think about how dismissive the "confrontation" is? and jean's lashing out that way because his whole identity is hanging in the balance? no matter what jean tells harry, there's no click, no lightbulb flickering moment, nothing. jean tries everything, it's painful to see, really. the "i didn't lie to you. no one lies to you." and his lines to judit and trant where he's like "i told you, it's typical harry behavior. it's our shitkid." and so on are all attempts to prove that he, jean, knows him, harry, better than anyone else, even himself. he KNOWS him, which is why harry has to need him. he has to keep him. as his partner or whatever the hell it was, because nobody else knows him or will ever get to know him that way.

jean's response to harry telling them "i don't wanna be in your unit." only further proves it. "i'm your partner, i answer for you when you're not there." considering the fact harry and jean had begun to blur ever since their partnership came into being makes the line funnier lol. jean had locked himself up in a prison of his own making, of course with harry giving him all the means necessary to build his own cage beforehand. it was a matter of time and conditioning, and severe loneliness. every crime of harry's feels like one jean is guilty of.

[transsextual]

untitled, elle emerson (@transsextual)

[text id: my baby and i couldn't be happy with just these human bodies. i'm her boy & her puppy & it's right because have you ever seen a truer expression of joy than that of a puppy who has done nothing all day but sleep and wait when his person walks in the door? not many things more eager, more honest, than that kind of love. and truly i'm clumsy and nervous and i take silly things too far. even now i expect to be punished for my wildness in at least some small way. she's training me out of all that hurt. "no more sleeping on the floor, baby" she says. & every night i get next to her is the best one yet. i can't always say it as well as i'd like, but in my heart i'll be wagging up a storm, & i know she sees it when she tells me hello like i'm brand new, even though we've been in love for ages.]

[idiotsonlyevent]

i love izutsumi and chilchuck's relationship soooooooo much. chilchuck's arc (or at least a large part of it) is about opening up to emotional vulnerability and admitting that he needs others to help him just as much as he helps them - and him reaching out to izutsumi is a big and Very Important part of that!!

there's a reason He's the one always needling her, and it's not just because he's An Actual Dad... it's because he recognizes that she's similarly closed off, he's already recognized how being emotionally vulnerable isn't Actually All That Terrible, and he wants to guide her through that process too :')

[mysticallystilinski]

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⤷ stiles stilinski - rafe cameron - anakin skywalker - coriolanus snow

… to be continued

[lunarshadow04]

Zeep zorp

SCREAMING

ITS LAV. GUYS ITS LAV ITS MY BOY

I'M SO HAPPY AHHHH he always just looks so good in your style

WHEN YOU DRAW HIM IT MAKES ME HAPPY

Tysm Ectype 😭💜💜

[the-lavender-clown]

I love this girl sm yall don’t even know

[princescar]

New AU (inspired by my furina/focalors autism spew earlier)

In which Junko wants to feel Ultimate Despair and wipes her memories, becoming Ryoko(permanently). She programs AI Junko to control the entire school, including the monokumas. And she has AI Junko force Ryoko to be the mastermind.

Ai Junko, who has control over everything, convinces Ryoko to play the part as mastermind or she'll kill her and her classmates. Ryoko tries to refuse but she can't, she's literally stuck there, and Ai Junko will kill her if she doesn't do this.

Ryoko, who is the worse mastermind EVER, who is trying to find a way to save everyone, freaks out after the first murder. She tries to back out, tries to refuse to continue, but Ai Junko takes control, and kills Mukuro as a warning.

So Ryoko turns to the only person left to help her, Kyoko. And because she's helping "Monokuma", she gets labeled as the traitor.

Also Byakuya dies because I dont like him...

Idk, I like this, might do something with it....

[whosectype]

For your sketch book!

What if you drew like chai and lav and some other cuphead ocs/characters having a movie sleepover night or something?

and or character/oc outfit swaps? 👀

I didn’t have much room so I just drew Lav in chai’s usual fit hehe

@queenkittycat123 @momento-morii-ua

This is on like the back back page alsksjdjd

@cupid-shortcake

They would probably get along teehee

[ndostairlyrium]

Bit of a progression, and some artistic surgery for Lav 💛 a disfunctional young adult who thinks too much and tries her very best to make things go boom

[lavender-long-stories]

oml I need some confirmation; Sasuke has been in love w Hina and devised the entire plan just to get with her? (I will love you)??? if yes...that's actually insane

Spoilers for I Will Love You

I tend to leave things like that up to interpretation if I don't say it outright.

You can choose to believe that he loved her and this was a convenient way to solve two problems if you like that kind of story OR if you like a 'you can choose who love' type of story, you can believe that Sasuke found Hinata very easy to love after they made the deal.

Itachi believes he was in love before.

Itachi face flattened, making it hard to read. “Did you fall in love with her before or after?” Sasuke blinked at him. Itachi nodded and lifted himself from the door frame. “Clever plan.” He disappeared down the hall.

But Sasuke implies that he changed something.

“I made a promise, and I kept it.”

NOW! The real question is: if he was in love before... did he know before he made the deal? He might not have even known himself yet.

[crimewizards]

shout out to me circa 2018. babygirl you have no idea how gay you will be for laura jane grace.

[lavenderstemssss]

To the ones who have daddy AND mommy issues, I see you and I love you 💕✨

[mysticallystilinski]

currently at my sisters house, but stuck here because of the fog. also??? how have i never seen this picture before?????!!!! he’s so baby cute wtffff

[mayoiayasep]

Heyyy idk if you can answer asks right now But I love you and I miss you and I’m so sorry you’re shadowbanned :( virtually hugging you rn

i can answer asks its just harder for me to send then bc i have to be on anon. but still tysmmm hugging you too i feel like i cat trapped behind the glass anytime i try to send anyone something

[the-lavender-clown]

The urge to compile every single Donnie I’ve ever drawn just to see how insane I am when it comes to that ourple turt

[lavenderthewolf]

I just finished playing Shadows of Rose and my heart has been fucking ✨️shattered✨️