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burger-goblin · 12 days

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#still unmedicated #my temper is very short #seen a lot of stuff today about the horrible terrible things happening all over the world #and had a genuine thought that stopped me in my tracks #'i'll just kill myself and start over'#like with all sincerity and not in an ironic way. i wanted to kms and not have to be a part of this world anymore #this awful cruel and unfair world that i hate so. so much #my 3 friends and tough boy and you all are the thread that's keeping me together rn fr #trying not to dig too deeply into why i want to kms while i'm unmedicated because it will do more harm than good #but man #idk. send me pics of your animals or something

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kingprinceleo · 6 months

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Oh fuck me fuckme fuck me

#I'm going to start killing people #I need SLEEPY TYLENOL NOWWWWWWW #Mfer laying in bed for 8 hours full awake 🫠 eyes shut. Brain. ACTIVE #IM TRYING SO HARD TO SLEEP JUST BE UNCONSCIOUS #Too late now #Fuck me I have to be aware enough to not kill everybody in this vehicle #Mfing murder nightmare too what the fuck #Set the scene: YouTuber wedding #The man in charge of filming is an asshole to the minimum wage people working there #Like real mean. And one meek guy tries to tell the groom but the groom is kinda a dismissive asshole about it bc he's already paid the guy #So it's too late now. Meek guy keeps getting disrespected and storms out to the parking lot to just leave #Woman who has been witnessing this apparently is gonna kill on meek guys behalf. He does not want this #Woman gets into a fucked up death machine car and drives it into the groom #But not like. Runs him over. There's a fucking saw blade on the front that starts cutting through the bottom of his torso #He was screaming a lot. I'm not sure if he survived or not. But the atmosphere was not fun #Very muddy desaturated colors. Very wet and musty feeling. It was like almost a parking garage #I don't think I'll ever have a dream as scary as the um time-looping cannibal beach dream #But this was just the delightful cherry of not being able to sleep at fucking. ALL .#Literally cried I'm so distressed about not being able to control anything about myself rn #Hhhhh :(((#3rd night in a row I've slept like shit

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mattodore · 9 months

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all of the new poses i made for theo and matthias work in game and look sooo sexy but i hadn’t considered the ramifications of what seeing them in these poses would do to me….

#river dipping #the one with theo standing over matthias while he's on the floor..................................... i should kill myself #i made one that's very putting the dog to sleep edit adjacent too :3c might have to do v2 of it #did i save the psd for it? ............probably not kdnhknfgh #anyway all together i think there are six or seven poses #i just want to screenshot them in game and post them immediately #like i always wanna share everything right away bc i just. love them so much i wanna post everything no matter what kdnjhk #but i was serious i do wanna watch more editing tutorials first #i don't think i'll make edits from all of these tho... so i might post screenshots of one or two of them... idk. we'll see.#also hi <3 i did manage to get some sleep!!! since then i've just been reading watching jerma stream and doing this #but okay... back to the sims #thinking about popping into cas for this ask i got earlier tho so i might come back later #ALSO..... i really need to figure out how to make my preset less dark bc the difference between my desktop monitor and my phone and laptop #is pretty crazy... like it looks perfect on my desktop but on other screens the contrast i think is just waaaaay too high #anyway. i'm leaving i'm leaving no need to start batting me with a broom i'm goingggg

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spocks-kaathyra · 4 months

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might switch to a bio major. what if I kill myself

#please humanities is so easy............. do I really want to go into medicine that badly.................#linguistics is like ok here's the 6 courses u have to take and they're all fun and u don't get any homework :))#biology is like TAKE THESE 40 COURSES CONCURRENTLY ALL OF THEM HAVE 8 PREREQS. IF U DIDN'T START LAST YEAR THEN UR TOO LATE. KILL URSELF #I might as well kill myself right now it'd be the same outcome just quicker #sorry. it's literally not that serious I'll take some courses over the summer. life is hard suck it up #narcissus's echoes

