#﹫ abbysvictim

[beforeimdeceased]

CHAOTIC ROOMMATES CAMPING/ROAD TRIP HEADCANONS 🪵🏕️🥞

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‧₊˚🌿✩ ₊˚🪵⊹♡ ellie never fails to forget something important on the trips. she’s always leaving her bug spray, sunscreen, water canister, etc at home somewhere and having to borrow from you or abby.

𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧 abby and ellie argue half the ride. “your music sucks let me play something.” “shut up you’re breathing too loud.” “if you don’t stop this car right now i’m gonna piss in a cup and pour it on you.” (they’re so fun to be around)

°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ abby burns every s’mores she tries to make. it’s actually hilarious because she’ll eat it anyway swearing up and down that the marshmallow is supposed to be charred black.

₊‧ 𖧧 ellie will run off chasing squirrels with a bag of nuts if you don’t watch her closely. “i’m trying to fucking feed you asshole.”

ִ ࣪𖦹 everything is a bear to abby. twig snaps? bear. howling sound from farther away? bear. laughter in the distance? bear. bear. bear. “guys i think there’s a bear.” “go to sleep abby you’re the only bear out here.” — comically loud thwack followed by a yelp.

₊ ⊹₊ ⊹ on roadtrips you all always share a bed, no matter what. you got a room with two beds once and woke up to ellie and abby snuggled in with you, abandoning their other bed.

𖤣𖥧⋆˚˖° ellie is leaving with something. a little souvenir or trinket never hurt anybody. shit gets serious at rest stops and gift shops.

⋆⁺₊⋆ ☀︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆ abby packs books to read while she poops and ellie makes fun of her for it. (ellie has hidden comic books for the exact same reason)

❀*ੈ✩‧₊˚ when you take over driving, ellie and abby play road trip games like they’re olympic sports. abby has a keen eye for license plates but ellie will holler and moo the second she catches a black a white figure in her peripheral. “look abby it’s your cousin!” extremely loud laughter, followed by commotion. you do not take over driving often.

⁺˚⋆ that feeling of being back home after is satisfying. ellie tosses her shit on the living room floor and jumps onto the couch. then she promptly falls asleep 21 seconds later. (how the fuck is that possible?) abby fusses about ellie’s shit being everywhere but ultimately ignores it because her being knocked out gives you guys a chance to enjoy a nice warm bath together.

[ellabsweet]

[ੈ✩] 𝐅𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐎𝐋𝐓 𝐂𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 • 𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐁𝐒

synopsis: in which ellie is your voyeour.

pairing: rockstar!ellie x reader x rockstar!abby

warning: obviously modern au, mentions of sex with afab!reader so minors and men do not interact, multiple part series

authors note: this is just filfthy i’m sorry next one has more actual backstory and way more writing i promise you

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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐍𝐄: 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐎𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐇?

Abby dips her fingers between your thighs, separating your folds with ease before delving into you with little preparation, the curse that leaves your mouth alone making her moan out loud.

“Fuck, you’re so wet” She says and it echoes to you like a taunt, cheeks hot with embarassment you hoped she did not see, too enthralled in the feeling of her hand latching on your cunt, with your whimpers and own drunkenness the blonde gets cocky “Is this how Ellie makes you feel too? You get this fucking drenched for her? Or am I special?”

“Abby” You croak out and she looks at you, blue eyes darkened in a way you haven’t seen before and you are suddenly enveloped by her scent, the tangerine of her perfume mixed with dance sweat and expensive alcohol whatever remnants of sense you had being intoxicated out of you before you crashed your lips against hers.

“Tell me I’m your favorite” She whispers into your mouth shoving her fingers deeper, the smirk on her face like an ad for narcissists though it did not fully hide the insecurity of her plead. You nod frantically into her shoulder while she trailed kisses down your neck, the room temperature getting hotter every inch she moved downwards, passerbys pretending not to see.

“You’re my favorite, Abs” You moan tugging the braid from her hair until her cheek is forced to face your thighs, eyes sparkling up at you with insatiable desire, taking in your features under the dim venue lightning as she unzipped your shorts to make way for her face to slip between your legs effortlessly, a slow lick to your still covered pussy like a promise of something more.

