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todayisafridaynight · 1 month

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We rlly don’t need another majima game 😭 please give other characters a chance he already had the spotlight in 0😔

lord if i speak on goro majima.

#snap chats #my last nerve was seeing him front and center on that Three Legends shirt with daigo and saejima im SICK OF HIM #what do you MEAN the Sixth Chairman is backseating majima. like thats his retainer PUT DAIGO UP FRONT #it aint even bias its gen just like. why is the sixth chairman not treated the most important. thats The Chairman of the whole shit #EX chairman whatever we know what i mean #'snap its just a shirt' and these are just my balls alright its all the little things that are like Dawg Cmon #i woulda got the shirt cause it looks like somethign youd get from claires and thats hilarious However ... im annoying.#ill say this then play y0 and be like Ah..... i love you...#fr tho im sick of him GO AWAY YOU ARE NOT THAT GUY #im that meme of spiderman holding back the train and the trains saying mean things about majima #this ire is only brought by rggtwt mates insisting majima needs any more content. like at all.#they gave majima a y0 statue but as far as i can see kiryu doesnt have one like What.#ik i say id skip y0 kiryu if i could during replays and its never that serious but still .... the hell...#my brother in christ majima does not need any more why are you acting starved #i get it hes your fave but my god. goku this trains heavier than i thought i cant do it #ive had beef with rggtwt ever since they tried to say majima was more important to kiryu than haruka. like brb eating a cactus #rgg making gaiden was the worst thing they couldve done cause now everyone wont stop mentioning charas getting a gaiden game #MAJIMA OF ALL OF THEM DOES NOT NEED ONE MFER THATS WHAT Y0 WAS FOR. WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT #THEY GAVE HIM AN EXTRA STORY IN YK2 ALSO LIKE RGG IS DOING THE MOST FOR A SIDE CHARACTER #anyway this is why im happy saejima and akiyama are getting figures. ESPECIALLY AKIYAMA #I FEEL LIKE WE NEVER SEE SHIT OF THAT GUY and saejima. tbh. but still ... akiyama esp just feels left out #big hope other charas start to get more love. like my daughter haruka ok rgg plesae drop one of her idol statues thank you #on a lighter note september is almost upon us which means two things #1.) i have to move back to school at the end of the month 2.) rgg news is soon .....#SOOO curious as to what's on the horizon .. maybe ill stream it for the first time in nine thousand years #ok bye im gonna eat cereal <- diced spam and rice

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kiwisandpearls · 2 months

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…some guy tried to argue in my post about how I don’t get antis who fix art saying that it was their right to do so because they’re ‘exploring the moral high ground of art’ and that I’m somehow contradicting me being profic and I’m also being ‘anti-freedom’ which…

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#talk away ⌞🍵🍋 ⌝#genuinely so confused #I blocked the user already #I’m not arguing with someone who’s clearly being dishonest about my words #but I genuinely want to understand what the hell they could possibly mean by any of that #proship #profic #anti anti #like…#I wasn’t saying it should be illegal for antis to do it #it’s dumb but not worthy enough to be made illegal #and I’m perfectly fine with admitting that technically it falls under transformative art #so I don’t where the guy got any of that shit from #all I said was #‘I don’t get it and think it only serves to make people feel morally superior and I think it’s a dick and block-worthy move’#ALSO #don’t go tracking down that user and harass them #I didn’t get them and was annoyed by how they were trying to paint me #but it really wasn’t much but an inconvenience lol

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watermelinoe · 9 months

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my niece once got upset w my dad bc he wouldn't buy her some overpriced drunk elephant skincare product. she was freaked out about getting wrinkles. at age eight. i wish her mom had never bought her that damn smartphone