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keeps-ache · 12 days

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DARN, missed it again! 2nd anniversary of being a they/themer :D

#just me hi #i should cue a post for next year cuz i just Keep missing it hfhsv #cool though!! two years of queer yeah babyyy #i now have it/its but they/them was where i started hehe :>#i've considered neos but you know i think they'd be a bit much for me lol #character customization Truly #//i am NOT missing this blog's birthday. proooollyyyy hghfsh #these aren't such huge things but i like to know things have happened hfsh :3 #these are two things i really only celebrate on here so i've just Gotta say it :33 #//anyway i've been listening to the radio a lot (did i say that? i think i told you that some weeks ago lmao) and it's Funnn (mostlyyy) :D #yes they play the same 15 songs over and over and i'm starting to learn all the words to even the most unremarkable ones but that's part of #the Fun :DD #been listening to it because once in a while they play a song i already have in my playlist (yayy !!) or a song that i like (which then goe #in the Playlist (yayy !!)) that and it supplies a background track to whatever i'm talking about with my siblings which is funny at times #/imagine. you've slipped up. a secret of another's you were never supposed to know was mentioned by accident. so instead of #trying to excuse yourself from guilt you admit to knowing even More. the person you're speaking to is betrayed confused and overall upset.#and you're trying to get in contact with a ghost to give you pointers. it's not great. in the background Lovin On Me is playing #that's how our games have been going hfhsvhf #/i let them play in the plots of my stories sometimes and it's So Ridiculous Dude #i've had to ban specific organs from their characters because they were being wretched little beings. it Was funny though i'll not deny hfh #they've tormented shye + weirded out oath + killed and been killed many times #there were a couple times i saw genuine horror on their faces and i am living on that i'm ngl hfhsvbhs #like the horse thing! it would take a sec to explain so i won't go into it but oh i hurt myself laughing Lolll (it was dark but it was stil #funny hfbvs)#//OH i've gtg now lol --#ciao ciao see you somewhere later from now !! :D

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frankreynoldsstan69 · 9 months

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'why must we fight'

because fuck around and find out bro anyways I started blasting

#ill never get over when i had this blog in 2019 and #was told to kill myself for pointing out how fucked up the dee day kiss was #i was deep in those trenches back in the day #and cannot BELIEVE they are still trenches #that people are in #dont get me started on the way people still worship rcgm #and often say any criticism of MG is just sexism #because then i'll really start blasting #like y'all are REALLY not immune to propaganda #and I mean just in general I really don't think Dee day deserves the respect of taking anything from it #like. That episode is so deeply deeply fucked. like why are we even referencing it as a part of sunnys cannon

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cowardlycowboys · 8 months

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over emotional older sisters and their confused younger brothers who have to deal with them

#omg kiera no one cares #this is about mykah and then also about me because like you cant have a post about mykah with it including me #it really sucks to like watch a kid just live your life really #like hey man it really doesn't get better!!!! I'm sorry!!! at least your parents got divorced tho i told my mom I'd kill myself if she left #i was your age too so like i get it!! hate to tell you this tho but it mostly gets worse and he doesn't really get better unless he goes on #a lot a lot of drugs!#she just started crying this morning and was like I'm just being over emotional like wow I've said that too all the time at that age #mykah is sooo kieracoded and that's why she hates when i tell her anything #we butt heads because she's me<33 #I've been thinking about this all day and i just cried lol so #i hope she isn't as bad as me tho because i stood in the kitchen with a knife to me when my mom got divorce INFORMATION #like dubi I'll do it you leave him I'll do it i don't care that he's sooo mean and violent I'll end everything right now at 6½ #forgot i did that until just now but wow great times<33 #can laugh about it now hahahaha

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upperranktwo · 6 months

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It's 6:30 and I haven't slept at all, from what I recall, I've almost been awake for 24 hours. I can't keep doing this (have been like this for years) I need to see a doctor about my unhealthy sleeping at some point lmao (will not see a doctor)