Your eyes barely notice Ellie staring from across the backstage, her lips dancing around the rim of a glass beer cup, fixated on every movement your hips did against Abby’s face, her dirty talk drowned out by the intensity of the other’s stare. She was meant to call on Abigal to hurry the fuck up and tune her own damn bass but this was better, a twisted private show happening between you that inevitably had her biting down her lip. You exaggerated your reactions, a proud Abby not quite noticing the difference, but Ellie did, laughing at you, hypnotized.

“You like this, bunny?” Abby coaxed you out of your thoughts.

“Yes, fuck, Abs, I’m gonna-“

“You done fucking the groupie, Abby? We have a damn show to start” Ellie finally spoke up,so many steps closer than she was before to the point you could smell the booze oozing off of her and lightly dripping down her chin. Abby let go of your grasp ever so slowly, settling you with kisses as she pushed further away, an apology at the tip of her tongue about the life of a rockstar. Ellie punches her in the shoulder for that.

Once she’s out of sight, you grab onto Ellie’s arm, who stares at you quizzically as you lean forward on her touch, and lower your hand to her ass, grabbing hold of a pen in her back jean pocket, a tease.

“Give me an autograph?”

She signs your exposed thigh.

taglist: @abbysvictim @lottiematthewsceo @sadeyedsugar @digit4lslut @r0ckgoblin @machetegirl109 @scatapple @elliesgirlll @madelynie @emothurman comment to be added!

[aphroditesdoll]

faiiry’s fic reccs!

disclaimer: these are mostly nsfw/smut, you’ve been warned. mdni.

characters: abby anderson, shane mccutcheon, ellie willams.

a/n: i think all of these writers are amazing but i’ll rate my top favorites at the bottom! :)

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abby anderson 🐇🍒🍀

- suprise visit by atomicami

- sweeter than candy by elsdolly

- will you let me show you by angels4abby

- loosen up by ourautumn86

- size kink abby by wrtinginblood

- dating bestfriends sister! abby by millersaurora

- bsf! abby anderson by dollyhao

- my kind of love by zombholic

- trash talk by gracieheartspedro

- pregnant w/ abby (can’t remember by who)

- texts w/ doctor! abby by eightstarr

- come over by ourautumn86

- you’re gonna forget she ever existed by sxyiva

- lavender haze by angelkhi

- 30 minutes by ourautumn86

- special snapshot by atomicami

- yes ms anderson by abbysvictim

ellabs & reader 🐇🍒🍀

- vampire! ellie x werewolf! abby by coeurify

- pretty little things by angelkissiies

- ex! ellabs x fem! reader by beforeimdeceased

- nerd! abby gf! ellie x fem! reader by abbyscherry

- ellabs hogwarts au by savannahsdeath

ellie williams 🐇🍒🍀

- 1 million subscriber special by catfern

- try it on by moncherellie (w audios)

- crybaby by beforeimdeceased

- you love it when i play with you by ourautumn86

- god forgive me by baptismbaby

- one of your girls by lovelettersfromluna

- consume by beforeimdeceased

- sweet tooth by beforeimdeceased

shane mccutcheon 🐇

- rich stress by ourautumn86

- puppy love by ourautumn86

my top 3: suprise visit, sweeter than candy, and puppy love!

a/n: WE NEED MORE SHANE!! why is ourautumn86 the only one i see writing her??? i wrote some of these usernames so much they’re saved in my keyboard now. anyway i mainly wrote this so i can go back to my favs! will be updating probably constantly <3

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

February Recap

(X) = Smut

Birthday Girl @hunnylagoon Summary: Jackson’s resident Baker works herself tirelessly to take care of everyone on their birthday and ensure they get something nice to brighten their special day but who is there to take care of her? Warnings: None Special Tag: Angst Ellie Williams

Baby Fever @circe-is-struggling (X) Summary: After seeing the cutest video of a sleepy toddler while on that part of your cycle. Warnings: None Special Tag: Breeding Kink Ellie Williams

Strap and Hair @obsessedduh (X) Summary: You like to pull Jinx hair Warnings: None Special Tag: None Jinx

Please Don't Leave Me Again! @0starwomen0 Summary: You are Jinx toy. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Jinx