#idk if my brother is dad of the year or anything but he didn't want her to have the smartphone so points for that #her mom bought it so she could track my niece whenever she's with her dad (my brother) and text her constantly #and considering she's so petty that she made my niece leave an easter gathering with a terminal family member early it's like #i'm sure she has her side of it and my brother was probably a dick somehow but girl you're punishing an eight year old about it #and i really don't think shit like ''ice age is for boys (so i won't watch it)'' came from my brother #i'm sure i'm biased bc it's my brother but genuinely i think she bought my niece that phone to spite him #and now she's just glued to it bc that's what smartphones are designed to do !!!!#you would really fuck up your own kid's attention span and self esteem just to get back at your ex???#and this isn't even the worst parenting move on her part but luckily that guy died and can't be around my niece anymore ever <3 #but i just worry about her. since i moved away i don't really get to see her.#and not to be narcissistic but i feel like it's good for her to see women w short hair no makeup comfy clothes etc.#i wanna be a good example for her #i told her she should just worry about washing with soap wearing sunscreen and drinking lots of water #i just can't relate at all. at her age all my friends were boys and i was into dinosaurs and pokemon and werewolves #a lot of girls... didn't really like me 😔 i remember being upset bc one girl called me a tomboy #anyway if u read all this. secret radioactive kiss just for u. mwah 💚

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devilsskettle · 5 months

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i feel like i’ve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt people’s opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you don’t have a relationship with these people they’re just content creators, chill

#ready to see all the people coming out of the woodwork to say how they’ve never liked watcher/unsolved/etc #and act like it’s ‘cringe’ now that their fanbase feels ‘betrayed’#it’s great to have a fanbase but parasocial relationships will bite you in the ass every single time #it’s interesting too though because i’ve seen watcher have a LOT of support as they’ve tried to build something separate from buzzfeed #so this is the first time they’re getting real pushback about a decision they’ve made wrt shifting their platform/expanding their brand #so ig we’ll have to see how they react moving forward #but it’s soooo interesting to see how enthusiastically people dump on buzzfeed #AND how many people dump on youtube and how over the years so much of its functionality has been stripped away #how many ads you have to sit through. how much sponsored content there is now. etc #but when they try to do the same thing with youtube that they did with buzzfeed it’s like how dare you not lick their boots #because if you lick their boots and we lick their boots we can watch stuff for free #anyway.#even if you don’t any to say it’s a bad business decision. it’s not like there’s not precedent for it #1) the move away from buzzfeed was successful and 2) what about the dnd shows or whatever #don’t you guys watch those dnd shows that are ‘behind a paywall’#don’t you guys have netflix hulu disney hbo amazon etc ad nauseum that are actually owned by billion dollar corporations #don’t you guys get on your high horses about supporting independent artists all the time #it’s interesting that people will profess to be such big fans!!! and feel like they’re friends!!!!#but how dare they think their work might be worth paying for #idk. idk. it’s entitlement though #sorry for the rant i’m ALSO not trying to blindly defend a bunch of people i don’t know #but you guys are being soooo fucking annoying about it lol #anyway i’m still waiting to see what their response is going to be from here before jumping to conclusions #also to be fair i am biased to be lenient about decisions made by independent filmmakers vs big studios etc #like everybody freaking out about the ai art used in late night with the devil. who cares honestly #‘they should’ve paid a real artist!!’ idk maybe their budget didn’t cover that #i don’t want it to become the industry norm but at the end of the day i would rather see indie shit getting made then only seeing #the big studios (who don’t have equitable practices anyway!!) making shit #but that’s another conversation. just to be transparent about my viewpoint on this kind of thing #maybe controversial but also can’t we have nuance. for once.

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apathyfairy · 16 days

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me at 13: by the time im 30 i will probably be married and maybe have a kid but for sure i will be living in my dream city and have my dream job. and also a lot of money

