#//she had a hard childhood

[here-lies-hope]

(Not so) Random Info about Pickles (and family) that I'm too ADHD to format better (Cyberpunk 2077 finally):

Her first name is Philba (Phil-buh) but she goes by her middle name, Pickles. Her middle name on her birth certificate is indeed Pickles.

If you call her by her first name, she will assume she's going to get in trouble and might flee from you.

Her parents were love struck, committed to each other. Breehana had been a corporate small cog until she broke away, changed her last name to Canner and started selling what she was able to grow, buy or steal.

Orbis, who would eventually become Mr. Canner, started out as a radio host going by the alias BFG or the Big Friendly Giant. However, no one was really interested in hearing a man preaching peace in Night City, so he was eventually cut and left on the curb.

Breehana met Orbis around this time and he quickly fell in love with her, though she was far more concerned with surviving. Everyone in Night City had the goods they needed, or could find them from someone they knew already, instead of a fresh start up. So Orbis did what he does best! He meddled.

Breehana allowed Orbis to live with her while he searched for another job. But Orbis never got another conventional job, instead spending all of his time researching how to help Breehana get better footing for selling her preserved goods. Turns out a nomad clan called the Travelers was in town, taking applications, so to speak. So Orbis made his case.

The Travelers were a neutral clan, welcomed with a touch less hostility than other nomad clans. After all, they were more a clan of traders than anything else. Orbis went to them and pitched Breehana's goods (having stolen a few jars of what she had around the apartment). The Travelers couldn't see a reason not to bring the woman into the fold. She was talented, able to recreate the taste of sauerkraut, apple butter and pickles like no other.

Breehana, who had always wanted to get out of the city of dreams, was ecstatic about the news. Orbis asked only then if he would be allowed to join her. She agreed.

They were together for a year and a half before they decided they knew and married. Sauerkraut, their oldest daughter, was born two years later.

Fast forward 15 years to when Pickles is born. Pickles has 11 older siblings and at age 4 was expecting a little sibling who would be called Fig.

But sometimes bad things happen, for no good reason at all. At least, Pickles would never see a good reason. During the summer after her 4th birthday she was playing with some other children, including her best friend Zurk, a 7 year old who had originally befriended her older brother Kernel. As they played, they found themselves the target of a bizarre attack. An adult with a knife came running at them and lunged at Pickles, slicing her open from her belly button to her sternum. One of the other children picked up a stick and started to attack the adult, giving Zurk enough time to scoop up his young friend and make a mad dash for the town they set up camp in. He found it ablaze, blood painting the dirt as corporate cruisers took off.

Zurk went looking for his parents, a ripper doc and surgeon, one of them would be able to save her, right? There was no sign of them in the chaos. Fortunately for his small friend, his parents had been training him and a few of the junior members of the Travelers. 16 and 17 year olds took the unconscious Pickles back to the retrofitted van that served as a med bay and managed barely to keep her alive. They had helped with minor injuries, illness and bullet grazings before this.

Pickles was not expected to live. Zurk never left her side, praying over her as she slept after they sewed her up.

Pickles was told shortly after she was conscious and cohesive for the first time, that her family had not been found in the aftermath. No other Canner was still part of the Travelers. After the attack, the Travelers left within the day, having found no sign of those who disappeared. But there was plenty of blood. Most made their own assumptions.

It took perhaps longer than it should've but Pickles would walk again after many long weeks of rest.

The first day she's allowed out and about, she walks until she splits her stitches and Zurk carries her back. It's during this healing period that Pickles begins having horrible nightmares. Reliving moments that happened and dreams that play on moments that didn't. Her nightmares continue long into adulthood and continue to plague her now. At 12, Pickles meets a giant enby named Beetle who helps her become more adept at shooting and netrunning. They gave her a blueprint and ready-to-go projectile launcher system, one that could be adjusted to force elemental damage (fire, electricity, acid, etc.) with every projectile launched.

Zurk and Pickles were still given a place to live within the Travelers for awhile, but Pickles' nightmares, sleepwalking and all around oddness would cause them to be ostracized and quietly left behind when Pickles was 15 and Zurk was 18. Old enough to fend for themselves.

The two were abandoned in a town called Sandpoint in the badlands outside of Atlanta. Neither of the youngsters were sure what to do next. They left Sandpoint to its demise when Pickles and Zurk discovered a cult that worshiped a god of hardship, pain and death.

Before that though, Pickles ran head first into danger one too many times, and was kidnapped by the cult when she ran after someone who tried to jump them. Pickles was tortured, interrogated and flatlined a few times, resuscitated to continue the cycle.

They asked for someone named Jason. She didn't know anyone named Jason. So it continued. It went on for a day before Zurk finally managed to track her down to the warehouse she was held in. It did not end well for those cultists. They left Sandpoint behind, traveling to Atlanta where they did not fare particularly well. So, after a month of deliberating, they drove the Canner family bus from Atlanta to Night City the night of Pickles' 21st birthday. Zurk, 24, smiled down at his little sister who was snoring loudly in the passenger seat.

Pickles and Zurk have been in Night City for almost a year when 2077 rolls around. Zurk has become an apprentice of the nearby ripper doc, shadowing him most days while Pickles focuses on song writing and adventuring doing mercenary work.

[surreal-duck]

live drama adaptations part 2 (prev)

cast reveal and girls movie night 🔥

[sweepingboy]

sweeping general

[mother-of-houseplants-2]

fiona gallagher // "i bet on losing dogs" by mistki

[demodraws0606]

The way people talk about Tsukasa makes me want to murder people /neg

Somehow just because Tsukasa attracted the attention of the younger fanbase, people just have found themselves allowing to dunk on his fanbase because "how dare these 12 year old misinterpret a character that I don't even personally like".