Watcher @consciousblogworld (X) Summary: You wanted to wait for her to get off patrol. Warnings: None Special Tag: Voyeurism Abby Anderson

Hers @dungeonpuppykai (X) Summary: After trying to fight it for as long as you could remember, it was in the moment her life dangled between your fingers did you realize that Abby, your captor and perpetrator was also your savior. In her own ugly and twisted way. Warnings: Dub Con, Stockholm Syndrome Special Tag: Dark Abby Anderson

FINAL ACT @abbysvictim (X) Summary: After trying to fight it for as long as you could remember, it was in the moment her life dangled between your fingers did you realize that Abby, your captor and perpetrator was also your savior. In her own ugly and twisted way. Warnings: Dub Con, Stockholm Syndrome Special Tag: Dark

Side Lines @satellitespinner Summary: You've been going to salt witch beach every summer for as long as you can remember, it's home to you. and you wouldn't change that for the world... Warnings: None Special Tag: Mutile Chapter

Helping Hand @obsessedduh (X) Summary: Jinx catching reader masturbating and deciding to offer a helping hand. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Jinx

Strange Fascination @ervotica (X) Summary: They love you Warnings: Non con, Drugging Special Tag: Dark Ellabs

𝐕𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫 @leiswxrld (X) Summary: it’s Valentine’s Day, a special day to spend with your loved ones right but what if a slasher is going around killing only once a year on this special day. Warnings: Non con, Drugs, Murder Special Tag: Dark, Dirty Ellie Williams

Candy @pascals-doll (X) Summary: You and Ellie have a good Valentines Day Warnings: None Special Tag: Sweet Ellie Williams

So Pretty @hybridirl (X) Summary: your dad’s co-worker is sooo cute! you hadn’t seen her in so long! tonight, a dinner is happening with his team! you just have to hurry up and get dressed, because she just caught you nakeyyyy. Warnings: Cheating Special Tag: Age Gap Abby Anderson

Tis The Damn Season @whenlostinthedarkness Summary: You swore you'd never end up in Jackson again unless it was a life or death situation, but when that very thing happens, you find yourself back in the place you used to call home before it was tainted by her Warnings: Angst Special Tag: Mutli Chapter Ellie Williams

SOMETHING UNEXPECTED @sorrowsblogworld (X) Summary: Life seemed average, a repeated cycle you could never seem to get out of. Bland, overused and average. Warnings: Angst Special Tag: None Ellie Williams and Dina

Once More Into The Breach @destructive-path Summary: you take a risk and put your life in hands that always seem to find their way around your neck. Warnings: Blood, Injury Special Tag: Dark Ellie Williams

Nerd @elslvrsworld (X) Summary: Ellie caught the attention of the head cheerleader, who’s always successful in her endeavors. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Ellie Williams

[eightstarr]

actually completely obsessed with doctor!abby she’s the cutest with the periods at the end of each txt

she's a very serious girl but she'll never leave you on read ever!! if you like those texts at all you should definitely check out "yes, ms. anderson" by @abbysvictim if you haven't already! i love that story so so much. if there's anyone who should get credit for pushing the abby texting with perfect punctuation agenda it's bunnie <3

[enretrogue]

𝗝𝗨𝗡𝗘 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟯 𝗙𝗜𝗖 𝗥𝗘𝗖𝗦 (𝟭)