me at almost 30: i think i will treat myself to a corn dog this weekend

#i want a corn dog so bad rn #ngl u guys im actually really struggling with turning 30 at the end of the year lmao #not lmao bc it really is bothering me which is so stupid i know I Know #but. and i know we're All struggling with this. but it's like god i have done nothing with my life #like fr. everyone says that but i literally have done nothing. ive never had a real 9-5 ive been freelancing since college #and tbh i guess that's not a bad thing? but self worth wise i feel like a complete loser.#but ive just made one mistake after another and i know that's what your 20s are for and u know what this is my tags and im not going #to keep contradicting myself i feel like shit bc i feel like shit and ive wasted my whole life thats that #i just feel like such a sham like i cant believe this is what 30 is like i on god feel like im still a teenager #not in a carefree kind of way OBVIOUSLY. which i never was anyway. but i just ?? feel like that #scary fucking episode of rugrats where tommy and chuckie become their dads and they go to work and theyre so fucked up bc #well theyre babies and they dont know anything. and even the fact that i just referenced rugrats to explain how i feel lmaooooo #relationship wise well u guys know how that is. and i truly couldnt care less about what people think about me not being in a relationship #ever and tbqh i dont give a fuck anymore either like. and here i go bringing this up again. but after my ex im like ok life truly is so #short fr i dont even care like anyway. anyway. the point is there is just no reality whatsoever where i pictured my life where i am now #once again living with the abusive relative i moved across the ocean to get away from.#no love life to speak of. fr dont care but god wouldnt it be nice to be loved fr.....#no career. living in a state i hate with all my heart. barely surviving money wise. which is everyone rn but #if i had known 10 years ago this would be my life i would have honestly killed myself.#like if i knew it would all turn out like this i wouldnt have moved i wouldve just fr killed myself and i wish i did lol #to be fair. i didnt see myself living past 18 but like. i just thought something would have saved me by now

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milo-is-rambling · 2 months

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I think I’m always going to be running and trying to find the next thing that will make me happy and it will always be something I have to find within myself. So that’s cool.

#escape tag on the mind. thinking about getting up north and the joys of the road and then realizing I would have to start my life there. I #would still have to settle down somewhere and have a home #guy who wants to leave constantly and not be found but cant shut up and loves to leave evidence of themselves everywhere #love covering things in stickers love writing my name on park benches love leaving my mark on the world #but also. get me out of here and I need to get somewhere where the world feels bigger than my bedroom #cause Florida feels so suffocating rn like I have no where to go no where to be me to be happy to have friends to have fun #I feel so trapped in my room and my room feels so monotonous #idk what to do to change it cause im avoiding being miserable and the fear of failure is eating me alive so im not taking any hard chances #to move forward and it makes me want to throw up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my mom randomly brought up sending me up north with like a six month budget plan or whatever and now idk if I should be looking for a job #that hard or not and idk what I’m doing and it’s freaking me out and I want to run away from everything #but I also would do fucking anything to be near my friends rn to feel like I can breathe when I go outside to be up north would fix so much #of my shit going on rn and even if it didn’t magically make me happy it would be so much easier for me to set roots (even temporarily) andi #can live month to month up there my mom pressures me so hard to have long term plans and it’s not what I need rn at all I need to focus on #short term shit and not get anxious about the big picture but my mom cannot shut up about the big picture and future steps and all this shit #and idk what’s real and what’s hypothetical plans and it’s so annoying and frustrating and I want to get my shit together but I also don’t #bc the world seems miserable but god I would so much rather be miserable up north with Millie near me than be miserable in the heat w my mom

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ayyponine · 2 months

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not to be a milennial but harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban really is that bitch....