Because yeah it's almost like young people can identify a darker part of a character but overexagerate it because the part that discerns nuance isn't even fucking developped yet. Or you know maybe it's just fun making angst, maybe they're just venting through Tsukasa ?

And somehow these people making angst are somehow more wrong than the people who just act as though Tsukasa is like the happiest guy ever with the least amount of struggles (because how dare he be happy, the only way a person can be struggling is if they're miserable 24/7).

Like it's wild it's somehow the same thing that happened to Sans, it's as though people don't realize that making a character have less problem than in canon is just as much of a misinterpretation than the opposite, you're not smarter for it.

No genuinely what's wrong with people, every other male oc fans get to do whatever and somehow Tsukasa fans are the ones that only enjoy his character cause he's a "dude".

I'm a Rui fan but it makes 0 sense to me how much of us just get away with more because ig it's more acceptable to make angst of rui ????

Like people say "wow people exagerate Tsukasa's backstory so muchh lol", like ok here are the multiple instances of Tsukasa flashbacks :

-Dazzling Lights

-Tenma mixed event

-Colorfes card

-Vocaloid World Link

Wow, yeah really short and rare Tsukasa flashbacks yeah....

And also people acting as though he was fine being alone at home are just straight up lying, like that is a lie the game literally tells you he's not fine blatantly in Dazzling Lights. And if you somehow needed more proof you can dig through the vocaloid world link, his colorfes card or even fucking side card stories.

There's no reason to talk about Tsukasa fans and how exagerated Tsukasa angst is i'm sorry, you're just being a bully and passive agressive to fans who want to have fun. The only time it's worth while to dunk on them is for ableism which IS a problem with Tsukasa fans.

Obviously I'm not gonna police you into what you should talk about but I just think it's really obnoxious and just kinda has been worsening the toxicity of this already radioactive fandom.

Also don't take anything in this post too personally this is just like a scream into the void about this fandom's behavior around Tsukasa.

I'm talking about this also because I literally saw firsthand how just kinda mean people are to others who just have fun.

[sukibenders]

Aegon, Aemond, Helaena, and Daeron looking at Alicent after she washes her hands of a war, that she (and Otto) dragged them into, and the throne, that she (and Otto) forced them to grasp/fight over even though they obviously didn't want it, and goes off to live her best life while they are all still stuck in a cycle forced on to them without their input (obviously this is about the s2 final):

[kinokoshoujoart]

the coolest kids in forgotten valley!!☆

(…it seems there may have been a stretch of time where rock and lumina were the only kids in forgotten valley…🥲)

poseref

[aromanticasterisms]

no but actually. the parallels to other Twins in different nations of teyvat in relation to the traveler and their desire to reunite with their own sibling makes me a little bit bonkers. like.

diluc and kaeya as what the traveler has and fears, after we will be reunited [separation born from conflict that seemingly cannot be mended; they both care for each other but ultimately their opposing ideals mean they cannot be at each other's side in the same way that they used to, and no longer have the close bond they once did]

ei and makoto as what the abyss sibling experienced [a crushing loss not just of one's twin but the last remaining friend they had and the safety and security of their nation, coming out the other side traumatized, cold and jaded and making decisions that will ultimately hurt the people they claim to want to protect for the sake of an unattainable goal]

and lyney and lynette as what the traveler and the abyss twin used to have before they were separated [never apart for long, home is wherever we are together], what the traveler wants [their separation brief and quickly amended, continuing to be inseparable after they reunite], and also the choice they'll have to make [the twins being together in an organization the traveler inherently doesn't trust - does the traveler want to be by their sibling's side badly enough to throw their lot in with the abyss, and turn their back on everyone else they've met on their journey so far?]

[valtsv]

seeing the chernobyl fanfiction ask i got last month on my dash again and while i have never and will never write chernobyl fanfiction i feel like i might as well confess that i used to play littlest pet shop nuclear fallout disaster rp as a kid (nobody lives/everybody dies, graphic descriptions of radiation poisoning) so like anon wasn't that far off i guess

[naturecalls111]

I think I love Sanji so extra much because he’d acknowledge my ‘girl-ness’ in a way that I feel like has not ever been acknowledged in a way I wanted it to be wails

The chivalry intended not with hopeful reciprocation but with admiration. WAILS.

[wardencallings]

Dragon Age OC Question!!

If your Warden, Hawke, and/or Inquisitor -- or even Rook if you're an overachiever -- fell into a Desire Demon's trap, how would the demon manipulate them? What (or who) would they see? Where would they be?

[yourlocalsewerdragon]

revisiting this site every now and then to reminisce in how much it shaped me as a person and defined me as a literal child

[valkerymillenia]

You know what would be a really interesting plot twist?

If Mizu actually did find her father and it turned out he just wasn't evil. Like, if the man, even as a foreigner, was a genuinely decent person.

It would be interesting to see the moral struggle for Mizu after her whole life's mission was to eliminate the guy. Plus, they vilify the white men so much but it would be interesting if one of them was just a man, not a colonialist horror.

[spotaus]

Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.

[obsidianstrawberrymilk]

People will be like "Oh Kouyou is so mature and stable and put together" you're literally falling for her facade she is twenty six and projects so hard onto a suicidal 14 year old and the way she speaks is so antiquated it's ridiculous and her listed dislikes include hope she should be at the club

[mossflower]

ough. vrisrezi. if you even care