.☘︎ ݁˖ = BLACK/POC WORKS | 23' FIC REC M.LIST

TLOU

ABBY ANDERSON

30 Minutes — @ourautumn86

So Hot You’re Hurting My Feelings — @hope-drunk

Babymama!Abby — @bayasdulce

Boxer!Abby x GF!Reader — @lillysbigwilly

Guiding Light (Lost At Sea) — @heavenbloom

Meeting Abby At A Club — @astro-ellie

At Least I Got You In My Head ⎢ 4 ⎢ 5 ⎢ 6 — @whatwouldsylwrite

Modern!Abby HCs — @darlingmisa

How Abby proposes To You (Modern AU) — @abbysdruidess

Making Out w/ Abby — @millersaurora

Resuscitate — @loaksky

HCs About Married Life With Abby — @abbysdruidess

Handcuffed by Dom!Abby — @millersaurora

Basketball!Abby — @shawtuzi .☘︎ ݁˖

College!Abby HCs — @cowgirlcherrie

Rockstar!Abby — @elsfairy

Dating Abby HCs — @sugarbag

ELLIE WILLIAMS

SFX Artist!Reader x Streamer!Ellie HCs — @elliesmainhoe

One Last Time — @ellieslovergirl

I Win — @bonnevia

If I’m So Special, Why Am I A Secret? ⎢ What’s Mine, You’ll Miss. — @angvlita

Pervy!Neighbor!Els Teaching Innocent!Reader Guitar — @strawberryjamheart

NSFW Alphabet — @hundredandsix

Enemies to Angry Sex — @elliesflwrgirl

Random Ellie Blurb  — @valentinetexas

Babysitting Gig — @lunels

The Hard Way ⎢ Pt. 2 — @totheblood

Western Nights — @lolasimms

Meddle About — @vitentia

ELLABS

3Some — @eroseas

Where The Flowers Bloom ⎢ 2 — @elsfleur

Okay, So. The Jail AU. — @elsweetheart

This Is What Makes Us Girls ⎢ 2 ⎢ 3 ⎢ 4 ⎢ 5 ⎢ 6 — @lolasimms

Reader Fucks Around And Finds Out — @angelanderson

Pool Party — @bellaramslover

Roommate w/ Benefits — @abbysvictim

Welcome to Jackson ⎢ Part Two — @misscaitvi

JOEL MILLER

Iris — @cowgurrrl

Hayloft  — @cowgurrrl

Brooklyn Baby — @cowgurrrl

As It Was — @cowgurrrl

Yo Gotti — @cowgurrrl

Natant — @din-miller

Orange Crush — @tieronecrush

Apothecary ⎢ 9 — @atinylittlepain

For Her ⎢ For Pleasure ⎢ For Protection — @wardenparker + absurdthirst

Good Girl — @valentinetexas

Picture — @softlyspector

Stranger Than A Stranger — @proxima-writes

Cruel — @notjustjavierpena

Fair Grounds For Love — @jobean12-blog

The Darkest Little Paradise — @morning-star-joy

A Wound That Never Heals — @toxic-seduction

DBF!Joel Worshiping Shy!Reader— @inkedells

Dead Weight Part III — @lovers-liability

Too Cold (Platonic)(+ Tommy Miller)— @prentissluvr

Joel x Wife!Reader — @forever-rogue

Like Rabbits Blinded By The Light — @walkintotheriveranddisappear

Heavy Metal Drummer — @cowgurrrl

Enemies to Lovers — @fooled-around-and-fell

Not a Survivalist Girl Part 4 — @chaotic-mystery + tightjeansjavi

Masked Up — @soullumii

Cat Scratch Fever — @soullumii

Pretty Prey — @cavillscurls

Only You, Only Me — @wonwoosthetic

What Never Left Us — @bi-writes

Tennessee Whiskey — @cowgurrrl

Starving — @jrrmint

[bambiesfics]

https://www.tumblr.com/abbysvictim/726507709248258048/nah-toxicellie-is-definitely-the-type-of-mf-to?source=share

This was one of the best headcanons for toxic Ellie I’ve ever read I genuinely love this so much. Bae I wanna write rn so bad I feel so inspired pls 💗

[beforeimdeceased]

NONSENSE

🍦 lookin' at you got me thinkin' nonsense 🍓

pairing: ellie williams x reader

synopsis: celebrating your 2 year anniversary with ellie!

warnings: fingering + strap on sex (r!recieving), ellie’s strap is referred to as her cock (thought it was silly, imagine it purple)

author’s note: i refuse to read this more than once I COULD BARELY EDIT IT IDK also thank u all so much for the recent love u don’t know how much it means to me <3 check out my other stuff on @abbysvictim

tags: @lonelyfooryouonly <3 my wife!

you could only dream of a love as sweet as the one ellie had provided you with these past two years. her heart, a never ending well of love, was placed into your hands the moment she laid eyes on you. she’ll tell the story until it traps her tongue.