#mom wanted to rewatch the movies so we've been going thru them <3 #talk about a movie thats just like. grief. i turn into the jamie lee curtis halloween trauma supercut #SORRY..... the visuals are peak like that IS the hp vibe to ME and i am BLOWN AWAY this movie was made in 2004 it feels ahead of its time #the first two are so whimsical and magical enrapturing and this movie is like. a well worn cardigan. this feels 2011 cozycore to me #sorry but the introduction of lupin becoming a comforting trusted guardian type of figure AND the dementors representing hollow depression #this 13 yr old whos been kept in the dark on so many things being extra vulnerable prey to them bc of the severe trauma #but getting lessons on how to withstand that creeping dread.. through happy memories... still bonding w lupin increasngly ouagh...#the grief between them both over james and lily. also btw ofc defense against the dark arts being fighting yr fears through laughter. aaaaaa #and then sirius. black. im. i know we meme on the twelve years of it! in azkaban! but as a bitch whos now closer to those characters in age #and can appreciate and understand them obv more than i could when i was. a tween. that just hits like ok shit. VALID #so valid and real to see the child of your friends you knew at that age but who DIED and then see the friend who betrayed them #to see like the best of BOTH of them mirrored and living on in him and be like yknow what???? you WILL be protected frm that same fate #hoooo the briefest moment where harry might hope things will turn out okay. w sirius' name being cleared and peter having to explain himself #and sirius being like hey i get it if you want to stay w your family that is fine but. if you wanna move in w me...#(harry relaying this to hermione later as well. dreaming of a place fr just the two of them somewhere in the countryside #somewhere..... sirius might see the sky..... bc he thinks he would like that after all those years locked up do not even touch me rn.......)#only fr everything to turn to shit two friends fighting w deadly force. the chance to set this right slipping off into the night.#a million dementors descending relentlessly until utter exhaustion and certain death. some strange salvation? fight for a second chance?#but then still havign to say goodbye when they only just GOT this. and everything still being so. god. and lupin having to leave as well.#the thought of sirius also WANTING that guardian type connection but being forced to live in 1. a cave barely living more freely than before #2. then being confined to the stuffy somber abusive home he ran away from as a teen w that portrait still up there and everything.. bitch...#oh man the way i KNOW when we get to ootp (my favourite) its gonna leave me blasted into a million little pieces #the way i know shit like the knowing wink the entirety of the wall tapestry room scene and of course nice one james is gonna DESTROY me..#dont even talk to me abt that dark turn at the end of gof and how everything after gets soooo. god. w everything just getting destroyed and.#i cant even think abt it i cant even talk about it. wah #i dont care btw that they aged those guys up undermining how insanely young these people died. perfect casting fr the remaining marauders ok

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sunoflegend · 4 months

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i love being obsessed with metalhawk and starscreams dynamic despite the fact it happens so early on in RID and he's barely a character who's there

#THE GRAND SCHEMER. / * OOC . ❞#coughing up blood #its the fact that metalhawks one of the first few people to actually extend like.#not even trust really. but like the benefit of the doubt to starscream #and when all the megatron shit happens #with prowl getting fucking. bodysnatched into a combiner and megatron basically is keeping her hostage #metalhawks the only person who gives a fuck!!#metalhawks the only person coming to get her and hes like oh its because we're close :]#and starscream fucking SHOOTS HIM because like #i dont know how to explain this but #starscream is for sure fucked up for this and its a shitty move im not trying to be like oooh look at my baby #but like shes literally watching her first chance at making something for herself and finally having control over her life be ripped away #from her BY MEGATRON AGAIN and hes MOCKING her for thinking she could ever do this and like #idk what to say i think her killing metalhawk was kinda a trauma response to her situation.#of like oh this guy is in my way to getting power at something since they were against each other in the votes and all #so in this state shes like. i dont care that we're friends hes in my way and kills him #AND THEN AFTER THAT SHE VISITS HIS GRAVE AND SAYS SORRY LITERALLY ALL THE TIME AND IS LIKE. WE WERE FRIENDS IM SO SORRY.#IM LITERALLY ILL ABOUT THEM but its such a nothing thing to give a shit about #anyways that was long. i love starscreams fucked up dynamic with someone she murdered

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arolesbianism · 5 months

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Yet another beautiful day to have the Maxwel tag blocked (can't see half of the posts in the Wendy tags)