dina had invited you to a popup show of hers. your sweet smile was contagious and forever genuine. curved lines in the creases of your mouth after every joke she told. ellie wanted to live in the ridges of those lines. she wanted to breathe your scent in forever. hear you praise her playing until she became proud of it herself.

she was hooked. could barely spit out the words while asking dina for your number.

now it was your anniversary. you and ellie were in the kitchen enjoying strawberries and whipped cream (one of her absolute favorites). she takes some of the cream and places it on your neck, the sticky solid causing you to cringe. you have no time to respond when her lips latch onto the area, sucking softly.

a very low and very desperate moan escapes your lips. she pushes you up against the counter grinding, her crotch into your ass. the motion causes your mouth to fall open and she stuffs two fingers in, pushing them against your tongue.

“you’re so beautiful baby.” she whispers, a hand slipping into the front of your pants from behind. she buries it into your panties, not surprised to find you already wet for her.

she grinds against you once more causing your cunt to collide with her hand. your moan is muffled by her fingers in your mouth and you start to trail drool down her arms.

she loves fucking you, and loves fucking with you even more. lips placing aggressive kisses on your neck while she watches you come undone against her fingers. your vision runs hazy with her pace. she’s curled them so perfectly to hit the spot that makes your soul leave your body. you felt like you might squirt and make a mess of yourself and the kitchen floor.

she’s not done with you when you finish. she never is. quick to lead you and your wobbly legs to the couch, fingers never leaving your mouth. she’s always prepared, cock already latched up and ready to go.

she carefully places you over it, smiling as your eyes travel to the back of your head when you lower yourself. she could almost laugh at how easily she slipped in.

and now she didn’t want you moving a single muscle. it was time for you to just enjoy yourself. her hips bucked up into you at an erratic pace. slow and deep, then she’d speed up, then slow and deep again. she repeated this until she had you screaming, a ring of your slick covering the base of her cock and your cunt leaving a pool of wetness on her boxers.

this was heaven. your precious moans in her ear as the sound of her slamming in and out of your cunt echoed in the room. the sound was giving the both of your butterflies. yeah, you could definitely do two more years of this.

[beforeimdeceased]

⭒ STAY WITH DINA ⭒

“dina’s right.” you say, looking at ellie. “are you sure?” ellie asks with a raised eyebrow. she’s offended by your choice. you nod and she walks off mumbling something nasty under her breath. you ignore it joining dina on the couch.

“that took a lot of will power.” you huff as you lay your head on dina’s shoulder. she just smiles at you. “you’re such a strong girl.”

she places a soft and gentle hand on you cheek, caressing the skin. “i really didn’t wanna come tonight d.” you pout. seeing ellie had left a sour taste in your mouth. she pats your leg. “cmon get up, let’s go talk about this outside.”

she takes your hand and guides you to the back of the house where a rugged bench sat in the grass. save for some guys tripping around the corner, the two of you were alone.

“i just hate her fucking guts.” you cry out. dina can’t wipe your tears fast enough. your mascara starts to run down your cheeks and you feel waves of embarrassment rush over you.

“want me to beat her ass? cause i will.” she takes your hands in hers and squeezes softly. “i hate to see my pretty girl crying. it’s ruining the makeup i did. for you.”

“i’m sorry.” you apologize. she doesn’t say anything for a moment, just looks at your head hanging low, a few tears hitting your lap.

she places her palm under you chin, carefully lifting it up. you look at her, face hot. “god you’re pretty even when you’re crying.” she sighs. you look at each other for a moment, your eyes trailing down to her lips. she notices, and moves her face a bit closer to yours. a smirk finds itself on her lips when you do the same. in your mind, you’re pleading for her to close the distance.

and she does, with a sweet kiss. she pulls away, hand finding it’s way to your cheek. “do you really wanna do this?” she looks at you with soft eyes.

you nod and it’s all she needs to pull you in for another kiss. tangled together, her hands find their way to your hips as she pulls you on top of her thigh. grip tightening when your tongue slips into her mouth.

she breaks the kiss to let it trail down your neck. your tears have dried now, but you feel more starting to come up due to your desperation. she sucks at the skin of your neck and it makes you buck into her thigh. the friction pushing a low moan out of your throat.