#rat rambles #starve posting #maxwell posters have lost any semblance of tolerance from me ages ago Ive yet to meet a maxwell fan who's just like a normal person #and to clarify I actually do like maxwel as I am the number one just some asshole whos in too deep enjoyer #but dear god are ppl just absolutely incapable of being normal abt this man and everyone around him #and even beyond that ppl just do not get this man like please he is indeed interesting but not because of some 'retconed redemption'#like pls we can live in a world where he is not an irridemable monster and is in fact just some guy while also still being a flawed person #like the fact that he is so deeply flawed in ways that he never actually properly adressed and challenged is the interesting thing to me #like look at me. he went through horrible shit he didnt deserve. that didnt inherently make him a better or worse person #it just made him a more miserable person #and he didnt escape because of some change of heart or character development #and afterwards he teamed up with wilson because of necessity #I do think on some level he genuinely cares abt the other survivors and he does have genuine regret for how things turned out #but again those things dont inherently mean he moved past the flaws that got him here it just means he has the ability to recognize that #shit sucks and that he wish none of it happened #its why encore is one of my favorite animations from a character perspective because it shows some juicy charlie and maxwell stuff #mainly it shows both that charlie has not forgiven his ass and is manipulating him and that maxwell is still susceptible to it #which isnt a sigh of them rolling back development it's just a sign that maxwell is easy to manipulate with the right cards #which adds up considering his past and his present very well in my opinion #this is a man whos historically always ran away from his problems and is always on the hunt for a sense of control #and charlie tapped into both that and his ever present guilt #its in fact very unsurprising and not out of place for him to fall for that sort of manipulation #and it also makes for a great set up for the inevitable betrayal from charlie as maxwell is hit by the harsh reality of his situation #and that whole situation would lead to some yummy tasty parallels when charlie inevitably gets betrayed herself (I hope)#the ways charlie and maxwel are so similar yet so different facinates me deeply I love how much charlie doesnt realize shes kinda fucked #I want her to be betrayed so hard and left in the dust with no ground to stand on I want the rug pulled out from under her feet #her composition comes from her confidence in the necessity of her actions and the moral superiority she feels over maxwell #so having her sense of superiority be revoked would make for a super fascinating dynamic as she tries to justify the situation in her head #I wanna see her siral and then maybe change her pronouns idk

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gibbearish · 5 months

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yknow what bugs me is when ppls criticism of YA media boils down to them just not knowing how teenage crushes work

#'bella being depressed because edward wasnt at school is unhealthy obsession' no that's called having a crush #'him asking her out by them hearing a rumor saying theyre dating and bella going 'what should i say' +him responding 'well i guess you could #tell them yes. yknow just because its easier' is lame and boring' are you kidding me i ate that shit up at that age #when two shy awkward people flirt thats how you end up in a relationship is you both kind of just sidle your way up to it #and i dont even feel like that one contributes to like 'things abt him that arent necessarily red flags on their own but as a whole point to #bad things' like. from what i gathered feom the movie bella did not seem like the type to like some big first move #like. shes an emo bruh girl. if it wasnt some sort of edgy teenage heartthrob performance then shed just brush him off like #every other Conventionally Attractive Dude™ falling all over her #ppl keep acting like her not going for every other dude who wants her is a character flaw or bad writing but. like #literally just have you ever met a depressed teenage girl.#shes Not Like Other Girls™ and finds regular guys who express emotions in regular ways boring #her wanting him over every other bland boring safe guy she could have in an instant isnt a plot hole‚ its characterization #also i disagree with the vibe that she's just a blank slate like. as someone who was a depressed teenage girl #she didn't come across as blank to me #she came across as. depressed and emo and trying so very hard to look cool and mysterious at all times and had #spent her life up to that point praying to find out magic was real and could whisk her away into a life of adventure and romance and drama #you look me in the eyes and tell me that girl didn't spend middle school chewing through every book she could get her hands on #as fast as possible.#idk #origibberish

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clits-and-clips · 6 months

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#txt #tw #dont read this and i may delete but i just need to say it #i do think about dying a lot #like i dont want to be here lol #people suck big time #everyone here is so nice and lovely and supportive #but you arent physically near me and i guess thats what i need #idk #and i cant just message randoms with all my personal shit all the time #unless i can? idk #the main reason i wont kms is cause my dad wouldnt be able to handle it hes lost too much #i think hed prolly follow suit #and i cant have that #plus other things like my pets etc #but what is the fucking point lol #i know eventually ill move on etc #but the world sucks man #it sucks #i have a good life but my brain sucks and i ruin everything and no one sticks around and i am just a fucked up friend and partner and i dont #see myself getting better #if i told my psych i think about this id get sent off and i think that would make me worse #i just want the future back that i thought i was going to have #that was ripped away from me without warning #no conversation #nothing #and he gets mad at me when i bring that up??????#yeah its so fair you kicked me out etc but im the bad guy for airing my feelings #fuck everyone tbh haha #im just done

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viosjaan · 6 months

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i don't think you want anything to do with me anymore so i can just vent the texts i want to send to you here

#i am sorry #truly genuinely #ive been trying to justify it to myself that we weren't technically together and you said go kiss other people ill still be here meet your #needs in the way you want #but i think it was #yesterday #this guy flirted with me and i flirted back but then suddenly this wave of disgust and self loathing hit me #like what am i even doing #how could i have done that #you were sitting there thinking we're okay you thought we were still together and im just in a bad mood going thru one of those depressive #episodes you were so understanding when you shouldn't have been because if i say im in love with you i should be there for you every step #of the way.#but you go through so much shit alone and im never there for you or atleast not there for you a lot of times and then i blame you for #liking your bestfriends more like it's so stupid obviously love should be reliable stable #and we were something na. we were everything except the label #i should have told you the moment i started feeling empty and dissatisfied again #but just. this isn't an excuse but like i didn't want to hurt you by bringing up this same fight for the one thousandth time #we agreed that you're not in the position to give more and i agreed to be okay with it and i really was.#but i can't help myself i want to give you everything i hate that feeling that i need to be less love less WANT less. mujhse nahi ho pata #i wasn't lying or pretending to be okay with it i was TRYING my best to be okay with it because i love you and this was the only way to #not lose you forever #now i just want to move on fr and be just friends with you. i can't lose you as a person but i don't know how to make this up to you #i am physically incapable of being in this situationship i want a relationship or a friendship i can't with this in between #which is what i told you in jan. i remember my chest actually feeling heavy with fear bc i was so scared of hurting you and getting hurt #again. jokes on me my worst fears came true all the progress we made by taking space is lost #i don't know if you really deleted my playlist. i tried to listen to more songs from it but they're so. lovely. talking about epic grand #love. which we have. but it's like waving a candy in front of a kid and snatching it away it hurts too much to have all the feelings and #none of the relationship. now that ive talked to some people in the romantic sense i get it #you were my best love my most perfect love there are no flaws there's nothing anyone else can do that can be equal or more to what you did #but idk it isn't meant to be maybe there's no future

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clippy · 1 year

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Hey I am Genuinely having one of the most miserable days in recent memory right now... I know it's a little early in the day for a lot of ppl but if anyone happens to be online I would love if ppl sent me asks or drawing ideas about clockboy and co....

#guys i am so tired. i had a long day at work. i didnt get enough sleep.#i am having a horrendous time trying to build my new bed #my brain is fighting against me so hard right now. i am hungry. i am gross and sweaty from work #but i eat in my room. which i cant move around in. because bed issue.#and dont want to shower yet. because moving furniture shit around will make me gross again #I feel like i need to bang my head against a wall 100 times #like i am. one more inconvenience away from having a meltdown. it's not good yall

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bonetrousledbones · 2 years

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It really weirds me out sometimes with how far the sanscest shipping gets. Like, when they have kids who have kids with the kids of other sanses? why. what is the need. also dont get shipping sanses with sanses.

tbh that is one part i never really got into,, i get the appeal of making fankids bc its fun to explore how that would go and they’re basically OCs so you can go crazy! but on the shipping them together side,,, idk why but anything to do with shipping characters who are minors has always made me a bit uncomfortable. it’s entirely a me problem and i’m fully aware that there’s nothing inherently wrong with it its just!! weird to me idk!!!!!

as for the selfcest bit tbh as a selfcest shipper myself i deadass do not have a goddamn clue what about it appeals to me. i guess its a bit of wanting to see how these two “different” characters would interact with each other? honestly i think if you change up their backgrounds enough you can make it so that while they’re technically the same person, they’re also just as much their own self as if they were different, and yet they can still use their “sameness” as a way to find a deeper understanding in themselves that they might not have seen otherwise. that’s how i do mine anyway!