“that feel good?” she breaks her mouth from your neck. “yeah.” you say in a broken whisper.

she suddenly pushes her thigh upwards, forcing a rush of friction to pester at your core. your next moan is not low, but damn near a loud growl. eyes going hazy from the feeling being pure ecstasy.

“i’ve always wanted to have you like this.” she smiles. one hand firm on your neck while the other finds itself hiking your dress up and rubbing at the cloth covering your cunt.

“oh, is this all for me?”

[beforeimdeceased]

🗝️ MUSINGS OF THE HEART 🕯️

a slew of love letters are discovered decades later revealing a love affair between a woman and her brother’s wife.

based on the love letters between virginia wolf and vita sackville-west.

to darling,

i hope this letter finds you well. to much dismay i must inform you of the passing of our beloved family pet, charlie. i remember a great deal of our time together in which you enjoyed his company. how is your heart? mine is a slew.

it is not just the passing of charlie, though i do miss him. i must confess i believe i am suffering from a defect of madness. i cannot sleep, your name is glued to the inside of my cheek. i miss you so feverently that i bite until i draw blood.

how are the babies? give them my best.

adorned,

your abagail.

📜

to dear,

i’m most sorrowed to hear of the passing of our beloved charlie. he was most admired in my heart as a force to be reckoned with. missing one eye and a limp in one leg but he never let it stop him.

i wish most ardently that you did not have to wait until the second paragraph to devote your love to me. i wish it was splattered in ink on all of my perfect and prestigious dresses. you have ruined my white gown with your bloody love. i couldn’t ask for a better person to destroy me.

i cannot speak much of life here with manuel. he is kind and noble, you know this, but is most certainly not you. i miss our passionately paced — loosely placed kisses in the […] but most of all, i miss your eyes.

you are a craving i simply cannot get rid of. we are visiting the farm in a month, prepare for me.

forever,

your y/n

📜

✑

a stolen glace is much too subtle for abby, she has to stare at you head on. you’re left agast, drinking in her shamelessness.

it doesn’t take another stern stare down to tell you that abby wants to talk to you. you’ve already excused yourself to a far corner of the house, cursing yourself at your impoliteness. doesn’t every hosts wife want to escape the party? it isn’t exactly an honorable soirée, there isn’t much cheese left to pair with grapes and wine.

speaking of wine, your drunken whines echo against the walls of the coat closet you find yourself pushed into. abby wasted no time, a lustrous tone darkening the sweet things she was saying.

“i missed you.” had translated to “i know you haven’t been touched in forever.”

and “you’re beautiful.” had found itself becoming “you’re intoxicating” on her hungry lips. there was no other place you’d want to be right now.

tangled in a web of ecstasy, your body anticipating her touch. every second mattered. if you did not have her right then and there, you’d grow ill from wanting.

and of course, just as her lips are trailing sweet kisses down your neck, your name is called down the hall.

[beforeimdeceased]

SWEET TOOTH - sugar 🥥🍨

* 𓇼🫧. ° synopsis: a follow from a cute stranger on the internet upends your life in ways you never expected.

*🎐 ೃ ༄.° authors note: first part! so exciting. please like & comment and tell me all ur opinions about it so far!

꒰ 🥥 ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟmasterlist

[beforeimdeceased]

SWEET TOOTH — 🦷 characters *ੈ✩‧₊˚🐋

⋆｡𖦹 ° synopsis: a follow from a cute stranger on the internet upends your life in ways you never expected.

⋆.🐚⋆❀˖° authors note: my first smau! ngl idk how these things work. anyways…i hope you like their igs. if u see any mistakes just blink real hard twice and pretend they went away. completely inspired by the wonderful and genius works of @totheblood @phantombriide & @cowgirlcherrie !

꒰ 🥥 ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟmasterlist

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟

[beforeimdeceased]

SNOW ANGEL

i'll angel in the snow until i'm worthy ❄️

🌨️ but if it kills me i tried

if it kills me ⛸️

pairing: ex!ellie x reader

synopsis: ellie shows up at your door in the dead of winter, years after your break up.

warnings: su!cide attempt, alluding to alcohol addiction, no comfort and no happy ending.

authors note: this is short! i’m on my period rn and i am honestly so devastated for absolutely no reason so i decided to write about it. loosely (completely) based on my very sad experience with an ex. if any of you beautiful people need someone to talk to i am always here. i’m always an option.

you’re everywhere. at the bottom of the bottle, at the bottom of the glass. ellie couldn’t shake you. not even in the winter under the warmth of other girls. that’s why she was knocking at your door tonight. for the first time in months.

well not really. she’s always almost about to knock. almost did last week until she heard you laughing with friends. almost two weeks ago until she heard your drunkenly stumbling around, kissing some girl. always almost, almost always.

but tonight she couldn’t help herself. knuckles burning from the cold outside, she knocks three times. it takes you ten seconds to anwser. she counted while drawing shapes in the snow on your porch railing.

“ellie?” you barely breathe. too much floods your mind at once. a kiss on your neck, flowers on the first date, her smile. her laugh, god you hadn’t heard that in forever.

“come in, you must be freezing.”

do you offer her soup or tea? or maybe the warmth of your heart? the remains of your love laying flat on your bathroom floor? that night, the knife. the pills, the whiskey.

who tries to kill themself with their mother’s switchblade?

“i’ll take the tea thank you.” she blows into her cupped palms, shivering. she looks awful but not drunk. just battling a thought. probably the one telling her to get the hell out of there.

“how’ve you been?” you ask. you’re trying to be polite but it’s fucked to act like you don’t have eyes. even after all these years, she’s still torn. guilt ripping at her from the inside.

“i’ve been pretty good, got a job fixing cars. taking some classes downtown.” she shrugs, looking down at her feet anxiously. she leans onto her left leg, twisting the right in the air slightly.

you sigh. something close to but not quite relief washing over your body. at least she’s busy? you can’t look at her. everytime you see her face you want to break into a slew of tears. hold her, hit her, blame her, apologize. why’d you invite her in again?

“i don’t think i ever said um…” she starts. the tea is screaming on the stovetop. “wait, hold that thought.” you flash a small smile and rush to grab it. she wishes you wouldn’t have. would she have the courage to finish what she was saying when you came back?

the anwser is no. you returned to an empty space in your front entrance. cold air flush from the door. all you want to do is throw the cup at the wall and watch it break into a million pieces. maybe it’ll help the anger. maybe it will mend the tears in your heart. maybe it’ll ease your own guilt, your own ache.

you didn’t understand. she was so happy that week before. you were going to a dinosaur exhibit for her birthday that friday. she was visiting joel’s grave everyday. she was drawing so many pictures of you and the house. you saw her ring shopping online.

what could you have done? how could you have known? could you have known?

[beforeimdeceased]

dina definitely manages to talk you into getting a tattoo for her, like her name on your hip or something. insists on cleaning it up for you herself and once it's healed she bites into it every time she goes down on you (also has at least 50 pictures of it on her phone don't ask why. they're all very different and equally important!!)

this is so hot jesus christ. you just know she was so damn excited when you got into that chair, jumping up and down. at first she’d want you to get a big one of her face on your cheek and you’re like “dina. stop.” so she settles for her name in cursive on your hip and it’s so so so cute!

she’ll run her hands over the bruised skin gently, place kisses all over it. continuously chanting “all mine.” over and over with the biggest smile on her face. damn dina i wanna belong to you too :(

[beforeimdeceased]

SWEET TOOTH — sweet tooth 🦷

ੈ✩‧₊˚🦈 synopsis: a follow from a cute stranger on the internet upends your life in ways you never expected.

☾⋆｡ 𖦹 °✩ 🐚 author's note: the end! what do you guys think? ik it’s not very good pls spare me 😞

🛥️ taglist: infinite kisses to @castasplla @machetegirl109 @theganymedes @noviee @peejayurple

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[beforeimdeceased]

ACKSUALLY UM just posted kinda nervous cause it’s something i’ve never done before 😭 so guys lemme know what u think of house of balloons! also my asks r empty that’s gotta be illegal in at least 7 states? blow it up! i don’t mind…maybe even ask me which hob option is my favorite and i’ll give u a treat 🍭🍩🍪🧁🍦