#trousled rambles #bad opinion zone #selfcest //#(tagging just bc i know it makes some ppl uncomfy)#man i actually do think hiding my followers from myself helped bc this was a Big Thing i was getting anxious over lmao #but to tell the truth i honestly see most of my aus as separate guys that all just happen to also be papyrus if that makes sense #they all have very different experiences and backgrounds that shape who they became in their respective aus #like uhh example- russ grew up in an orphanage with his brother and ran away to live in snowdin forest for ~3 yrs #not interacting with much of the actual townspeople until he got injured and they had no choice but to get help #meanwhile edge lived in snowdin town long enough for grillby to become somewhat of a covert father figure #MEANWHILE fluff lived in new home with rich grandpa gaster for 16 years until he had to move in with karma #they're all the same damn character at the end of the day but can you really call them the same person if they havent lived the same life?#ah shit first bad opinion of the day and i'm rambling about peak fandom bullshit thats just my perspective ok thats all BYEEEEE

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ironmanstan · 1 year

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the dichotomy of man (need to get out of this fuckin house but if i go then i can not see my cats)

#JUST realized this and now i want to kill and explode and throw up #WHAT THE HELL WILL I DO . WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO ABOUT MY FISH ok i can probably take the fish with me #but MAN #thats such a FUCKING HASSLE #ill just stay here this is fine <- tormented by the horrors. ball and chained to familiarity #the gamer speaks uwu #guy who is terminally stressed and sick about change but desperately needs it to live a life #oooo i need to be in a hamster ball everything new can just be out of arms reach and i will be safe and contained forever #no more new experiences and life changes ill cry we should all just die actually so i never have to break out of my shell #sometimes im like im therapized i dont need to go to therapy i am sooo normal and then i say shit like all that n im like nvm #the desperately averse to change braincell is funny like is it the autism. is it the ptsd. probably both #bc i sure did like have a moment of like i should just drop out of school all of this is too much i cant do it anymore #wired in juuust the right way where i can live so much better than i ever have but itll stress me out enough where i still feel the urge #to throw it all away bc it is strange and weird. and then i have to resist that urge constantly bc ill be fully like cidal again if i do th #its so weird actually. oh u have friends? u take meds? u have irls now? strange and unfamiliar and scary get rid of it all <- the insanity #anyway sucks how there isnt a word i can use in place of men/women when im like 'women will x' but for being nonbinary #nonbinary mfs doesnt hit the same . enbies doesnt hit the same either #nonbinaries b like i am free from the horrors and then go down a whole spiral at the very thought of moving out of their nightmare house #vent #i guess oops what did this turn into

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moinsbienquekaworu · 1 year

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We're leaving Saturday morning, I just took basically all of my clothes out of my closet and piled them near my suitcase so we know what I'm taking, and seeing my closet all empty (except for all the stuff I never wear I'm not taking with me) is like. Oh my god I'm leaving and I'm not coming back for months. Every time I leave for holidays I think "oh I should take this and this and this and this juust in case, yeah it's just a week but what if I really need my thick socks in the middle of summer?" before I restrain myself and just take three t-shirts, but now that I have the opportunity to pack literally everything in there, it feels wrong. I should not actually be packing up every piece of clothing I still wear. The clothes that stay at home are proof that I'm coming back, if I take them with me too there's no reason for me to go back!

#which is silly cause i'm not taking everything #it feels a little like that but i'm leaving most of my stuff really #some plushies my books my potteries my desk my pc my bedding some toiletries and probably more #i'm nit actually moving out for real #it's just for a year #and i'm coming back for christmas!#we haven't booked tickets yet or anything cause it's too far away but i have holidays then #and i'm not ready for my first christmas without my parents yet y'know #if i could make reality bend to my whims like i'm the player in the sims controlling the little pixel guys' lives #i would live like 15 minutes away from my parents and all my friends #easy to go even by foot if there's spme kind of emergency (real or just I Need To Eat Candy With My Bestie Right Now)#but still separate #but easy to go for literally anything. birthdays and christmas and my mom's paella and impromptu trilogy marathons #that'd be great #if i were rich i would buy a whole apartment building and i would offer a flat to everyone i like for cheap #and life would be beautiful #anyway. SATURDAY!!!! Saturday Holy Fucking Shit I Am So Stressed And It's Going To Get Worse #wow i have a ramble tag now #england adventures

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